Svali was a trainer for the Illuminati in San Diego, in the eighties. She was 6th and lowest head trainer with 30 trainers in the local groups reporting to her, which shows the scale of this mind control problem with maybe 20 Million people in the US alone, slaves under mind control…
Svali was the one of the first Illuminati insider whistleblowers that I came across and despite her relatively low position in the Illuminati, she was one of the first whistleblowers and her information is extremely useful and there is much of it still available, particularly on the invaluable and much before their time Whale and Bibliotecapleyades.
- Bibliotecapleyades Illuminati Svali 
- Whale The Illuminati: How the Cult Programs People by Svali 
I have just picked a few sections out here, for this post.
Happily now after going quiet for a few years which led to speculation about her possible demise, it looks as though Svali is working with two other whistleblowers, Cisco Wheeler and Fritz Springmeier on a website, Deprogramwiki [Q], which is one of the Go To sites for information on Illuminati, mind control and healing.
Much information on the regional structure would have complemented well the article,
- The Five Child trafficking Networks of the Illuminati 
and that article is one of the best for an introduction to the control exerted over the world by the illuminati.
Apologies for formatting in this article, but I wish not to spend time formatting, when time is limited, and I have provided links to orginal sources, through the text and at the end.
Thank you Svali, for your courage and information and being an ispiration to others…
Part 6 – Ritual Abuse – Mind Control Denial; Bohemian Grove
Q: I just find it amazing that this sort of topic (Ritual Abuse, mindcontrol) gets next to no press attention, considering the amount of evidence available.
A: Here is where I will sound really, really cynical. I’m not surprised, because the Illuminati leadership often boasted that their best protection was that no one would believe what was happening. They also have their own media blitz campaign, one that is pretty effective. For example, a reporter with the initials M. S., who wrote articles on Ritual Abuse (RA) and Mind Control in the San Diego Union-Tribune, was a member of the Illuminati. His articles have almost a patent formula.
1. He interviews supposedly respected doctors in the field. These people with scholarly credentials, the “thinking man’s verdict” give a rational, measured conclusion: no logically thinking being could ever possibly believe in ritual abuse, and the therapists that treat victims of it are leading the poor people on, the gullible little dears being oppressed by therapists of a most vicious and mercenary bent.
2. He then exposes the “fundamentalist, narrow minded” “raving” and “mentally ill” people who say that ritual abuse is real, and the “fraudulent” or supposedly mercenary/attention seeking therapists that work with them. His word images create the image of a person practically foaming at the mouth, full of demented ravings, on this side of the fence. He then brings in the heart break of dear, precious families broken apart by the wicked therapists who are “implanting” ideas of ritual abuse in these poor victim’s heads.
Wrap up with the supposedly rational, caring, logical and compassionate person on the FMS board saying how tragic it is that this is occurring, that something needs to be done.
M.S. never mentions that the therapists who work with ritual abuse survivors work for very low pay, or sometimes for free, to help these people break free of the chains of a lifetime. He never ever interviews the large percentage (>85%) of the psychological field that has stated that they believe that ritual abuse is, or could be real; instead, he only interviews the minority viewpoint to feed his agenda.
Okay, so now we know that the normal media is quite biased at times.
Q: But, with the evidence out there, why aren’t more people concerned about the Illuminati?
A: Because they simply can’t, won’t believe that this is happening. I am a strong Christian, and in Revelations, it says that right before the return of Jesus, people will be acting as if nothing has happened, that all is normal, in spite of evidence to the contrary. You could show people a video taken of a ritual, and they would declare: “it has to be a fake; people just don’t do those things.” You can show them a site with pentagrams, buried bones, and other evidence, and they would say, “Oh, that is just teenagers playing around”. You can show them photos of underground tunnels near Los Alamos, and they will say, “Isn’t that interesting. Must be some government project.” They can be shown the scars on a survivor’s body, from cigarette burns in childhood, and old lash marks that have healed on their back, and the question would be “are you sure it wasn’t self inflicted?”
The evidence is there, but in my opinion, the average person does NOT want to know, and even when confronted with it, will look the other way.
The Franklin case is a point. How much evidence has come out? Or the MK-Ultra documents that have been declassified, shown as real, and people ignore it.
Okay, I’ll get off my soap box. But I believe that the media that downplays ritual abuse is feeding into a deep need in the average person to NOT know the reality. In fact, how can a person face the fact of great evil in mankind, unless they have either a strong faith in God, or are faced with insurmountable evidence? We as human beings want to believe the BEST of our race, not the worst, IMHO.
Q: You probably have heard of the ‘Bohemian Grove’. What do you know about this? Any connection to the Illuminati?
A: I myself do not know anything about the Bohemian Grove. Remember, I wouldn’t have been in a position to have much to do with it. Most of my connections were with Germany. I was never prostituted out, instead I taught others to be that. But I myself never went there, and really don’t know anything about it. I’m sorry I can’t be more helpful there.
Now, if you were asking about the masonic temple in Alexandria, Va., or the “Institute’ in Charlottesville, Va., or a small grove up in Canada with a bronze statue of Baal, I could help you. Sorry I don’t have anything to share on this topic. If the Bohemian Grove is occult, though, it probably definitely is known about by the Illuminati.
Part 12 – The Top of the Pyramid –
Q: Svali, a very important question I’m sure all our readers are asking themselves is, who heads the Illuminati? Who is the top of the pyramid?
A: Hooboy! Where do I start with this? First, it depends on what level. I would like to draw up a little map of the Illuminati from my memories (which are NOT FOND) of being part of this group. I will also try to fill in some names, but I want to be cautious. If I name too many names, I could draw some nasty fire from people in the group. Here it goes:
I will be doing an upside down pyramid, to show the Illuminati structure, NOT to trigger people (I know the Illuminati use lots of pyramids) but because this is how they have their hierarchy set up:
Level One: Local level: (anytown, USA)
sister group sister group sister group sister group sister group
There will be between ten and thirty sister groups in most metropolitan areas, dependent on the size of the city. The larger the city, the more sister groups. There are Illuminati groups in EVERY major city in the US and Europe. This first level is what is known as the “anarchical” or “low level”. It is what most people reporting ritual abuse discuss: a high priest and priestess preside over each group, which also contains a group of two to four trainers, and others with jobs. The sister groups unite on rare occasions, are aware of each other, but each one is fairly independent, and reports only to their leadership council.
Level Two: Metropolitan leadership council:
This is what the local leadership council over these groups will look like. It will also cover scattered groups in outlying rural areas.
Baalim (head) (1), assistants to the head (2) administrators over finances and day to day happenings (4), head trainers (oversee and teach other trainers) (6).
The total: 13 members
The Baalim and his two assistants report to:
REGIONAL LEADERSHIP COUNCIL
The United States has been divided into seven different regions geographically. Each region has a 13 member leadership council that coordinates with the local leadership councils (are you getting the idea by now? The Illuminati are set up a lot like “Amway” or any other well-organized business enterprise with a flowchart of accountability for each member). This council will look something like this:
Head of council (1), Military (2 seats), Spiritual (2 seats), Scholarship (2 seats), Finances (2 seats), Training (2 seats), Sciences (2 seats).
Total: 13 members
The regional councils will represent the different areas of interest and knowledge that the Illuminati pursue. The membership will change over time as members are promoted or demoted.
The seven regional councils each have a leader as noted above, who reports to the:
National Council (The nations in Europe also have national councils, Mexico and Canada do as well, as does the Soviet Republic and China).
The national council will look much like the one above, with this difference; these are influential bankers with OLD money such as: The Rockefellers, the Mellon family, the Carnegie family, the Rothschild family etc. I know I shouldn’t name names, but I will.
The heads of the National councils report to:
The Supreme World Council.
This council is already set up as a prototype of the one that will rule when the NWO comes into being. It meets on a regular basis to discuss finances, direction, policy, etc. and to problem-solve difficulties that come up. Once again, these leaders are heads in the financial world, OLD banking money. The Rothschild family in England, and in France, have ruling seats. A descendant of the Hapsburg dynasty has a generational seat. A descendant of the ruling families of England and France have a generational seat. The Rockefeller family in the US holds a seat.
This is one reason that the Illuminati have been pretty “untouchable” over the years. The ruling members are very, very, very wealthy and powerful. I hope this information is helpful. How do I know this? I was on a local leadership council (a head trainer), but I talked to those on regional. Also, every Illuminati child is taught who their “leaders” are, and told to take an oath of allegiance to them and the “New Order to come”.
Q: To what degree is the European royalty involved, what is their real pecking order and power structure and what is their U.S.-U.K. relationship in terms of financial/political/cult power. Is the Monarchy still running the show?
A: This is hard to answer, but I’ll try. The Illuminati leadership state that they are descended from royal bloodlines, as well as unbroken occult heritage.
See, there were two definitions of “royalty” used. Open royalty that is currently seen now, and “hidden royalty” of royal lineage and extreme occult power. Sometimes the two were concurrent, such as with the Prince of Wales.
I never thought of which country/line held the most power, since I was just a peon busily doing my job. But my understanding was: The Hanoverian / Hapsburg descendants rule in Germany over the Bruderheist. They are considered one of the strongest lines for occult as well. The British line is just under them, with the royal family. Definitely, they rule the UK branch under the Rothschilds in the occult realm, even though parliament rules the country openly.
In France, again, descendants of the royal families are also in power in the occult realm, but the French Rothschilds hold the reigns over all or them. The U.S. is considered lower, and younger, than the European branches. This is why the children of leaders are ALWAYS sent to Europe for part of their training; the education is considered better and the U.S. families want to renew their affiliation with the european forebears.
Germany, France, and the UK form a triumvirate that rules in the European cult. The USSR is considered important, and has the strongest military groups. The USSR has been promised fourth position in the New World Order, BEFORE the role the U.S. would have, because the USSR has been more helpful and cooperative over the years with furthering the agenda.
The descendants of the former ruling families there are also involved in the occult leadership, along with the newer ones. There is no marxism in the cult. China will be ranked after the USSR, then the U.S.. But a lot of the current U.S. leadership will be in Europe when the change occurs, and many have homes there. They will be “changing nationalities” overnight, as it were. This is the little that I do remember. Wish I had been a better student of this stuff, but I was too busy trying to stay alive when I was in it.
Q: Svali, earlier on you talked about sacrifices. You are talking about animal sacrifices, right? Give me a bit more details about that, please.
A: I hate to sensationalize things by going into gruesome particulars, but I will share a little.
First, please remember that the Illuminati have SIX branches of learning, and the spiritual (where the sacrifices are done) is only ONE part of what they do. I was in Sciences, and used to make fun of people who specialized in spiritual. Yes, everyone has to go to spiritual rituals during certain high days, but I tried to stay as far from it as I could. It’s ugly, crude, and gross, but considered important.
1. The celtic branch of spiritual believes that power is passed at the moment between life and death. They will do rituals with children, or even older adherents, where the person is tied down, and an animal is bled to death on top of them. The belief is that the person receives power from the departing spirit, which “enters” the person. It is also highly traumatizing and horrible to have an animal go through its death throes on top of you. Throw in a few threats that “this will happen to you if you ever tell,” and a quite strong impression is made on small children.
2. Opening portals and dimensions: I know, this sounds like stuff from a sci-fi film, but these people really believe that there are other spiritual dimensions, and that to pass into them, first a major sacrifice is done to “open a portal”, usually several animals. I have also seen animal sacrifices done to protect from the demonic, or blood used to “close a circle” so the demonic cannot penetrate it.
The Illuminists very much believe in the spiritual realm, and have codified practiced over hundreds of years from ancient occultic rituals. They believe they can control these powers (I believe they are deluded).
Sacrifices are also done on high holy days. I have seen an animal “psychically killed” in front of me, and have no way to explain what I saw. I have also seen human sacrifice, but these were very rare (I believe I have seen two or three real ones in my life, the rest were set-ups).
They really don’t want to kill off their children, they want a new generation to grow up and continue the practices. I have also heard of them buying children from other countries, and using them, or the homeless, but never witnessed it myself.
More often, I saw animals used in sacrifices and rituals. Other loss of life, rare but horrible, I saw as a head trainer because of my job. Rarely, a trainer would push a person too far, and didn’t check for signs of stress. Especially with some of the newer medications used to create trance states, their meds covered the more obvious signs of trauma and stress (elevated heart rate, rapid breathing, tremors, pupil size changing), or blunted them.
Inexperienced trainers would miss more subtle signs, and basically screw a person up. It is horrible to work with a person, and they NEVER COME BACK. They become a vegetable, or worse, they scream and scream for hours without end.
We occasionally had to “put down” these training failures, by using a lethal injection of air, or insulin. The person was then set up in a “fatal crash” or “fire” to dispose of the body. May God forgive me for the few times this happened and I was forced to act. I so regret it now. A person cannot be kind or sympathetic. And, the trainer always knows that it could be them next on the table, screaming, so they do their jobs well.
Any failures are heavily punished, to say the least. One of my jobs was teaching younger trainers the masking effects of hypnotic drug combinations, and how to recognize subtle clues of distress. Sigh.
Do the failures count as “sacrifices” to a horrible evil that is perpetrated on others? I think so, even though there was no ritual about it at all, it was all done in a traning room with lab coats and needles.
Q: Svali, I have to ask you this: There are stories floating around on the internet about the Illuminati (and other agencies) being run by extra-terrestrials, ET’s, in particular a reptilian race, operating from a higher dimension. Any thoughts on that?
A: My answer will probably cause a lot of anger, and it’s not meant to step on any toes. Here it goes.
I have never seen an alien or extra-terrestial. I have seen some programming to make people THINK they saw aliens, as a cover story for programming, if they remembered. None of the head trainers I knew, or others on leadership council, believed in aliens, although I never asked them.
I personally believe that the reptilian stuff is actually the demonic at work. I have seen shape-shifting and other stuff because of demonic influence (okay, so here some will say, gee, she believes in demons, that’s as far out as aliens).
Well, this is what the Illuminati certainly believe in. They KNOW there are spiritual realities, and think they can control them. Those of a more cynical bent would say the shape shifting was a drug induced hallucination and group hysteria in the context of a ritual setting. I will let each reader decide based on their personal comfort zone. But no, absolutely no reptiles or aliens seen in Washington, DC, or San Diego, Ca. as of 5 years ago, at least I never saw them.
Part 5 – Illuminati – CIA Connection – Russia & China
Svali: I just want you and your readers to know that I am NOT an Illuminati expert, nor do I want to be. I am only a survivor who was part of this group, in a lower management position locally. I did NOT rub elbows with the rich and famous, although I heard about things that occurred at higher levels (people do gossip even in the cult, they’re still human beings).
There are other people who have come out and disclosed. I don’t know them personally, but I have heard about them. One is Brice Taylor, in California and North Carolina (she lives part time in both places). Another is Neil Brick of SmartNews, he seems to be very real and believable and a nice person. Others are Caryn StarDancer, of Survivorship.org, and Annie McKenna (I think she even wrote a book about her experiences [ed. ‘Paperclip Dolls’], it is quite good). There are others, and if you go to the Suite101.com site, there are links to resources and also survivor pages. Survivorship.org also has links.
Some survivors have self-published their stories on the web, to help the public know that this is going on. I am only one person among many who has come out to talk about my experiences, and my experiences are limited to what one person did in the Washington, DC area and the San Diego, Ca. area between 1957 and 1995. A person who was doing their job at the time, was very misguided, and who is now heartily sorry for the things that I once participated in.
Q: How do survivors remain anonymous after seeking help? Would the cult not go to extreme measures to find and silence programmers or members that have left the cult? To what ends would they go to shut you up?
A: At Suite 101, and in my book, I wrote a whole chapter on staying safe. Here’s the URL for the Suite 101 article: Breaking Free of the Cult. It includes tips on staying safe.
Yes, they do try to recontact people who get out. The first way they do this is through their family (remember they are transgenerational). My mother told me to “come back or die” four years ago, which triggered off lethal self destruct programming inside (I believe she was counting on my coming back, but she was wrong and I almost died. God spared my life). I then had to go in and dismantle it all. When I left, the head trainer was pretty arrogant. He had said I would be dead within 6 months if I remembered, because “no one could remember with what I put in her and live”. Direct quote from Jonathan M., head trainer, and I hope he reads this article.
Second, a lot of people get abducted and reaccessed because they : phone their perps, go out alone at night (you wouldn’t believe the stories I have heard from survivors who told me they went out at 2 or 3 am to the store, alone, walking down alleys. What were they thinking????).
I helped one survivor get out three years ago, she was being harrassed by the group, and was fighting back, she literally pulled a gun on a would-be abductor and he backed away (he had his gun out) when she asked him, “and who of the two of us do you think is the better shot?” She was an expert marksman). She stayed with me for 6 months, and is free of the group.
They usually do give up after awhile, and get tired of trying to pull people back. I could never live in San Diego, or DC, though. The chances of running into an old trainer or someone I knew would be too great. Instead, having physical distance (people in the cult in this state don’t know me or care about me one way or the other) helps. I also have tons of accountability. These people like secrecy, and won’t usually act out in public if someone is with people who aren’t part of their group. I have heard of people being assassinated , which is one reason that I don’t go on T.V., or speak publicly. I live very quietly and anonymously out here. MOST cult recontact comes because the person recontacts, though. The pull to go back is enormous at times, and has to be fought a lot, especially in the first years. To find out why someone would go back to their abusers, read my article on “Trauma Bonding: The Pull to the Perpetrator” at Suite 101.
Q: I want to get back to the Illuminati’s political agenda. What is the connection between the CIA, FBI, and other secret services and the cult? To what degree are they infiltrated? And what is the real agenda of these secret services?
A: They are all infiltrated. I don’t think everyone in these groups are Illuminists, but a lot of the leadership is. An example: my mother was friends with Sid Gottlieb, who was part of the CIA. The farm I grew up on was only about a half hour away from his home in Culpeper, Va. She also knew the Dulles family. A lot of the researchers in the CIA were part of it, and I visited Langley, Va. at intervals growing up. MK-Ultra was funded in part with Illuminati money. These people use the most sophisticated mind control techniques on their members, believe me.
When I was in San Diego, human experimentation was still going on. Jonathan and I were investigating the effects of certain drugs on inducing trance states and assisting with programming. We would take the data, and download it into a database (oh, yes, the cult is very technologically sophisticated) and then send it to Langley.
Many of the administrators and directors at the FBI are also Illuminists. The CIA helped bring over german scientists after WWII. Many of these were also Illuminati leaders in their own country, and they were welcomed with open arms by the U.S. group. They also funnelled all information they were learning to the Illuminati.
Q: I assume if the U.S. political, banking, and military systems are all fairly well under Illuminati control this would then also be true for Eastern Europe, Russia and other communist bloc countries as well. What does this mean for relations between the West-East axis? Was Russia, or the USSR at the time, ever the adversary it was made out to be, and was there a grand plan behind having Russia as an enemy?
A: Russia was never really a threat to us. Marxism was funded by the Illuminati, and espoused as a counterbalance to capitalism. The Illluminati believe strongly in balancing opposing forces, in the pull between opposites. They see history as a complex chess game, and they will fund one side, then another, while ultimately out of the chaos and division …, they are laughing because they are ultimately beyond political parties. A top western financier will secretly meet with an eastern or russian “adversary” during those years, and have a good laugh at how the “sheep” were being deluded. I am sharing here what I was taught, and also observed.
When DELPHI met with ORACLE in Europe, (these are the head training groups for the northern hemisphere and european continents) the Russian, German, French, British, Canadian, and US trainers all worked together. In fact, this is one reason why plurality of linguality is valued in the Illuminati. I had to learn six languages as a child, and learn to converse with people from around the world. They are truly an international group, and the group’s agenda supercedes any nationalistic feelings. There is also a lot of trading back and forth of members in these groups. A russian trainer might come to the US for awhile, complete a job, then go back, or vice-versa.
Q: China is starting to rattle their sabers and arming itself with nuclear weapons which are pointing at U.S. cities. Is all this occurring according to Illuminati agenda or is there still a fairly large ‘uncertainty, random or x-factor’ involved that is beyond the Illuminati’s control?
