Books On Child Abuse 1

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Last Updated 2014 Sept 22

Apologies for not keeping this up to date, I have been a bit slack in write ups.

Over the past months I have read these books. All of them moved me and I would recommend any of them. Many of the descriptions/reviews are not my own, they have been found on the net, but if I have time I will start doing some notes on them myself. If anyone would like to recommend any books or do any reviews I would love to add them to the blog. They are in no particular order.

I will now add the latest books to the top of the list to make things easier for me and any readers who keep coming back. I am continually adding to this.

As the page is getting full I will start a new page after the review [36]. When I start it I will place a link here. Books on child Abuse 2>

[36] Access Denied. For reasons of national security. Cathy O’Brien and Mark Phillips. ISBN 9 780966 016536

Another mindblowing book from Cathy O’Brien about mind control [see description below of previous book Trance Formation of America]. This time book is written for the reader instead of adapted from material for the authorities. Cathy had been used by the CIA as part of their mind control programme on multigenerational child abuse victims. They used her as a sex slave to George Bush Senior, Reagan and Cheney as well as messenger for secret messages in  deals such as the arms to Iraq scandal.

Dissociative Identity Disorder can be caused by horrific experiences, especially when young and victims may have no idea they are dissociating. I certainly learnt a great deal from this book. I would recommend it. However the most important lesson from the book, if true is the following.

When talking to a group of therapists Mark (who deprogrammed Cathy and helped her heal from the most extreme abuse imaginable) was asked “We know mind control is the primary weapon system for ushering in the New World Order. How can we treat the survivors filling our offices?”

Mark, who deprogrammed Cathy said. “Its not what is remembered that is important, it’s how it is remembered that counts. Content is irrelevant until after a survivor heals. Then it is up to them to choose what to do with their knowledge. Your job is simple. You don’t have to be an investigator, a lawyer, a judge or a jury. All you need to do is provide them with the tools of healing and help them deal with reality along the way. ”

“it can be [horrible] if dealt with emotionally, if it is dealt with logically, then the emotionally incomprehensible becomes comprehensible and healing occurs. Reality becomes easy to deal with. Encourage your clients to write out their memory. The very act of moving the pen requires the logic of the the brain, shifting compartmentalised memory over to logic as it is written out. This way a victim need not suffer abreaction by reliving their experience and re-traumatising themselves. ”

If this is indeed true then victims should write their experience down, and not talk about it at first. Then the different side of the brain deals with it and the recovery is made easier and with less emotion attached.

www.AccessDeniedBook.com [13]

[35] In Plain Sight The Life and Lies of Jimmy Savile 2014 Dan Davies Hardback ISBN 978 1 78206 743 6 , paperback and ebook different isbn

Probably the definitive book about Jimmy Savile at the moment. Dan had the sense of something menacing about Savile since he had excitedly attended the filming of a Jim’ll Fix It in 1980 and left disturbed.  Some years later he accidentally saw Saviles autobiography “As it Happens” which set the spark for Dan to collect odd Savile pronouncements.

Then in 2004 Dan was working for magazine “Jack” in Scarborough and so began the first of his many interviews with Savile until a few months before he died.

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The book follows Saviles life of child abuse and also explains the events leading to the BBC documentary being pulled, then ITV doing the programme with Mark Williams -Thomas.

It takes you through the times Savile was nearly exposed, the knighthood which Thatcher had been pressing for for years, Saviles strategy to avoid detection. The book explains his relationship with the royals, the various hospitals, his relationship with the paedophile Jaconelli in Scarborough and it follows him after his death to the cover up Police Forces and with North Yorkshire Police farce claiming that there was no North Yorkshire connection  to Savile and the latest on the exposure of the cover up by Tim Hicks and Nigel Ward of Real Whitby and now North Yorkshire Enquirer.

Savile was worth £7.8 million when he died. £4.3M in bank accounts, £2.5M in property an further £1M in assets. He placed  £600,000 in a trust for 6 people and the rest was to go to the Jimmy Savile Charitable Trust. This saga is still ongoing with lawyers and Nat West accused of taking too much money, but that is another story not in the book. [12]

If you want to know about Savile, quite simply this is the best to try and understand him. Thank you Dan Davies.

[34] Heartless Too An Autobiography by Janella 2014 ISBN 978 0 9554533 1 1

[For an update on this post please see [Heartless update] ]

Heartless [see a previous review] is now substantially revised and updated to 2o14.  I particularly admired Janella for typing, printing and binding the previous ones herself, but this one is much more professional, expanded and reworded. Janella never shows herself feeling sorry for herself, despite the sexual abuse and 34 years of institutions.

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She is able to give a rare insight into this hidden aspect of her life in mostly special hospitals, Broadmoor and Rampton. The story is fascinating although at times disturbing but always moves at fast pace and is difficult to put down.

Janella was one of the very first people to bravely write in 1998 about Jimmy Saviles proclivities and ha previously told reporters. However since the bullying paedophile with his network of enablers has died, she is now free to mention her own sexual assault by him directly. Once he brought his mother and even Rolf Harris.

Her story shows how particularly hard it is to survive when immediately released.

First abused by her father the MP, Ralph Bonner Pink 1912-1984, Janella strongly  suspects her adoptive parents, mother Marguerite (Rita) Nora Banner Pink nee Martin and father manipulated her sexual abuse as well as definitely her incarceration in institutions.  Ralph attended Oundle School,  He was Conservative MP for Portsmouth South from the sixties to the eighties.  Janella knows paedophiles Freddie Emery Wallis (convicted), Peter Prosser who was never caught and is suspicious of Sir Joslyn Lucas as well as an unnamed MP who has been accused of child abuse in 2014 who she knew in 1966.

Jannella has now changed gender, but there is almost nothing in the book on this, as rightly Steven decides that his gender change does not define him. Steven I salute you.

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[33] The Man behind the Smile. Tony Blair and the Politics of Perversion 1996 by Leo Abse ISBN 1 86105 078

I do not normally summarise the background reading books I read, which includes many  biographies and autobiographies, hoping to understand more of the political situation at the time of historical abuse, or a nugget indiscretion about paedophilia in high places.

I make an exception for this, which I bought both to find out about Leo Abse and Tony Blair. Tony Blair is reputed to have opportuned young men in toilets under the name Charles Lynton, and there have been whispers about Leo Abse in this direction. Seeing the title I thought it could be worth a read – and it was.

Leo Abse was about 80 when he wrote this book, an ex old Labour MP, who has written several psychobabble books (his term) . This one was about Blair before he became Prime Minister. Leo comes across as arrogant but intelligent and likes to impress with his psychological analysis. It was interesting and often accurate into the future.

However the books also say something about the author Leo Abse, as well. At the end of his life perhaps this was part confessional. I will certainly read certain chapters on sexuality again and I have ordered more of Leos psychobabble books. Any information about Leo will be treated in confidence.

[33] A kind of Hush Richard A Johnson Published 1999 ISBN 1 86105 249 9

I never like to read a book after seeing the film, but in this case, I learned about the book from the film so had no choice. However I think the film did justice to the book. I wish Richard would publish online his 10 page introduction to the book giving his reasons for writing this fiction book, each character based on a part of him who had grown up in Islington. Having had a father who abused him sexually his anger remains but he uses that in his adulthood to help others abused.

