Suffering child sexual abuse, ritual abuse, mind control is of course highly traumatic and leaves scars.
Kathy explains how she used to be in victim mode, and repeated disruptive patterns of behaviour. This recreated trauma and drama to get her natural necessary hit of serotonin helped her survive but the serotinin can be replaced by using other stimuli.
This was just a part of her healing, and it is a very powerful video showing how a more healing and peaceful life can happen in which she calls transformation. This process can also help others from recreating the trauma and drama of their abuse.
Recreating the trauma and drama is so easy to fall into in these days of social media and especially twitter! The video is from 2015 and it is well worth a watch.
From Trauma to Transformation : Kathy Collins’ Story
Click on picture below to open new tab for Odysee video… English sound, French subtitles.
The following was in the shownotes from Bill Ryan who carried out the interview – AlphaZebra Youtube From Trauma to Transformation : Kathy Collins’ Story 
This video is about what is known as PROJECT MONARCH. Project Monarch is a mind control (‘MK-ULTRA’) program which is designed to create ‘sex slaves’. There have been more and more revelations about this in the mainstream media in recent years. The phenomenon is hard to face, or even think about, but is very real. Satanic Ritual Abuse, for example, is a dreadful reality. It’s almost impossible for normal, healthy people to understand how such a thing can be taking place in our modern world. Several extremely brave women have come forward to tell the stories of what they experienced, endured, and survived. Two well-known names are Cathy O’Brien and Cisco Wheeler. Here is one more. Her name is Kathy Collins. She tells the story not only of what was done to her… but of her path to healing, forgiveness, and transformation. Kathy chooses not to go into the specifics of her horrific experiences. Not because she cannot face them herself — for she can — but because she primarily wants to share the story of her recovery. Most of the video interview which follows presents Kathy sharing her experiences of healing and transformation. She feels this may be helpful to ANYONE who’s experienced potentially life-ruining trauma of any kind. Kathy’s message: Our lives don’t have to be ruined if we’ve experienced terrible events. Kathy’s journey is one not only of trauma and pain, but of inspiration and hope. To contact Kathy: PositiveShifting@gmail.com
“What makes Kathy’s story so remarkable is that she underwent horrible experiences that would cause massive trauma in almost anyone. This included being brought, as a child, into Project Monarch, a sub-project of the MK Ultra CIA mind control program. She was also brought to places like Bohemian Grove. At a young age, Kathy was carted away in potato sacks by her father, went through a Satanic initiation ritual at age 3 (being forced to drink blood), suffered sexual abuse (from both men and women), was made into child prostitute and was experimented upon with drugs, electroshock and strobe lights. She recalls being at Bohemian Grove at age 5, tied naked to a stone altar, surrounded by 3 hooded figures who were trying to steal her soul but who were saying “we can’t break her”. Kathy was forced to watch a child sacrifice at Bohemian Grove, and in the end, only got out of the mind control and abuse because her father died.
(Incidentally, Kathy also recalls being hunted like an animal at Bohemian Grove. Cathy O’Brien has also alluded to this. Both were given a short amount of time to run and hide before being followed by huntsmen with guns.”)
This following article is from The Freedom Articles Satanic Ritual Abuse: It’s Real, But It Can Be Healed 
Healing the Deep Trauma and Pain from Satanic Ritual Abuse
So how on earth did Kathy manage to heal herself after going through such harrowing ordeals? She realized she was thinking, identifying and acting like a victim. Although this is natural, it is an energetic truth of life that we create the kind of reality that we broadcast out to the Universe. Often we re-create the familiar. Identifying as a victim means subconsciously recreating trauma, even though we don’t consciously want to. This is because trauma victims have learnt to create serotonin through trauma and drama, and we need serotonin to live. For Kathy, the path to healing was to learn how to get serotonin in ways which were not traumatic (in her case sunsets and butterflies).
Kathy emphasizes that healing trauma is not about getting to a particular place. It is not goal-oriented or linear. Evolution is cyclical. Instead of being impatient to achieve “full healing”, whatever you define that as, she recommends that you learn techniques to deal with suppressed memories as they arise. For Kathy, it’s about mastering the moment, mastering your reaction as old memories arise, making pain a friend, seeing it as a messenger and attempting to understand what it is trying to tell you. Denying it only makes it continue. Also, for healing, a sense of humor is essential. There are many people who have healed serious disease like cancer through laughter. Additionally, it’s about listening to your body, which may feel something (e.g. fear or pain) before the mind knows it; in this way the body can teach the mind (see research of Peter Levine at trauma-healing.org for more on this).
Ultimately, Kathy explains, a shift will happen when you take responsibility for your own actions. Transformation occurs when you move into forgiveness, i.e. looking back at the past without any judgement attached to it. You will always remember what happened – but you may be able to do so in a more detached manner, without any emotional charge attached to the memory. After many years of working through the issues, Kathy has actually gotten to the point where she sees the abuse as a gift. Why? Because it enabled her to grow, and to know how truly powerful and divine she was – and how truly powerful and divine everyone is. In this way, the scenario is like the comic story of a superhero who needed a challenge or a bad guy to know how strong and courageous he or she was.
The Freedom Articles Satanic Ritual Abuse: It’s Real, But It Can Be Healed 
Kathy mentions Presidio and Bohemian Grove.
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[2a] 2015 Jul 28 Odysee From Trauma to Transformation : Kathy Collins’ Story https://odysee.com/@AlexandreLebreton:8/t-moignage-de-kathy-collins-du-trauma-la:c English Sound French Subtitles
[2b] 2015 Jul 28 Odysee From Trauma to Transformation : Kathy Collins’ Story https://odysee.com/@Co-Naissance:f/KATHY-COLLINS—Du-Trauma-%C3%A0-la-Transformation—Abus-Rituels,-Amn%C3%A9sie-Dissociative,-MK-Ultra-Monarch:d English Sound French Subtitles
 2016 Feb The Freedom Articles Satanic Ritual Abuse: It’s Real, But It Can Be Healed https://thefreedomarticles.com/satanic-ritual-abuse-can-be-healed/
- The Sanctuary for the Abused [A] has advice on how to prevent triggers.
- National Association for People Abused in Childhood [B] has a freephone helpline and has links to local support groups.
- One in Four [C]
- Havoca [D].
- Useful post on Triggers [E] from SurvivorsJustice [F] blog.
- Jim Hoppers pages on Mindfulness [G] and Meditation [H] may be useful.
- Hwaairfan blog An Indigenous Australian Approach to Healing Trauma [J]
- Survivors UK for victims and survivors of male rape or the sexual abuse of men [K]
- Voicing CSA group [L] helps arrange survivors meetings in your area
- A Prescription for me blog Various emotional support links [M]
- Fresh Start Foundation Scottish not for profit group, helping child sexual abuse victims & survivors [N]
[A] Sanctuary for the Abused http://abusesanctuary.blogspot.co.uk/2006/07/for-survivors-coping-with-triggers-if.html
Let justice be done though the heavens fall – Fiat justitia ruat cælum