I have posted before about HG (also called JJ) and some of the problems she has had with family child sexual abuse and further sexual abuse by the Church.
This post illustrates how powerful people or bodies like the church can align with a powerful corrupt gang like Hampshire Police to make a child abuse victim homeless and give them no hope. The perpetrators of abuse seem able to control the actions of the police to the detriment of the victim, even to the extent of making her homeless as she tries to make them accountable for their actions.
HG has had endless problems with the Church of England, Winchester Diocese and Deanery of Jersey trying to minimise their culpability, exposure and no doubt financial liability.
- 2014 May 9 Korris Report – Jersey, Child Abuse and the Church. HG’s Story 
- 2015 Mar 30 Open Letter to Jan Korris – Jersey Church Abuse of HG 
A tragic update to HG’s situation is that HG who is on the autistic spectrum, disabled, vulnerable female adult, has now been made homeless by the actions of the Church, Police and authorities.
In 2016 Police launched Operation Amberstone and on September 5th 2016 the police turned up at her home, released her old identity to her landlord, neighbours and housemates, and left her terrified driven out of her home and on the run.
The Police didn’t have a warrant and couldn’t explain themselves. For weeks afterwards they sent letters using HG’s old name, and a massive formal complaint against them was made.
“Since the 2016 police actions, I have been terrified to settle, as I have no idea how they traced me, I have stayed a few weeks or months here and there, mostly worse accommodations than before the 2016 police actions, and no permanent home.”
More information is here OpnLttr.com I’m being bullied and destroyed by Operation Amberstone 
In Jun 2018 HG suffered violence from the notoriously corrupt and child abuser friendly Hampshire Police. Due to this she says “I am still hurt, my left arm and hand has suffered nerve damage, so I have no feeling in the arm and hand. I am severely psychologically harmed on top of the harm already suffered.”
“The police took my laptop and all my evidence, books, blogs, documents etc in the effort to silence me. The police attack recently left me completely homeless”
“I am still at risk of further police punishment as I have stood up to them. There is a complaint with the police conduct office, but the local police are corrupt and violent and I cannot say where I am.”
“The police know how to turn their cameras off and lie in order to use violence on victims, they even assaulted me repeatedly in a cell where they should have been on camera. I am basically waiting for them to have me imprisoned or killed for my abusers, and I am voiceless.”
“Among other things, as I am likely to die in police custody as the police are harassing and destroying me for my abusers, would you make sure they read my death in custody letterand my Police Violence Poster”
For her letter see HG My wishes upon my inevitable death in police custody because of Hampshire Constabulary [Appendix 1 and ] and for her poster of which I have copied the text in red below, due to technical difficulties.
Police Violence Poster. Because I believe they will be back for the last blow.
NO MORE VIOLENCE BY HAMPSHIRE CONSTABULARY AGAINST THE VULNERABLE!
LET MY DEATH BE THE LAST ONE of many. THINK HOW YOU WOULD FEEL IF IT WAS YOU ON THE RECEIVING END!
For further details on the Police’s violent assault see Police Formal Complaint Appendix 2.
I asked HG if she could see a way forward out of homelessness for her.
I don’t think there is a way out of homelessness while the church and police haven’t been restrained from harming me.
It is too risky to settle, as they find me. I tried since 2013, rebuilt my life as described on life after the diocese, but it has all been destroyed.
What I want done is proper police regulation, and proper church regulation. I want the church’s fake safeguarding and PR campaign to end and for people to see the truth. Nothing has changed just because Welby-Damned and Sentamu have been taught awful PR strategies to mislead the press, public and IICSA.
I want to be heard. I have suffered and been damned beyond bearing.
Other comments HG made to me are
- “You know about the information sharing system, don’t you? Police, Social Services, council, NHS etc?. Well the church and police have always influenced that against me to their advantage, so I will never be helped by social services or the council.
- Social services behaved appallingly in allowing harm to me by Jane Fisher to continue and making me out to be nuts for asking for their protection, they have not contacted me this time apart from on behalf of the spine clinic who were worried about me the other week, and when they contacted me it was just a mumbled ‘can we help?’ and to be honest, with the inaccurate records and with them never having helped me before, the answer was no.
- The local council process to be housed involves about a 2 year wait, 50 pages of red tape and me having to try and explain the decade of church-police branding, which I can’t as I do not even know what convictions or brandings I am actually under, and then they would simply dump me in among the addicts and alcoholics, if they hadn’t already demanded I stay in a hostel among them as a requirement of the process. I am too vulnerable and damaged for any of it.