However the system stopped him, accused him of blackmailing a paedophile and he has to stop helping others. Anyhow he uses his emotions and experiences to create this book with a gang of abused lads taking revenge on abusers and on a “special” they get their own abusers. I could not put it down. Also look up the film,  A Kind of Hush [11  (though Richard wanted to call it Getting Even)

[32] Johnny Go Home Michael Deakin and John Willis Published 1976 ISBN 0 8600 7339 4 Quartet Books and Futura Publications

The book starts with four chapters each dedicated to a different runaway child, where they came from, what they ran away from, where they ended up and what they got up to when they reached London.

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When will they meet up I thought? But then then book changes tack. It moves quickly onto Roger Gleaves – the Bishop of Medway.  The Bishop is doing a wonderful job. He spends his own time helping young runaways off the streets.  He takes the vulnerable children away from the stations at night and looks after them with his Charity and network of hostels.

Once in the hostels, the children get a bed for the night, often get a new identity, with new id card provided.

They soon learn the cost. Many hostels are squats, with cooking facilities and toilets almost non existent. Insufficient food. They need to earn money for probably the first time.

The hostels are full of violence, thieving and prostitution. The Bishop however takes his share like a 1970s Fagin.  He gets his money from the Social Security for each the residents. The establishment has bought into the facade of fastidious paperwork, registered Charities Bishops garb.

The childrens “saviour” wants them for the money he can get for them and for sex. And he is violent. What is the lesser of several evils?

Enraged by a warden leaving with some of his money, Johnnie “Two-Tone” knows where he went. He ends up killed. The killers get life. The Bishop only gets 4 years.

This is “non fiction”. Where are the children? Over 30,000 children arrive in London each year and end up living and “working” in disgusting conditions, the easy victims of violence, crime and perversion. What are the lessons to be learned?

The book was not the main project. It was an afterthought. It was published a year after the BAFTA award winning 2 hour documentary of the same name. That is the real story of Johnny Go Home.

Coming Soon Perils around Piccadilly Part 2 The Johnny Go Home Story

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Please note that victims of abuse may be triggered by reading this information. The Sanctuary for the Abused [A] has advice on how to prevent triggers.  National Association for People Abused in Childhood [B] has a freephone helpline and has links to local support groups. Other useful sites are One in Four [C] and Havoca [D]. Useful post on triggers [E] from SurvivorsJustice [F] blog.

Links and References

[1] Johnny Go Home Book Michael Deakin and John Willis Published 1976 ISBN 0 8600 7339 4 Quartet Books and Futura Publications

[3] Perils around Piccadilly Part 2 The Johnny Go Home Story coming soon

[31] Trance Formation of America Cathy O’Brien and Mark Phillips ISBN 0 96601 65 4 8

Cathy O’Briens father substituted his penis for her mothers nipple soon after she was born. This trauma caused part of her brain to dissociate and develop into a personality intent on pleasing her father sexually.   He subjected her to prostitution to friends, mobsters, Masons, Satanists amongst others, forced her to commit bestiality and worked her relentlessly. She was from a multigenerational incest abused family and developed multiple personality disorder (now Dissociative Identity Disorder) – a personality for pornography, one for bestiality, one for her mothers psychological abuse, one for prostitution and a “normal ” school personality.

Her father was caught sending child porn through the mail and to avoid charges sold her into the CIA’s mind control operation MK Ultra Project Monarch. This ramped up the abuse. She was made to read The Wizard of Oz, Alice in Wonderland, Cinderella and Disney Classics and these books along with with Christian imagery and texts were then used to programme her to perform tasks when trigger words from these were used. Senator Byrd became her owner and controller and she was subjected to the most violent sexual ordeals and the ability to cope by behaviour modification.

At the time much of the programming went under the cover of the Country music scene, and Alex Houston became her handler and husband, who ensured she travelled to the right places to carry out her work. Kris Kristopherson is named as a project Monarch slave runner and Colonel Michael Aquino as a programmer. Swiss Villa and Mount Shasta amongst the programming bases

She became slave to Vice President George Bush Senior, President Reagan, Dick Cheney  and President Ford amongst others. Her duties were sexual and a carrier of messages to  President Noriega of Panama, President Ortega of Nicaragua, King Fahd of Saudi Arabia and others.  She helped instigate North American Free Trade Agreement (NAFTA) designed to help implement Hitlers New World Order, as well as the Iran Contra drugs for arms deals. She also was used to sexually blackmail people at Bohemian Grove.

The messages were programmed into parts of her brain and retrieved with appropriate hand signals and key words. By this stage she was subjected to routine use of high voltage prods both external and vaginal and was even programmed to carry these out herself. She was also subject to live hunting by Cheney and others, and threats made against her daughter who was also forced into Project Monarch but with even more sophisticated “harmonic” programming and a death programme to kill her from asthma if she ever revealed anything.

Due to be filmed in a snuff video to silence her forever at aged 30, in case her programming broke, Cathy was rescued by ex CIA sub contractor Mark Phillips who deprogrammed her. However her daughter is still kept in Project Monarch by the powerful criminal cartel who have taken over America and run global drugs industry

This is essential reading for understanding how the “elite” use children as slaves, why children are globally trafficked and why the official agencies are subverted to serve the criminals perverted ends.

website http://www.trance-formation.com/      www.AccessDeniedBook.com 

Cathy O’Briens Transformation of America http://ia600502.us.archive.org/10/items/TranceformationOfAmerica/tranceformation_america.pdf

I will update this soon to make it better

[30] Hackney Child by Hope Daniels and Morag Livingstone ISBN 978 1 47112 983 4

Born the eldest of 3 children to 2 alcoholics who took  little interest in them, Hope and her siblings were regularly cold and starving and given little or no love or affection. One night the neighbours, fed up of Hopes prostitute mother, threw bricks and missiles at the windows of their flat. With the children home alone and terrified Hope eventually had had enough.

Next day the 9 year old took the children into Stoke Newington Police Station and asked to be looked after. Despite the mental cruelty of being blamed by her parents for the children being taken away, they were better off at a childrens home called Chesterfields, where they at least were fed and clothed, received some love and Christmas presents.

However changes of staff, not being consulted on their future, or being consulted then being ignored led to Hope absconding many times which led to being put in the more severe Midrange Lodge and then Calakow House.

Now with a loving husband and the child conceived originally to get her out of care now 18, Hope has broken the cycle of abuse and has beaten the odds of her harsh upbringing. A story of Hope defeating adversity, and an inspiration to many. Well worth the read. Love and best wishes to Hope with her details below.

https://www.facebook.com/hackneychild        email hackneychild@gmail.com

There is also a sequel Tainted Love by Hope Daniels and Morag Livingstone

[29] Sybil by Flora Rheta Schreiber  ISBN-10: 0446550124

Intrigued first by “A Fractured Mind”(see below)  I have now read Sybil, the first widely known case of Mutiple Personality in the early 1970s, featuring in a 1976 film of the same name by Sally Field. In contrast to Robert Oxnams book this one is written by a third party to the psychoanalyist and the subject and thus is more objective.

Sybil,a pseudonym, in reality Shirley Ardell Mason  born in 1923 in Minnesota was physically and sexually abused by her mother from birth. This set the scene for dissociation and formation of 16 personalities.