A: I have been out for five years, so my information is “old news”. But the military buildup of China is part of their plan. There are members of the group who are Asian, and very opportunistic. The Oriental Mafia groups are very much linked to Illuminati activity. The random factor in all of this is how the average citizen reacts. It can’t be predicted, although Illuminati leadership will often invent different scenarios, and try to decide how they will act if the ordinary citizens react in an unexpected manner.
I was told that around 2020, the Illuminist agenda would be revealed openly. I don’t know if this is accurate, or just propaganda that I was taught, or if they have changed this date since I was in the group.
Q: Svali, earlier you were talking about mindcontrol victims and survivors that have come forward with their stories and publicised it. One of the more recent and high profile stories is the one of Cathy O’Brian [see links at http://web.archive.org/web/20030610071433/http://www.vegan.swinternet.co.uk/articles/conspiracies/cathyandmark.html and http://web.archive.org/web/20030610071433/http://www.trance-formation.com/ ].
She seems to be more of a CIA mindcontrol victim, which still sound very much like your own story, in terms of technology and technique. Do you think there could be an Illuminati connection?
A: As I mentioned before, the CIA and the Illuminati are definitely linked. The top leadership in the CIA are also Illuminati leaders. I mentioned Dulles and Gottlieb as men I knew personally as a child and young adult. The scientists that ran the MK-Ultra and other governmental mind control programs were Illuminists brought over from Nazi Germany. That’s why you will find that mind control victims ALWAYS speak German or have a dissociated part that speaks with a German accent; they are mimicking their abusers, which is very very common.
You could say that the CIA and the Illuminati are hand in glove companions. I know that the different Illuminati groups around the US also send data on the experiments they do to the central computer at Langley, Va. (oh, yes, human experimentation and mind control experiments are still ongoing, it didn’t stop with WWII…).
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Welcome to Svali Speaks!
This is a blog dedicated to Svali, who is/was a former mind control programmer for the Illuminati. She was groomed from birth to have a key role in the Illuminati and back in the 1980’s was forced against her will to marry another generational Illuminati member. They had two children from this marriage and they also were raised and tortured by the cult until Svali fled the cult in the early 1990’s.
She was severely warned by the cult to keep quiet about her past. She had been writing and speaking out against the cult and their activities. She has not been heard from since November, 2006.
There is no known verifiable evidence of her being alive or has there been any known contact with Svali by anyone that I know of. All traces of her have disappeared. I am a personal friend of Svali’s and I have not been able to reach her or find out where her husband or children are. She and her family have vanished. If you have any information on the whereabouts of Svali please leave me a comment with your email address and I will contact you. Thanks!
About the author:
Hi, my name is Svali. Both I and my entire family were involved in a cult group until several years ago, when we broke free. I used to be a programmer in the cult, and now I want to share the knowledge that I have to helpis possible to break free of cult abuse if a person is involved. It is a long, heart-breaking process, but well worth it. In the articles that I will be providing, I hope to help the survivor of cult abuse find tools to help in their journey towards freedom.
I have been a consultant to an on-line survivors group that helps people dealing with issues related to cult programming and becoming free, for the past year and a half. I myself have been in therapy for ritual abuse and DID for nine years, with the last five being aware of the recent cult abuse.
I am also a writer, and a registered nurse. I currently work as a diabetic educator in Texas 20 hours a week.
I have also self-published a book on breaking free of cult programming, which several experts in the field have said has “invaluable information” for the survivor of ritual abuse.
Both my ex-husband and my two children broke free of cult abuse last year. My children are living with me while my husband is working on healing. They all have DID (dissociative identity disorder, formerly known as multiple personality disorder) as well, which makes life at home interesting! I am currently married to my second husband, who is also a recovered DID and who got out of the cult five years ago.
I am a survivor of both ritual abuse and governmental mind control. My greatest hope in sharing on these pages is that the information will be helpful to others in breaking free of coercive cult control and help them realize that it is really possible to become free. My other goal is to help educate therapists and supporters of survivors so that they can better understand what survivors have gone through, and things that have helped others in their healing journey. – Svali
Svali on: Healing from the Trauma of Cult Programming
Ritual abuse is the systematic, continued, repetitive abuse of both children and adults by either an individual or a group. It can involve psychological, sexual, physical, and spiritual abuse. This abuse is often done in the name of promoting an agenda, or a group’s religious idealogy.
The victims of ritual abuse are often children, although adults are often abused as well. The victim is an unwilling accomplice in the perpetrator’s goals, although they may eventually learn to comply with, and even learn to perpetrate themselves as they grow older. Increasing numbers of survivors of ritual abuse are beginning to speak out, to give voice to the atrocities which occur. Whether the survivor was traumatized within an organized group, or by individuals, they must often overcome years of conditioning to be silent in order to speak and disclose their abuse. This abuse may have included torture, mind control, cult programming, or other methodologies to ensure the victim’s silence.
This page is dedicated to the bravery and courage of these people who are in the process of breaking free from cult abuse. To the courageous adults and children who are overcoming fear, and disclosing what their lives have been like. May others learn that they, too, can become free.
The Importance of Overcoming Denial
Often times it is much easier for the average person to look away when the subject of ritual abuse comes up. To believe that it is extremely rare. Or even to wonder if it is real, in spite of the extensive documentation that has been done that proves its existence. For more information on this subject, please go to some of the links provided on this page.
Ritual abuse is not going to go away, in spite of the desire of many to minimize its impact both on the survivor community, and their supporters. The more people become aware of this problem, the more hope that this type of abuse can be stopped, and that no more children will be wounded in the war that is being waged for their hearts and souls.
There is currently legislation that has been passed in six states outlawing ritual abuse, with other states pending. Legislators are becoming educated in the reality of this type of abuse, and are beginning to take measures to ensure that it is stopped.
There have been extensively documented cases of ritual abuse which have gone to court and been proven. Anyone who denies the reality has not read the current literature available on the subject. (See links for further info)
Resources for Ritual Abuse and Mind Control Please note that all of the sources below can be found on line. I regret that MSN will not allow the URLs to copy here (the editing tool erases them automatically). You may look up the addresses by typing in the name in any web search engine.
A.C.A.A. (American Coalition for Abuse Awareness) Mailing Address: ONE VOICE, PO Box 27958, Washington DC 20038-7958 Phone: (202) 667-1160
A.C.H.E.S.-M.C. (Advocacy Committee for Human Experiment Survivors – Mind Control)
I.S.S.D. (International Society for the Study of Dissociation) now ISST-D (International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation) Mailing address: 4700 W. Lake Ave., Glenview IL 60025 Phone: (847) 375-4715
M.A.S.A. (Mothers Against Sexual Abuse) Contact: Claire Reeves Mailing address: 503-1/2 S. Myrtle Ave., Suite 9, Monrovia CA 91016 Phone: (818) 305-1986
Sidran Foundation A non-profit organization aiming to raise awareness about dissociative disabilities and multiplicity.
An international publication and organization for survivors of ritualistic abuse, mind control, and torture.
Ritual Abuse Ritual Crime and Healing
Persons Against Ritual Abuse Torture
North American Freedom Foundation
Until recently, I have mainly written about programming and methods to work through and attempt to resolve it. But as I am working on my own healing, I am coming to realize that while breaking programming is important (and often life-saving), that eventually it becomes important to deal with core issues. Core issues go beneath and behind programming, and often not only drive it, but sabotage the therapy process as the survivor attempts to heal.
These issues will be different for each survivor, since we each have a unique history. I have received emails from survivors from around the world, and have found that: *The Illuminati is certainly not the only occult group in the world; there are many other well-organized groups that do methodic, repetitive abuse of an occult nature. But in these groups, often the core issues are different than for the Illuminati *Even within the Illuminati, each individual will need to discover their own personal history, since parentage, bloodlines, and programming methods will differ, as well as the child’s eventual role in the group. This article is not meant to address all methods, or all survivor’s histories in the group.
I can’t speak for everyone who was abused in the group; I can only speak of what I myself am discovering about my own personal history, in the hopes that it will help other survivors through either validation, or to help supporters better understand some of the issues that they face during the process of remembering and healing.
The Illuminati are based in Europe, which is where their power base has always been. I remember being told as a young child that America was basically considered their “mission field” or the “land of opportunity” by those whose roots extend for hundreds of years or more into the ancient European dynastic bloodlines.
This is why their power hierarchy around the world, whether in the U.S., Asia, Australia, Canada, or elsewhere will always point back to Europe, where the 13 rulers (they also call them “lords”) are based. Each ruler represents an area of Europe held under his sway; and each one represents an ancient dynastic bloodline.
For example, the Hapsburg bloodline (Merovingian) is still active in Europe, although hidden, as well as the Rothschild and Battenberg bloodlines . In many modern European countries, the heirs of these bloodlines are immensely wealthy, and secretly are the “power behind the throne”, if not the actual rulers.
This is one reason why those of high Illuminati rank/descent in the U.S., for example, can always trace their bloodline or parentage to members of this ruling cabal in Europe; members of leadership councils in the States are always direct descendants, whether legitimate or illegitimate.
Whether at the lowest levels, or the highest, though, this group operates with the same methods: instilling intense fear and terror to control their members. Often this is done through the fear of death, and at the core level, the person who has undergone their training will have an immense fear of dying because of the “death and resurrection” experiences, or near death experiences, that they have undergone.
During these experiences, the very young child or even infant core will be faced with intolerable choices: to allow themselves to be extinguished, or to embrace the demonic and the beliefs of those in their bloodline parentage. I believe this is dissociation at its deepest level, since the desire to survive is one of the deepest instincts that God has given us, and will override intellect, cognition, and even well-thought out beliefs in an adult-much less in a very young child. When faced with certain death and terror, or life, albeit at a price that is much too high, the infant or child almost always chooses life (I have never heard of one that hasn’t to date, although my own knowledge and experience are limited).
Then the one who offers life to the infant becomes their “savior”, and worshipped virtually as a deity in the child’s mind and heart for “saving” them in one of the most wicked set ups imaginable.
In many cases, this is one of the child’s parents, and most often, their biological father. The biological father may not be the person that the child consciously remembers raising them during childhood; and once again, this encourages deep dissociation: the consciously remembered “Daddy” may not be the survivor’s real father.
Identity confusion is also layered in. The name the child goes by during the daytime may be quite different from their “real” name, or even the name on their birth certificate. A child of high lineage may discover that they weren’t born in the United States, but in Europe, if the ties to the European bloodlines are great enough; or even that their American birth certificate was forged, to cover their European one.
Each situation is different, and different bloodlines practice different methods of raising, mentoring, and training their offspring. For instance, those of German descent may be taken to Germany, and spend time with those of this bloodline learning the ways of this country, and developing a loyalty to what they consider their “true homeland”, before going back to another country to live under a different identity. Because above all else, children are called back to their European roots at frequent intervals to develop loyalty to their family home and name, and to undergo ceremonies meant to instill terror and ongoing cooperation, alternated with loving bonding experiences meant to instill deep love for the parental figures.
A child may live in Japan, but they will always know that their true home is in Germany or France; the child in Canada may know that their true home is the U.K., or Russia, and the child in the U.S. will long to return to “home” in Europe with the loyalty that is instilled, whether “home” is Germany, Bavaria, France, Moscow, the UK, Spain, or another country ruled by one of the 13.
This terror, this training, and the bonds of not only loyalty, but caring and nurturing that the child experienced through their true parentage, are often the most difficult and insidious to break. Deep terror combined with loving rescue and nurture create deep loyalty through trauma bonding, and breaking these ties at the core level is the most difficult task that many survivors face.
My prayer is that by explaining some, it can help others know that this does occur, which is the first step to uncovering it and working on it. I believe that deep prayer and support from others are the only methods of both uncovering these ties, and of breaking their hold. I am still working on these issues, and welcome others to share their experiences of undoing the hold of loyalty at this core level to the original perpetrators, and of breaking the spiritual and emotional ties to them. I will be more than happy to publish here anonymously any articles on this topic, as an encouragement to others who are breaking ties to the power centers in Europe. Because, ultimately, these men must lose in their bid for power. Scripture tells us that there is only one king on the throne: Jesus Christ, and that eventually, even the European roots of the Illuminati and their coming “prince” or antichrist, will be cut down, when Christ reigns over the earth.
Blessings to you, Svali
Q: Can the Illuminati’s family trees be traced back to specific towns in Europe?
A: Yes, and this depends on the branch. There is the German branch, the French branch, the UK branch, and the Russian branch. Each has roots in different areas of Europe. The towns of central Germany and Austria were the beginning for the German branch. They trace their roots from the Knights Templar who united the European nations during the crusades.
Q: Do they consider the Christian God real, but a liar?
A: The Illuminati believe in the deification of men through knowledge. They know that there are supernatural beings who help them in this process, but they don’t necessarily divide things into “good and bad”, rather “enlightened” or “unenlightened”. They believe that the Christian God is real, but that adherents of Christianity are one step short of enlightenment, that they do not know the “full picture” as they do. They see Christians as sheep who follow a nice story created to help them feel better, because they are “too weak” to want to know the “full truth”. (This is what an illuminist would say in describing the difference). They tend to be cynical towards the Christian God, to see him as a placebo for the weak.
Q: Do they consider their own god a liar, even if for “good”? If so, how do they trust their god?
A: They do not consider their gods (they have several) as liars. These “gods” have given them power, wealth, status, and everything that they have asked for. Yes, at a price, a horrible price, but they believe that nothing comes cheaply, and the higher the price they have paid, the more they value the gift. It is hard to explain this type to thinking to someone outside the group, because mainstream society wants to see them as evil satanists, and opposed to Christianity. They themselves wouldn’t put it quite that way. Oh, they will mock and downgrade Christianity, but only because they want its followers to see that they are the ‘deceived ones”. The god of this world has truly blinded their eyes. Do they “trust” their gods? As much as they trust anything. Remember, trust is not a concept in this group, where “betrayal is the greatest good” is a maxim taught since childhood. If you asked them, do you”trust” your deity, they would look puzzled, and say, “only a foolish person trusts what they cannot know” or some other maxim.
Q: Do they consider the Christian God to be a God of naive love?
A: Yes, yes, very naive, and setting His followers up for a fall. This is the extent of their arrogance.
Q: If they use torture and terror on those they love who are of lower rank, how do they distinguish between love and hate?
A: They don’t. They tell their children as they are torturing them, “I am doing this because I love you.” To them, the greatest love is to make a child strong, and fit to lead or to move higher in the group, by whatever means it takes.
If a leader sees a child, and wants it as a prostitute, the loving parents will give it away, happy that their child will rise in status. Also, again, they view betrayal as the greatest good. They will do set up after set up to teach their children to never openly trust others.
I remember hundreds of agonizing set ups and betrayals, and hearing when I was betrayed or wounded, “And such is the heart of man.” Those doing this to me thought they were teaching me something of value, that would help me. And because of the vicious and political nature of the group, in one sense they were right; the naive get stepped on and wounded. I have known parents who tried to spare their children some of this out of love, but often they were overuled by other family members, who viewed these parents as “weak” and “unfit” to teach their child.
Q: Can you list their religious beliefs in some detail? e.g. re-incarnation? Heaven and hell? Sin? Absolution? Elves?
A: Which part? Spiritual has many branches, including: celtic druidism, rosicrucianism, Babylonian mystery religion, Egyptian mysteries, and traveling the planes. A child will have to learn each of these disciplines, and others, as part of their training. They also have theta, or psychic training, as well.
The Illuminati have taken the best (or worst) of each of these religions, and incorporated them. Also, there is NOT just ONE religion that every group follows. In Washington DC, my main trainers were celtic druids and adherents of babylonian mystery religion. In San Diego,the Egyptian mystery religion is emphasized, in part because Col. Aquinos oversees that group, and is heavily into Temple of Set.
Here is a brief overview, doing my best to incorporate these beliefs. They believe that reincarnation is possible, because of the time travel that they do, but they don’t emphasize it in their teachings. They believe in a final sphere of white light, which to them is total enlightenment, and their concept of heaven. They believe that they are immune from hell, which is for the unenlightened. Their concept of hell is different than the Bible’s; they believe that it means being lower and never reaching higher in the afterlife (they believe there are levels there, too, determined by how one progresses here on earth).
To them, sin is being weak or stupid, and not using the intelligence or abilities you were given, or failing to progress. I never heard any discussion of absolution. If you fail, you are punished or killed. That simple. There is some belief in elves, sprites, and other small beings in the druidic branch, who also see life in each of nature’s creations.
Q: Some researchers claim that various items that people are commonly exposed to in society are part of the means to weaken their enemies. Therefore, I wonder if the Illuminati allow their own leading members to be exposed to these, i.e. the following:
a. chlorine and fluoride in water and foods;
c. medical drugs;
d. junk food;
e. microwaved food;
f. dietary supplements;
h. mercury fillings;
A: In general, true leadership is protected from much of the above. They are ORDERED to not: drink, do drugs, or anything harmful to themselves. They don’t go as far as junk food or microwaved food, since they don’t worry about that, but at meetings, healthy food such as granola or trail mix are given out during exercises, and they know the importance of good nutrition.
They will NOT put their top leaders through the extensive use of mind control experimentation, or implants, etc. because of the risk involved. These children and adults ARE dissociative, but they go through a special program that is different than for the lower levels. They do get vaccines, since even if the child became ill, a healer could fix them. And they do take medications if needed, such as antibiotics, etc.
Do they claim to use vaccines or medical drugs for genocide? I had not heard that when I was in the group. Everyone I knew was vaccinated and took medications, although vitamins and good diet were also important.
Q: Some claim that Mormons, Jehovah’s Witnesses, Charismatics, Pagans, the New Age Movement, Satanists, etc. were founded by the same plotters. Are these groups, or at least their leaders, considered allies of the Illuminati by their members?
A: Some of these groups have affiliated themselves secretly with the Illuminati (because of the money and free training offered), others are sympathetic, or at the least, respectful of them. The Mormons affiliated years ago in a meeting with Illuminati leadership in the 1950s. The same with the Jehovah’s Witnesses. I have not heard that Charismatics or Pagans were affiliated, the pagans are considered “dabblers” by the Illuminati. The New Age and Satanists are sympathetic to them.
Q: Do they respect real science or history in favor of “faith” in their own beliefs?
A: No. They will respect science, but they will try to rewrite history in set ups and dramas for children (where they purport to show them “real history” behind the scenes). Also, they will do time travel through portals, but I cannot say how accurate what occurs is, since I believe it is facilitated demonically.
The Illuminati teach their children that powerful occultists who were enlightened have been secretly behind the thrones of Europe, and down the ages behind the kingdoms of this world, since time began. True or propaganda? I don’t know. They teach their children that underneath Stonehenge there is a great room filled with the skeletons of sacrifices. Fact or fiction? I don’t know, and cannot fund the archeological expedition it would take to verify this or not.
How accurate their teachings are, I do question, since they also leave out the role of faith in God, and His ability to hold back evil. I believe that ultimately, God has been in control of human history, not evil.
Q: I’m very concerned about the New World Order scheme and my questions are meant to help me find possible ways to proceed in helping to defeat the scheme.
A: I know I sound cynical, but good luck! I really do wish you the best in this. I believe that it would take a LOT of people joining together, with immense wealth and excellent lawyers, to stop them.
I personally do not have any experience with any groups dedicated to stopping them, since I live in a small rural community and have no contacts of this nature. I do wish any groups dedicated to stopping this horrific abuse of small children the very best, and will pray that they succeed. But this is also a spiritual battle, and anyone who takes on this type of occult evil would also need to be aware of spiritual warfare. The Illuminists certainly use it against others, and anyone stepping into this arena without prayer would be very vulnerable, in my opinion.
Q: Have you considered starting a 12 step group like AA for ritual abusers and cult victims? I know from personal experience that the spiritual 12 step program works.
A: I believe that there are already groups such as this out there. I know that there are AA groups for incest survivors, and many also have branched off into RA [Ritual Abuse] support as well. Since I live in a rural area (population 100 unless you count the squirrels and cows), I would not be close enough to lead any groups such as this. They are usually found near large metropolitan areas. In fact, I drive two hours once a month to therapy, since that is the closest to where I live.
