My Story Clare Wakeman Part 1

On CathyFox blog I do not normally cover forced adoption. It is a huge subject in its own right and I decided some time ago that I could only do justice to child sexual abuse or forced adoption. Part of my decision was that a couple of years ago the forced adoption campaigners were more coordinated to organise conferences under the banner “Children Screaming to be Heard” whilst the child sexual abuse victims had not had any get togethers.

Things have changed somewhat since then, and many many more victims and campaigners have come forward on the subject of child sexual abuse and now an inquiry, though flawed is on the agenda. Forced adoption has not received the same attention, and is still widely unknown by the public.

I am of the opinion that same organised malevolent forces that control organised child sexual abuse also control the forced adoption industry in the UK, as they are part of the same network of child abuse. They have infiltrated the various parts of government and child protection sector, and the situation has become institutionalised, whilst the excuse given is that it is in the childrens best interests. This manifests itself in secret courts and gagging orders on parents  whose children have been taken away, and unaccountable semi-privatised official bodies whose interest is making money not the welfare of children or families.

The children are taken away from their parents and often suffer chidl abuse where they are put. Interlinked are child trafficking, global pornography, child sexual abuse and forced adoption. Children are seen valuable commodities for the “elite” not vulnerable children in their own right. In fact it is often because they are vulnerable and least able to get help.

Many of the parents who have children taken away are also the victims of child sexual abuse and/or part of the adoption and foster sector themselves. This being used as an excuse to take their children from them on the grounds that they may abuse their children. Thus already vulnerable people are targetted further.

I am sorry that I do not have the time to understand more of the nature of the problems or the solutions.

This is not to say that many people in the child protection industry are not genuine and caring people, or that some parents are not fit parents, but that the drift of much of the industry is institutionally malign.

Very many parents are desperate for help and Clare Wakeman is one of these. She has urged me to attempt to help. All I can do is help tell her story.

She has had to call on all her reserves to cope with what life has thrown at her, and she has bravely written her story for others to read. Below is the first part of her story, as she wrote it.

forced adoption

Clares Story

my name is clare wakeman im 37 years old

and my story is based on the fight through my life with my adhd

and my fight with walsall social services

From the age of six of knew i didnt feel like a normal six year should feel and i just wanted to know why

all i used to do was cry /do things wrong to get attention and more?

i used to feel at such an early age were did i belong and were was my place in this world because i really didnt know

as i was growing up i got to feel more and more frustrated with me my self and more hate used to build up in side me and i hated feeling this way i had hate for my siblings and the reason i felt like this is because of the favourtism my mom had between her all us siblings.

When i went through school not been able to understand and not feel like i fitted in i tried my self to get help because i knew there was something not right with me.

As i grew in to a teenager and i got more rebellious towards my mom and siblings and i could not read write or understand the frustration in side was unbelieveable my friends at comp used to take the mickey out of me and i was bullied because of my learning difficulties.

And again as i was growing up i was put in care because my mom didnt wont me or couldnt cope with me that what she said but when you just wont your mom so bad through life you will do anything to get her attention and yes it got me attention it got me put in care.

when i went in to care i hated it i was lonley

i was isolated

i felt lost

i felt unwanted

and most of all i didnt understand why??i was moved several times in placements because i could not settle

i could not understand why why why was in care

well the last placement i was put in to i hated it i locked my self away i couldnt mix with anybody and all i did was cry and feel so lonley

when i was in care one of the foster children who grew up and left always came back to see the foster parents and there was something about him i did not trust and by god was i right

i was forced on several times to do things i didnt wont to do and he only came round when he knew the foster parents was out i begged the social worker involved to move they didnt believe me so i ended up a run away from care but it was the only way i could be free and left alone.

when i ran away i ended up in hostel after hostel going hungry been scared and more.all i used to do was cry and feel so desperate to get out of this life i was living.

on several occassions i tried to overdose because i just hated the life i was living and didnt understand why i had to live life like this.