An equally fascinating book, but from a different angle, we learn less about the interaction between the 14 girls and 2 boys, but more verbatim from tape recording from alters and analyst. Most were artists to some degree, each with their own style and degree of competence.

Forced to be a pioneer in the field of multiples, when therapy was temporarily proving difficult Dr Cornelia Wilbur treated Sybil reluctantly with sodium pentothal for a year and later with hypnotism.  Interestingly hypnosis was used to equal the ages of all the alters which up from 3 the youngest to 37 the oldest. This enabled integration to occur amongst the more similarly mature alters.

Although it took many years all the personalities were integrated by the age of 43 , therapy having started over twenty years previously and from this account Sybil afterwards functioned as highly functioned individual.

All in all a fascinating book to which this summary does not do justice.

[28] A Fractured Mind. My life with Multiple Personality Disorder. Robert B Oxnam ISBN 9781904132905

This is an amazing book. I have tried to understand Multiple Personality Disorder ( now called Dissociative Identity Disorder) from a couple of other books which give many short examples and never  managed it. However my understanding has leapt forward with this book – written from the point of view of many of the 11 different personalities in Robert B Oxnam.

Bob was in high powered jobs and had no idea he had multiple personality caused by child abuse, until he went to a therapist for his alcoholism and the therapist told him his hour was up when he thought he had only just got there.

The book takes you through all the different personalities, (Bob, Robert, Bobby, the Witch, Wanda, Eyes, Robbey, Tommy, Baby, the librarian being most) whereabouts each of them live in the Castle (of personalities), which of them manifest as external personalities, which are dominant and when, and which reside within the individual. It details who speaks to who, why it happened and the extraordinary journey he travels in understanding and reconciling the personalities to down to just 3 who actually discuss together to work out the best way forward for the sole. The book also has insightful input from his therapist.

His journey is essentially about bringing down the walls of the rooms in the castle and blending the personalities into a better functioning whole.

Definitely worth reading.

[27] Whistleblowing in the Social Services Public Accountability and Professional Practice Edited by Geoffrey Hunt

to come

[26] I Never Told Anyone Writings by Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse Edited by Ellen Bass and Louise Thornton

to come

[25] Battered  The Abuse of Children  Margaret Jay and Sally Doganis

to come

Beaten by her mother and whipped by her stepfather, Emily eventually finds her way into the care system at the age of twelve, and has an abortion after being gang-raped at thirteen. Continuously abused in a sequence of homes, she runs away at sixteen, becomes a prostitute in Soho, and convinces herself she is being punished for killing her baby. But it was never meant to be like that. Adopted at birth in 1956 by a middle-class family, Emily shared a golden childhood with her adopted sister Amy, attending private schools, and enjoying singing and dancing lessons. Things soon changed when Emily’s jealous mother came to regard her as a rival. A bored and restless woman, she beat Emily for the first time when she was seven years old and from then on seemed to become addicted to inflicting pain on her daughter.
Despite Emily’s father’s attempts to protect her, the parental rows grew more malicious, until the mother moved out and remarried a narcissistic widower with alcohol problems and a vicious, bullying temper. The abuse intensified until Emily was placed into voluntary care. And so began a toxic spiral of remand homes, psychiatric hospitals, and sleeping rough. It wasn’t long before Emily became a teenage ‘working girl’, where she was paid to engage in bizarre sadomasochistic acts for perverted clients, including a senior judge and a policeman. It was only when she was almost murdered that she turned her life around. Set principally between 1966 and 1972, Runaway captures the sleazy Soho of the period, and the frightening conditions in which many children were kept in care. – See more at: http://books.simonandschuster.co.uk/Runaway/Emily-MacKenzie/9781471115257#sthash.RYsR3oGA.dpuf
Beaten by her mother and whipped by her stepfather, Emily eventually finds her way into the care system at the age of twelve, and has an abortion after being gang-raped at thirteen. Continuously abused in a sequence of homes, she runs away at sixteen, becomes a prostitute in Soho, and convinces herself she is being punished for killing her baby. But it was never meant to be like that. Adopted at birth in 1956 by a middle-class family, Emily shared a golden childhood with her adopted sister Amy, attending private schools, and enjoying singing and dancing lessons. Things soon changed when Emily’s jealous mother came to regard her as a rival. A bored and restless woman, she beat Emily for the first time when she was seven years old and from then on seemed to become addicted to inflicting pain on her daughter.
Despite Emily’s father’s attempts to protect her, the parental rows grew more malicious, until the mother moved out and remarried a narcissistic widower with alcohol problems and a vicious, bullying temper. The abuse intensified until Emily was placed into voluntary care. And so began a toxic spiral of remand homes, psychiatric hospitals, and sleeping rough. It wasn’t long before Emily became a teenage ‘working girl’, where she was paid to engage in bizarre sadomasochistic acts for perverted clients, including a senior judge and a policeman. It was only when she was almost murdered that she turned her life around. Set principally between 1966 and 1972, Runaway captures the sleazy Soho of the period, and the frightening conditions in which many children were kept in care. – See more at: http://books.simonandschuster.co.uk/Runaway/Emily-MacKenzie/9781471115257#sthash.RYsR3oGA.dpuf
Beaten by her mother and whipped by her stepfather, Emily eventually finds her way into the care system at the age of twelve, and has an abortion after being gang-raped at thirteen. Continuously abused in a sequence of homes, she runs away at sixteen, becomes a prostitute in Soho, and convinces herself she is being punished for killing her baby. But it was never meant to be like that. Adopted at birth in 1956 by a middle-class family, Emily shared a golden childhood with her adopted sister Amy, attending private schools, and enjoying singing and dancing lessons. Things soon changed when Emily’s jealous mother came to regard her as a rival. A bored and restless woman, she beat Emily for the first time when she was seven years old and from then on seemed to become addicted to inflicting pain on her daughter.
Despite Emily’s father’s attempts to protect her, the parental rows grew more malicious, until the mother moved out and remarried a narcissistic widower with alcohol problems and a vicious, bullying temper. The abuse intensified until Emily was placed into voluntary care. And so began a toxic spiral of remand homes, psychiatric hospitals, and sleeping rough. It wasn’t long before Emily became a teenage ‘working girl’, where she was paid to engage in bizarre sadomasochistic acts for perverted clients, including a senior judge and a policeman. It was only when she was almost murdered that she turned her life around. Set principally between 1966 and 1972, Runaway captures the sleazy Soho of the period, and the frightening conditions in which many children were kept in care. – See more at: http://books.simonandschuster.co.uk/Runaway/Emily-MacKenzie/9781471115257#sthash.RYsR3oGA.dpuf

[24] Runaway. Emily MacKenzie. 2013 Simon and Schuster  ISBN 978 1 47111 525 7

I read Runaway in one session. The autobiography dances from the frying pan to the fire and then to the boiling pot and back again. Despite the tragic content of much of her life Emily in the book does not ever wallow in self pity. The change of circumstances was sudden -from loved adopted child to battered child by her mother and sexual abuse from a stepfather and her living father unable to see her more than briefly. The contrast between her private school and home life stark. Then the descent into sexual abuse and being drugged in “care”, followed by child prostitution and kidnapped. A gripping read and one admires the strength of the lady that lived through this horror. I look forward to the next book from this brave lady.