Q: Were you allowed to read and listen to what you wanted while you were in the Illuminati, or was everything censored? If it wasn’t censored, it seems like members could notice that Illuminati teachings about betrayal being a human attribute are false. Right?
A: Wrong. I was never censored what I read, but you have to understand their mind set. As a small child, my parents told me that everyone was secretly a member of this group, and that the daytime was a “facade” or “pretense’ that all maintain.
They would take me to friends’ houses for dinner, and afterwards a ritual would occur, so I believed them. I grew up since infancy believing that this was just how the world operated for all: people act one way in the daytime, another at night. I knew that there was mention of love, caring, and trust in books, but believed it was a “daytime” quality, and that the people who wrote of these things were writing from their daytime personas.
There was a complete and utter division between day and night from my first days of life. To question something, you have to be able to step outside it, and I never had the maturity, or any reason to question the teachings, until I was much older. Think about it. All around were movies reinforcing what the cult taught, the Disney films, etc; I listened to heavy metal groups, whose values echoed what I was taught at night. In fact, outside of Christian literature, there is not much out there that would engender trust in other human beings.
Q: I was shocked to hear you say you were forced to shoot a friend of yours. Are many members forced to shoot or kill someone, or is this just for punishment training? Is it just outsiders who are killed? Are you able to discuss the shooting, or is this too hard to discuss?
A: The friend was not an outsider, she was part of the group, and considered expendable. In this group, people are one of two things: “useful” or “expendable”. Everyone works quite hard to be useful. It is not a common punishment, in fact rare, but my mother was an unusually driven and ambitious person.
She was a head trainer, and sat on the regional council over the Washington DC area in the spiritual seat (the other seats on the council were military, held by her boss at the Pentagon, where she worked, his cult name was “Ashtoth”, a goverment seat, leadership, scholarship, and sciences seats).
Usually, they bring in outsiders for rituals or killing, but this was an unusually harsh punishment to teach me an unforgettable lesson (it did: I never made a friend after that. I didn’t like those higher than me, and had no wish to make friends with those she considered “worthy” of a “leader” and other nonsense).
Very rarely, in military exercises, those who were weak or kept a unit behind consistently were shot to teach the others a lesson (I saw it happen once). This never happened to the children of leaders, only those from lower levels.
Q: You say you begged God for a better home every night, but became embittered against God for not providing it. Were you praying to a benevolent God or to the Illuminati god? If the former, then where did you get your idea of a benevolent God?
A: This is a great question. I was NOT praying to the Iluminati deities, because to me, they were cruel and sadistic and frightening. I was praying to my child’s concept of a good God, from my reading, watching of TV, and also the innate knowledge that all children have in their hearts that somewhere, up there, is a good God.
I also had a few experiences with angels, and being protected as a child during horrendous trauma, and this also formed my concept that good existed. They never actually tried to stop me from praying, since positive spirituality gives hope, and can help prevent suicide.
In fact, I was forbidden to read about or seek any knowledge about the occult in my day life, because otherwise too much would be given to the occult and the risk of suicide would have increased. They are believers in “balance’, even in this area.
Q: You said “Papa Brogan” [see previous article] was the only kind adult in your life growing up. Do you mean he showed you affection? In what way?
A: Dr. Timothy Brogan was a professor at George Washington University. He was a specialist in neuropsychology, and one of the top Illuminati trainers in the DC area. He was also close friends with Sidney Gottlieb (another of my mother’s “friends”).
Anyway, he could be very kind as well as cruel. He would hold me on his lap, call me his “little one”, and praised me highly when I did well. He taught me chess, and would read works of literature to me. He told me I was his “adopted daughter” and that he was proud of me. We would hold intellectual discussions until late at night, and he imparted his views of leadership and training to me. Not all Illuminati activity is cruel or inhumane; he could be caring and loving as well. I would play with his children, who were older than me, and he would patiently answer my questions about science, geography, and other topics. I bonded completely to him, which made the torture and sexual abuse especially painful and betraying.
Q: You say you had a core split, over 7,000 fragments and 16 internal systems. You mean you developed split personalities who weren’t aware of each other? If so, did any of these personalities seem to have a fairly nice life?
A: Yep, split personalities. Most of the people I knew in the Illuminati were fairly fragmented (in fact, I cannot think of anyone who was not dissociative to some degree). Even the local and regional leaders all come in for regular “programming tune ups” as Jonathan and I used to call them. The largest split was between the front and back; ie. daily life and night life. Most, but not all, of the night alters could communicate, or at least the controllers and the higher parts inside could (and relay information to those beneath them). And yes, many of my personalities had a wonderful life. I had 140 created to deal with daytime life, such as work, friends, and fun (who have coalesced).
Many of my back people had good experiences, such as the ones I described above with Dr. Brogan. Others were pampered and praised, told that I would be a leader in the coming “New Order” (of course, they tell everyone that….). I was to be a mediator between governmental figures in different nations because of my language abilities and people mediation skills. Many of my internal parts were quite proud of their abilities and accomplishments in the group, and grieved heavily when I left.
Q: Are the non-German Illuminists not Nazis, racist white supremacists, or genocidal maniacs? And, if the leadership in all countries is Illuminati, that must mean they’re of all races, which seems to mean the white supremacists oppose the non-white Illuminati. Is this right?
A: Not all Illuminist groups are as fanatically anti-racial as the German branch is, although many are. These people are racist in the extreme, but they are also very practical, and realize that world domination is not possible without the aid of non-white races. That is why loyal figures in these countries are being promised leadership positions for their area, under the supervision of Illuminist commanders.
They also view orientals differently than other nonwhite races, because of the long history of occult mysticism in many countries (such as Tibet, for example), the long history of culture, and the high intelligence. This is why the oriental branches are highly regarded, even in Europe. But they do believe that Europe will be the center of world government and leadership.
Even in non-white countries, the top leadership is still white, or nearly so. For example, in South America, the top leaders are European in descent, with less of the mestizo mixing. In Africa, many of the leaders behind the scenes are whites, although there are local black leaders who have demonstrated extreme loyalty. They are using them, though, since these members will never be able to hold top leadership in the world. (Those positions are already taken).
All this said, I believe that the racist and hateful policies of the Illuminati are despicable in the extreme. One of my biggest quarrels with leadership was this position, among others. I hope this has answered some of your questions. – Svali
Several months ago, I sent a questionaire out to the professional community to find out the opinions of therapists who work with ritual abuse. I contacted the ISSD as well as several therapists whom I had heard of in the field. Why? Because I wanted a chance for the dedicated professionals who work in this field to have a chance to speak out, and I was also interested in their opinions.
I have changed all names, and used pseudonyms to protect the identities of these individuals and the clients that they work with. But these are very real people, who often work long hours, at times under threat from outside people, to help survivors break free. I cannot imagine a group of people that I admire more, next to the survivors themselves. The therapists who answered live both in the United States, and several countries around the world.
First I asked what percent of the therapist’s practice was ritually abused clients. The answers varied.
Jenny, a female therapist, answered: Yes.I never figured percentages. I saw several clients whom I suspected were RA but they never claimed memories of such.
Fran, another therapist, stated: Ritually abused clients have made up about 10% of my practice in the past six years. I consider it a sub-specialty.
Joann, who works in a group practice, stated: yes – though many only openly admit to being DID Is this your specialty area of practice? yes It is about 70% of my practice and 100% of my partnert’s practice
Alice states: Yes…usually they do not enter my office and announce that, however. It usually unfolds in the course of therapy, or they are referred following that disclosure. DID is one of my specialty areas of practice. It comprises about 1/5 of my caseload…and at one time was about 1/3.
John states: I work primarily in and with trauma survivors, mainly people over the ages of 35 and split about 45% 55% male to female. Yes I see a number of people who were ritually abused. Of those I work with about 30% were classic ritual abuse survivors…
I then asked: Do you believe your clients when they tell you they were ritually abused? If so, why? The responses were very interesting.
Jenny states: I believe that it is possible that RA memories are true. I cannot determine truth for clients.
Fran makes some points about her client’s memories: I generally believe my clients’ accounts of ritually abuse because:
1. I have obtained very convincing corroborating evidence.
2. Their emotional reactions and psychological symptoms make complete sense in relation to their accounts of abuse.
3. In one of my cases, relatives of the ritual abuse victim were incarcerated for multiple counts of sadistic sexual assault.
4. I am a member of a professional co-supervision group in which my colleagues have also obtained significant clinical and corroborating evidence of ritualistic abuse and mind control programming.
5. I am familiar with the professional research and clinical literature.
There are some aspects of some clients’ accounts that I believe may not be completely accurate, due to abuse perpetrated on drugged clients or deception by their abusers.
Joann shares her opinion: Absolutely. Who would make up those stories???
Alice makes a point here: I have never seen anyone I thought was fabricating. I have also NEVER told anyone of my clients that they “met a profile”, nor have I shared any of the “theories” that were prevalent in our field for awhile regarding conspiracy, programming, etc. I treat their memories with respect and, when needed, assist them in looking at the BEHAVIORS of their abusers and how it was abuse, regardless of the belief system. I see DID as an elaborate defense system involving all levels of personality.
John shares his view: I believe that initially they will tell me what it is that they have to to unburden the past. And they will tell me often times from the child’s prospective in an adult voice. It is variation on the truth. it is how they recall it at the time in my office, and it may not even be close to what happened but it does define the starting gate so to speak and it is my job to help work them through their processes not decern the truth of the matter. I am the professional listener not the detective…. I think many of my contempories get lost here.
I think it is important to note here that contrary to what some vocal groups in the media say, these professionals listen to what the client brings into therapy. They are NOT suggesting memories, instead, they are listening to their clients.
My next question was: What sort of groups are your clients reporting that “ritually abuse”? Are these organized groups with a religious/philosophical base, or are they isolated incidences? Have you seen any common denominators between groups, if this is what is reported? Any elements that make individuals or groups different in how they work?
Jenny states: Satanic cults; Christian sects, U. S. Government Are these organized groups with a religious/philosophical base, or are they isolated incidences? Both Have you seen any common denominators between groups, if this is what is reported? Any elements that make individuals or groups different in how they work? Pedophilia, sadomachistic tendencies
Fran shares from her experience working with survivors: My clients report abuse by Illuminati, KKK, and Fourth Reich. My Illuminati victim also reports abuse by national and international governments. None of my ritually-abused clients have single-incident abuses. All endured long-term abuse within inter-generational Satanism. Some appear to be more motivated by Satan-worship, others by obtaining world power. Common denominators: Satan worship is reported by all clients. Disgusting and horribly painful torture is reported by all, and there is consistency in the specific kinds of torture used, e.g., being hung upside down, skinning people alive, use of hooks, and more that I can not recall right now. Differences: Sexual abuse seems to have been more frequent and the perpetrators appeared to have stronger pedophiliac interests in my survivors of KKK and Fourth Reich than the Illuminati survivor, who appeared to be high up in the power heirarchy, where it appeared more specific to particular rituals. Only the Illuminati survivor reported abuse by political figures.
Joann’s clients also have shared with hertheir experiences with SRA: Most are isolated. some are offshoots of other groups (example – Masonic, Greek orthodox, illuminati) All involve abuse though the type varies – sexual, physical, emotional
Alice’s clients have also shared different types of abuse: A wide range of groups from aryan nation stuff ,to christian groups, to ancient fertility stuff, to the “chinese menu” approach. The only thing they all have in common is the abuse of power and children.
John shares his perspective: Variation on a theme of religion, although I have one at the moment that is focused on healing and not religion… oddly enough, and they as an organization are subject too a major investigation by the local Medical authorities/….
My next question was: Have you ever seen evidence that seems to corroborate client’s stories? Such as bruising/evidence of abuse physically; or testimony of siblings or family members? Threats against yourself from outside members of the group?
Jenny states: 3 clients of different age groups naming same group leader spanning a period of three decades. Also naming same ritual sites. To my knowledge these clients, being in different generations had never met each other.
Fran has also seen corroborating evidence: I have seen corroborating evidence, including mutiple survivors identifying the same perpetrators, and incarceration of perpetrators.I have had numerous phone hang-ups, for periods a few a day. I had one call at midnight – a woman’s voice said “She’s dead you know, you killed her”. Nobody I know died.
Joann states: Such as bruising/evidence of abuse physically; (physical pain or sensitivities – ie body memories) Changes as a result of access by others including family members(this may be done knowingly or unknowingly). Threats against yourself from outside members of the group? No threats – just being followed
John has received threats because of his work with survivors: By the time that I see people generally speaking the abuse has long since stopped, but I have seen scars that seem to corroborate clients stories. Yes I have had death threats by the acting out brothers of three young ladies who came in for help. Their old brothers who now live as hermits in the bush, threatened to shoot both me and them if and I quote: Anymore talk of this sexual abuse thing keeps going, end quote
I want to thank the courageous professionals who shared their opinions in this article. Part two will include: healing from ritual abuse, what helps and what doesn’t.
*Important note: This article does not, and is not meant, to take the place of work with a qualified therapist, which is essential to healing from severe trauma. The comments in this article are in general terms only, and are only opinions.*
Healing. That is the goal in the journey of healing from abuse, and I have a confession to make. The question I asked therapists in this article was totally self serving. I really wanted to hear what they had to say on healing, what helps, and what doesn’t. As a survivor, I was extremely interested in the answers.
Each therapist was careful to say that they were speaking in generalities, that each client is different and unique. That each person’s healing will following the path best for them. But there are some excellent insights that they shared from their observations over the years, and I felt that this deserved an article of its own.
The question I asked was: Which factors have you seen in clients that help them progress in their healing process from ritual abuse? Which factors have you seen that tend to retard progress? (I know this is a complex question, just a few key elements)
Ritual abuse often makes the survivor feel they are worthless, or have no rights. Jenny had some thoughts on this topic:
Aura of spirituality; sense of humor, lack of feelings of entitlement, strong support system Which factors have you seen that tend to retard progress? (I know this is a complex question, just a few key elements) Opposite of the above
Fran had comments based on many hours of work with her clients. Her response shows her commitment, and her client’s commitment, to the healing process:
Factors that facilitate progress:
1. Patience by the therapist.
2. Hard work, journaling, art, between sessions.
3. Having a greater purpose of helping others
4. Having helpful, loving, and protective support persons.
5. A religious base of hope and protection.
6. Valuing both their own knowledge and the suggestions of the therapist.
7. Crying, grieving.
Factors that retard progress
1. Maladaptive relationships
2. Being re-accessed or abducted.
3. Substance abuse
4. Over-dependence, looking for the perfect new mother.
5. Lack of support persons
6. Lack of a religious support network and belief system.
7. Lack of looking inward for answers, over-reliance on the therapist
8. Resistance to crying.
Those who have been ritually abused have often had negative spiritual experiences. Joann shares her perspective that includes her belief system:
Which factors have you seen in clients that help them progress in their healing process from ritual abuse? strong Christian beliefs, strong desire to heal, submission to the healing process Which factors have you seen that tend to retard progress? denial, unwilling or unable to commit time or money, fear, trust issues, emphasis on presenting alters rather than on programming/structures/systems , lone ranger counselors who burn themselves out
Survivors of ritual abuse have often had a multitude of painful betrayals in their lifetime. Alice shares her thoughts on this painful topic:
It always helps to process betrayal…all the betrayals from spiritual to parental. It also helps to label specific behaviors as abuse in the framework of healthy parenting and group dynamics.Sometimes clients have difficulty with their corrupted belief systems as regards themselves…i.e.- “I have no soul”
Survivors of ritual abuse often have difficulty trusting others, and John shares his perspective on this issue:
What helps the most is the solid listening and them coming away from session after session with a strong sense of being listened too. The second mostimportant eliment is to treat the presenting problem properly and that is usually a deep seated depression that masks itself in some other format. ODD or BiP or BPD etc. and to gain releif here and build trust over time….
One of the facinating things that I have found is that in the fourth or fifth year of treatment sometimes the depth of the dissociative aspect jumps out and you have alters in your office who have watched you for a very long time and they can finally trust you to share. I had one lady who had been treated for 8 and half years before I got to her and it was late in our third year when I meet the first alter. The Alters knew the truth of what happened to her and it was ritual abuse by her mom. It went on every day and on several occasions nearly resulted in the clients death, and all this happened per age three. Mom later confirmed this. I had used the principal of the ISH and garnered its support in the healing and the client now 39 has her child back, is holding down a full time job, is in a relationship that she is happy with and is clean and sober drugs and alcohol 6 years..She is on Rx for her depression and probabily will be all the rest of her life… but she is having one now.
I found these responses helpful and insightful. These are caring people, who have invested hours and hours into helping survivors in the often painful, but also rewarding, journey of healing. The fact that they took time from their busy practices to share some thoughts is awesome, and I appreciate and thank each and every one. In my thoughts, these people are heros, along with the people that they help. Ritual abuse is one of the most traumatic abuses to heal from, but the therapists and survivors discussed in these articles are doing just that. Healing.
Breaking Free of the Cult
One of the most important but also one of the most difficult steps that a survivor of generational cult abuse can make is the decision to leave the group that they were raised in.
Those who are naive, or don’t understand the nature of being raised in a group may wonder, “Why would it be hard to leave abusers? Wouldn’t a person WANT to get away?” The reality is a little more complicated, and my hope is that this article will help both survivors, therapists, and support people as well as those who wish to understand ritual abuse have a better idea of the issues that survivors getting out face, as well as some helpful ideas on safety.
BARRIERS TO GETTING OUT:
I want to address these first. This is not to be discouraging, but to help identify the issues involved. If a person understands the obstacles to leaving, they can then begin developing a plan to overcome these problems.
Paramount is PERSONAL SAFETY. Threats against those who try to leave are real, and the person has been conditioned by witnessing the punishment of those who have tried to leave (see my article on how the cult programs people for more info); or even punishment for questioning the group or its leader. The psychological intimidation of a lifetime is real, and the person must be assured of physical safety before they will consider leaving a group that could literally brutally punish them (or worse) for attempting to leave.
It is very, very difficult to consider leaving, or worse yet, to discuss leaving in therapy, then have reporter alters “telling on” the person to the group leaders. This happened to me in San Diego, and the results were devastating. My inside parts who wanted to get out, who were working hard in therapy, were being physically brutalized at night to punish them for talking and remembering. This created a great deal of what therapists call “intrasystem conflict” , to put it mildly. Some parts became hostile at other parts who wanted to leave, and they began punishing them as well. In addition, suicide commands were put in by the head trainer.
The reality is that if a person truly wants to break free, they may become “expendable” in the eyes of the cult, or considered a security risk, and will often be told to suicide. In breaking free, a survivor and their support system needs to be aware of these realities. To not be aware that this is/could be happening will cause therapy to be sabotaged.
Even if the person finds physical safety, other issues need to be addressed as well.
One is ISOLATION. Often in transgenerational groups, the survivor’s entire family of origin, as well as their closest friends, and spouse will be part of the group (the Illuminati arrange almost 100% of their marriages, I have never personally known of a person in the group whose spouse was not also involved, as well as the children.) These members of the immediate family will be the ones most likely to reaccess the survivor. I will give a personal example, again.
When I lived in San Diego, I was in therapy for DID. All that I remembered at the time was a period of three years of ritual abuse with my father and his mother. I thought my mother “rescued” me from him when she divorced him. But my therapy was at a standstill. The more I remembered, the WORSE I became, and decompensated. I would go to therapy, talk, try to help my inside people, then would feel immense panic and fear, as well as suicidal urges afterwards.
It wasn’t until later that I learned that my mother was my cult trainer the first five years of my life; that my husband was taking me back to cult meetings where I was severely punished and programmed to NOT tell in therapy. Once I had physical safety, and broke off contact with cult members, I immediately began stabilizing psychologically. But the price was high. My husband divorced me when I told him I remembered; I told him his cult name, mine and the children’s, thinking he, too would want to get out. Instead, I lost custody of my two children in a long and expensive court battle with a justice system whose attitude was that ritual abuse was a delusion. (Fortunately, 1 1/2 years ago, my ex decided to leave the group, in part because of seeing me alive and well and working full time; and I now have full custody of my children, who are doing well in therapy).