THEN i moved back to walsall when i was 17 to be closer to my family big mistake i ended up again living in a hostel

then i ended up pregnant when i was 17 and my mom asked me to move home i felt happy my mom asking me this but the only reason why my mom wanted me to move home was because me pregnant not for me been wanted.i had my daughter and for 6 months i could not bond with my daughter and i felt god history going to repeat its self and it scared me but i felt like my life was been taken over me been told what to do how to be a mom and more when i didnt have a mom my self and me been told how to be a mom i never felt what love was through my life i never felt how my heart could feel by feeling what love was.

untill after me having my second child and i had my own home and i was so scared because my life was not fictional it was real and i had responsabilities.

then one day i was playing with my 2 children and my daughter came up to me looked me in the eyes and held my face with both of her hands and said mommy i love you and kissed me on the lips and my heart was going fast and what i felt i never felt in my life.

untill know it was the feeling of love and it was the best feeling i had ever felt in my life and from that day i never went back the love i had for my children grew and grew and stronger and stronger it got and i had more children and i loved my family so bad it was unreal.

and then my life changed again i had children with adhd and austism and god was it difficult i wont deny that then thats when social services got involved in my life and since that day i was always scared of them taking my children away.

and i did everything i could do to have to do everything for social services not to take my children but my life was like a roller coaster and i hated it i just wanted to be a family and not be scared of people coming in and taking my babies.

all i needed was alittle support but when i needed help social services walked in and walked out but when things was good they came in and removed my 4 babies walsall social services said we dont wont your big ones only the little ones and i felt ill i felt like i just wanted the ground to open up and just swollow me this was the nightmare that i didnt want to come true

they gave me two options

1] i hand my children over temporary and i get to see them

or

2] they will get a court order on me and i loose my kids for good and i could nt understand what they was saying because i found 2 yrs before i had adhd and dislexia and in my mind i though i cant not go with out seeing my babies so as much as i understood i had to choose the right one and i did.walsall social services said you have one week to prepare your children and oh my god what was i going to don say i didnt know nothing

my children god bless them even helped me pack there belongings and i had to tell my children that they was going to the sea side what else could i have said to my babies who there selves was in a bad way and so was my big ones

when the day came for my children too be taken i was shaking i was thinking this is a bad joke and more

and the first too go was my 2 little ones i could not let them go and my babies was hanging off me i said babies i aint giving up and i will not stop fighting for u i promice i loved them both kissed them and then they was driven away and 2 hours later my other too babies was too be taken and again i could not let them go and we all was lost in a mess and didnt know were to turn and i put my babies in to the car and the social worker put her hands on my shoulder and said we got to go i said get you hand of me and i will be ready when i am and i made the same promice to my other 2 children as i did to my 2 children who was ready to go and i loved them and kissed them and then i moved away and shut the car door and all my babies was gone i fell on the floor and i couldnt move i felt empty lost still could not understand and then after a 10 minuites i got up and walked in the house then this is were my fight started

well here goes the second part and last part of my story

When i got my self of knees from when my children were taken i went to my babies bedroom and sat in there room all night and i was holding a teddy that was left behind.i sat there thinking were do i go from here and how do i start to fight for my babies everything was going round in my head and i didnt know were to turn but i thought i made a promice to my family and it was make or break for me well i was not going to break so since that day in march 2012 i have never turned back.

my first court case was in march 2013 and because social services said i have done massive changes and more they was going to give me my children back and i was so excited so were my family then when we got to court the social worker lied on oath in court UZMA kauser and even the judge said my case is unique and she commends me then in court uzma kauser changed her mind about giving me my children back she said because of my childrens emotional state in care.

and when the decision came after me fighting since my children had been taken and the soclicitor nicholas james wood would not put my eveidence in to court neither would he put my wittnessess in to court either and i was begging for this to all go in to court for along time

and the social worker usma kauser and the solicitor nicholas james wood had concerns for the foster parents and schools lying and both neither brought up in court i was gutted then on the 14th of may 2013 the decision came in and they got my children on lies and more and i just broke i fell on the floor in the court room and could nt stop sobbing my partner did not know what to do but the guardians solicitor in 2013 said to my partner clare will get her babies back.

i eventually got of the floor again after been knocked down twice know well i remembered the look in the my babies eyes iv never seen so much pain in a childs face as that day my babies were taken

So again i got up walked away and started fighting again

in december 2013 i put in for discharge on my case i would not let this go and with all the mistreatment on my babies there was no way i was backing down for anyone so i did this and in 2014 my case started again for the second time around

i was so scared and nervous i didnt walk in court and think i would walk away with out my children again but i was there to get the truth out

and the judge seen through walsall council straight away and what she had to say i couldnt believe a judge got the truth out of a system like she did and walsall council admitted everything on my case and more

the social worker ann louise hughes walsall social worker the judge seen through her straight away

and the guardian dianne jackson got the stand and too be honest never said anything bad and she said she does have no problem with me so why did she go against me when nothing bad was said