[23] Tuck, Chris (2013-08-19). Through the eyes of a Child.  Filament Publishing Ltd. Kindle Edition.

Fiercely honest and powerful book of the family abuse Chris suffered as a child, and her determination to make a better life for herself and to have a stable and  financial base to have children. Her experiences have led to her passion for breaking the cycle of abuse and helping others who have suffered to make the best of the situation they are now in. Chris’s brothers Michael and Dave and sister Diane also give their moving accounts.

[22] A Child Called “It”  One Childs Courage to Survive   Dave Pelzer

This book chronicles the unforgettable account of one of the most severe child abuse cases in California history. It is the story of Dave Pelzer, who was brutally beaten and starved by his emotionally unstable, alcoholic mother: a mother who played tortuous, unpredictable games–games that left him nearly dead. He had to learn how to play his mother’s games in order to survive because she no longer considered him a son, but a slave; and no longer a boy, but an “it.”

Dave’s bed was an old army cot in the basement, and his clothes were torn and raunchy. When his mother allowed him the luxury of food, it was nothing more than spoiled scraps that even the dogs refused to eat. The outside world knew nothing of his living nightmare. He had nothing or no one to turn to, but his dreams kept him alive–dreams of someone taking care of him, loving him and calling him their son.

[21] Conspiracy of Faith Fighting for Justice after Child Abuse. Graham Wilmer ISBN-13: 9780718830588

In this powerful book, Graham Wilmer recounts the traumatic experience of being sexually abused as a child by a teacher at the Salesian College in Chertsey, Surrey, and explores the life-long impact that child abuse has on males. He exposes the Salesians in the UK who failed to report the abuse and protected the teacher, painting a disturbing picture of the ineptitude and incompetence of the police, the CPS (Crown Prosecution Service), central and local government, NASUWT (The National Association of Schoolmasters Union of Women Teachers), the Roman Catholic Church, and the criminal justice system in their collective failures to act when he finally disclosed what had happened. Despite the recommendations of the Nolan Enquiry into child abuse in the Roman Catholic Church in England and Wales, and the recommendations of the Bichard Enquiry, Graham Wilmer’s story shows just how difficult it is to prosecute teachers who abuse children in Roman Catholic schools. This is a brave account by a man who suffered in forced silence for forty years until finally making the difficult decision to lay bare the truth, seek justice and bring those who had conspired against him to account. It raises many important issues about the way our society deals with sexual offences against children, and draws the disturbing conclusion that the vast majority of child abusers still operate with impunity, and will continue to do so unless the criminal justice system is radically changed in favour of the victims of abuse rather than the perpetrators. This is the only book dealing with sexual abuse in a Salesian school. Although it may make you angry, it is not without hope, and will help others who have been through similarly traumatic times at such a young age.

ISBN-13: 9780718830588

Review/Description  http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/conspiracy-of-faith-graham-wilmer/1111008672?ean=9780718830588

Graham Wilmers Webpage http://www.grahamwilmer.org.uk/

[20] The Girl Nobody Wants  Shocking Story of Child Abuse in Ireland        Lily O’ Brien

“It’s my 40th birthday today and I’m trying to smile, but as I look in the mirror all I can see is an empty shell, someone waiting to die… You could never tell that anything was wrong with me by just looking at me, as I dress clean and I keep myself tidy, and I have a smile on my face that hides my emotions and over the years I’ve become an expert at hiding behind it”
This is the shocking true story of an innocent girl abused by the very people who said they would take good care of her. Lilly’s family began the path to her destruction – they used and abused her – but they never ever wanted or loved her. The little girl was sexually physically and emotionally abused by many people around her who were able to hide behind the security of Ireland’s Catholic Church-run institutions. She also suffered at the hands of other people around them who they called their friends.

You only get one chance to live your life as a child, but Lilly was never given that chance – her childhood was taken from her before it ever begun. From the age of four, when she was first sexually abused, her life changed forever; when she walked through the institution’s doors in Ireland, her life continued along the same path that has destroyed her soul. Her emotional pain is as strong today as it was the day it began and will never leave her alone.

“When I go to sleep it’s in my head and when I wake up I can see it in the mirror and I am only waiting to die.” A child abuse story that will stay with you forever and one that you will talk about for many years to come, The Girl Nobody Wants is a harrowing true story that will appeal to fans of biographies and fans of Jodi Picoult. It has been compared to Dave Pelzer’s A Child Called It, Damaged by Cathy Glass and The Kid by Kevin Lewis.

Description/Review http://www.troubador.co.uk/book_info.asp?bookid=1600

[19] A Survivor Myself. Experiences of Child Abuse. Edited by Pauline Kirk. 1994 Yorkshire Art Circus ISBN 1-898311-02-1

Yorkshire Art Circus was a charity No.1007443 whose motto was “Everyone has a story to tell. We find ways of helping them tell it.”

Pauline Kirk skillfully puts together ten varied short stories of child abuse either written by the people themselves or recalled to Pauline who then wrote them up for amendment and approval. A moving compilation with foreword by Jane M Wynn Consultant Community Paediatrician, St James University Hospital, Leeds.

This poem is on the back cover

Birds and Bees by Shirley

In school today
the teacher say
bout the birds and bees
in fact she say
they make love and baby
a wife bird
does it wid a husband bird
and a wife bee
does it wid a husband bee
but dat can’t be right
because I see
Daddy do it wid Mummy
and Daddy do it wid me

The stories are:

Lessons from Mr Biggs – Joe

Ssh Ssh Baby – Shirley Cooper

A Quantum Shift in the Universe – Hamish

Little Girl Lost – Tessa

The Survivors Project – John

Dads Little Angel – Natasha

Playing Happy Families – Alan

My Mothers Boyfriend – Hope

The Honour of the Regiment – Christian

A Sense of Living – Joanne and Abbey

[18] Heartless by Janella. (24 Wasted Years) Revized Edition 1999 (revised additions date from after 2008) ISBN 978-0-9554533-0-4

[For an update on this post please see [Heartless update] ]

This is a unique book – typed, printed and bound by Janella herself. It describes her life of early sexual abuse and later incarceration in institutions, much at her MP fathers request. The writing of this book, as I suspect many victims of abuse do, Janella found to be therapeutic. With so much having happened to Janella, the book moves at a fast pace, but remains optimistic despite the dark nature of many things that happened.

My intention in making notes on the book, is partly to draw attention to the book itself. Also my intention is to digitally summarise some information which may be used by others to piece together the bigger picture of child abuse, institutional abuse, sexual abuse and drug abuse. Information which can be used to identify any patterns of people involved, their connections to others, the institutions themselves, the types of abuse which may be of help to recognise how paedophiles and child abusers carry out their sordid actions. Every persons story is unique and useful in this regard, each piece of information helps to build up the bigger picture in the jigsaw of information about child abuse. Hopefully this will soon lead to the revealing of the true extent and nature of child abuse and how it has been covered up by the people in power.

Janella known then as Alizon Jane Pink, was, from birth to school to hospital incarceration, systematically abused and conditioned to accept the abuse as part of her life. Whilst a very young child she suffered rape and sexual abuse by school teachers and family and a complete stranger. No attempt was made to listen to her or free her from the distress it caused.