I am sharing this to help people be aware that the price of leaving a transgenerational group may include (although each situation is different):
giving up contact with members of family of origin
giving up contact with close friends (the survivor has often been surrounded by cult members in their social group, including at church; my five closest friends were all members of the Illuminati and I had no idea). Often “cult twins” are best friends in day time life
learning that a spouse and children are all members
The enormous psychological pain of giving up these relationships will often make it difficult for the survivor, but if they continue in them, the chances of being reaccessed are great. MOST REACCESSING OF THE SURVIVOR COMES FROM MEMBERS OF THEIR IMMEDIATE FAMILY. This is one of the hardest tasks for the survivor to attempt as he or she learns good boundaries. What those boundaries need to be will differ from person to person, and their individual situation.
Another real, and powerful pull back to the cult, will come from the perception that NEEDS inside the person are being met by the group. The person will likely be dissociative, if they have been raised in a transgenerational group, and they will often have alters inside who have never known or experienced the abuse, who will be considered “high alters”part’s reality is that they were praised and told that they were special, often unaware or not caring that other alters inside endured the abuse. These higher alters may identify strongly with their perps and are often the alters that want recontact with the group and help drive internal recontact programming.
Frequently, when a person leaves a cult group, there is a real period of grieving. Social relations have been changed. Alters with special needs will feel that their needs are no longer being met, whether for belonging, for sexual activity, for power, or other personal agendas. The survivor needs to recognize this reality. A person will often unconsciously recontact a group if they believe that deep needs are being met by this group. Teaching themselves to meet their needs in a healthy and appropriate way will take time and patience, working with a qualified safe therapist who understands ritual abuse.
There may be PROGRAMMING to recontact the group. The survivor will need to identify if this is present, and take steps with the help of their therapist and support system to deactivate it.
IDEAS ON BREAKING FREE
While breaking free can be difficult, as I have discussed above, it is possible to escape a cult group and maintain personal safety. I will share from both my personal experience and that of other survivors things which have proven helpful in breaking free.
1. Safe outside accountability:
If the person attempting to break free can live with someone who is NOT a member of the group, who is a safe person, that will increase their own personal safety exponentially. Cult members from groups such as the Illuminati will hesitate to harrass or try to access someone while they are with a safe person, one who is not dissociative. One of the most dangerous set ups is when a survivor is living alone, or in isolation, or if they talk long walks at night or in areas where there are no people around. Abductions, kidnappings, or reaccessing may occur in these situations. The more safe outside accountability the survivor sets up, the less chance that this will occur. This could mean a safe roomate who is not dissociative; staying with members of a church, finding a safe house, or even a women’s shelter (although there are reports that some shelters and safe houses are being infiltrated by cult members; the survivor needs to be cautious in where they go and whom they trust). One grievous problem today is the relative lack of safe houses for people trying to break free of the cult.
One precaution: often survivors will quickly make friends with other survivors, since they feel isolated and alone without the cult group. The survivor may want to exercise caution about rushing into friendships, since many survivors, especially at the beginning of their therapeutic process, may still be in contact with a cult group. Each person will need to make decisions on an individual basis in this area to maintain safety.
2. A good therapist:
There are excellent therapists who specialize in working with ritual abuse. While qualifications among therapists will vary, a survivor can try locating one by contacting reputable people in the field for referrals, by contacting the ISSD (link is on the welcome page for my articles), or by referral from people the survivor trusts. Not all therapists who advertise that they work with DID are safe, but if the survivor checks out references and asks careful questions, their chances of finding a good therapist will be higher. I have personally had therapists who worked with DID who ranged from : a pastor in San Diego who told me he could “integrate me” in 3 months if I had enough faith (this did NOT happen and was completely unrealistic); a therapist who was the referral for a national christian counseling group for DID who told me that her brother had tortured her as a child, and that I was not DID because she, the therapist, often “lost time” and went through personality changes and SHE wasn’t DID (I stopped seeing her after two visits); a therapist associated with a ritual abuse and trauma program who was very knowledgeable, compassionate, and helpful. The last one, needless to say, was the only helpful one in my healing process! A good therapist will be knowledgeable about DID and ritual abuse; will BELIEVE the survivor and not discount memories shared; will help the survivor with achieving inter-system communication; and will have good boundaries. A therapist like this is well worth the time and effort it will take to locate, and can help the survivor immensely in the process of breaking free of cult control.
3. Stopping telephone access:
The telephone is one of the first avenues used to access someone trying to leave the cult. Hang up calls; calls with tones played, or with a tape or hidden message, will be used. Also, survivors often have recontact programming to phone their trainer or family members. One way to deal with this: take the telephone and lock it in the trunk of the car. This way, if a part of the survivor tries to get up in the middle of the night and make a phone call, they will have to find the car keys; unlock the trunk, plug the phone in,and make the call. Hopefully, the survivor will have time to “switch out” another part who will stop the call, especially as they work in therapy to block cult access.
Use of caller i.d.; answering services, or an answering machine (calls can be checked with a therapist or support person present in case an access message is left) can also help prevent phone access. Eventually, the survivor will find the parts inside with a vested interest in recontact, and can negotiate with them not to call or recontact. An unlisted phone number may help for a short period of time. Phone numbers can also be blocked to prevent calls from certain numbers, such as those of known perps.
4. Alarm systems:
Some survivors will have alarm systems to prevent unauthorized entry into their home. Again, this is best combined with a safe living situation, as described above. These alarm systems can also be coded by an outside safe person so that the survivor themself cannot decode it if internal parts try to leave in the middle of the night.
5. Share info with safe outsiders:
This could be a lock box with names of perps, and information, which the safe person will distribute if the survivor is harmed or access is attempted. The survivor can then mail a letter to this effect to known perps, to help prevent accessing or abducting of the survivor.
6. Go public
Some survivors have chosen to go public to maintain safety. The thought is that if they are harmed, they have shared enough info that an investigation will be done into the causes, and the cult group will risk further exposure, which they hate. Sharing information with law enforcement, with legal advisors, therapists, social workers, and child protective services can all also help maintain safety, IF the law enforcement officers, etc. are not members of the group. The problem here is that at times, cult members will infiltrate legal and law enforcement organizations, even CPS, to prevent cult members from escaping. The survivor will need to go to reputable, known safe people, if they choose to go this route.
7. Work on undoing recontact programming
This will take time, with a qualified therapist. It means looking at the trauma that placed the programming in, a difficult task psychologically. It will also mean addressing the powerful needs addressed above as well, and grieving when contact with cult members is stopped.
8. Prayer support
As a Christian, I believe that this can be a survivor’s strongest protection. A strong, supportive faith system, and prayers for safety can protect the survivor during the spiritually and emotionally trying times while breaking free of the cult.
These are just a few ideas on breaking free. Many, many survivors have broken free, and have used their creativity and strength, as well as the help of noncult members who wish to help, to maintain safety. My hope is that this article will be a beginning place for both survivors and their support people and therapists to look at maintaining safety. I welcome any comments or andecotes on ideas that other survivors and support people have found for maintaining safety.
copyright 2000 svali
*Important note: this article is not meant to be therapy, or to replace therapy with a skilled and qualified person, which is essential in healing from severe trauma. These are only the opinions of a survivor. Trigger warning: mentions cult abuse, dissociation, and trauma*
In order to survive ritual abuse, a child will often learn to dissociate, and dissociate heavily. The child has undergone some of the most horrific abuse humanly imaginable, and most find a way to cope. One of the ways that is encouraged in certain groups, such as the Illuminati, is to create an elaborate defensive system. In psychological terms, the child fragments, then fragments again. Eventually, the child has polyfragmented.
What is polyfragmentation? The term comes from the root poly, meaning many, and fragments. In complex polyfragmenatation, the survivor will have not only alter systems, but hundreds or even thousands of fragments, isolated parts of their mind created to do a job, and do it well and unthinkingly. Often the job is one that would be abhorrent to the main personality or presenting system. The further away from core beliefs, the greater usually the dissociation and fragmentation that must occur. In other words, a LOT of trauma has to happen to make a person do something that they really don’t want to do. And the person has to feel very far away from themselves as well when doing it. The cult will purposely try to create a polyfragmented system for this very reason. The person is more dissociated from themselves, and is often easier for them to control.
How are polyfragmented systems structured? These are individual, and will vary from not only person to person, but also with the group the person belonged to, the trainers, the abilities of the child, and tasks involved that the child must do. There is no “cookie cutter approach” in most cults to creating polyfragmented systems, but there are certain characteristics that are common.
What might a polyfragmented system look like? I will share some based on my memories as a trainer in this group, plus insights from my own healing process.
1. Protectors: these are parts that were created to do the jobs that had to be done, and saved the life of the young child. Cult protectors had to look mean and scary, like the child’s perpetrators. They also become perpetrators when the child grows into an adult, since they have no choice. They can be ruthless, angry, or may believe that they are demons. Some growl, some hiss, some believe that they are powerful animals. And all were a little child who was asked to do the unthinkable, forced to act in ways that he or she didn’t want to. They laugh at vulnerability, and trust no one. And with good reason, based upon their experiences in the cult. With therapy and time, they can also help keep the person safe from their perpetrators, as these parts will “kick butt” if they feel threatened.
2. Intellectuals: the cult WANTS intellectual alters who can observe, go between systems, learn information quickly and download it to outsiders. These might be recorders, computers, scholars. They may know several languages, and versed in different philosophies. Brilliant, cognitive, they often believe that they can outwit those around them, including therapists. But they also know much of the life history that the others don’t, since they rarely have strong feelings. These parts can “read the life history” without a tear or emotion. When they are out, the person appears “flat” to say the least, in psychological terms.
3. Denial people: these are intellectual, and are created to deny that anything bad ever happened. Life was wonderful, the parents perfect and loving, and the suicidality and PTSD symptoms are just strange artifacts without “any reason,” according to these parts. A person can have a full blown abreaction, and five minutes later, a denier will come out and say it was all “made up.” They are often afraid of punishment if the person remembers, and have severe trauma motivating them.
4. Controllers/head honchos/”top dogs”: these are the system leaders. They know what is going on at all times in their system. In a military system, it might be a general, in a protector system, the most powerful protector; in a metals system, the platinums, or in a jewel system, the highest jewels, such as diamond, ruby, or emerald. Usually there are several leaders in a system that share the responsibility. They can also become invaluable helpers over time if they choose to give up cult loyalty.
5. Child alters: these want praise from the adult leaders, and often come out for rewards, or sweets. They will report on others inside unless they can learn that it is safe to NOT do so, since they are motivated both by fear of punishment, and wanting praise from those above them. They are also often the “heart” of a polyfragmented system, and can feel love, joy, or fear and trembling. Often, they want hugs and to be told that they are “okay”.
6. Punishers: why wait for an outside person to punish you if you can create someone inside to do it first? Children will often identify heavily with their perpetrators, and if the punishment is severe and frequent, they will internalize the perpetrator to try and keep themselves “in line” and avoid punishment externally. The cult will capitalize on this, and often trainers will leave as their “calling card” an alter named after themselves. This one will be an internal trainer, or punisher, or enforcer. Their job is to keep things in line, and will often try to sabotage therapy. They are often fearful of external punishment if they don’t do their job. Internal punishers will also activate self punishment sequences inside (such as flood programming/ suicide programming, or other self harm sequences) if the person begins breaking away from the cult and the old rules. These parts may take time to conivince that they can change their old way of doing things, since they were often accountable to the outside handler/trainer if things weren’t kept in line.
7. Feeling alters: the feelings were overwhelming and infinitely traumatizing in childhood. It threatened the child’s survival and sanity. The solution? Parcel them out over several internal parts and/or fragments. Divide the feeling up so that it feels more manageable. Feeling alters often get locked away inside, and when they come out in therapy, the feeling may hit “full force” at first. A child alter may come out screaming, or terror stricken, or wailing in uncontrollable grief and pain, until they are grounded in the here and now. Often, feelings were heavily punished in the cult, so it was psychologically necessary to bury them deeply within the psyche in order to survive. These parts may be very separated from the parts that know what happened to cause the feelings in a highly fragmeneted system, so that the feelings seem to come out of nowhere, without any cause. With time and healing, they can hook up with the intellectuals inside who observed, and other parts who went through the same trauma, giving meaning to the feelings and helping to resolve them.
8. Internal councils: most cults have leadership councils of some sort. And many people internalize them inside. It’s another example of internalizing perpetrators, and these have a vested interest in “keeping things in line” until they realize that they can leave the cult and be safe. Then, they can become an immense strength for healing. A personal may have a local leadership council internalized, or spiritual councils that represent outside people, such as an internal druidic council or group of ascended masters that help run things inside.
9. Sexual alters: created to handle the overwhelming trauma of early childhood sexual abuse, they took the feelings it was too painful for a young child to understand. Some had to learn to enjoy the abuse, or pretend to, and were heavily rewarded for this response.
10. Amnesic alters: these are known as the “front”, the “clueless ones”, “those who don’t know anything”, etc. These have the job of not remembering. Otherwise, as a child, they were heavily punished. Usually, they are very glad to not remember anything, and the other parts who were abused at times envy them or dislike their “protected life history.” This can create a lot of intrasystem hostility or warfare, until the amnesic parts begin accepting that abuse did occur. Reminding abused parts that the amnesia saved the child’s (and their life) helped my system with this.
11. The workers: these do the jobs of daily life, and usually are part of the presenting systems. These take care of the house, got married, take care of the children, and may hold a highly responsible job as well. These are the competent parts created that hide the fact that the person has undergone a lifetime of traumatic abuse and degradation. These parts can also be a great strength, as they share that life can be good with other more traumatized parts inside.
12. Hosts: there may be a “day host” (see presenters), a “night host” for the cult, or hosts for various systems or times in the person’s life. Occasionally, the survivor of severe generational cult abuse may find to their dismay that a greater portion of their life was invested in and given to cult activities than day ones, and the “night host” is stronger than the “day host”! This happened to me. Fortunately, my “night host” was the one who left the cult, so she had plenty of strength and pull to give to staying safe and away from the group. I also had a “host” that had handled the summers spent in Europe, during those times in childhood, and a “hidden host” who never fully presented to protect herself from others (she manipulated the presenters to sit in front of her, telling them what to do). Each person’s system will handle this task differently. In general, the greater the trauma, the greater the distrust of outside people, and the more likely that the host will be a facade, or heavily protected.
13. Core splits: can be created from severe and psychologically threatening very early childhood trauma. This used to be done intentionally by some cult groups to create larger and more dissociated systems.
14. The core: this is the original child, the one who created all of the others inside. The child’s systems will depend upon the traumas and the creativity of the original child, as well as her need to protect herself from the abuse of others that might have destroyed her. In some systems, the core will be very young, or an infant, if the abuse was extremely early and severe. Core issues surrounding her will usually involve parents or parental figures who caused severe trauma. This might include abandonment, torture, or other forms of cruelty to a young child.
15. Function codes, access codes, halt codes, system codes: these are fragments that might be put in to do certain jobs, and are created to only do that job when called out by triggers such as letters, numbers, phrases, or other auditory stimuli. These are created with deep trauma and are very intentionally done by perpetrators.
16. Spiritual parts: these may have a variety of beliefs that cover different spiritualities internally. There may be one over-riding spiritual belief for the system, or several. For example, a spiritual system created by the cult may include aspects of Luciferianism, druidism, Temple of Set teachings, Ancient Babylonian mystery religions, etc. The host or presenters may have a completely conflicting religious belief system, and there may be hostility between the parts that hold opposing beliefs. In my own life, my presenters were strong Christians, and this gave the stability and comfort needed to bring healing to the parts inside. It also opened the way to begin forgiveness, one of the most difficult and important tasks in the healing process.
This has been an overview of just a few of the types of personalities that might be found in a complex polyfragmented system. It is important to be aware that each person is unique; that many people will have coped with trauma in their own way. This is not meant to say that every cult survivor has all of these personalities, but are one survivor’s opinion based upon her experiences and memories. My hope is that this article will help to educate others about this issue.
Copyright 2000 – Svali
Q: Svali, one of the more important points, which I am sure a lot of readers would like to know more about, is, what is the Illuminati /Freemason connection, as far as you are aware of, given your previous position in the Illuminati? Also, was there and is there an infiltration of the Masonic Order?
A: The Freemasons and the Illuminati are hand in glove. I don’t care if this steps on any toes, it’s a fact. The masonic temple at Alexandria, Virginia (the city itself was named after Alexandria, Egypt, and is a hotbed of Illuminati activity) is a center in the Washington, DC area for Illuminati scholarship and teaching. I was taken there at intervals for testing, to step up a level, for scholarship, and high ceremonies. The leaders in this masonic group were also Illuminists.
This has been true of every large city I have lived in. The top Freemasons were also top Illuminists. My maternal grandparents were both high ranking Masons in the city of Pittsburgh, Pa. (president of the Eastern Star and 33rd degree Mason) and they both were also leaders in the Illuminati in that area.
Are all Masons Illuminati? No, especially at the lower levels, I believe they know nothing of the practices that occur in the middle of the night in the larger temples. Many are probably fine businessmen and Christians. But I have never known a 32 degree or above who wasn’t Illuminati, and the group helped create Freemasonry as a “front” for their activities.
Q: What exactly is the meaning of the pyramid on the back of the $1 U.S. note? I’m talking about the pyramid with the capstone detached and hovering above the rest of the pyramid, containing the ‘All-Seeing-Eye’. Is this a Masonic or Illuminati symbol?
A: The pyramid and the “eye of Horus” on the back of the dollar bill are Illuminati symbology. The pyramid is an ancient form based on the holiness of the number 3 to the ancient mystery religions (it, not 6, is considered the most spiritual number), and a pyramid was a structure used specifically to call up the demonic, or occult, a point of psychic activity.
The eye is the all seeing eye of Horus (remember the emphasis on Egyptian magical religious practices? The book of the undead, etc.?) and the fact that no one can escape his magical reach. This eye is considered a demonic eye in the group, or the eye of the deity, and in Illuminati mythology is either open or closed, depending upon the spiritual time of year and the state of the person psychically. Young children are given “psychic surgery” where the eye is placed inside, and they are told that Horus will snatch their soul if they ever try to leave, or if they tell, or that the eye will explode. The symbol on the dollar is reinforcement for every Illuminati child who sees one, and the reminder that they are being watched.
The saying on the dollar, ‘Novus Ordo Seclorum’ also means “bringing in the new order”, which is the Illuminati stated agenda. Just think, in the early 1800’s, our forefathers already were looking forward to when the new order would be ushered in. Have I mentioned that this is a patient, forward looking group of intellectuals? That Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin, FDR, and others were Illuminati leaders? Our country may have been founded on freedom from taxation, but it was also founded on the New World Order just as surely.
Q: How far back in time does the concept / cult of the Illuminati go? It seems to me that they have been around quite some time, possibly since antiquity, guiding, steering and using humanity for their own purposes, operating under different names? Can you elaborate?
A: I was taught that the Illuminati had its roots in the ancient practices that reach into the beginning of recorded time; that the Babylonians on the plains created ziggurats to their deities, whom the Illuminati worship. They were proud of the fact that it was supposedly an unbroken occult line from then until now. The names changed, the basic group was the same.
The ancient mystery religions of Egypt, heart of dark magic were another forerunner, with adherents of Set, Osiris, Horus and Ra; and the Illuminists also believe their bloodlines have come down from the ancient kings of Egypt.
It’s hard for me to know how much was cult propaganda, and how much truth is in the claims. The Templar Knights were definitely a forerunner during medieval times, as well as the Rosicrucians and ancient celts and druids (you know, the ones who built Stonehenge).
Q: I would think that California would be one of the major ‘turfs’ of the Illuminati, and I’m thinking specifically Hollywood. What’s your inside on this, in regards to film making, symbology, subliminals, the whole scene in general?
A: Oh, boy, do you have a few hours? I’ll try to be brief. The Illuminati believethat to control the media is to control the public. This is one of their stated agendas. Remember, finances, media, law, government and education are the areas they targeted as being the best to dominate society.
How do they do this? They don’t go to a film producer and say, “Oh, by the way, we’re Illuminati members and we want you to make a movie that promotes our agenda”. (Remember, they aren’t stupid, either). Instead, they will form a small investment corporation that funds movies with ideas that they like. They quietly hire actors and producers and directors and scripts, but they never mention their affiliation publicly or why they are doing this.