jane swancott the guardians solicitor had a conversation with another solicitor and spread her concerns on the reports on case and jane swancott admitted in front of a barrister that she had lied to me mom clare

so the day of the verdict on case again

was that

i put in for discharge too early after 2 yrs

and im emotion when i see my children

yes i am when theres mistreatment on my children and its been covered up

so just for these two reasons walsall council have my children on these rediculous excuses for keeping my children

so know my fight has not stopped

its clare wakeman vs walsall council

and i will not stop till there is one judge who is real and knows what justice is

but you know to learn the hard way in life is so hard its unreal

but in another way it makes you so strong and gives you the strength and will to get through to fight for all you have and love

thank you

clare wakeman xxxxxxxxxxxx

the mistreatment on my children in the walsall foster system started in augest2013

this is when i knew things were not right

in augest 2013 my 4 children came to contact and we all had fun and dinner together it was great

then about half an hour before we was going to tidy up i noticed my son was getting frustrated and very fidigity

well i knew some thing was wrong cus i had been were my son was

all of a suddon my son would not let me go and then what happened next just frightened me to death

my son sat in the corner of the room he stared rocking and sayong mom please i beg you dont let me go back to the foster carers he was begging me

me my partner and the contact workers stood there in dis belief 2 more contact workers came in the room and the manager

then i went to go by the door my son jumped up and ran to the door and would not let me go my girls was astericle and more

the other mistreatment on my children is

heads full of headlice and i dont just mean head lice the head lice had atched and crawling

my kids have come to contact that hungry they have even eaten mine and there dads dina and there own

marks and bruises on there bodies

burn mark on my daughters finger of a barbeque

my 5 yr old has come to contact with a full blown grown up smack mark on her thigh

my 2 daughters have come to contact with wounds on there finger nails with infection coming out of fingers

my daughter has come to contact smelling of wee

my daughter has a bad skin condition and the foster carers have not sent cream most of the time then through contact my daughter has scratched her self that bad untill she has bled

she has rubbed her feet that bad in to carpert at contact and made her feet bleed

when i have taken my children to the toilet they have been raw below

and theres been more

my son has been sent to bed without is tea on several occassions

i went to walsall police station on several occassions

i went every were possible to get my children help

and you know me protecting my children got me

that social services stopped me seeing my babies

and they have come down on me like a tun of bricks

thats whats happening to my children and other children in walsall social services

4. from me been knocked dwn again i got up and i really dont know what made me have the strength to keep getting up and it was because i have never forgotten the hurt in my babies eyes and iv never seen so much pain to me my past was nothing when i saw that hurt and pain in my babies eyes 

so again in 2014 my fight started again and believe me i so did not know again were to start so the only way i could start was from the begiging again but i was am more wiser this time 

and confident and the more you have been knocked dwn the harder you fall but the harder you get back uphere went again court case 3 but this time a three day trial went in to a 13 week trial and this is because the judge knew the lies of 

ann louise hughes

she didnt even get angela hudson on the stand

but harminder knew me and the kids was telling the truth about the mistreatment but never stood up in court and admitted untill after court

wwell to me this social worker with the new one has failled in there duty and has put my children at more risk

and this is what the judge said

I SUPPOSE WHAT I AM I SAYING IS THAT THIS APPLICATION WAS TOO SOON AFTER 3 YRS AND MY BABIES WAS ONLY SUPPOSED TO OF BEEN SHORT TERM FOSTERING BUT ILLEGALLY AGAIN THIS WAS DONE

I HAVE MY PARENTS BUT HAVE BEEN STOPPED ILLEGALLY

THEY STOPPED MY CONTACT ILLEGALLY JUST CUS I FOUND OUT THE TRUTH ON THE MISTREATMENT AND MORE ON MY CHILDREN WELL WHEN YOU HAVE BEEN ABUSED YOUR SELF YOU CAN SEE IT FROM A MILE OFF

I WENT TO WALSALL POLICE STAION AND THEY TURNED THERE BACKS ON MY CHILDREN WHICH IS MISCONDUCT OF DUTY TO PROTECT CHILDREN

THE JUDGE SAYS I HOPE MISS WAKEMAN WILL GO ON BUILDING ON WHAT SHE HAS ACHIEVED ALREADY

AND TOO ME THIS IS SAYING IV DONE EVERYTHING AND MORE

THE JUDGE ORDERED SOCIAL SERVICES TO PLAN A REHIBILITATION OF MY CHILDREN TO BE RETURNED HOME

WALSALL COUNCIL HAVE BREACHED THIS ORDER OVER AND OVER AGAIN

AND THEY HAVE JUST PUT MY CHILDREN AT MORE RISK AND AT EMOTIONAL HARM WHICH IN THE SAFE GUARDING GUIDELINES IS AGAINST THE LAW