Evidence suggests she was a victim of a paedophile ring instigated by her adoptive parents and other members of the family. To cover this up it appears she was condemned to a mental hospital, by her father.

Janella was born on 29th Feb 1952, her real mother was unmarried mother Pauline Mary, Hampshire. Her adoptive parents were Marguerite (Rita) Nora Banner Pink nee Martin who married Ralph Bonner Pink 1912-1984. Ralph attended Oundle School, then took over Pink and Sons Greengrocers Shops. He was Conservative MP for Portsmouth South 1963-?. He had sister Joyce Bonner. Rita was Chairperson NSPCC in 1960s.

From 2007 Portsmouth City Council minutes it shows that Janellas adoptive father, Bonner Pink financed and placed superintendents for The Childrens Cottage Homes. He placed Peter Prosser, who had been investigated 3 times previously for sexual abuse of children in his care, in charge of holiday home in Talgarth Wales. Janella was also left several times in his care.

Alderman Bonner Pink also worked with Freddie Amery Wallis, who was convicted of 2 specimen charges of serious child abuse in 2001. A superintendent from a cottage home in Cosham visited Haut de la Garenne, taking a 17 year old girl who states she was sexually assaulted over a 3 day period. Male victims at the Jersey home were told they would be put in a mental hospital if they told on the MP now deceased who was allegedly abusing them regularly. He also had access to boats and travelled to France on one occasion.

The Institutions that Janella was in were, approximately

Rookesbury Park School, Wickham 1959-66? Sexual abuse

West Preston Manor School (closed 1979) Sexual abuse

Knowle Hospital for several weeks in 1966, 3 days in 1969,

Knowle Secure Unit 1985-7

Broadmoor 1968,1970-1980

Rampton 1980, 1987-89

Zulu Road Hostel 1989.

Janella published these comments about Jimmy Savile in Broadmoor 1999, way before he died and the revelations of his paedophilia became public

“Jimmy Savile started visiting in the 1970s, and he donated a lot of money in order that we should have our own discotheque. Jimmy also became a member (honorary) of the entertainments committee, and after a while was given his own keys, plated a golden colour. There were rumours that some impropriety took place on the female wing, when there were no witnesses, but for legal reasons I cannot comment on the detail or validity of this.” (Page 81)

“Jimmy Savile used to sometimes come into the Ward {Lancaster}, and watch Top of the Pops on a Thursday night in the day room. On those occasions we would get undressed early, sit in our nightdresses and watch Top of the Pops until eight o’clock, because it was from 7.30 until 8 o’clock on BBC1. It was considered to be a great treat. Jimmy Savile also brought his caravan into the female wing yard, to be cleaned by the girls.” (Page 111)

The drugs Janella mentions being given are sleeping drugs, barbiturates, amphetamine, Haloperidol, Tuinal, Sodium Amatol, Largactil, Mandrax. 5mg Dexedrine, Heparin, Depixol. Many of these were given to her as a minor. One course of ECT was undergone. Antabuse was also used on others.

Janella was certainly suspicious of the role of her fathers solicitor in her incarcerations, Richard Schofield.

At Broadmoor the medical personnel were

Dr Patrick Mcgrath Medical Superintendent

Dr Levin Medical Officer

Dr Le Couter Consultant Psychiatrist.

Broadmoor was built in Victorian times for those guilty of crime but insane. It took many women who had babies out of wedlock due to the Imbecile Act.

Rampton opened later but took higher proportion of brain damaged patients.

Ashworth is relatively new taking large number of sex offenders and longer term patietns from Broadmoor.

Carstairs is the Scottish equivalent of Broadmoor.

Les Cummings book out in 2008 has confirmed Janellas story.

Heartless Too is Janellas second book she is working on {which I have just sent for 14 Sept 2014}

Back Cover. Heartless has seen an amazing sucess, home produced and hand bound it quietly continues to sell through Waterstones in Fareham Hampshire, doing better than Dan Brown in 2007,also sold through the net, not one bad word about it, now Revized to include links with The Childrens Cottage Homes Justice Project, and Haut La Garenne in Jersey, people order it by word of mouth, a second book has been requested Heartless the Sequel, the next eighteen years is about to be written, Janella is an unusual and non conformist writer, who gets the point across, and pulls no punches.Excellent,and a good read despite the subject matter.

[17] Cry myself to Sleep    Joe Peters

The next book from the number one bestselling author of Cry Silent Tears. Joe was only five years old when he lost his voice. Only five years old when he was first beaten by his mother and raped by her boyfriend. And only nine years old when his mother sold him to a paedophile ring.

At sixteen, Joe finally found the courage to escape and headed for Charing Cross station with no money in his pocket, no friends and nowhere to turn to. But the nightmare was far from over. Haunted by his harrowing past, Joe’s life spiralled out of control. Living on the lonely streets of London, Joe turned down a dark path of crime and self-destruction and it seemed that he was bound for prison. Until the love of a good woman set him free! This is the ultimate story of triumph over evil, of survival and redemption.

Heartbreaking, but unbelievably inspiring, it is a testament to the unbreakable resilience of a little boy who grew up into a remarkable man. Now that he has found his voice again, Joe speaks out against child abuse and helps support and protect other children whose lives have been blighted by it.    Joes Website [1]

Description/Review from goodreads.com

[16] Dirty Little Bastard     Alan Wilson.

The harrowing story of a disabled child, born into a violent dysfunctional family in 1950s Birkenhead.

Born into poverty and squalor. Beaten, raped and brutalised by his father. ‘Sold’ to a group of paedophile vicars. Neglected and abused by his alcoholic mother. This is the true story of Alan Wilson, who struggled with the nightmare of his childhood abuse and upbringing for many years, until, finally taking the brave decision to confront his past and tell his story, not just to help his own recovery, but to help other victims learn that there is hope, and that they too can disclose their past and seek help.

Description/ Review by Lantern Project [2]

[15] Trust No One      Teresa Cooper

One girls harrowing and disturbing tale of the abuse she suffered in care

Thrust into state care at 6 months of age because of an alcoholic father and mentally ill mother, Teresa Cooper spent an unsettled childhood in a variety of children’s homes. At age 13, she was sent to Kendall House in Gravesend, Kent, a home which soon became her prison and worst nightmare. Teresa found herself a victim of a terrible regime: she was injected with dangerously high doses of drugs and sexually abused. As a result of this cruel and vicious treatment—accompanied by punishments such as 163 days spent in solitary confinement—it was not long before Teresa began to harm herself and even attempt to take her life. After three years of hell, Teresa thought her nightmare was over but another was about to begin. Teresa survived, however, and today she works to fight against a corrupt social care system. She has taken her case of abuse and drugging to parliament, and is fighting to prevent many more children from suffering at the hands of unethical doctors and abusive foster parents.
Description/Review from goodreads.com

Teresas twitter @TeresaCoooper  website [9]

[14] The Paedotrial     John Affleck

The Paedotrial by John Affleck, highlights a level of deviancy, manipulation and intrigue in the psychological makeup of a paedophile, which is so deceitful and brazen, it is difficult to believe that a lone individual could be so cunning. One of the main paedophiles named in the book, is Denham Gilbart-Smith a high profile City of London Lloyd’s ‘name’ who has paid out millions of pounds (documented) to separate himself from his paedophile activities and stay out of jail, whilst at the same time being placed under police protection (documented) from his many now adult male victims, which were as young as nine years of age when he raped them (documented).