Money talks, and especially in Hollywood. If you have money, you can get about anything made, and they know this. They can also channel money intoadvertising campaigns, etc. for their films (how many Christian films have had major ad campaigns in the past twenty years? Very few. How many occult movies have? I rest my case).
This has been a slow, subtle process because they are patient. They have been working behind the scenes for hundreds of years, and they know that the public is slow to accept new ideas, that it has to be done gradually. (They call it leading in the “sheep” which is one of their terms for the “unenlightened”). And it has been. The number of occult films that has come out in the past ten years alone should make anyone pause and think.
Why so many films with this theme? Why the desensitization of America’s youth to the occult and magic? Just look at Saturday morning cartoons. I don’t allow my children to watch them, except for “animaniacs” and Bugs Bunny at times. Instead, we rent old classics with Audrey Hepburn and John Wayne. I can send you some articles that did an excellent job of investigating Walt Disney (he was an Illuminist, and Fantasia was used to program children).
Some films that blatantly portray the Illuminist agenda: The Matrix. You could have peeled me off the ceiling when I saw that one. The references to conditioning and the core were so blatant, it wasn’t funny. Fight Club: I love Brad Pitt and Ed Norton, and this film is a nod at the covert military buildup going on that the average person doesn’t realize. Also, Ed is dissociative in the film, as Pitt’s character takes over (notice that the cult-creating military figure is the “stronger” one in the story?).
The Labyrinth: I haven’t seen this, but my husband did, and everything he mentioned is pure Illuminati programming stories used with children. Any movies with an occult viewpoint, or that show supernatural psychic phenomena, astral travel, or contact with the spirit world are guaranteed to be part of this agenda. I don’t watch them, myself. Saw enough of the real thing to last me this lifetime.
The sensationalization of rituals and other occult insignia on television is another example. Ghost stories. Witch stories. Children’s books about Wizards and their training that are extremely popular.
Oh, yes, Starship Trooper. This one had so many cult symbols (the Illumnists have a strong Aryan ideology going, too) that I almost laughed outright when I saw it. I counted at least 100 in it. Someone had fun going tongue-in-cheek with the Illuminist agenda in that one.
Many fine actors and actresses are being used in films funded by these people. Some may know the agenda, most probably do not, as long as they receive a pay check. Some are also Illuminists as well, although I don’t know who is. I do know a few, but I don’t want to risk a libel suit here.
Anyway, I was too busy training and going to meetings and learning the effects of drugs on people to pay much attention to that part of the group when I was in it, sorry, I don’t have lots of famous names in my memories. I lived a very relatively boring life as a teacher and head trainer, and we rarely discussed the media except the fact that it, too, was another tool to bring in “The New Order”, which is the motivation for all Illuminists.
I want to address another misconception. That is, the one that the Illuminists know that they are evil. When I was in the group, I and those around me were idealogically committed to the agenda as being GOOD. I thought I was helping others reach their full potential when I was a trainer.
I believed that after years of sweat and hard work, that my intelligence won out, and that I made an excellent leader. I fought Jonathan and others on the council when I thought they were unfair, and stood up for the people beneath me. Others did the same. They honestly think they are doing a GOOD thing, and if you told them it was wrong, or evil, they would look confused.
It took a LOT of therapy and deprogramming myself, doing reality checks with noncult people to realize that it was all a lie. I was devastated. I had dedicated my life to helping others bring in the glorious new order, and then found out it was EVIL and abusive. I went through a period of intense grieving/mourning over this.
Most Illuminists I knew weren’t evil, they were deceived. Only the top leadership perhaps were consciously being hurtful.
Q: Does it bother you to write about this?
A: It doesn’t upset me to write on the topic of the Illuminati, I was explaining why I write under a pen name, that is all. I received a letter recently in which it was alleged that I write under a pen name because I’m a phony, which is not true at all. I am a freelance writer on the side (I write for nursing magazines and publications on health topics that have NOTHING to do with abuse) and understand the need for fact checking, so no offense is taken at your wanting to know my background. In fact, it shows you are a responsible editor, which I admire. I have nothing to hide. My story is 100% true.
I have gained no money for disclosing; I do NOT go on talk shows, I am unknown and prefer it this way. I have absolutely no secondary gain from doing this, other than the medical bills for my children, which means I work three part-time jobs. This is to answer the skeptics who say that people disclose for: sympathy (I don’t want any and don’t need it. I made choices and mistakes in my life, and am now involved in restitution); money (I earn $20 a MONTH for my site on Suite 101. I earn $150 to $250 an article when I write on Women’s health. Guess which topic I write on more frequently? Yep. Women’s health, on completely non-abuse issues. The editors of the Nursing magazines and women’s magazines don’t know about the other topic I write on, another reason I write under a pen name.) I don’t write for fame. Instead, if my co-workers knew about my past, I risk losing my job. I have everything to lose by disclosing, everything to gain by being silent.
But I also know that this kind of child abuse must be stopped. As a Christian, and as one who stands against child abuse, I have decided to speak out against cult abuse by writing articles that expose it. I also know that there are a number of people outspoken on this topic who have published, and they could possibly be back-up information for you. I don’t know any of them, since I have no contact with other survivors other than my own family, but it is a possibility.
Anyway, to your questions:
Q: Svali, I think our readers are wondering ‘Is the Illuminati a religion, secret society, satanism or is it a combination of it, or something different all together, or more sinister?
A: The Illuminati is a group that practices a form of faith known as “enlightenment”. It is Luciferian, and they teach their followers that their roots go back to the ancient mystery religions of Babylon, Egypt, and Celtic druidism. They have taken what they consider the “best” of each, the foundational practices, and joined them together into a strongly occult discipline. Many groups at the local level worship ancient deities such as “El”, “Baal”, and “Ashtarte”, as well as “Isis and Osiris” and “Set”.
This said, the leadership councils at times scoff at the more “primitive” practices of the anarchical, or lower levels. I remember when I was on council in San Diego, they called the high priests and priestesses the “slicers and dicers”, who kept the “lower levels happy”. This is not to offend anyone, it only shows that at the leadership levels,they often believe they are more scientifically and cognitively driven. But they still practice the principles of enlightenment.
There are 12 steps to this, also known as “the 12 steps of discipline’ and they also teach traveling astral planes, time travel, and other metaphysical phenomena. Do people really do this, or is it a drug induced hallucination ? I cannot judge. I saw things that I believe cannot be rationally explained when in this group, things that frightened me, but I can only say that it could be a combination of cult mind control, drug inductions, hypnosis, and some true demonic activity. How much of each, I cannot begin to guess. I do know that these people teach and practice evil.
At the higher levels, the group is no longer people in robes chanting in front of bonfires. Leadership councils have administrators who handle finances (and trust me, this group makes money. That alone would keep it going even if the rest were just religious hog wash). The leadership levels include businessmen, bankers, and local community leaders. They are intelligent, well educated, and active in their churches.Above local leadership councils are the regional councils, who give dictates to the groups below them, help form the policies and agendas for each region, and who interact with the local leadership councils.
At the national level, there are extremely wealthy people who finance these goals and interact with the leaders of other countries. The Illuminati are international. Secret? By all means. The first thing a child learns from “family, or the Order” as they are called, is “The first rule of the Order is secrecy”. This is why you don’t hear from more survivors who get out. The lengths that this group goes to, to terrify its members into not disclosing, is unbelievable. I have seen set ups (oh, yes, they set up fake deaths, etc. ) where a person was “burned alive” to teach the children not to tell. They are told that this is a traitor, who disclosed,and now he is being punished. (The person wasn’t really a traitor, and is in a flame proof vest, but the vision of a person on fire and screaming remains with 3 and 4 year old children for a lifetime). And, when they are adults, even if they DO leave, scenes such as this mean they won’t tell many people for fear of being traced and punished.
Because I helped create a lot of set ups as an adult trainer, I became somewhat cynical, and have chosen to disclose as a result. Although I do fight intense fear even now at times. Try being buried in a wooden box for a period of time (it may have been minutes, but to a four year old it is an eternity), and then when the lid is lifted, being told, “if you ever tell, we’ll put you back in forever”. The child will scream hysterically that they will NEVER EVER tell. I was that child, and now I am breaking that vow made under psychological duress. Because I don’t want any other children to go through what I did, or have seen done to others. Yes, the Illuminati are organized, secretive, and extremely wealthy at its upper levels. They are not stupid, or poor people running around dabbling with witchcraft. To see them as this is a huge misconception.
Q: How widespread would you say this group has infiltrated our society in terms of number of people? Are they present in every town or city throughout North America? Do they take or recruit outsiders? And how far does this group go to keep this knowledge secret?
A: I think I answered some of the secrecy above. The Illuminati are present in every major metropolitan center in the United States. They have divided the United States up into 7 major regions, and each has a regional council over it, with the heads of the local councils reporting to them. They meet once every two months, and on special occasions.
A metropolitan region may have as many as 10 to 30 groups within it, and rural areas will often have meetings with other local groups, and report to the metro leadership council. They almost NEVER recruit outsiders, although ocassionally they will buy children or a family from Asia, for example, and keep them under constant surveillance in return for saving their life from the local Mafia. They are threatened with being returned to this group if they ever disclose.
They also have excellent lawyers who are well paid to help cover their tracks. There are also people in the media paid to help keep stories from coming out. I know of three people in San Diego who worked for the Union Tribune who were faithful Illuminists, and who also wrote frequent articles attacking local therapists who worked with RA (Ritual Abuse) [or SRA, Satanic Ritual Abuse] survivors. I remember leadership boasting they had “run so-and-so out of town” because of a media blitz, and being quite happy about it.
The Illuminati believe in controlling an area through its:
1. Banks and financial institutions (guess how many sit on banking boards? You’d be surprised)
2. Local government: guess how many get elected to local city councils?
3. Law: children are encouraged to go to law school and medical school.
4. Media:others are encouraged to go to journalism school, and members help fund local papers .
Q: Is this the same Illuminati that was created by Adam Weishaupt in Germany?
A: Weishaupt did not create the Illuminati, they chose him as a figurehead and told him what to write about. The financiers, dating back to the bankers during the times of the Templar Knights who financed the early kings in Europe, created the Illuminati. Weishaupt was their “go fer”, who did their bidding.
Q: Do you have anymore info about the political goals, if any, of the Illuminati?
A: This article I wrote for Suite101.com addresses it: “Are the Illuminati taking over the world?” You can reprint it, or part of it, as long as you give credit to Suite 101 and/or a link back to the site.
Q: How do Illuminati members recognise each other?
A: Since it is generational, its easy. It isn’t hard to recognize one’s father, mother, siblings, and neighbors and friends one has grown up with. The Illuminati use telephone trees to contact members when a meeting is to occur. A month or two ahead of time, leadership council plans dates and places for meetings for different groups under their umbrella. They then call local leaders a week ahead of time (the high priest or priestess). Two days ahead, these people call their head members, who then call the people under them. A person knows their status in the group by how far ahead of time they know a meeting date. The lower in the group, the less they are trusted with information, and the less “lag time” before meetings.
Sometimes, certain pieces of jewelry, such as a ruby ring or an oval emerald, might be worn if meeting someone in a public place at a prearranged assignation. But most accessing and contact is done through family members or close friends.
When I lived in San Diego, my entire family of origin and my four closest friends were all members of the group. It wasn’t hard to reach me, to say the least. My spouse was also a member. The Illuminati believe in arranged members, and do NOT allow their members to marry a nonmember. If someone says their spouse isn’t in it, they aren’t Illuminati, or they are in denial. This was an unbreakable policy. My marriage was arranged by the local leadership council to another ranking member. I didn’t want to marry him, because I didn’t love him, and I will never forget what I was told by Athena, my mentor at the time (she held the second position on the council): “That’s for the best, then, because he can never hurt you or control you.” Or, my mother’s timeless advice given when I was 12 years old: “Never fu– someone lower than you. They will drag you down. Always choose someone higher than yourself.”
She was an ambitious woman, to say the least, determined that I would do well in this very political group. I took her advice, and Athena was my lover and protected me from some of the SOBs on leadership in San Diego especially Jonathan, the head trainer. She taught me his weaknesses and how to get around him, and stood up to him for me. I wouldn’t have survived otherwise.
These are NOT nice people and they use and manipulate others viciously.They cut their eye teeth on status, power, and money. I have given all of that up to leave, and am glad to be away from it now, although I do miss some of my friends, and at times I miss the respect of being a leader. But I am learning to live a whole new life without the constant background of “family” monitoring and telling me what to do.
Know what the hardest part of getting out was? The freedom. Not having anyone telling me what to do. I literally went through a period of adjustment, felt wobbly, trying to figure out what I wanted to do. It was hard, since I was used to reflexively checking my decisions with leadership and Jonathan and my husband. Freedom can be difficult, believe it or not, and took quite a period of time to adjust to. I believe that the inability to deal with it often draws people back in. I hope this information is useful to you.
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This from KoniWorld 
HJ Springer, Editor of CentrExNews.com, penned the following introductory remarks to this revealing ten part interview with Svali. Our gratitude to ‘Svali’ for bringing this information forward and HJ Springer for running the story. You can read many more articles by Svali and examine her self pubished book at http://www.suite101.com/ . Every thinking person on this planet needs to become educated about the Illuminati takeover agenda; otherwise their life and the lives their children will suffer the ultimate price for their inattention, ignorance, and inaction…Update Nov. 2004: CentrExNews.com vanished from the internet somewhere around 2003. Ken Adachi]
While running our series ‘The Illuminati: How the Cult Programs People’ we received a few emails that were of a somewhat skeptical nature and/or requesting more information. Needless to say, I had some questions of my own regarding some details of the Illuminati and their agenda, and so I got in touch with ‘Svali’ (her pseudonym), an Ex-Illuminati Programmer/Trainer, to find out more about her claims. In the following few episodes I will enlighten you (pardon the pun), as much as I can, with additional knowledge I received from her. Our correspondence took place in the form of an email interview, which I left mainly intact. I only edited it for spelling and punctuation; minus some personal information addressed to me. Should you have any additional questions you would like to ask Svali, please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org and I will forward them to her for a possible future article. Following is the first part of our interview.
- HJ Springer
- chief editor
Part 1: About Svali
Dear Mr. Springer,
Thank you for contacting me. Actually, I just received a somewhat skeptical email today from someone who read the information at your site. I would be more than happy to answer questions about validity, etc. with the following provision. I write under a pen name to protect my two children and husband, whom I do not want to have receiving hostile or threatening phone calls, etc. My two children are still healing from the experiences of being raised in the group as well, and I don’t want any experiences that could traumatize them.
The topic I am addressing is somewhat volatile, to say the least. People have strong emotions pro and con as to whether the Illuminati are real. That said, I will give you a little background info, feel free to share this with readers. Also, my column at http://www.Suite101.com(I have a column on ritual abuse; do a search on ‘svali’) has numerous articles on this topic if people want to learn more.
1. I was born in 1957 in Alexandria, Virginia. I lived briefly in a small town about an hour away from Washington, DC, then moved to a 500 acre farm in northern Virginia when my mother married my stepfather. Both my mother and my stepfather were members of this group. It is a very generational group. My mother sat on the regional council over the Washington, DC area and was in the “spiritual chair” (the Illuminati have 6 chairs on their ascended masters council: Sciences, Government, Leadership, Scholarship, Spiritual, and Military.)
These also correlate to the areas that children are taught growing up in this group. They believe in “well rounded” children. The “spiritual” rituals, or occult rituals, were only one small part of the teaching of this group, the other five areas are also equally emphasized. I spent more time learning history, languages, and sciences than I did seeing rituals, although they were important to the group.
2. I went to school in Charlottesville, Va. 1975 to 1981, where I received a BSN in nursing, and a BA in Spanish ( I got two degrees). This is also a place where a lot intense abuse and occultic crime occurred, on an estate about 10 miles south west of Charlottesville going towards Crowley, Virginia.
3. After graduation, I went to San Diego in 1981 ( I was called there by the leadership there, they were strong in military training but weak in sciences, which was my forte). I came and sat on leadership council, I was the sixth head trainer there (the lowest head trainer) and had 30 trainers in the local groups reporting to me. Leadership council met in Ramona, Ca. on an estate there that belonged to a man named Jonathan Meiers.
When I went to the police in 1996 (after I had left the group) sure enough, there was an estate there belonging to someone with that name. One of his cult names was “Black Hand” because he wore black gloves when he worked with people. He was the head trainer in the group, and one of the most sadistic and brutal people I ever knew. He burned out most of the trainers that worked with him, and I made it because I had a friend on leadership council who hated him and helped me undermine him (the Illuminati are a very political and back stabbing group, a “dog eat dog” mentality; everyone wants to move up ). Her cult name was Athena.
After years (12) of working with Jonathan, I moved up to the second head trainer position in the county. Jonathan was getting ready to move to regional, and he wanted me to take his place. But he and I also despised each other, and he set me up to take a fall. That’s a whole different story, and was one of the factors that made me leave the group. I left the group in 1995, sick of the lying, deceiving, and politics, and fearful for my life. I fled to Texas, and went through therapy with Dr. Jerry Mundgaze and his group. But unfortunately, they didn’t know how to help “deprogram me”, or as Dr. Mundgaze told me, “you are higher than almost anyone we have seen, and more programmed.”
I remembered so much, and he had never heard of it and had no idea how to help (definitely no suggesting of memories there, most of mine occurred spontaneously, AT HOME. I have never been hypnotized or age regressed, all of my memories have occurred in the course of daily life).
I spent a year intensely deprogramming myself. I was a head programmer, or trainer, so I used my knowledge to undo what was done to me. I also became enraged as I realized that the abuse I had endured (and done to others) was NOT normal, was used to manipulate me, etc.
My book is based on my memories as an ADULT in this group. I was a perpetrator, and I now regret it considerably. It is my restitution before God as I expose what this group does and stands for. I also wrote it for therapists, to help them understand the group and its methodologies, since it was so difficult to hear from a nationally known ritual abuse center, “we don’t know what to do…”. I based it on what I did to heal.
Two years ago, my children were on visitation with me and disclosed their abuse to me. I went to CPS, and the case was closed, because the worker said she didn’t believe in ritual abuse! My ex came to get the children (he could have put me in federal prison for not giving the children back, since the San Diego court system blatantly states that they do not believe in ritual abuse, and in EVERY case of alleged RA, the children are given to the allegedly abusing parent).
The children confronted him in person. He turned white as a sheet, said, “you really don’t want to go back to “family”, they said “no”. He then fled to California, quit his job, and moved out here and is in therapy for RA and DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder). My children are also in therapy, and healing rapidly. My now 12 year old son is almost completely integrated, and happier than he has ever been before; my 16 year old daughter has some tough issues to face, such as the sexual abuse she endured. But God has been faithful in His healing work in all of our lives.
I wish that this was just “made up”. That it weren’t real. But it is. There is too much documentation of this occurring (I can send you an URL for documented convicted RA cases). My greatest regret is that I was used by this group, after a lifetime of teaching, to be a perpetrator of the worst kind. I used to torture and abuse others, believing that I was “helping” them.
Now, I realize that what I did was wrong, I have asked God’s forgiveness. And am committed to exposing this group through my writing. I am also a professional writer in the medical field, was a registered nurse for 18+ years, and currently work as an ESL teacher, health educator, and freelance author (on non abuse topics!). I hope this is enough background info, it is the truth before God and men. If you need any other, that won’t compromise my anonymity or my children’s protection, please let me know.
PS. My younger sister remembers being tied up on a stone altar at the age of 3, with a gag in her mouth, and being raped. She also remembers our paternal grandmother taking her to friends, who used her sexually at the ages of 3 to 5. She became an alcoholic at age 13, after trying to commit suicide 7 times by age 12. My older brother has NO memories of ANYTHING AT ALL before age 20, his life is a complete blank. He does believe that our father was a perverse and strange man. This brother was cut down from our garage when he was 8, and tried to hang himself.