- I have very little money. All of my work relied on home, car, health and computer. As you may know from my blog, I was a gardener, delivery driver and freelance writer.
- In January this year I was diagnosed with a broken spine and severe misalignments, the NHS had spent years telling me it was all in my head, but the broken spine is likely to be as a result of the police beating on behalf of the previous Bishop and safeguarding officer in 2011.
- Unfortunately benefits would take months to claim and I haven’t the energy to fight the DWP again, they recently took my disability benefits away despite the evidence of my condition, and so I lost the treatment needed to save my spine”
HG says that the people who had her arrested were Tim, Sally and Anna Dakin, Jackie Rowlands and Mat Phipps. (The latter are safeguarding official and chaplain to the Bishop of Winchester).
A guide to HG’s childhood is here and it makes for interesting but heartbreaking reading. The eighth child of fifteen, and first unwanted one by her mother. It includes sexual abuse from a brother, much bullying and much moving around. 2017 HG Jersey Stepping out of the Circle 78 pages . Interestingly it also includes her mother, fighting to prove the guilt of Greville Janner as one of the local kerbcrawlers! For Janner see more here 2014 Jul What really Happened In The Church Blog The Beck and Janner situation – a witness account 
A brief explanation of what happened HG as an adult is included here  2013 Jul 12 Brief Transcript of the Victims Story 16 pages.
All parts of this story are told on her blogs ‘Life after the Diocese’, and ‘The anything and Everything Blog’ as well as through her books available from Lulu HG’s books 
The Hill Report is an account of what happened to HG in Jersey and around the time of the Korris Report and her deportation from Jersey, at the instigation of the Church  2017 May 28 HG Review Team The Hill Report Brief Version 89 pages
The Church of England have gone from cover up to cover up, have refused to take full responsibility, despite their safeguarding responsibility when a vicars husband sexually assaulted her.
This is a letter HG wrote to point out to the Church what they were doing to her 2017 Oct 22 Letter to Tim Dakin A letter to the Bishop of Winchester regarding his abuse of me and abuse of power in public office 
They appear to have ignored this and so another was sent 2018 Feb 15 Reminder / Escalated Formal Complaint Bishop Tim Dakin and Jackie Rowlands 1 page [Appendix 3 ]
Finally the Steel Report is a report that HG wrote as a parody of the hate attack by Jersey’s States, Deanery and Judiciary through their own judge, Heather Steel 2015 May 5 Steel Investigation Report- General Public and Church Sample 53 pages 
The people that HG has asked for help from in the past few weeks are
the council, social services, the Lord Lieutenant, the local MP, CCPAS, the Bishops and Archbishop, the National Safeguarding Team, SCIE (who do whitewash audits for the church), and numerous others.
No one, in the years of raising the profile of the case, even to the Prime Minister and home secretary, has helped, and few have answered. No one stands up to the church, and the record they have got me means no one believes me.
I have written to Batt-Broadbent, the solicitors who advised both Bishops to have me arrested and imprisoned. I have written cc the legal ombudsman as Batt Broadbent are responsible for advising the Bishop and their advice tends to be repetitive, to use the police against me to silence me and to get me flung in court after 24 hours in a cell to hear the unchallenged lies read out.
This time it went wrong because it was a Friday night when they arrested me, so no court, they had to let me go, and then mysteriously ?dropped the charges. They still haven’t told me what is happening.
Who did HG contact and ask for help during and since the 3 year press and media whitewash of her case? This is from Steel Investigation Report- General Public and Church Sample 
During the three years of unjust smears, conflicted reports and press and media distortions of her case, HG asked many people for help, but because of the church’s power and the authorities being afraid to challenge them or complicit, there wasn’t a good response, when the Church damned HG for being abused and speaking up, they damned her to the police, NHS and all sources of help as well as publicly. Here are just some of the people she contacted then and since: ( This is from the Steel Report)
- The police -refused to act, made her out to be mad from their and the church records, blocked her. Periodically the police attack the victim for the church, ensuring that she has to remain homeless.
- Social Services – the same as the police.