John went to one of those abusive children’s homes Green Field House, Maidenhead Berkshire, Windsor and Maidenhead Council and subsequently led a hectic roller coaster life of highs and lows, spending years in prison, in the low years, whilst he owned supercars and rubbed shoulders with royalty in the high years.

The Paedo Trial is an easy to read, intelligently written book which names and exposes corrupt police officers and City of London paedophile bankers. The book reads more like a fictional thriller than a true life story…

Paedotrial Website [4]

[13] Surviving Secrets     Moira Walker

In recent years considerable attention has been paid to the subject of abuse in childhood. Less attention has been paid to what happens to the vast number of women and men who have reached adulthood with this experience haunting them. Moira Walker overviews the experience and its implications, dealing with physical, sexual and psychological abuse. An essential part of the content is based on interviews with survivors of child abuse, voicing their views on the effects of the experience and the effectiveness of the help offered. At the same time Surviving Secrets seeks to understand the context in which abuse takes place, the society which itself contains and sustains abuse at various levels. It is a moving account of the experience and effects of childhood abuse and a handbook for those in the caring professions, in voluntary organizations and elsewhere who are helping survivors of abuse.

Description/Review [5]

[12] Hurting Too Much Shocking stories from the frontline of Child Protection     Harry Keeble and Kris Hollinton

Detective Sergeant Harry Keeble’s bestselling books, Baby X and Little Victim described his early years in Hackney’s Child Protection Unit, as he battled to get to grips with cases of unimaginably horrific child abuse. In Broken Angels, a more experienced Harry relates a series of extraordinary cases he encountered with Ella, a young and newly qualified social worker.Together, Harry and Ella faced the violence of forced marriage, the horror of maternal incest and the cruelty of child slavery. Their investigations took them into a mosque, a drug den and a recording studio. Just as the unrelenting caseload threatened to push the inexperienced Ella over the edge, Harry uncovered one of the most shocking cases of child abuse he’d ever encountered, forcing the duo to tread new ground in the search for justice.

Broken Angels reveals why working in Child Protection has never been so tough. It also shows why, despite the fact that so many courageous people are ready and willing to meet impossible challenges, we are still unable to reach all of the broken angels that so desperately need our help.

Description/Review from goodreads.com

[11] Baby X Britains Child Abusers brought to Justice      Harry Keeble with Kris Hollington

When super-tough cop Sergeant Harry Keeble announced he was joining Hackney’s ailing Child Protection Team in 2000, his colleagues were astounded. Known as the ‘Cardigan Squad’, its officers were seen as glorified social workers dealing with domestics. The reality was very different. Within a few months he’d fought machete-wielding thugs, rescued kids who had pit bulls chained to their cots and confronted the horrors of African witchcraft, exposing a network of abuse in the process – all in his unrelenting war against child cruelty. Harry rescued dozens of kids – kids in crack houses, kids living in unimaginable filth and kids who had burned their houses down. Then there were the hostage situations, the lynch mobs, and the almost impossible process of interviewing paedophiles to get a confession. Without wading in sentimentality, Harry describes how his team – working alongside dedicated but chronically underfunded social workers – operated at the sharp end of child protection. This is a shocking and unforgettable story of how some of the UK’s most disadvantaged children escaped their tormentors – and explains why some cases, similar to that of Baby P’s, ended in tragedy.

Review/Description from goodreads.com

[10] Unofficial Secrets   Child Sexual Abuse:The Cleveland Case    Beatrix Campbell  ISBN 0 86068 634 5

When in July 1987 the diagnosis of child sexual abuse in some forty families in Cleveland hit the national headlines, society was confronted not only with the spectre of a much wider crisis, but also with a challenge to our stereotypes of both victims and perpetrators. For the children at the centre of the controversy were not the teenagers of popular mythology: they were as young as four years, even four months, from every class, boys as well as girls.

When Cleveland Council made child sexual abuse a priority, it led to the appointment of specialist consultants and paediatricians trained in radical new approaches to diagnosis.

It was they who uncovered what few others in Britain had seen, or wanted to see, throwing professional services and private lives into turmoil.

In this study of the circumstances and implications of the Cleveland case, Beatrix Campbell examines the ways in which the different professions – police, doctors, social workers, health visitors, bureaucrats, educators – interpret the problem according to their particular stake in it. She looks too at the issues raised for every one of us by the evidence of the Cleveland findings: that our assumptions about the nature and frequency of child sex abuse must change before solutions can be found.

Description/Review  [6]

[9] The Dirty Squad Michael Hames

The man with the worst job in Britain’ according to the Express, Detective Superintendent Michael Hames served in the Metropolitan Police for 32 years. His gripping book concentrates on his years as the head of Scotland Yard’s Obscene Publications branch – known as the Dirty Squad.

Hames was the last head of the Dirty Squad – which dealt with pornography, particularly videos, and increasingly became involved with the sexual abuse of children. The unit has now been reorganised into a squad which solely investigates paedophiles. No one in charge of the Obscene Publications Division has ever written about their work before. Mike Hames’ book will shock and appal some readers and it is a compelling social document as well as an astonishing insider’s account of a fast-track police career.

Description/Review Amazon

[8] Fogotten Children The Secret Abuse Scandal in Children’s Homes – Vision Paperback, 2000
– ISBN: 1901250474
– Pages: 276

“There isn’t a photo of me before I was 14. It’s as if I didn’t exist. Children in children’s homes are suffering from trauma, from shock… They are used to the unexpected and sexual abuse is unexpected.” ‘John’.

In the 1960s and 1970s, children’s departments were abolished and social workers all became generalists who had clients across the spectrum of need. As a result, thousands more children were taken into care by local authorities and many of them were put into children’s homes. Disaster ensued, with a high proportion of them being abused and mistreated by those charged with looking after them. The legacy of this disaster is still being felt; major police investigations have been launched across the country and many are ongoing.

Why did it happen? Despite several official investigations, none have attempted to explain the underlying causes of institutional abuse and offered a coherent explanation of what happened. Forgotten Children is the ground-breaking first book to aim to do so.

Forgotten Children charts the history of children’s homes, how they were neglected over the years and, with untrained and sometimes unsuitable staff, why they became preying grounds for paedophiles. Many institutions thought it in the best interests of the children to keep their parents at bay, forbidding letter writing and visits. So there was no one to turn to.It also shows how changes in social services provision in the 1970s helped to create the disaster.

It looks, too, at the widespread abuse which took place in homes run by religious orders and gives a previously unheard voice to many of the victims. The book then also follows the children’s claims for compensation, the issues over false claims of abuse and suggests ways to prevent a reoccurrence of the scandal.

Author Christian Wolmar analyses the roles of the institutions which ‘allowed’ this scandal to sweep the country: local authorities and charities that let abuse go unchecked in their homes; central government, which failed to heed the warning signs; the police who initially ignored all complaints; the social workers who did not listen to the children.

The legacy of these scandals reaches beyond their immediate victims, many of whom are too traumatised to lead functional lives or have even committed suicide; prisons are full of the former residents of children’s homes whose crimes have, in turn, created a raft of new victims.