SO KNOW WE ARE IN 2015 AND MY FINAL FIGHT IS COMING HARDER AND STRONGER THAN EVER I HAVE ALL I NEED TO STOP THE CORRUPTION IN WALSALL COUNCIL SO I WILL STANDING WITH MY HEAD UP HIGH AND I WILL BE STANDING TO WHO EVER IT TAKES TO PROVE ALL THE FALLINGS AND JUSTICE TO MY FAMILY BUT NOT JUST TO MY FAMILY BUT OTHERS I HAVE OTHER CASES ON WALSALL COUNCILS FAILLING S AND MORE

AND WALSALL COUNCIL YOU CANT HURT ME NO MORE YOU HAVE DONE MORE TO ME THAN I HAVE EVER FELT SO MUCH PAIN IN MY LIFE SO ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS WALSALL COUNCIL I HAVE THE TRUTH SO I WONT BE BULLIED IN BACKING DOWN ANYMORE

THANK YOU CLARE WAKEMAN

more on Clare Wakemans blog [1]  and [5] Clare Wakeman Story Part 2 [5]

I would urge anyone else having problems to write down what is happening to you. It is a record, a witness of what has happened to you. The more people do this and join together the better placed we are to overcome the forces that are doing these bad things. We have much to overcome. It will take time, but we will win. It is vital that everyone tells their story- whether it is in writing, on tape or video, in a picture, a poem whatever format you like- but tell your story.  Then we need to join the pieces of the jigsaw together. Together we are strong. Our time is coming.

I do not know many links for forced adoption help but a couple are below.  Join together and help each other.

Please note that victims of abuse may be triggered by reading this information. The Sanctuary for the Abused [A] has advice on how to prevent triggers.  National Association for People Abused in Childhood [B] has a freephone helpline and has links to local support groups. Other useful sites are One in Four [C] and Havoca [D]. Useful post on triggers [E] from SurvivorsJustice [F] blog.

Links

[1] Clare Wakemans blog https://meggiemom342.wordpress.com/

[2] Facebook page Mothers and Dads (M.A.D) https://www.facebook.com/MADUNITED?fref=ts

[3] Forced Adoption.com http://forced-adoption.com/

[4] Children Screaming to be Heard http://www.childrenscreamingtobeheard.com/

[5] Clare Wakeman Story Part 2 https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2015/02/17/my-story-clare-wakeman-part-2/

[A] Sanctuary for the Abused http://abusesanctuary.blogspot.co.uk/2006/07/for-survivors-coping-with-triggers-if.html

[B] NAPAC http://www.napac.org.uk/

[C] One in Four http://www.oneinfour.org.uk/

[D] Havoca http://www.havoca.org/HAVOCA_home.htm

[E] SurvivorsJustice Triggers post http://survivorsjustice.com/2014/02/26/triggers-what-are-they-and-how-do-we-work-through-them/

[F] SurvivorsJustice Blog http://survivorsjustice.com/

This is all written in good faith but if there is anything that needs to be corrected please email cathyfox@bigfoot.com.

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25 Responses to My Story Clare Wakeman Part 1

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  2. l8in says:

    Reblogged this on L8in.

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    Reblogged this on ElderofZyklon's Blog!.

  4. Nigel says:

    Your work will not be forgotten .. Thanks

  5. pippakin says:

    So sorry this happens, Clare and her children are not the only victims the system or is it an industry? Is unhelpful, some social workers are very good but many are not. I hope Clare will find strong legal support because the Family Courts have incredible power over families both parents and children.

    Well done Cathy Fox for broaching a very serious and often hidden subject.

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  8. meggiemom says:

    Iv never met one good social worker yet and I dnt need legal help anymore thank you the Walsall council is a national disgrace and I want bow dwn to anyone who bulls them up after what they have done
    The pictures on my children I was sick when I seem them and lies and more

  9. meggiemom says:

    And Cathy god bless u
    Ur brilliant xxx

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  11. meggiemom says:

    Reblogged this on fighting for the rights of childrens human rights and commented:
    Cathy I owe u a big big thank you this will mean so much to my children xxxx

  12. artmanjosephgrech says:

    Another important contribution. Some of us will spend the rest of lives making sure enough is enough and there must be lasting changes for the Better

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