- BACP regarding Jan Korris, they failed to take action
- National Autistic Society, begged for protection but they ignored and blocked her
- The Archbishop, every week from 2013 to now, ignores every contact
- The Archbishop’s council, as above
- The Bishops and officials involved in the matter, as above
- The National Safeguarding team and provincial safeguarding advisor, as above after they failed to force their agenda and views on HG and now they advise every member of church and clergy to ignore her.
- The Archbishop of York, initially seemed to take the matter seriously, but it turned out that he had protected abusers as well as the Archbishop of Canterbury, and he tried to block the case, along with his safeguarding director.
- Clergy discipline panel, so conflicted and willing to defend the indefensible that they threatened the victim and said they didn’t understand the evidence, they were advised to resign if very strong evidence of the Bishop of Winchester’s misconduct was hard to understand, and the matter was passed back to the conflicted Archbishop who had just upheld the Bishop and Bob Key on Radio Jersey. There is no adequate discipline system in place in the Church.
- IPSO, Ofcom, ITV, BBC, the Bailiwick Express and the JEP about the press and media hate attacks. No adequate response or redaction, no apology, no broadcast of my concerns, if the church tell the press and media to broadcast, then they do, if the church tell them not to, they don’t.
- The courts, the Bishop was taken to court and he was told he could not release his reports without the victim’s agreement to the content, and 40 days notice, he failed to arrange this and lied to the press and media instead. He did not stop harming the victim as a result of being taken to court.
- The NSPCC regarding their illegal actions, John Cameron, Peter Wanless, Siobhan Sheridan, they didn’t respond well.
- The Serious Case Review Panel, they didn’t respond well.
- The Ecclesiastical committee. No response
- House of Lord whips and chairs regarding the Bishops and Archbishop – inadequate response
- Tony Baldry, church official and representative of the church in parliament. Poor response.
- The Prime Ministers, poor response. Home Secretary, the same.
- The States of Jersey and Chief Minister, poor response. Jersey States complaints, the same.
- Jan Korris, poor response
- John Gladwin, upheld the Jersey Deanery and Dame Steel
- Jersey Safeguarding Partnership, refused to correspond except to try to force the whitewash report publication.
- Heather Steel, hostile response.
- Winchester University as the Bishop of Winchester is a safeguarding risk. They don’t want it to be a reality but had to acknowledge.
- Winchester College and Pilgrims School, as above,
- Every school in the Diocese and the County Council, all prefer Jane Fisher’s branding of HG to social services rather than being concerned about the safety of those at risk from the Bishop.
- Local safeguarding officials at Winchester and Canterbury, they ignore her block her, and continue to uphold the wrongdoers.
- Every senior clergy and official in every diocese in the country. Minimal response, efforts by some to make sure others didn’t read correspondence, no action .
- Every church in the country, minimal response.
- Charities, support agencies, safeguarding partnerships, minimal response
- Adult Safeguarding Chairs. HG is on the damned by one, damned by all system so these won’t help her even if she is raped, abused, exploited, murdered, their statement will be that she deserved it.
- Social Care Institute for Excellence, who were doing a safeguarding audit based only on what Bishops had to say on safeguarding. They didn’t respond well, apparently offered to help the church whitewash the matter.
- Skills for care, who helped the Archbishop to glorify himself over the Peter Ball case and claim that safeguarding is better, which my case refutes, Skills haven’t responded.
When someone is abused by the Church of England, there is nowhere whatsoever to turn for help or protection, because everywhere is conflicted or complicit, or afraid to act, which is what the church relies on, which is why the Church needs to be regulated from the outside, and safeguarding needs to be from the outside.
If you can please leave messages of support for HG on this blog, and maybe put pressure on some of the people who have caused this situation.
See below for links and appendices
- The Sanctuary for the Abused [A] has advice on how to prevent triggers.
- National Association for People Abused in Childhood [B] has a freephone helpline and has links to local support groups.
- One in Four [C]
- Havoca [D].
- Useful post on Triggers [E] from SurvivorsJustice [F] blog.
- Jim Hoppers pages on Mindfulness [G] and Meditation [H] may be useful.
