Green Tree is the first in my series of haunted fairy tale art songs.
My Green tree video reflects the way my mind worked after I was molested at the age of 12. It is filled with struggle through nightmare flashbacks and fantasy escapes. In a surreal fictional way the video visits that time in my life. Through art I am sharing what once shamed me.
Ellen Boscov Green Tree Video 
At the time, I was too innocent to understand my own innocence. I didn’t understand why I froze – I wondered why I didn’t do or say anything to try and stop it. I didn’t know that freezing was a normal survival instinct. I have loving parents, but I hid it from them. I didn’t think I could speak to anyone about it. It’s a sweet victory to share this childhood trauma through art.
If you relate to the pain and violation the girl feels in Green Tree, I hope you will see the innocence of the girl. I hope in empathizing with the girl, you will feel for yourself. And I want you to know that you are not alone.
Ellen Boscov’s website 
Please note that victims of abuse may be triggered by reading this information. These links are generally UK based.
- The Sanctuary for the Abused [A] has advice on how to prevent triggers.
- National Association for People Abused in Childhood [B] has a freephone helpline and has links to local support groups.
- Other useful sites are One in Four [C]
- and Havoca [D].
- Useful post on Triggers [E] from SurvivorsJustice [F] blog.
- Jim Hoppers pages on Mindfulness [G] and Meditation [H] may be useful.
- Hwaairfan blog An Indigenous Australian Approach to Healing Trauma [J]
- Survivors UK for victims and survivors of male rape or the sexual abuse of men [K]
- Voicing CSA group [L] helps arrange survivors meetings in your area