Forgotten Children includes interviews with victims, care workers, lawyers and police, presenting a gripping critique of children’s care in the 1970s and 1980s and shedding light on the underlying causes of institutional abuse.

Christian Wolmar’s book is sponsored by the Joseph Rowntree Foundation, which publishes research into social issues. After writing Forgotten Children, Christian submitted evidence to the Parliamentary Select Committee on the Adoption and Children Bill.

Mainly available on kindle. This gives an overview of the abuse that was happening in the UK (cathyfox)

Christian Wolmar’s website

[7] Cry Silent Tears     Joe Peters

Joe knew his mother was cruel and violent, but he trusted his beloved father to protect him from her. When a freak accident saw his father burn to death in front of him, Joe was left at the mercy of his mother. Without the love of his friend and brother, he wouldn’t have survived. With them, he went on to spend his life fighting child abuse.

Joe was just five years old and the horrific scene literally struck him dumb. He didn’t speak for four and a half years, which meant he was unable to ask anyone for help as his life turned into a living hell. His schizophrenic mother and two of his older brothers spent the following years beating him, raping him and locking him in the cellar at the family home.

Fed on scraps that he was forced to lick from the floor, he was sometimes left naked in the dark for three days without human contact. Unable to read or write, all Joe could do to communicate his suffering was draw pictures. The violence and sexual abuse grew in severity as more people, including his stepfather, were invited to use him in any way they chose.
The only thing that saved Joe was the kindness of his elder brother and his only school friend, both of whom showed him that love was possible even in the darkest of situations. At fourteen he finally found the courage to run away, hiding in a hut by a railway line, fed on scraps by some local children who found him.
Joe’s is the ultimate insider’s story, casting light into the darkest of hidden worlds, and a truly inspirational account of how one small boy found the strength to overcome almost impossible odds and become a remarkable man. Now that he has found his voice again, Joe speaks out against child abuse and helps support and protect other children whose lives have been blighted by it. Joes website  [1]

Description/Review from goodreads.com

[6] Stuart: A life Backwards       Alexander Masters

I feel so strongly about this strange, funny, sad book that I hardly know where to begin. It is not, in synopsis at any rate, an easy one to sell. I have already droned on about it to a couple of friends and, although they appeared to be smiling at me attentively, I caught in their eyes a kind of bored panic. ‘A biography of a psychotic, alcoholic, drug-addicted homeless man?’ their narrowing pupils seemed to say.

‘A first book, written in reverse, by a fastidious-sounding, failed PhD student who has also contributed a few wonky line drawings to the whole production? I don’t think so.’ My enthusiasm, which, as I sit here alone, feels almost limitless, would wither on the vine, and I would concern myself instead with the bottom of my wine glass.

Still, one of the several achievements of Stuart: A Life Backwards is that it leaves you feeling thoroughly ashamed of your own cynicism and thoroughly infuriated – buttingly so – by that of other people. I love this book and, now I have finished reading it, I am certain of its power and unique spirit; I don’t care who knows it.

Mostly, I am allergic to books with even so much as a dusting of worthiness. I come over all queasy, too, when critics use words like ‘important’. Yet Stuart: A Life Backwards is just this: worthy in that it cares about, and finds richness in, a world that makes most of us wrinkle our noses; important, in that it reveals this world to be our collective dishonour. How it turned out to be so bloody readable, I shall never know.

Alexander Masters, a Cambridge-dwelling academic type with a large pink fan on his wall first encounters Stuart Shorter, beggar extraordinaire, in 1998 in a doorway near Sidney Sussex College. ‘He had an oddly twisted way of sitting on his square of cardboard as if his limbs were half made of rubber… his mouth was a sluice.’

The next time they meet, Masters has a part-time job as a fundraiser at Wintercomfort, a centre for rough sleepers. Ruth Wyner, Wintercomfort’s director, and her deputy, John Brock, have been convicted of ‘knowingly allowing’ the supply of heroin on their premises. A meeting is held. Their supporters will fight for their release. Then a soft voice intrudes from the front row: Stuart Shorter, aka Psycho, aka Knife Man Dan. He is stupefyingly eloquent.

Masters and Stuart begin campaigning together; they even mount a mass, rough sleep-out on a pavement beside the Home Office. Along the way – I am not quite sure how the subject came up – they agree that Masters will write a book about Shorter, one that will try to explain how he became one of the chaotic homeless (the ‘chaotic’ are neither bankrupts nor run-aways; they are the hard core of the homeless community, their plight bewilderingly chosen, their brains troublingly hard-wired for conflict and exposure).

Stuart, who has a pretty gnarled ego for one so disenfranchised, knows precisely what kind of volume he wants his new middle-class pal to write. He’s after a best-seller, ‘like what Tom Clancy writes’.

Explanations, it quickly becomes apparent, are not easily produced when it comes to Stuart, though his muscular dystrophy – ‘Stu Spag! Stu Spag!’ the other children used to shout – and the sexual abuse he suffered at the hands of his brother, a babysitter and, later, the teachers at his special school, can hardly have helped.

Even Stuart, who knows the ‘system’ backwards, cannot bear too much cause and effect; it’s too glib, too parcelled-up. ‘A lot of the madness now does stem back from when I was 10, 11, 12,’ he’ll say. But the next minute, he’ll admit that things will never be ‘all sorted’. How could they be? ‘Why should you get to put reasons on it when I’ve fucking lived it and still can’t?’ In any case, thinking is too painful, the only balm a fresh onslaught of razor blades on skin.

A page-turner, however, is more easily conjured, or it is in the hands of this author. The structure of Stuart, which begins with madness and spirals haphazardly back to sanity, is a masterstroke, allowing buried secrets to be uncovered like hunks of beef beneath silver domes. But this would be merely tricksy were it not for Masters’s writing. His style, which calls to mind both Henry Mayhew and Patrick Hamilton, is so beady and so droll, even Stuart comes round to it in the end. He loves – and who can blame him? – Masters’s description of the huge television in his newly acquired council flat: ‘Stuart likes his TV. He has thrown it against his wall twice and it still works.’ Stuart died beneath the wheels of the 11.15 London to King’s Lynn train before this messy testament could be published. But in capturing his mettlesome, pernickety cadences, Masters has given him, and all those like him, a place in the world. The itinerant, so often invisible, is stapled firmly, brilliantly, to the page.  Observer Review

[5] Out of the Rubble       Pauletta Edwards

This story tells of a child’s fight to survive in what was , for her, the desolate and often hostile world of her childhood in care. It shows how a vicious spiral can build up through distrust, lack of communication and withdrawal. All this can lead to unimaginable difficulties in responding to warm and friendly overtures. This story gives rare insights into what it takes to pull someone damaged almost beyond salvation out of the rubble of life into love and trust and happiness.
The aims of the book are:to increase everyone’s understanding; to show what the needs are of deprived children and adults who have suffered such a childhood; to give pointers to the ways in which adoptive and foster parents, teachers, social workers, the police, magistrates, carers and general public can help.