- Hwaairfan blog An Indigenous Australian Approach to Healing Trauma [J]
- Survivors UK for victims and survivors of male rape or the sexual abuse of men [K]
- Voicing CSA group [L] helps arrange survivors meetings in your area
- A Prescription for me blog Various emotional support links [M]
- Fresh Start Foundation Scottish not for profit group, helping child sexual abuse victims & survivors [N]
 2014 May 9 Cathy Fox Blog Korris Report – Jersey, Child Abuse and the Church. HG’s Story https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2014/05/09/korris-report-jersey-child-abuse-and-the-church-hgs-story/
 2015 Mar 30 Cathy Fox Blog Open Letter to Jan Korris – Jersey Church Abuse of HG https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/open-letter-to-jan-korris/
 2017 Oct 22 Letter to Tim Dakin A letter to the Bishop of Winchester regarding his abuse of me and abuse of power in public office https://cathyfox.files.wordpress.com/2018/07/a-letter-to-the-bishop-of-winchester-regarding-his-abuse-of-me-and-abuse-of-power-in-public-office-1-1.odt 5 pages
 2017 Oct 28 HG Jersey Stepping out of the Circle https://cathyfox.files.wordpress.com/2018/07/jersey-stepping-out-of-the-circle.odt A guide to the background I came from to end up suffering two decades of church abuse and cover-up. 78 pages
 HG My wishes upon my inevitable death in police custody because of Hampshire Constabulary https://cathyfox.files.wordpress.com/2018/07/my-wishes-upon-my-inevitable-death-in-police-custody-because-of-hampshire-constabulary.odt 2 pages
 2018 Feb 15 Reminder/Escalated Formal Complaint Bishop Tim Dakin and Jackie Rowlands https://cathyfox.files.wordpress.com/2018/07/reminder.odt 1 page See Appendix 3
 2015 May 5 Steel Investigation Report- General Public and Church Sample https://cathyfox.files.wordpress.com/2018/07/steel-investigation-public.odt 53 pages My own ‘Steel Report’ which I wrote as a parody of the hate attack by Jersey’s States, Deanery and Judiciary through their own judge, Heather Steel
 2017 May 28 HG Review Team The Hill Report Brief Version https://cathyfox.files.wordpress.com/2018/07/the-hill-report-brief-version.odt 89 pages
 2013 Jul 12 Brief Transcript of the Victims Story https://cathyfox.files.wordpress.com/2018/07/victims-story-for-michael-curry.odt 16 pages
 2014 Jul What really Happened In The Church Blog The Beck and Janner situation – a witness account https://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.com/2014/07/the-beck-and-janner-situation-witness.html#.Wz-7pLhG3cc
 What really Happened In The Church Blog https://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.com HG’s Blog
 2016 Sep 28 OpnLttr.com I’m being bullied and destroyed by Operation Amberstone https://www.opnlttr.com/letter/im-being-bullied-and-destroyed-operation-amberstone
 Wikipedia MAPPA https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Multi-Agency_Public_Protection_Arrangement archive https://archive.is/u3Z6N
 2013 Dec 5 cathy Fox blog Operation Bullfinch Oxford Child Grooming Report Released https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2013/12/05/operation-bullfinch-oxford-child-grooming-report-released/
Appendix 1 HG My wishes upon my inevitable death in police custody because of Hampshire Constabulary 
Appendix 2 Police Formal Complaint
Appendix 3 Letter to Dakin 5 pages 2017 Oct 22 Letter to Tim Dakin A letter to the Bishop of Winchester regarding his abuse of me and abuse of power in public office 
Appendix 4 Letter to Dakin 1 page 2018 Feb 15 Reminder / Escalated Formal Complaint Bishop Tim Dakin and Jackie Rowlands 1 page ]
Appendix 1  HG My wishes upon my inevitable death in police custody because of Hampshire Constabulary’s agreement to protect my abusers and silence me.
- First and foremost, don’t let my death be in vain. Make sure that the police and church are properly regulated and that their shameful lies and branding of me are not what is heard in the press in my death. Let my story be heard after this horrific and shameful decade of the police beating and imprisoning me for my abusers and refusing to act against them or restrain them from harming me.
- My family, my birth family, are not to be contacted on the event of my death, they are not my next of kin and they have shunned and disowned me firstly because of me reporting my brother’s abuse of me in order to protect my younger siblings from him and secondly because of the church publicly destroying me and having me imprisoned and homeless for reporting abuse.
- The rubbish on hospital and NHS records including the false next of kin, are nothing to do with me, as far as I know, the one of my abusers they refuse to remove as my next of kin, even though that is illegally on there, is dead, and no one connected to that person, a member of the church of England, is to be contacted.