My oldest brother is on the run, afraid to live anywhere for more than a few months, because he believes they want to “get him.” He also tried to commit suicide many times as a young child. This is somewhat corroborating evidence, as well as the fact that both of my children dream in German at night (that is the language they speak in the Illuminati) and have NEVER heard it in the daytime.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Her book is now avalable as pdf download from this page Deprogramwiki Chainless Slaves 
I wrote Breaking the Chain several years ago, when my children were being held hostage by the cult. At that time, my husband was still active, and to punish me for leaving, and in an attempt to bring me back, literally held them hostage.
We would go into court hearings, in which he and his lawyer attempted to make me appear foolish for statingthat he was cult active. He would then turn around, and after the hearing, come to me and say, “You can have them back if you will come back…”
I swore to write a chapter a week, exposing the group that held my children and my husband hostage, and this book was born. After four painful years, through a miracle of God’s goodness, I regained full custody of my children. As a result, my (now ex-husband) left the cult as well and is currently pursuing his own wholeness in therapy.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter One: An overview of the Illuminati
In order to understand Illuminati cult programming, it is first necessary to understand a bit about the structure and philosophy of the organization. The Illuminati are a group of people who follow a philosophy known as “Illuminism” or “enlightenment”. The Illuminati were named several hundred years ago, but trace their roots and history to the ancient mystery religions of Egypt, ancient Babylon, and even Mesopotamia. Out of these ancient religions, which were practiced secretly over hundreds and hundreds of years, there arose esoteric groups which continued to practice the rites, traditions, and enculturation brought in from the original groups.
Over the centuries, these groups practiced openly in some countries, and covertly in countries where Christianity or other religions opposed their practices. Some of the groups which came out of these ancient roots included the order of the Knights Templar, Rosicrucian’s, Baphetomism, and Druidic cults. These groups were the forerunners, or roots, of modern day Illuminism. The original Illuministic leaders chose to take what they felt were the best practices of each root religion, combine them into principles, then organized these principles according to specific guidelines.
Modern day Illuminism is a philosophy funded by the wealthy, but practiced in all social strata. It is a philosophy whose tenets have spread across the world. It started with the German branch of Rosicrucian’s, spread to England, then came to the United states with the first settlers.
The Illuminati have 3 main branches:
the Germanic branch, which oversees the others,
the British branch, which handles finances,
and the French/Russian branch.
All 3 branches are represented in both the United States and Canada, as well as every country in the world.
How the Illuminati are organized in the United States: The Illuminati have groups in every major city of the United States. They originally entered the U.S. through Pittsburgh, Pa., and from there, spread across the US.
There are 18 cities across the US, which are considered major “power centers” for Illuminati power and/or influence.
Washington, DC and the surrounding areas;
Albany, New York;
the “golden triangle” of the Winston Salem, Raleigh, NC area;
Ann Arbor, Mich;
Los Angeles, CA. and surrounding areas;
New Orleans, La.,
Other cities are important to the Illuminati, as well, but these cities funnel money for them, conduct research, and often regional councils sit within them.
Hierarchy of the Illuminati
The Illuminati have organized their society along extremely hierarchical, or stratified, levels. In fact, the top levels are known as:
The Illuminati have divided the United States into 7 geographical regions; each region has its own regional council, composed of 13 members, with an advisory board of 3 elders to each one. These regions interact for purposes of finances; personnel; teaching, etc. Beneath each regional council, is a local council. This is a council of 13 members, the head of whom sits on the regional council, and gives it information about the local groups underneath his leadership. The local council will also have an advisory council of 3.
A local leadership council in a large metropolitan area might look like this:
Head of local council (reports to regional council)
Two intermediaries (report all activities under leader to him)
Four administrators (oversee finances, administer, set up group activities)
Six head trainers (over trainers in local groups, teach other trainers)
Underneath the above leadership council, will be six people designated as informers or intermediaries, who go to the local group meetings, interact with local group leaders, and report to the leadership council.
Anarchical level: the levels below the leadership council are known as the anarchical levels.
Underneath the intermediate level, is the local group level. It will look like this:
Local “Sister groups” (will vary in number, according to the size of the city, or cities, in the area). A large metropolitan area may have anywhere from ten to twenty seven groups.
Each sister group will be headed up by:
A high priest and priestess: this job is rotated every 3 years, to allow different people within the group to take on leadership roles. Each group will also have different members, with specific roles/jobs within the group.
These roles will be addressed in chapter 2.
One thing that I would like to emphasize is the fact that the Illuminati today are generational. There members are born into the group, which is highly organized, as described above. The set up discussed above is representative, with minor variations, of most major metropolitan regions of the United States. Smaller population centers will be organized under similar guidelines, but will be umbrellaed together with several
cities within the region to create the local leadership council.
HOW THE ILLUMINATI MAKE MONEY
The Illuminati are involved in many areas of making money, as they need continued financing to survive.
There are several illegal enterprises that they are involved in, as well as legal ones.
Drug running: The Illuminati linked up with the Mafia and the Columbians, years ago, to help each other out with bringing drugs into the United States. They also provide couriers for taking drugs and money out of the States. The Illuminists are generally wealthy businessmen, who have 4 layers of people underneath them.
The fourth layer down actually has contact with the people in the drug industry. They never identify themselves as Illuminists; only as people interested in investing, with a guaranteed profit, and are highly secretive. In return, the local groups supply people willing to be couriers of money or drugs, or people willing to help cover for the local operations.
Pornography: The Illuminati are linked in many cities with pornography/prostitution/child prostitution/ and white slavery sales. Again, several layers are present, as a buffer, between the true “management” and those either engaged in the activities, or in paying for/funding and eventually being paid for the activities.
Children are often supplied from the local cult groups, and taught to be child prostitutes (and later, adult prostitutes); are photographed and filmed in every type of pornography available, including “snuff films” and violent films.
Gun running: The Illuminati and other groups are also involved in international gun sales and shipments.
The Illuminists have well trained couriers who will cross international and state lines. These couriers are highly secretive, and will not reveal their sources, on pain of suicide or assassination. These people are accountable to others above them, with two more “buffer layers” of people above these, before the person in the Illuminati with money, who helps fund this, is found.
Buying access codes for military computers: The Illuminati will have people from all strata of civilian life trained to go and make pickups near or on military bases. A typical person used might be the innocent looking wife of a military person, a local businessman, or even a college student. There is a contact inside the base, also a dissociative Illuminist, who brings the information to the outside contact. Occasionally, the contact person is paid with money, information, or goods. The military computer codes are changed on
random schedules; the Illuminati have at least 5 or 6 contacts on each major base, who alert them when the codes are getting ready to change, on pain of death. The Illuminists like having access to military computers, because that will gain them entrance to closed files the world over.
Hiring and selling assassinations: this is done worldwide, more in Europe than in the States. These peopleare paid big money to do either a private or political assassination. The money is paid either to the assassin, or to the trainer; usually they both divide the fee The assassin is offered protection in another country for awhile, until the trail runs cold. If the kill is done in Europe they may be sent to the far east or the U.S., and vice versa if the kill is done in the U.S. The Illuminati have a wide arena of places and false identities to hide these people, unless for some reason they want the assassin disposed of as well. Then, he/she is caught and immediately executed.
Mercenaries/military trainers: guess who gets paid money to come in and train paramilitary groups? Who has training camps all over the states of Montana, Nevada, and North Dakota? Who occasionally will offer their expertise in return for a large financial reward? They never advertise themselves as Illuminati, unless the group is known to be sympathetic to their cause. Instead, these are tough, cold, brutal military trainers,
who offer to teach these groups in return for money, or even better, a promise to affiliate with their group in return (loyalty in return for knowledge). More and more paramilitary groups have been brought into the Illuminati this way, without their full knowledge of who and what the group really is. This gives the Illuminists a way to monitor these groups (their trainers report on them, and their activities), and it can be useful to
have trained military groups that they can call on someday.
Banking: The original Illuminists were bankers, and they have highly trained financiers to organize their money, and funnel the above illicit funds into more “respectable” front groups/organizations. They will also start benevolent charities, community organizations, etc., as fronts, and funnel the money from a broad base into these groups. The Illuminati particularly pride themselves on their money making and manipulation skills, and their ability to cover their paper trails expertly, through layer after layer.
All banking trails eventually will lead to Belgium, the Illuminati financial center for the world. These are some of the major money making enterprises that the Illuminati are
engaged in. They have a lot of financial resources, backing their enterprises, which means that in reality they can engage the best lawyers, accountants, etc. to help cover their trail as well.
Chapter 2 Jobs in the Illuminati
(or Why They Spend All That Time Training People)
To understand generational programming, it helps to understand WHY the cult goes to the amount of trouble that it does to place programming into people. Training represents time and effort, and no one- especially a cult member- will spend that amount of energy unless there will be a return on the investment. This will be a simple overview of some of the more common jobs in the cult. It is not meant to be exhaustive, or in any way
considered to be complete.
The cult has a very organized hierarchy of jobs. Like any large organization, in order to run smoothly, it needs people who are well trained in their jobs- so well trained, that they can do their tasks without even thinking about them. To maintain secrecy, this group must also have people completely dedicated to not revealing their roles in the cult- even under threat of death or punishment. The cult wants members who are completely loyal to the group and its tenets, who never question the orders they are given. These qualities in group members ensure the continuance of the cult, and that its secrets are never revealed to the outside world.
Here is a sampling of some jobs in the cult (not listed in order of priority)
These people are trained to observe details and conversations with photographic recall. They are trained to
report to their local cult leader or hierarchy, or trainer, and will download large amounts of information under
hypnotic trance. Detailed knowledge of conversations or even documents can often be retrieved in this
manner. They are often used as “plants” to gather information in both governmental settings, and within the
These people are often chosen from childhood to have and breed children. They may be chosen according
to bloodlines, or given in arranged marriages or cult alliances, to “elevate” the children. A parent will often
sell the services of a child as a breeder to the local cult leader in return for favors or status. These children
are rarely used as a sacrifice; usually they are given to others in the cult to adopt or raise, but the breeder is
told that any child born to her was “sacrificed” to prevent her looking for the child. Occasionally, in anarchical
cults, a local leader or parent will have a child as the result of an incestuous liaison. Such a child is given
away or killed, but the mother will be told the child was given away to a distant branch, and must be given
Prostitutes can be a male or female of any age. They are trained from earliest childhood to give sexual
favors to one or more adults in return for payment to the child’s parents or their local cult group.
Occasionally, the prostitute may be given to a member of the cult, on a temporary basis, as a “reward” for a
job well done. Child prostitution is a big business for the cult, and training very young children in this role is
taken very seriously. Child prostitutes are also used to blackmail political figures or leadership outside the
A child used in pornography ( which may include bestiality) can also be of any age or sex. Child
pornography is also big business in the cult, and includes snuff films. Children are trained in this role from
preschool on, often with the help or approval of the child’s parents. The parents are paid or given favors by
the cult in return for selling their child or allowing their child to be trained in this area.
These are very bright, verbal people. They will be sent to journalism school and will work for local or regional
media upon graduation. These individuals have many contacts within the organization as well as the outside
world. They write books and articles sympathetic to the Illuministic viewpoint without ever revealing their true
affiliation. They will tend to do biased research in their articles, favoring only one viewpoint, such as denying
the existence of DID or ritual abuse. For instance, they will interview only psychiatrists/psychologists
sympathetic to this viewpoint and will skew data to present a convincing picture to the general public. If
necessary, they will outright lie or make up data to support their viewpoint. There are members of groups
whose people have been purposely trained to try and help formulate public opinion on the nonexistence of
the cult (i.e., cults don’t exist, no rational person would believe this “mass hysteria”). The Illuminists believe
that to control the media is to control the thinking of the masses. For this reason, they take training media
personnel quite seriously.
Helpers at rituals
Cleaners clean up meticulously after rituals. They will scour the site after a ceremony, rake the area, etc.
They are taught this job from preschool years on.
Preparers set up tables, cloths, candles, and paraphernalia quickly and efficiently. This job is learned from
infancy on. Readers read from the book of Illumination or local group archives; they also keep copies of
sacred literature in a safe vault and are trained in ancient languages. Readers are valued for their clear
speaking voices and ability to dramatize important passages and bring them to life.
Cutters are taught to dissect animal or human sacrifices (they are also known as the “slicers and dicers” of
the cult). They can do a kill quickly, emotionlessly, and efficiently. They are trained from early childhood on.
Chanters sing, sway, or lead choruses of sacred songs on high holy occasions.
The person who holds this job is changed every few years in most groups, although it may be held longer in
smaller, more rural groups. These people administrate and lead their local cult group as well as coordinate
jobs within the cult, give assignments, and pass on meeting dates given from the local hierarchy or
leadership council. They also will activate the local group’s telephone tree, evaluate their local group
members for job performance, and lead in all spiritual activities. They report to the local or regional
leadership council over their group.
These people teach local group members their assigned jobs and monitor the performance of these jobs at
local group meetings or after an assigned task. These people report to the high priest/priestess over their
group, as well as to the local head trainer on leadership council.
These are the people who brutally punish/discipline members
caught breaking rules or acting outside of or above their authority. They are universally despised by other
cult members, although they will be praised for a job well done by the local high priest or priestess. Usually
physically strong, they will employ any method deemed necessary to prevent a recurrence of the undesired
behavior. Punishment may be public or private, depending upon the severity of the infraction. Each local
group has several punishers.
These people will track down and keep an eye on members who attempt to leave their local group. They are
taught to use dogs, guns, taser, and all necessary tracking techniques. They are also adept at using the
internet to monitor a person’s activities. They will track credit card use, checks written, and employ other
methods to find a missing person.
These people teach group classes to children to indoctrinate cult philosophy, languages, and specialized
areas of endeavor.
These people care for very young children when the adults are at local group meeting. Usually care is for
young infants only. After age two, children are routinely engaged in some form of group activity led by
trainers of the youngest children. Infant child care workers are usually quiet and coldly efficient.
These members run guns, money, drugs, or illegal artifacts across state or national lines. Usually they are
people who are young and single without outside accountability. They are trained in the use of firearms to
get out of difficult situations. They must be reliable and able to get past any anticipated barriers.
These people oversee military training in the local groups and help ensure the smooth running of these
exercises. They will delegate jobs to those ranking under them and are responsible to the local leadership
council. The council will have at least one member on it representing the military branch of the Illuminati. In
addition, there are many military- related jobs beneath the commanding officers.
These individuals often oversee the training in local and regional groups. These students of human behavior
are intensely involved in data collection and human experimentation in the name of the pursuit of knowledge
of human behavior in the scientific realm. They are almost universally cold, methodical, impersonal people
and will employ any methods to study trauma and its effects on the human personality. Their main interest
centers around implementing programming and cult control in the most efficient and lasting manner.
There are many other jobs inside the cult. The cult spends quite a bit of its time getting people to do these
jobs for them for FREE, which is why they PROGRAM people to believe they are doing their “family” and the
world a service. The reality, of course, is that the individual is being abused and taken advantage of by the
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Three: Conspiracy Theory Two, or the Illuminati Plan to Rule the
World (also known as “Novus Ordem Seclorum”)
Prior to discussing actual programming techniques, it is important to understand the philosophy underlying
why the Illuminists are programming people. All groups have goals, and the Illuminists are no exception.
Money making is not their final goal – it is a means to an end. This end point, or goal, is no less than to rule
the world. The Illuminati has a set plan similar to the Soviet Union’s previous “5- year” and “10- year ” plans.
This is what the Illuminists themselves believe and teach their followers as gospel truth.
Whether they will actually succeed is another matter altogether. The following is the Illuminist agenda at ALL
levels of the Illuminati. As with any goal, the Illuminati has specific steps which it plans to implement to reach
its objectives. Briefly, each region of the United States has “nerve centers” or power bases for regional
activity. The United States has been divided up into seven major geographical regions. Each region has
localities within it that contain military compounds and bases that are hidden in remote, isolated areas or on
large private estates.
These bases are used intermittently to teach and train generational Illuminati in military techniques, handto-
hand combat, crowd control, use of arms, and all aspects of military warfare. Why? Because the
Illuminists believe that our government, as we know it, as well as the governments of most nations around
the world, are destined to collapse. These will be planned collapses, and they will occur in the following
The Illuminati has planned first for a financial collapse that will make the great depression look like a picnic.
This will occur through the maneuvering of the great banks and financial institutions of the world, through
stock manipulation, and interest rate changes. Most people will be indebted to the federal government
through bank and credit card debt, etc. The governments will recall all debts immediately, but most people
will be unable to pay and will be bankrupted. This will cause generalized financial panic which will occur
simultaneously worldwide, as the Illuminists firmly believe in controlling people through finances.
Next there will be a military takeover, region by region, as the government declares a state of emergency
and martial law. People will have panicked, there will be an anarchical state in most localities, and the
government will justify its move as being necessary to control panicked citizens. The cult trained military
leaders and people under their direction will use arms as well as crowd control techniques to implement this
new state of affairs. This is why so many survivors under 36 years of age report having military
programming. People who are not Illuminists or who are not sympathetic to their cause, will resist. The
Illuminists expect this and will be (and are BEING) trained in how to deal with this eventuality. They are
training their people in hand-to- hand combat, crowd control, and, if necessary, will kill to control crowds.
The Illuminati is training their people to be prepared for every possible reaction to the takeover. Many mind
control victims will also be called into duty with preset command codes. These codes are meant to call out a
new, completely cult loyal presenting system. Shatter codes programmed under trauma will be used to
destroy or bury non-cult loyal alters.
Military bases will be set up, in each locality (actually, they are already here, but are covert). In the next few
years, they will go above ground and be revealed. Each locality will have regional bases and leaders to
which they are accountable. The hierarchy will closely reflect the current covert hierarchy.
About five years ago, when I left the Illuminati, approximately 1% of the US population was either part of the
Illuminati, sympathetic to it, or a victim of Mind Control (and therefore considered useable). While this may
not sound like many, imagine 1% of the population highly trained in the use of armaments, crowd control,
psychological and behavioral techniques, armed with weapons and linked to paramilitary groups.
These people will also be completely dedicated to their cause. The Illuminati firmly believes that it can easily
overcome the other 99% of the population, most of whom are untrained, or poorly trained, such as “weekend
hunters.” Even the local military will be overcome as the Illuminati will have regional cell groups with highly
trained leaders. They also count on the element of surprise helping them during their takeover. Many of the
highest leaders in the militia branch of the Illuminati are or have been officers in the military, and so already
have a good knowledge of which techniques will work best to overcome a region’s or locality’s defenses.
After the military takeover, the general population will be given a chance to either espouse the Illuminati’s
cause, or reject it (with imprisonment, pain, even death being possible punishments). These people very
much believe that the intelligent, or “enlightened” or Illuminated, were born to rule. They are arrogant, and
consider the general population as “dumb sheep” who will be easily led if offered strong leadership, financial
help in an unstable world economy, and dire consequences if the person rebels. Their utter ruthlessness,
and ability to implement this agenda, should not be minimized.
The Illuminati banking leaders, such as the Rothschilds, the Van derBilts, the Rockefellers, the Carnegies,
and the Mellons, as examples, will reveal themselves, and offer to “save” the floundering world economy. A
new system of monetary exchange, based on an international monetary system, and based between Cairo,
Egypt, and Brussels, Belgium, will be set up. A true “one world economy”, creating the longed for “one world
order”, will become reality.
There is more to the Illuminist agenda, but these are the basics of it. This agenda is what the Illuminati
really, truly, believe, teach, and train for. They are willing to give their lives up in this cause, in order to teach
the next generation, as they believe that their children are their legacy. I was told that my children’s
generation would see this takeover, sometime in the 21st century. At present, the Illuminati have quietly and
covertly fostered their takeover plan by their goals of the infiltration of:
1. The media
2. The banking system
3. The educational system
4. The government, both local and federal
5. The sciences
6. The churches
They are currently, and have been working the last several hundred years, on taking over these 6 areas.
They do NOT go to an institution, and say “hi, I’m a local Illuminist, and I’d like to take over your bank).