[4] Suffer the Little Children: The True Story of an Abused Convent Upbringing      Frances Reilly

Clutching her eight-week-old sister in her arms, Frances Reilly was abandoned by her mother outside the gates of The Poor Sisters of Nazareth Convent. It was Christmas morning 1956 and Frances was 2 years old. For the next 13 years Frances experienced institutionalized cruelty under the care of her new guardians: she was beaten, raped, and molested on numerous occasions. The nuns stripped her of everything—her best friend, her innocence, even her name— but they could not suppress her spirit and her never-ending hope of a better life. Written with great honesty and integrity, this moving account of childhood suffering is a tragic yet inspiring story. Through it all Frances refused to be broken. This is her account of her resolution to survive and defy the evil that stole her childhood.

Review/description goodreads.com

[3] The Cornflake Kid      Mark Riddell

Mark Riddell spent his adolescence in local authority care in Scotland. Born into a Scottish tenement flat and forced with the rest of his family to leave his father and watch the slow death of his mother. For the remainder of his early years, his life is characterised by care from half committed relatives, occasional returns to his drunken fathers care and eventually taken into the Scottish care system. Only the memory of his mother provides Mark with any lodestone to direct his life. Being in care brings further separation and rejection from his brothers and the onset of glue sniffing, but also the discovery of an inner strength, which provides his salvation. Not all is despair and the glue-induced hallucinations and his love for music gives him the escape he so badly needed. Mark survives the care system. On the path of self-discovery he finds the real Mark Riddell. He ends up as an extra on Rambo III and becomes a drinking companion of Sylvester Stallone. Review/Description [7]

[2] Fear of the Collar  My Terrifying Childhood in Artane     Patrick Touher

Sent to an industrial school in Dublin at the age of seven, Patrick Touher was forced into a tough regime of education and training, prayer and punishment, strict discipline, and fearful nights. No allowances were made for emotion, sentiment, or boyhood worries, and anyone who disturbed the routine was severely punished. Artane Industrial School demanded absolute obedience and absolute submission; Patrick’s eight-year stint there was an education in cruelty and fear. Run by the Christian Brothers, the school has become synonymous with the widespread abuse of children in Ireland in the 1940s and 1950s which is currently the subject of an official inquiry. This is the story of a childhood lived in the most horrific of circumstances, a moving and powerful account that bears testament to the courage and determination of the children that society forgot. 

Description/Review[1] Who Cares? Memories of a childhood in Barnardos      Fred Fever

Who Cares? I found a compelling read. My mother was a Barnardo’s ‘girl’ and I have always been fasinated with her stories. It is unbelievable that such things have happened in ‘more recent times’. I shed tears for Fred Fever throughout the book which tells of a story of a boy which goes from good to bad due to a lack of love, understanding and care taken with children in the late sixties and seventies in the Barnardo’s ‘system’. My mother used to say how cruel the caregivers were in the Barnardo’s homes when she was a girl but was absolutely shocked when I read this story to her (due to her failing eye sight). She cried and said she thought it must have changed since her childhood in such unloving places, but surprisingly and very sadly not. We need to hear more of these experiences. This book was very sad to read but a very necessary story to be written. Thank you Fred Fever!  Description/Review Jill Bown NZ on Amazon

Links and References

[1] Joe Peters Website http://www.joepeters.co.uk/

[2] Dirty Little Bastard http://www.lanternproject.org.uk/books/dirty-little-bastard/

[3] Lantern Project Website http://www.lanternproject.org.uk

[4] The Paedotrial John Affleck http://www.thepaedotrial.com/

[5] Surviving Secrets Moira Walker http://www.amazon.co.uk/SURVIVING-SECRETS-Experience-Abuse-Helper/dp/0335097634

[6] Beatrix http://www.beatrixcampbell.co.uk/books/cleveland/

[7] Lulu Mark Riddell http://www.lulu.com/gb/en/shop/mark-riddell/the-cornflake-kid/ebook/product-18652399.html

[8] Goodreads website http://www.goodreads.com

[9] Teresa Cooper  twitter @TeresaCooper (Teresa Cooper Author)

[10] Christian Wolmars website  http://www.christianwolmar.co.uk/books/forgotten-children/    website http://www.no2abuse.com

[11] A Kind of Hush http://youtu.be/_ikdP1qLB6o

[12] Cathy Fox Savile Charitable Trust legal appeal https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/category/jimmy-savile-2/

[13] cathy O’Brien book website http://www.AccessDeniedBook.com

[14] Cathy Fox Books on child abuse 2 https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2014/09/23/books-on-child-abuse-2/

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29 Responses to Books On Child Abuse 1

  1. pippakin says:

    Reblogged this on Thinking Out Loud and commented:
    I’m not sure because I haven’t followed this blog from the beginning but I think perhaps this is a welcome expansion. Its important for victims to know they are not alone, that there are other experiences to learn from and hopefully once gained that knowledge will bring confidence and aid recovery.

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  2. survivorsjustice says:

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    Here are some intense Child Abuse stories and reviews. There have been hundreds who have shared their horrific endurance of past childhood’s stolen by the acts of those within their family, usually found to be their parents. Check out this awesome list shared by Author Cathy Fox, and don’t forget, there is also another true crime history of a childhood stolen by an ENTIRE COMMUNITY – Get your copy of ‘My Justice’ through Amazon, BN.com, or Authorhouse.com today!!! You will walk the inside nightmare of a child trapped in a house of hell while an entire community watched her physically rot away in the trafficking, home slavery, and sever neglect which has left her scarred still today. “My Justice’ has been reviewed by many great literary leaders & survivors. Today it is compared to ‘Nothing so powerful since the release of ‘A Child Called It’ by Dave Pelzer back in 1990’s. His story led the way for survivor stories and was a top leader on the New York Times Best Seller List for months!!!

    ‘My Justice’ as many others, connects you personally with a young girl who was nothing more than the family slave, and the stepfather’s whore. Her abandonment by the entire community around her, set a path in life that would lead to 20 years of almost deadly relationship violence until she finally suffered the last brutal beating at the age of 37. Only after an entire life destroyed by one brutal abuser after another, did this courageous soul find the spirit to turn her world around, all for the hope of a better life for the children growing up in the aftermath of their mother’s hell. ‘My Justice’ is her own personal apology and explanation to her children for the destruction which invaded their lives and still impacts the lives of her grandchildren. A true cycle of trauma still leaving emotional wounds in its path.

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    • cathyfox says:

      Apologies, i have only just seen this. The book is My Justice by Patricia McKnight. I have not bought it yet as it is a tad expensive for me, but I hope to pick it up second hand soon. thanks for the recommendation

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  3. Reblogged this on The Story of my Twin Boys and commented:
    Some good reads on Child Abuse…..

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  5. shirleypc says:

    in a survivor myself by Pauline Kirk i wrote an account ‘shh shh baby’ about being abused in care and ‘Daddy” a poem about an abusive father. i also have a poem ‘the birds and the bees’ on the back cover

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    • cathyfox says:

      Thank you Shirley. It is a great poem. I put it here and I will add it to the blog
      Birds and Bees

      In school today
      the teacher say
      bout the birds and bees
      in fact she say
      they make love and baby
      a wife bird
      does it wid a husband bird
      and a wife bee
      does it wid a husband bee
      but dat can’t be right
      because I see
      Daddy do it wid Mummy
      and Daddy do it wid me

      Shirley

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