- I no longer have a next of kin due to the police and church’s relentless destruction of me that has driven me from friends, help and community, so though it makes it easier for the police to murder me for my abusers, no one needs to be informed, there is no one to grieve me and the police and church have destroyed me beyond healing, so death will be a good thing, it is obvious from the recent police beating and imprisonment that my death is what we all want.
- There is to be an overarching inquiry, and the investigators are not to be hand picked by the church out of their interconflicted police, judges, high ranking Masons, politicians etc, example, Fiona Woolf, Dame Butler-Sloss, Heather Steel, etc. The inquiry is to cover all the material that I and others have produced and that the church who publicly destroyed me have tried to say is harassment in order to silence me.
- Every officer who has used violence against me because I am vulnerable and they think that they can get away with it, every officer who has jeered, lied, injured me, is to face action, and the profile of police violence against the vulnerable is to be raised and there must be an awareness campaign. I haven’t given up my life for fun, but to speak for those who have no voice, so that no one will ever have to live with the utter and unrelenting hell that I have for the past decade.
- I would like to be returned home to my channel islands in death, and laid to rest with the lights of Casquets and Corbiere to comfort my soul as I sleep. Bishop Tim Dakin’s determination to take my life means that he should be the one to officiate at my death, I am sure, considering that he was the one who made up his mind and the church’s mind and police’s mind, to take my life, he will consider that a happy outcome.
- Make it quick, Hampshire Constabulary, considering that you have left me with a permanent injury to my arm, I should think you can do again as you did the other week, convenient loss of body camera and a few lies as you strike me hard between the head and neck. I will never recover from your gross violence and negligence and aiding of my abusers so to be honest it is for the best.
- My name is Jayne Harris and that is what is to be recorded in the police, courts, press and media when the final violence has been carried out. The use of my old name is as illegal in my death as it is in my life.
- My complaints against the police and church are to stand in my death as they have in my life, as are my complaints of NHS failure and NHS/Damned by one damned by all system being used to discredit and harm me because of my abusers and the police. The ‘conspiracy theory’ lies by police are ridiculous and are not to be used to slur me when the police and church have me put down.
- This letter is to go to the coroner when the police kill me for my abusers.
Appendix 2 Serious formal complaint against Hampshire Constabulary etc
It’s belatedly time for the Bishop of Winchester to leave his position and to be brought to justice for his crimes against a vulnerable adult.
A description of serious harm to me by Hampshire Constabulary on behalf of the Church of England on June 15th to 16th.
A letter to the Bishop of Winchester regarding his abuse of me and abuse of power in public office, sent CC the police, who cannot continue to withold action against the Bishop. 22/10/17
Dear Bishop Tim Dakin,
You are aware of my distress at your wrong behaviour, and you are aware of Bob Hill being forced to defend my life with his own, nearly losing his life, and being left severely disabled. As you are aware of this, and of your dishonesty in publicly destroying me, there is no excuse for your silence as I go on suffering. You have a duty of care, and your dishonesty against me publicly has not been resolved. So your silence is inappropriate and an abuse.
In 2013 you launched on me and you launched on the man who had me destroyed. I was street homeless, profoundly traumatized, and without any access to help due to your Diocese having me branded and driven from services that would have helped me. However, the man who destroyed me, who you also launched upon, had money, power, a home paid for by the church, lawyers, powerful friends in government, and all the tools needed to ensure that your attack on us both was turned solely upon me, and I was destroyed publicly for three years by him and his clergy and laity, and by you, as you scapegoated me to cover your misconduct in your public launch against me.
Your scapegoating because you were unwilling to be responsible for your wrongdoing, led to Bob Hill giving up his retirement to fight for me, his integrity and courage earned him 31 years in the MET police with a BEM for his work with the vulnerable, and nearly 20 years in the States, challenging the evil and corrupt men who you enabled to destroy me. Your dishonesty and cowardice cost a good man his life, a man who didn’t wear frocks and stand in front of an elderly and narrowminded congregation as part of an untruth as you do, but a man who instead lived what Jesus preached and exampled while you treated and treat what Jesus taught and exampled with contempt, indeed what you have done is abuse, and 18 months of you continuing to preach and hold office after what you have done is a very terrible thing in God’s eyes. You took my life to protect yourself, and you think you can represent Christ? In order to represent Christ, you have to take responsibility and punishment for what you have knowingly done.