Instead, they begin by having several people quietly invest funds over several years, gradually buying more
and more shares in the bank (or other institution that they wish to control), until they have a financial
controlling interest in it. They never openly disclose their agenda, or their cult activities, as often they are
amnesic to them. These are well respected, “Christian” appearing business leaders in the community. The
image in the community is all important to an Illuminist; they will do anything to maintain a normal, respected
facade, and DESPISE exposure. On one leadership in a major metropolitan city, where I was a member,
there sat: one head of the local small business administration; one CEO of a government defense firm; one
principal of a Christian school; one vice mayor of the city; one journalist; one nurse; one doctor; one
behavioral psychologist, one army Colonel, and one navy Commander. All except one attended church
weekly; all were well respected within the community. NONE of them appeared “evil”, or “marked”.
If you met them in person, you would probably instantly like any of these intelligent, verbal, likeable, even
charismatic people. This is their greatest cover, since we often expect great evil to “appear” evil, led by
media portrayals of evil as causing changes in the face and demeanor of people, or marking them like the
biblical Cain. None of the Illuminists that I have known, had unkind, or evil appearing, persona in their
daytime lives, although some were dysfunctional, such as being alcoholics. The dissociation that drives the
Illuminists is their greatest cover for being undetected at this time. Many, if not most, of these people are
completely unaware of the great evil that they are involved in, during the night.
There are other groups which are not actually part of the Illuminati, but the Illuminati are aware of them. The
Illuminati are not the only group that follows esoteric practices, or worships ancient deities or demons. They
encourage divisiveness between different groups (divide and conquer is one of their ruling principles), and
are not concerned about other groups. Instead, they will often welcome them into their umbrella, if possible.
This has been happening more and more in recent years, as the Illuminati trade teaching their training
principles, which are considered the best by most secretive groups, in exchange for loyalty to the Illuminati.
They will send their trainers to these groups, and the trainers will report to the local regional council.
In the political arena , the Illuminists will fund both sides of a race, because their greatest maxim is that “out
of chaos comes order”, or the discipline of anarchy. That is why they sent arms to, and funded, both sides of
both the great World Wars in this century. They believe that history is a game, like chess; that only out of
strategy, fighting, conflict, and testing can the strong emerge. I no longer agree with this philosophy, but at
one time, I did, with all my heart. Hopefully, as these people and their agenda are exposed the common man
will rise up against this intended rule to be foisted upon an unsuspecting mankind.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Four: How the Illuminati Program People
An Overview of Some Basic Types of Programming
In the first few chapters, I defined Illuminism, its reach, and some of the philosophy, money making
enterprises, and agendas that help explain WHY they program people. I believe that these are important to
understand, as a preface to the next few chapters. Why? The programming techniques that I will describe
take an incredible amount of effort, time, dedication, and planning on the part of the cult to place in the
individual. Only a very motivated group of people would spend the time it takes to do this. These chapters
are very hard for me to write, as an individual, since my role in the cult was that of a programmer. So, the
very techniques you will be reading about were often those that I used to place programming in individuals
that I worked with. I no longer do these things, nor do I espouse doing them; the reason I am writing this
book is that I believe that therapists who work with DID, as well as survivors, deserve to know WHAT is
done to people, HOW it is done, as well as be given some ideas on how to undo the programming that the
cult places in people.
First, I would like to address unintentional programming versus intentional programming. This is also known
as the environmental milieu the child is raised in. The programming of a generational Illuminati infant often
begins before its birth (this will be addressed later) but once it is born, the very environment the infant is
raised in becomes a form of programming. Often, the infant is raised in a family environment that combines
daytime abandonment with dysfunction in the parental figures. The infant soon learns that the nighttime, and
cult activities, are the truly important ones. The infant may be deprived of attention, or even abused, in the
daytime; and is only treated as special, or “seen” by the parent, in the cult setting. This can lead to very
young alters around the core or core splits, who feel “invisible”, abandoned, rejected, unworthy of love or
attention, or that they don’t even exist, unless they are doing a job for their “family”.
Another milieu and conditioning process the infant must face is that the adults around him/her are
INCONSISTENT, since the adults in a generational cult family are almost always also multiple, or DID. This
sets up a reality for the infant/toddler that the parents act one way at home; an entirely different way at cult
gatherings; and yet a different way in normal society.
Since these are the infant’s earliest experiences of adults and adult behaviors, it has no choice but to accept
this reality that human beings act in shockingly different ways in different settings. While unintentional, this
sets the infant up for later dissociation, in mimicry of the adults around it.
Intentional programming of an infant in the Illuminati often begins before birth. Prenatal splitting is well
known in the cult, as the fetus is very capable of fragmenting in the womb due to trauma. This is usually
done between the seventh and ninth month of pregnancy. Techniques used include: placing headphones on
the mother’s abdomen, and playing loud, discordant music (such as some modern classical pieces, or even
Wagner’s operas). Loud, heavy rock has also been used. Other methods include having the mother ingest
quantities of bitter substances, to make the amniotic fluid bitter, or yelling at the fetus inside the womb. The
mother’s abdomen may be hit as well. Mild shock to the abdomen may be applied, especially when term is
near, and may be used to cause premature labor, or ensure that the infant is born on a ceremonial holiday.
Certain labor inducing drugs may be also given if a certain birth date is desired.
Once the infant is born, testing is begun at a very early age, usually during the first few weeks of life. The
trainers, who are taught to look for certain qualities in the infant, will place it on a velvet cloth on a table, and
check its reflexes to different stimuli. The infant’s strength, how it reacts to heat, cold, and pain are all tested.
Different infants react differently, and the trainers are looking for dissociative ability, quick reflexes, and
reaction times. They are also encouraging early dissociation in the infant with these tests.
The infant will also be abused, to create fragments. Methods of abuse can include: rectal probes; digital anal
rape; electric shocks at low levels to the fingers, toes, and genitalia; cutting the genitalia in ritual
circumstances (in older infants). The intent is to begin fragmentation before a true ego state develops, and
customize the infant to pain and reflexive dissociation from pain (yes, even tiny infants dissociate; I have
seen it time and time again; they will glow blank and limp, or glassy, in the face of continued trauma.)
Isolation and abandonment programming will sometimes be begun as well, in a rudimentary sense. The
infant is abandoned, or uncared for by adults, intentionally during the daytime, then picked up, soothed,
cleaned up and paid attention to in the context of preparing for a ritual or group gathering. This is done in
order to help the infant associate night gatherings with “love” and attention, and to help the bonding process
to the cult, or “family”. The infant will be taught to associate maternal attention with going to rituals, and
eventually will associate cult gatherings with feelings of security.
As the infant grows older, i.e. at 15 to 18 months, more fragmenting is intentionally done by having the
parents as well as cult members abuse the infant more methodically. This is done by intermittently soothing,
bonding with the infant, then shocking it on its digits; the infant may be dropped from heights to a mat or
mattress and laughed at as it lays there startled and terrified, crying. It may be placed in cages for periods of
time, or exposed to short periods of isolation. Deprivation of food, water, and basic needs may begin later in
this stage. All of these methods are done in order to create intentional dissociation in the infant. The infant of
this age may be taken to group meetings, but outside of special occasions, or dedications, will have no
active role yet in the cult setting. The small infants are usually left with a cult member, or caretaker, who
watches them during the group’s activities; this caretaker role is usually rotated among lower level or
Between the ages of 20 and 24 months, the toddler may begin the “steps of discipline” which the Illuminati
use to teach their children. The age the child begins them will vary, depending upon the group, the parent,
the trainer, and the child. These “steps of discipline” would be better called “steps of torment and abuse” as
their purpose is to create a highly dissociative child, out of touch with their feelings, who is completely and
unthinkingly loyal to the cult. The order of the steps may also be varied a little, depending on the whims of
the trainer or parents.
I will first discuss the first five steps of discipline: (note: these steps may vary somewhat from region to
region, but most follow this outline at least roughly, even if not in the same order)
First step: to not need
The small toddler/child is placed in a room without any sensory stimulus, usually a training room with gray,
white, or beige walls. The adult leaves and the child is left alone, for periods of time: these may vary from
hours, to an entire day as the child grows older. If the child begs the adult to stay, and not leave, or screams,
the child is beaten, and told that the periods of isolation will increase until they learn to stop being weak. The
ostensible purpose of this discipline is to teach the child to rely on its own internal resources, and not on
outside people (“strengthen it”). What it actually does is create a huge terror of abandonment within the
child. When the adult, or trainer, returns to the room, the child is often found rocking itself, or hugging itself in
a corner, occasionally almost catatonic from fear. The trainer will then “rescue” the child, feed and give it
something to drink and bond with the child as their “savior”. The trainer will tell them the “family” told the
trainer to rescue the child, because its family “loves” it. The trainer will instill cult teachings, at this point, into
the helpless, fearful, and almost insanely grateful child who has just been “rescued” from isolation. The
trainer will reinforce in the child over and over how much it “needs ” its family, who just rescued it from death
by starvation or abandonment. This will teach the very young toddler to associate comfort and security with
bonding with its trainer, who may be one of its parents, and being with “family” members. The cult is very
aware of child developmental principles, and has developed exercises like the above after hundreds of years
of teaching very young children.
Second step: to not want
This step is very similar to the first step, and actually reinforces it. It will be done intermittently with the first
step over the next few years of the child’s life. Again, the child is left alone in a training room, or isolated
room, without food or water for a long period of time. An adult will enter the room, with a large pitcher of ice
water, or food. If the child asks for either, as the adult is eating or drinking in front of the child, he/she is
severely punished for being weak and needy. This step is reinforced, until the child learns not to ask for food
or water unless it is offered first. The ostensible reason the cult gives for this step is that it creates a child
who is strong, and can go without food and water for longer and longer periods of time. The real reason this
is done is that it creates a child who is completely dissociated from its own needs for food, water, or other
comforts, who becomes afraid to ask outside adults for help. This creates in the child a hyper-vigilance as
she/he learns to look for outside adults for cues on when it is okay to fulfill needs, and not to trust her/his
own body signals. The child is already learning to look outside itself to others to learn how it should think or
feel, instead of trusting its own feelings. The cult now becomes the locus of control for the child.
Third step: to not wish
The child is placed in a room with favorite toys, or objects. A kind adult comes into the room and engages
the child in play. This adult my be a friend, aunt, parent, or trainer. The child and adult may engage in
fantasy play about the child’s secret wishes, dreams, or wants. This will occur on several occasions, and the
child’s trust is slowly gained. At some later point, the child is severely punished for any aspect of wishing or
fantasy shared with the adult, including the destruction of favorite toys, going in and undoing or destroying
secret safe places the child may have created, or even destroying non cult protectors. This step is repeated,
with variations, many times over the ensuing years. Occasionally, the child’s siblings, parents, or friends will
be used to reveal inside fantasies the child has revealed to them during the daytime, or in unguarded
moments. The ostensible reason the cult gives for this step is to create a child who doesn’t fantasize, who is
more outwardly directed, less inwardly directed. In other words, the child is to look to adults for permission in
all aspects of its life, including internal. The reality is that this step destroys all safe places the child has
created internally, to retreat from the horrors it is experiencing. This step creates in the child the feeling that
there is no true safety, that the cult will find out everything it thinks. Exercises like this are also used to
create young alters in the child who will self report to the cult trainers any secret safe places, or covert
wishes against the cult, that other alters have. This will then begin to set up intersystem hostility and
divisiveness, which the cult will manipulate throughout the person’s life span in order to control them.
Fourth step: the survival of the fittest
This step is used in order to begin creating perpetrator alters in the young child. ALL CULT MEMBERS WILL
BE EXPECTED TO BECOME PERPETRATORS; THIS BEGINS IN EARLY CHILDHOOD. The child is
brought into a room where there is a trainer and another child of approximately the same age, or slightly
younger, that the child being taught. The child is severely beaten, for a long period of time, by the trainer,
then told to hit the other child in the room, or they will be beaten further. If the child refuses, it is punished
severely, the other child is punished as well, then the child is told to punish the other child. If the child
continues to refuse, or cries, or tries to hit the trainer instead, they will continue to be beaten severely, and
told to hit the other child, to direct its anger at the other child. This step is repeated until the child finally
complies. This step is begun around age 2 to 2 1/2, and is used to create aggressive perpetrator alters in the
young child. As the child becomes older, the punishing tasks become more and more brutal. Children are
expected to become perpetrators of others at very young ages, and will “practice” on children younger than
themselves, with the encouragement and rewarding by the adults around them. They will also be mimicking
these adults, who role model perpetration constantly as normal. The child will be taught that this is the
acceptable outlet for the aggressive impulses and rage that are created by the brutality the child is
constantly being exposed to.
Fifth step: the code of silence
Many, many different stratagems are used to put this in, starting at around the age of two years old, when a
child starts becoming more verbal. Usually, after a ritual or group gathering, the child is asked about what
they saw, or heard, during the meeting. Like most obedient young children, they will comply. They are
immediately severely beaten, or tortured, and a new alter is created, who is told to keep or guard the
memories of what was seen, on pain of their life. The new part always agrees. The child and this new part
are put through a ceremony of swearing to never ever tell; and alters are created whose job it is to kill the
body, if the other parts ever remember.
The child is also put through severe psychological torture to ensure that it will never be tempted to tell,
including: being buried alive; near drowning; watching “traitor’s deaths” involving slow painful torture, such
as being burned, or skinned alive; being buried with a partially rotted corpse and being told that they will
become a corpse like it if they ever tell, etc. The scenarios go on and on, invented by people with endlessly
cruel imaginations, in order to ensure the secrecy of the young child. These methods have been perfected
over hundreds of years of practice by the cult with its children. The reason these things are done is self
evident: the cult is involved in criminal activities, as explained in the first few chapters of this book, and they
want to ensure the continued silence of its children. This is one reason why the cult has survived so long,
and with its continued shroud of secrecy; why more survivors are afraid/unwilling to disclose their abuse. In
order to reveal cult secrets, a child must go against some of the most tremendously horrendous
psychological trauma and abuse imaginable; even as an adult, the survivor has difficulty putting these things
aside, when discussing their abuse. Children and adults alike are told that if they ever tell, they will be
hunted down and shot (the assassin training lets the child know that this is no idle threat); that they will be
tortured slowly. The child will be exposed to setups and role plays throughout their growing up that
reinforces this step.
Suggestions That May Help
I believe in also offering some ideas on how to undo some of the above mentioned programming, as I do not
believe in knowledge, only for knowledge’s sake. The survivor often needs tools, in order to try and undo
some of the horrendous abuse that the cult places him/her through, especially as memories of these things
occur. THESE ARE JUST MEANT AS HELPFUL HINTS AND DO NOT REPLACE THE ADVICE OF A
1. Early milieu programming: This is difficult to undo, since it hits on core abandonment issues, and
rejection, for the survivor. This will often have been the survivor’s very first, earliest experiences as
an infant, involving its relationship with its parents and primary family members. Working on this
requires the whole hearted effort of all alter systems inside, to join in nurturing the core splits who
experienced severe parental rejection, and the cognitive recognition that the DAYTIME was
important, too; that the adults around the infant were the unhealthy ones. The infant’s often feel
unlovable, overly needy, depressed; but nurturing alters inside can help comfort them, and share
the reality that the infant really was loveable, no matter what the outside adults around it were like.
Here, too, an outside supportive therapist, and a strong, nurturing faith system, can help
tremendously in the healing process, as new messages are brought in to the abandoned, wounded
parts. Sorting through what happened, grieving over the real issues of abandonment, and bringing
reality to very young, deeply wounded parts will take time.
2. Early intentional fragmentation: (ages 0 to 24 months) Usually there are cognitive parts of the
survivor inside, who have never ever forgotten the abuse, and can help share the cognitive reality
of the abuse with the amnesic alters. This should be done extremely slowly, since this first abuse
was done quite early in life. Creating an internal nursery, with safe toys, objects, can help. Older
nurturing adult alters inside can help hold and care for the wounded infants inside the nursery,
while acknowledging and grieving over the abuse which occurred. It is important to believe an
validate the young parts when they come forward to share. Allowing them nonverbal ways of
expressing themselves can help, as these are quite young parts, who often cannot talk yet. Having
older children inside who are close to the infants verbalize their wants, needs, and fears can also
help, as often the youngest parts inside do not trust ANY adults, even internal ones. A strong
,caring outside therapist is also important to healing, by modeling healthy nurturing to a system that
may have no concept of this, while balancing the need of the infant for outside nurture with the
need for the internal system(s) to learn their own self nurture techniques. Internal helpers can reach
the infants, ground them, share present reality (that the body is older, the infants are safe, etc.
These helpers may be internal older children, as mentioned before). The survivor may also want to
find support adults when possible, who can help with modeling healthy caring with good
A THERAPIST OR FRIEND CANNOT RE-PARENT THE SURVIVOR. The survivor will long for
this, but realistically, the survivor has one set of parents, good or bad, or sadly, even terrible. No
outside person can come in and redo the complete re-parenting of another. What the therapist and
support person can offer will be caring, empathy, listening, while the survivor grieves over the loss
of adequate nurture. They can offer friendship or empathy with good boundaries. They cannot
become the survivor’s parents, or therapy will not progress. Instead, enmeshment will begin.
3. The First Five Steps of Discipline (there are twelve total; others will be addressed in later chapters)
Try to find the parts that experienced the abuse. This may mean doing system mapping (drawing
pictures of what things look like inside), and going to the cognitives (intellectuals) or controllers
(head honchos inside) for information. An internal helper, or recorder, may also be extremely
helpful in doing this.
Allow these parts to slowly acknowledge the agony that they experienced during their deprivation:
heat (being held over a fire, or stove); cold (such as being placed in freezers, or ice, for example),
lack of food, etc. Encourage the sharing of the cognitive portion of the memories first, while
allowing amnesic alters to grieve over “hearing about” these things. Allow them time to absorb
hearing about these traumas, as they occurred over several years during early childhood, and will
take time to assimilate. Healing can’t be rushed. Allow feeling alters later to step forward, and share
their feelings, while more cognitive or helper parts are inside holding their hands, grounding them to
the here and now throughout the process of remembering Be prepared for floods of emotion at
times, as well as body memories, as the abuse is recalled. A group of inside people can be
designated as a “grounding team” to help ground these parts as they step forward and share their
Remembering safely assumes that the person has a qualified therapist, and also has laid the groundwork for
good intrasystem cooperation, as discussed above. Memory work should not be done until there is good
communication and cooperation inside, or the person will be overwhelmed by the memories as they come
out. They will be flooded and re-traumatized instead of helped, and may de-compensate. With good
communication, memories can be brought out a little at a time, in manageable pieces, while cognitive alters
continually help keep the survivor from going completely into the memory, and they can also help ground the
more wounded parts.
The cult will put people through certain types of programming in order to achieve a specific goal: separating
the intellect, or cognition, form the feelings in a person. Cognitive alters in these systems are always
considered “higher” than the feeling alters; cognitive alters are taught to “pass down” their feelings to the
“lower” feeling alters. While these labels are untrue, the cognitive alters will fear feeling the intense,
overwhelming emotions that caused them to split further and further from the more limbic, or feeling alters
internally. This will drive continued system divisiveness in the survivor. It is important that cognitive parts
realize that the feeling alters are part of them; that they can practice sharing their feelings in SMALL steps
without needing to be flooded, or overwhelmed.
A reminder: EXTERNAL SAFETY IS PARAMOUNT TO UNDOING INSIDE PROGRAMMING. You HAVE to
be able to promise these parts external safety, and deliver on this promise, or they will understandably balk
at working inside on undoing programming. Why should they try and change, only to go back and be
punished again? No system will undo its own protective dissociation, if the abuse is ongoing, or it will
continue to destabilize and re-dissociate over and over. This is because dismantling the dissociation would
mean dismantling its own survival and protection. Stopping contact with perpetrators and having a safe
therapist are the very first steps to take, before attempting to undo internal programming. A system can still
work on stopping cult contact, and begin healing , while being accessed, but it will slow therapy down
tremendously as the internal energy will be diverted to staying safe rather than undoing trauma. A person
can heal, and most survivors are still in cult contact when they enter therapy. BUT the progress will go much
more quickly once cult contact is broken. (see chapter on preventing accessing of the survivor.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Five: Colors, Metals and Jewel Programming
One form of programming that is quite common in the Illuminati is color programming. Why is it done? The
answer is that trainers are human, and also quite lazy. Color programming is a simple way to organize
systems, and allows the trainer to call up alters easily within a system. With the thousands of fragments that
many multiples in the cult have, colors is a way of organizing them into an easily accessible group.