In everyday life, if I am recognized, people repeat the church’s hateful public condemnation of me back to me, because my side wasn’t recorded to balance things out, each time that happens, I am destroyed and it nearly causes instant suicide, and will cause instant suicide at some point as I am worn down You are responsible, you had me destroyed over the destruction of me already carried out by the church.
What you have done against me is a prolonged act of criminal harm, abuse, harassment. Your predecessor, Scott-Joynt had already destroyed me for his failures, having me brutalized, imprisoned, left homeless, slandered to homeless services, my community, friends and family, but he died in denial but without being able to escape the fact that he had done wrong, all the applause for him on earth is worth nothing as his lack of repentance has taken him to hell. But you took everything he and the rogue safeguarding director Jane Fisher did to me and used it to publicly destroy me, spewing their side of things into every press and media without redaction, apology or mercy. You ignored my screams of anguish with a coldness that belies your more recent forced pretences of care, and you destroyed everything I tried to build, taking my life, friends, home, work, and most recently my university studies, because I couldn’t sustain those things against your harm to me.
During the three years in which you had me publicly destroyed and hid behind your expensive PR firm and lawyers, spewing out discrediting lies about me and my case to protect yourself while I suffered beyond belief, you failed to make sure I had the same voice and PR representation, you had a lone homeless vulnerable adult destroyed, without apology, without redactions or corrections and without her voice being published in her defence, what you did was an ultimate act of cruelty and abuse, on a par with chaining a dog and kicking it in the face relentlessly, and yet the police would have been quicker to take action if you had done that to a dog, than they are being with what you have done to a human being.
The National Safeguarding Team’s liaison with you to hush the matter up at my expense and defend your open abuse of me, has severely damaged me and invalidated them, they have reverted to your and their policy of silence to make the victim go away, a national church of england policy, but, it has not made your responsibility or the injustice go away. They should all have left their positions for aiding you in your attempt on my life and the cover-ups as well as behaving as they have, and putting a vulnerable life in danger and condoning your abuse. But you remain unrepentant, unpunished, and most importantly, liable.
Your silence will never make this matter go away, what it will do will make people ask why you were silent as I suffered, when your liability is obvious, and why you went on officiating without a conscience.
You remain obliged, if you are to go on officiating, to provide equivalent money and resources for my side of things to be heard in the press and media on the same level as you allowed my abusers and their supporters to be upheld in the press and media for three years. You are also obliged to remove the Korris report from online, state my views on it and offer a public apology and redaction, you haven’t done so, and your fake apologies for the benefit of your back-covering press releases don’t count.
You need to show integrity in explaining that your public whipping of me stemmed from the cover up of your rogue safeguarding officer who destroyed me to protect the church, while she was also a reader in your diocese, and although her wrongdoing was open, you ignored my complaints against her and didn’t publicly flog her or anyone else who had harmed me, I alone was publicly horsewhipped for the church’s crimes, on top of the church’s cruel and remorseless destruction of me which the Korris report was created and shared internationally to cover up for and permanently shame and silence me.
I gather you were banking on my suicide in the first year, 2013, so that you could unchallenged destroy me in death, it hasn’t worked out, although I am living death, and I want justice before I die, and I hold you solely responsible for the whole matter. I want your resignation and I want police action against you. And I don’t care that the church’s vast interconflicted power and fear of the church has meant that the police and all other agencies and bodies have refused to act upon your harm to me so far, you have taken my life and left me living death, and you go and stand in church and try to preach about Jesus, when no risk assessment has been done on you for your callous severely destructive harm to me. You have shown such disregard for my life and wellbeing, despite all your incredibly hypocritical pretences, that, as I told the University of Winchester, no matter what their bias in favour of the church is, you pose a safeguarding risk to vulnerable students.
You also pose a risk to the vulnerable in any church-related organization, and children in schools, one of the reasons that offending by clergy is so prolific is that the church don’t safeguard, and no organization dares to stand up to the church, and all of you abusive clergy can access the vulnerable easily through church-linked organizations, and that will continue until the church are regulated to prevent lawless interconfliction and clergy use of institutions for the vulnerable as unpaid brothels. What you have done to me is on a par with any clergyman abusing a vulnerable adult in those settings, no worse, most don’t boast about their abuse in the press and media as you did while you abused me.
Your more recent safeguarding officer, Jackie Rowlands has exampled how nothing has changed in safeguarding since rogue safeguarding officer Jane Fisher, who destroyed me, left quietly without being subject to any embarassment for her conduct, think of that in the context of the way you destroyed me, Fisher broke the law with impunity to drive and hound me even after she had made me homeless, her actions would have driven most to suicide, just as yours would. You tried to ignore the complaint against her and allowed her to go on being harmfully involved against me in your destruction of me, until she quietly left, no defamation of her in the press as there was with me, nor too, was the real reason Bob Key left his position advertised, he was also lauded and upheld, not even held to account by the press and media who you destroyed me with.
Jackie Rowlands has tried to ignore my disclosure of abuse against you, tried to do as your staff and the national safeguarding team do to me and other victims, put the phone down and ignore emails. Safeguarding who? Well, the wrongdoers in the church, as ever. Jackie Rowlands in blocking me and upholding you, has, the same as the national safeguarding team, failed in her position, harmed a vulnerable adult and declared herself unfit to work with the vulnerable as she protects abusers.
On the subject, the police need to ask about your most recent police attack by the way. More questions about who set it up, and at what time, because your police attack was an act of harassment, based on dishonesty, you lied to the police, again, and on top of your police attack last year, leaving me homeless for the second time in a year, needs to be looked at very closely, the church do not have the right to be above the law or use the police for their own service, and you have lied to the police in order to entrap me to suit yourselves. You have used the police against me with impunity, adding to your destruction beyond anything a human being can cope with, and yet, they have so far, jumped at your orders and failed to investigate you or charge you with abuse. And they must now do so.
The damage that you and every complicit agency or authority have done in abuse, allowing abuse, branding me, and not stopping harm to me, is so severe and so compounded that there is no recovery, hope or future for me. Your dishonesty-based attempt to tell the police that I would self harm is absolutely ludicrous and hypocritical considering the callous way you have taken my life, left me living death and destroyed everything I built up.
Your safeguarding officer, Jackie Rowlings has been obliged to investigate and take action, and she hasn’t done so. It is time for her to leave for a more suitable position that does not involve the lives and safety of the vulnerable, and it is time for you to stop hiding behind the other criminal wrongdoers such as the Archbishop and the Bishop of Bath and Wells or your lawyers or PR firms or ‘advisors’, what you have done is wrong, criminally so, and it hasn’t gone away and it won’t go away, it is time for you to do the decent thing, make sure my side is heard, resign from ordained positions – the church are obliged to remove you but haven’t – and make sure the police hear the full story of your abuse of me.
While I wait for justice and you to take responsibility, I suffer, and you know I suffer, and you know that you are responsible. And yet you have continued to officiate at services, and even show off in the press, with that silly posed picture of yourself. Narcissism and psychopathy are not pretty qualities and do not look good posed in the press.
Please don’t keep me living death. Ultimately, as I have said to you, the best thing for me will be my death, because my soul is destroyed beyond healing, and if only the police had done their job and restrained you and your clergy and laity in 2013, I could still have lived, damaged forever, but I could have rebuilt, I know that because I went on trying, building, even as you destroyed me, but you kept on and on taking my life away, until it got too late.
You repeatedly made it impossible for me to continue therapy, I invested time, money and trust in that therapy, and to see it broken because of your agenda in destroying me and covering up for the church’s wrongdoing was catastrophic.
Are you aware, as the police should be, that I intend to go to Dignitas because your three year abuse of me took my life beyond healing? And are you also aware that suicide is legal in the UK, as long as it isn’t assisted? This being the case, why did you and Jackie and Jane and Graham act dishonestly over claiming I was harming myself? The police need to know times, who was involved, and why. Self-harm of any kind is not illegal, abuse is, and you have abused me. You destroyed me, now why didn’t the police call on you to arrest you for assisted suicide when your attempt on my life 18 months ago should have killed me.
Now, the police must act. And bring this horror story to an end. The police have been told very clearly to stop harassing me for you, they have been told the consequences, and they have been told to deal with you. Your silence regarding your harm to me, and your persistent use of the police against me illegally and without question, is to be investigated. If you and the police continue to make me out to be nuts to excuse you, what about your psychopathy that took my life? Your turn to be beaten and imprisoned.
I sit here and suffer, and you really couldn’t care less. Your silence says so, and yet you can attack me with the police in pretence of care. Enough is enough, and I have told the police so. The Church of England have harmed me since I was 19 years old, I had 17 years of the worst childhood possible, and then an adulthood of the church destroying me for their crimes. I don’t want to live, I can’t live, with what you have done to me, your blame and condemnation of me through whitewash reports and lies and press and media smears.
Do you really not comprehend what you have done, and do you really intend to continue officiating without bringing any justice to my case? You have had me publicly smeared, discredited and destroyed, for no apparent reason at all except to protect wrongdoers, and why was that necessary? I was already effectively destroyed, branded, silenced, and left homeless to die? The point of violently re-punishing me publicly escapes me, but it is abuse, it is a criminal offence. The fact that the national safeguarding team and Jackie Rowlands uphold you and have harmed me further and without mercy says that they uphold abuse, are a danger to the vulnerable and are without morals or conscience.
Make sure you answer me, and the police must contact you and start to deal with this now. Every day that goes by without justice and with me smeared and branded and a fugitive is a day that you are an abuser who hasn’t been brought to justice, and a day that I scream in anguish and wait for living death to become death.
The whole 17 years of church of england harm to me, especially the million pound three year reign of hatred that you led against me, has yet to be investigated, and as you are the lead attacker and abuser, who gave every wrongdoer a voice against me in the press and media, how about you provide the same money and press and media for me to answer that attack for three years, and I will do to you and the people who you enabled to hate and smear me, what you have done to me, but what would be the difference? You all have homes, families, money, lawyers, stability and a foundation, I had nothing, you took my family, friends and community in your hatred, and I had nothing else, and what little I built, you took, you have taken my access to medical help, therapy, support of any kind. Living condemned utterly and without access to help, a fugitive, living dead, is no life.
Reminder/Escalated Formal Complaint 15/02/2018
Dear Bishop Tim Dakin and Jackie Rowlands.
I am writing to remind you of the formal complaints that you have failed to address.
These include your blocking of my emails and phonecalls and ignoring of my letters, and also the Bishop of Winchester remaining in his position after his public destruction of me.
When the Bishop of Winchester ‘apologized’ for the sake of the press and media, for his appalling handling of the million pound whitewash, it didn’t take away his misconduct, and the fact that he hadn’t stopped his harm to me in three years, when he was well aware that he was harming me, and his apology was an admission of wrongdoing, whereupon he should have been suspended. However, having done the show apology, he took to putting the phone down, blocking me and acting as if my anger at his repeat discrediting of me at the same time as his fake apology, was a reason to block me. It shows again how archaic and backward thinking the church are, and how nothing has changed in the Diocese of Winchester since Jane Fisher destroyed me for reporting abuse.
On the subject of Jane Fisher, the Bishop has still failed to respond to my complaint against Fisher, and the matter was his responsibility as she was a reader in his diocese and involved in my case and harming me even after the complaint was made. There is also the data protection complaint unanswered, and formal complaints against both of you for your misconduct.
On top of that, what happened to me in Jersey and the Winchester Diocese has still not been investigated, from when I was 19 to the present day as I suffer and live as a terrified fugitive. And your police attacks are an abuse of power which add to your misconduct, and the blatant deceit surrounding the use of the police to terrorize me last year, still needs investigating both by the police and by the church.
Your efforts to block and ignore me after your serious misconducts are an appalling safeguarding failure, and while the Bishop continues to fail to be held to account for his misconduct, he shouldn’t be officiating, as everything he officiates is null and void, God doesn’t validate the officiation of a psychopath who was fully prepared to kill a vulnerable adult in order to protect his and the church’s image. Why exactly does Jackie Rowlands think that re-condemning the victim by blocking them, while protecting a man who faced court action to save a victim’s life is safegaurding?
It is time for both of you to step down, you both pose a very real risk to the vulnerable, and your victim is suffering hell on earth, and according to your public condemnation of her, you and your clergy and laity believe and tell her, that she is going to hell after living in hell on earth.
There is no Christianity or safeguarding in anything that you have done, and you are both responsible and must take responsibility and make sure that a proper investigation is arranged and as you both pose a safeguarding risk, you must both step down.
Please answer the complaint properly and promptly, it has been nearly two years since the attempted murder by the Bishop and Archbishop, in which they publicly and permanently destroyed their victim of three years.
JJ – victim of the lack of safeguarding in the church of england.
[A] Sanctuary for the Abused http://abusesanctuary.blogspot.co.uk/2006/07/for-survivors-coping-with-triggers-if.html
Let justice be done though the heavens fall – Fiat justitia ruat cælum