Also, young children recognize colors before they can read, so this training can occur quite early. It is begun
at about age two in most children.
How it is done: The child is taken into a room with either white, beige, or colored walls. If the room is a
neutral color, the lights in the room will be changed, so they color the room with the light’s color. If “blue” is
the color being imprinted, or put in, the trainer will call up a young child alter, either a controller or core split
for a system. They will tell the child that they will learn how to become blue, and what blue means. The room
will be bathed in blue light, as mentioned, or has been painted blue for use in this kind of programming. The
trainer will be dressed in blue clothing, and may even have a blue mask on. Blue objects will be placed
around the room. The alter inside the child is called up, drugged, hypnotized, and traumatized on the table.
As they are awakening from the trauma, still in trance, they are told that blue is good, and that they are blue.
That blue is important. That blue will protect them from harm. That blue people don’t get hurt. This will go on
They then ask the child if they want to be “blue”, like the trainers. If the child says yes, they will continue on.
If the child says no, it will be re-traumatized until it says yes. The child is often naked, and told it cannot wear
clothing until it “earns” the right to wear beautiful blue clothing. Over and over the “safety of being blue” (ie
freedom from harm) and danger of not having a color is emphasized. The children really wants to be blue
after a while of going through this. They may be given blue candy as a reward for choosing to become the
color. They may be given blue sunglasses or tinted lenses to wear. They are allowed to wear blue robes
once they identify with the color chosen for them.
Once the child completely identifies with the color (or rather, the main alter or template for the system
accepts this color), then they are taught in progressive stages, over many training sessions, what the color
blue means. They are in set ups, or dramas with other blue children, where they act out the role of a “blue”.
They are drugged, hypnotized, traumatized, while the meaning of blue is ground in over and over. They are
forced to act in “blue” ways. Different trainers and regions will assign different meanings to different colors.
Many military systems are coded blue, or protective. The military alters all are called up periodically to
reinforce blue training. If the trainer at a later date wants to access a blue system, they may call them up by
color, or wear a piece of clothing or a scarf in the color they want to reach.
This becomes an unconscious trigger for this color to come forward. Color coding is one of the first methods
that is inlayed over systems. An entire system may be color coded one color; or two or more colors may be
coded in, with each system controller (most systems have three) being given a different color over its part of
Metals programming is a type of programming that many Illuminati children are given. Because it is so
similar to jewels programming, I will discuss how it is done under jewels. Metals can be from bronze (lowest)
to platinum (highest).
Many Illuminati children will go through either metals or jewels programming, and occasionally will go
through both. Jewels is considered higher than metals, and more difficult to obtain. Which is put in and
when, is dependent on the child’s status, its parents status, the region it is born in, the group it is born into,
and the trainers that work with it.
Basically, either metals or jewels is a form of reward based programming.
Here is how it works: The child is shown a piece of jewelry such as a ring, or else a large example of the
jewel (or metal) being put in. They are asked: “isn’t this Amethyst, or Ruby, Emerald, Diamond) beautiful?”
The child will be eager to look at it, touch it, and is encouraged to by a trainer with a soft kind voice. The
trainer will ask the child, “wouldn’t you like to be beautiful, like this jewel? (or metal jewelry)”. The child is
usually eager to be. Here is a sparkling gemstone, placed in their small hands (the training often begins
between age two and three). Of course they want to be beautiful, sparkly, valued. The trainer will extol the
beauty of the gem (or metal), will tell the child how special, valued, wanted gems are, and basically build up
the idea of becoming like a jewel.
The child is then told that in order to become a jewel, they must “earn the right”. This involves:
1. passing through steps of discipline (see chapter three)
2. passing “special tests”
3. being rewarded for special achievement
Becoming a jewel (or precious metal) is dangled before the small child, like a carrot, as the reward for doing
well in training sessions. The earning of one is linked to going through the rungs of the long, arduous training
process expected of Illuminati children; having a jewel or metal involves stepping up in status and being
praised. But the price is enduring hours of abuse called “training” but in reality is organized, systemic abuse
to make the child do what the trainer wants them to become.
Over time, with the help of drugs, hypnosis, shock, and other trauma, as the child goes through it’s training
process, it will begin earning its jewels and/or metals, one by one. These will become full alters inside.
Amethyst is usually the first one earned, and is linked to keeping secrets, never telling, and passing the first
step of discipline. Each step is linked to receiving either a jewel or precious metal.
Ruby will often be next, and is linked to sexual abuse and sexual alters inside. As the child is repeatedly
sexually traumatized and survives, or creates sexual alters to please adults, they are “rewarded” by being
allowed to become a ruby.
Emerald will often come later (ages 12 to 15). This is considered very precious, and is linked to family
loyalty, witchcraft, and spiritual achievement. Emeralds will often have a black cat, or “familiar” linked to
Diamond is the highest gemstone, and not all children will earn it. It is considered a high achievement. and
may not be earned until adulthood, after passing rigorous tasks. It will be the controlling alter in a gemstone
system. A diamond has passed all twelve steps of discipline, plus passed unusual tests and will have
highest family loyalty.
“Family jewels” are often passed down internally during training sessions with trainers and family members.
All high Illuminati families will have jewels hidden in secret vaults (real, outside jewels) which have been
passed down for generations.
The children will often be given jewelry to wear in the daytime, as a reminder or reward, once they pass their
programming. A child may be given a ruby ring or garnet pin to wear; in fact, a grandparent or parent may
insist the child wear it. On ritual occasions, the child will be allowed to wear jewelry from the family’s vault,
once they reach a certain status. They may be allowed to wear a ruby pendant or emerald bracelet during
high rituals, and will be quite proud of the fact, since the cult is first, foremost and always an extremely
status conscious group. The children pick up on this, and the adults will make a big fuss over the children
who have earned the right to wear jewels. This gives them a huge incentive to earn them.
Suggestions that may help with these forms of programming:
Color programming: it is important to have good internal communication with both internal alters and an
outside therapist while working on color programming. If an individual finds that certain parts believe that
they are a certain color, or if this comes up in therapy, they will want to find out if possible how they came to
have this belief system. Slowly discovering how the colors were put in will help. Grieving for the vast amount
of deception, the amount of abuse heaped on the child, and the very young alters who were the original
templates may occur. These parts may be barely verbal, and may want to draw their experiences, or use
colors in collages (with the help of older parts inside), to describe to a safe outside person what their reality
has been. Validating to them that they are NOT just a color, that they are part of a whole person, may help.
The survivor may see colored overlays for awhile, as they are undoing this programming, as parts inside
share their memories. This is normal, although it may feel uncomfortable to see objects as yellow or green,
for example. Grounding oneself, having cognitives do reality orientation, and patience will help the survivor
work through this time.
Jewel programming and metals may be more complex, since the child’s sense of special ness, pride and
status may be bound up in these alters. Rubies, emeralds and diamonds are considered “high alters” inside
and are used to leadership roles, both internally and externally. Acknowledging their importance to the
system; listening to them grieve at leaving the cult, which meant giving up their status externally, and giving
them new positions inside that are important can help. They can become system leaders in helping the
person stay safe, once they make the decision to leave the cult, and become strong allies. But they will often
be among the most resistant, and even hostile, to the idea of leaving the cult at first, since they have only
known and remembered being rewarded for jobs well done, and have learned to “pass down” the traumas to
“lower parts” inside. They will often honestly not believe they have been abused, and will only remember
being petted or allowed to lead, or being told they were special, valued. Listening to how they feel;
acknowledging that leaving means giving up things that were important to them, finding out what needs
motivated them, and trying to find healthy outlets for them to get their needs met outside of cult meetings will
help. Letting a jewel have leadership within, or chair internal meetings may make up for loss of external
leadership when the survivor leaves the cult.
Acknowledging their importance to the survivor is also important. Recognize that these parts are
EXTREMELY dissociated from their own abuse/trauma, and are in no hurry to remember. But both the
survivor and a good therapist can bring reality gently to them, as they let them know that they were abused;
that they are actually part of the “lower emotional parts” who were abused, and will eventually need to
acknowledge this. This task takes time and good outside support to accomplish. Allow them to vent their
feelings. They will often be highly cognitive at first, but feelings will come, especially grieving, then pain at
having been deceived by the cult, then the anguish of realizing that the abuse they passed down to others
inside was actually happening to them. They may become quite depressed at this stage, but will also lend
tremendous stability and strength to the system, in staying safe and cult free, once they have reached this
These are some thoughts on color, metals, and jewel programming. Other types of programming will be
addressed in the next chapter
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Six: Brain Wave Programming
In this chapter I will address brain wave programming. Brain wave programming, like any other
programming, will depend on several factors.
These include: the child’s ability to dissociate; the region of the country or which country the child grows up
in; the level of ability of the trainers the child has contact with; physical resources and equipment available.
There is no one “recipe” that fits every person and it would be ridiculous to state that all people who go
through brain wave programming have it done the same way. More and more, programmers are talking,
sharing knowledge over the net, both nationally and internationally, and sharing both successes and failures.
But there is no one standardized methodology for brain wave programming. It will often be influenced by the
child herself, as well as the trainer’s whims. Different groups may organize the systems differently, or try to
achieve different effects.
All of this said, what is brain wave programming? Simply put, brain wave programming involves having a
young child go into a deep trance state, where they then learn to dissociate into a certain brain wave pattern.
This is a complex skill, and not all children can achieve this. The goal is for the child to reach, for example, a
consistent delta state, where delta brain waves show up on the EEG, which is attached to the child’s head
by electrodes in the scalp. Usually, two or even three trainers will work on one child during the initial stages.
One will “prep” the child, using a hypnotic drug to induce a trance state. They will have also placed the
electrodes on the head, using an abbreviated version of the method used in traditional hospital setting. If
delta state is being induced, only the electrodes needed to pick up delta waves will be placed, for example.
This is to save time.
The prepped child will be on a “trainer’s table”, and will be quite relaxed. The average child is about eight
years old when this is begun, since the cerebral cortex and neurological development are not advanced
enough at earlier ages (It has been tried at earlier ages, quite unsuccessfully, in the past; this practice was
dropped because of the neurological damage and “failure to take rate” that trainers were seeing). The non
prepping trainer will then let the child know exactly what he/she expects: that they will achieve a special
state, called “delta state”. The trainer tells the child, while they are in trance state, that they will know when
they reach it, by the readings from the electrodes.
The trainer will tell the child alter, who has been called up to be a “template”, or building block for the new
system, that delta is good. They will emphasize this over and over. The child will then be shocked to
increase its receptivity to learning. This also arouses the child from its drugged state and it will be more alert.
It will want to please the trainer. The trainer will tell the child that she/he wants it to perform certain mental
exercises. It will then give it backwards counting exercises, used to help the child achieve deeper trance
states. Other verbal cues to trance down may be given. When the prepping or technical trainer sees delta
waveforms, he or she will signal the verbal trainer with a hand motion. The verbal, or teaching trainer will
immediately reward the child, saying, “good, you are in delta now.” The trainer will caress the child, tell it
what a good job it is doing. If the child bounces out of delta state, the verbal trainer will immediately become
harsh, and will shock the child as punishment. The child is told that it left delta (which is “good”) and needs
to go back in.
The induction, counting, will be repeated until delta state is seen again, when the child is repeatedly
rewarded for entering, then staying in this state for longer and longer periods. The trainers are using
biofeedback principles to teach the child to consistently cue into a brainwave pattern. When the template
can stay in delta pattern consistently, the template will be rewarded. This will occur over several months.
The trainers will now have a template that stays always in delta state, that they can begin splitting and using
as the basis of forming a new system inside. They will do this using the tools of drugs, hypnosis and trauma.
The new system created will record delta waves on an EEG if done correctly. The new system will be taught
what delta means. The trainers will often flash a cue, or delta (triangle) symbol on a projector overhead, and
“grind in” the delta imprinting. They will wear robes with delta signs on them, and cloth the subject in clothing
or robes imprinted with the delta sign. They will teach the alters under hypnosis what deltas do, how they
act. They will reward them when they comply, and shock or otherwise traumatize them if they do not act like
“deltas”. They will be given delta jobs. They will watch high frequency films, that show delta functions. They
may build in a computer like structure to hold the system, showing pictures of its organization while the
subject is under deep trance, after creating a clean slate through trauma.
These are some examples of how delta programming may be induced.
Other brain wave states will be induced in similar manners. They will often be formed from templates which
are extremely young internal child alters who may be splits from core splits, as the basis for the
programming. Common brain wave states used are:
Alpha: this is the most easily reached brain wave state, and also includes both the youngest and most easily
accessed alters in the entire system. Young children have long periods of alpha activity and must be trained
to enter other brain wave states for long periods. System access programming; access codes and sexual
alters will often be placed in alpha, which may also be coded red in some systems.
Beta: this is the next most easily reached state, and is often associated with aggressive impulses. Beta state
will often hold cult protectors, internal warriors, and military systems. They may be color coded blue.
Gamma: this will often hold extremely cult loyal alters, and holds more emotion than the other states, except
for alpha. Suicide programming will often be layered into this system, as these alters would rather die than
leave their “family”. Scholarship programming may be held by this system, since they easily memorize by
rote. Several languages may be spoken by different alters in this system, as the Illuminati like to program in
plural linguality, with up to eight languages, both modern and ancient being spoken.
Delta: this is one of the more cognitive brain wave states, and will often be highly dissociated. It may also be
the “ruling” or controlling state over the other brain wave systems. Often, delta state may be configured
inside as a computer, and the delta alters will have emotionless, flat alters with photographic memories.
They may hold most of the cognitive memories for the other systems, especially if extensive amnesia
programming has been done. Delta state may have up to three levels of training: delta 1, delta 2, and delta 3
which will also correlate to security access allowed within the cult; i.e. access to highly confidential
information. Behavioral sciences programming may be held by this system. Internal programmers, self
destruct, psychotic, and shatter programming as well as other punishment programming sequences to
prevent outside access or internal access to the systems may be held within delta systems. It may be color
coded both orange/blue/purple, and will also often be the entry way to higher systems such as jewels or
internal councils, inside.
Epsilon: this is often a “hidden system” and may hold CIA programming and high level governmental
programming . Assassin programming may be held in this system, or in the beta system, depending on the
trainer. Covert operations, courier operations, learning to tail a subject, or “drop a tag”, disguises, getting out
of difficult situations, may be handled by this system, which sees itself as chameleon-like. It may be color
Phi/Theta/Omega programming: this represents negative spiritual programming. These are the “dark” ritual
alters, who participate in blood rituals, sacrifices, and ceremonies. Internal witches, warlocks, seers,
psychics, readers, and occult practitioners will be placed in this system, which has highly developed right
brain and deep trance abilities. They will often be color coded black.
This is an overview of some of the more common brain wave systems. It is often placed in over a matter of
years, from ages 8 to 21 being the primary ones, with occasional reinforcement of the programming from
time to time.
Brain wave programming is a very complex form of programming which creates automatic amnesia and
communication barriers between the different brain wave states. This will also be reinforced by shock and
punishment to prevent its “degradation”, or undoing. Internal system controllers and programmers will also
work to reinforce the programming, especially at night, when the person is asleep (physically).
All brain wave systems will have system controllers, usually set up in a group of three (the Illuminati love
triads, as being the “mystical” and most stable number. They believe that systems built upon triads are
extremely strong, unbreakable, and will often program in threes: three back ups, three system controllers,
etc.) With the help of a good therapist, the survivor needs to get to know the internal system controllers and
communicators. They are there, they have to be, because the trainers placed them there to communicate
with and be accountable to them externally, and will often have complete knowledge of their own system.
They will also be quite flat, and dissociated from the knowledge of their own pain or the abuse that created
them. This is a distancing mechanism, and the person’s survival depended on the ability of their controller to
do this at one time. They will often be quite hostile, and very unwilling to look at their own abuse; they will
become indignant at the idea, and claim that they are cognitive, and “above” being abused (another lie they
were told by their abusers).
Time, patience, and finding out what their needs are; listening to them vent their frustration; pointing out
reality (ie, the controllers, and all parts are related to each other; are part of the same person; and ALL were
abused even though they were able to dissociate from their pain), and trying to help them meet their needs
for recognition, acceptance, and approval will begin to allow them to question their previous loyalty. These
systems are often driven by fear: fear of punishment; fear of remembering (they were often the most tortured
systems in the survivor, and were promised amnesia in return for continued cooperation). Their fears are
real, and should be listened to and respected, as shatter programming and flood programming are real
threats to the survivor, and can cause functionality to go down.
Flood programming is a sequence put in place to punish a system if its internal programming is allowed to
degrade or access to an unauthorized person, either internally or externally, is allowed. It will involve the
fragments who hold highly traumatic memories, both emotional and physical, being pushed to the front
where the person is “flooded” with wave after wave of memories. If this is triggered, and it frequently is if the
survivor is in therapy, the first priority should be slowing the memories down. This may mean trying to
reason with internal controllers or deltas who are allowing the flooding; they need to know that if the front, or
previously amnesic alters down, or are re-shattered due to traumatization, it will weaken all the systems.
Bargain with them. Prayer will help in this situation. Physical safety, including inpatient therapy, may be
needed if flooding or shatter programming are activated. Suicide programming is often layered in with both
types, and external physical safety will be paramount for the survivor, with lots of outside accountability as
they undo these intense programming sequences. Frequent reality orientation; explaining new, better jobs
can help. Undoing brain wave programming should ideally only be done with lots of safe external support,
which may include extra therapy sessions; hospitalization if programming that could cause loss of
functionality or suicide are triggered; and should be geared towards increasing internal communication and
cooperation. Alters jobs can be changed, from internal programmers to internal Deprogrammers; internal
shatterers or punishers to internal protectors; internal reporters who report back to the cult can instead be
asked to report internally on what the body is doing, and to keep it safe.
These are examples of possible changes. Make friends with system controllers, as they can become strong
helpers and will work with the therapist to keep things safe for the survivor.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Seven: Military Programming
I want to devote an entire chapter to military programming, and how it is done. Why? As noted in chapter
three, the Illuminati are emphasizing the importance of military training more and more, as part of their plan
for eventual takeover. All children in the current generation are undergoing some form of military training as
part of this plan.
Military training is begun quite young. It is often started by three years of age with simple exercises. The
children are taken by their parents to a training area, which may be a large inside auditorium, or a remote
area outside where training maneuvers are done. Tents are set up, with command centers for the different
commanding officers and military trainers.
The children are taught to march in time, keeping a straight line. They are punished by being kicked,
shocked with a cattle prod, or beaten with a baton if they move out of place. They will be dressed in small
uniforms in imitation of the adults.
The adults will have ranks, badges and insignia indicating their level of achievement in the cult hierarchy and
military. Badges and medals are given out to indicate the person’s level of training and tests passed.
Commanding officers are often brutal and will teach even the youngest children with harsh measures.
The children will be forced to march long distances, which increase as they get older, in any weather. They
are forced to learn to cross obstacles. They will be given “fake” guns, with blanks, when they are young.
These guns are perfect replicas of real guns, but fire blanks. The children are taught to load and fire all
manner of firearms, both real and fake, under close adult supervision. They will spend hours learning to aim,
sight, and fire these guns at targets. At first the targets are bulls eyes, but as the children get older the
targets will be similar to police cut outs of humans. The children are taught to aim for the head or the heart.
Later, they will graduate to realistic manikins. This is conditioning them to kill a human being.
They will be shown violent films of warfare, much more explicit and graphic than normal movies in group
classes. Killing techniques will be shown in slow motion. The motif “kill or be killed” will be ground in over
and over. The trainer will ask the children what mistakes the people who were killed made. Being killed is
considered weakness; being a killer is considered strength.
The children will be forced, by age seven or eight, to crawl on their bellies with simulated blanks firing
overhead. They are not told these are blanks and they are extremely painful if the child is hit in the back or
buttocks. They quickly learn to keep down under fire. Battle conditions will be simulated as the children go
through years of “boot camp” training.
They will be rewarded with merit badges for doing well, such as completing an obstacle course, or staying
cool under fire. In other words, the cult creates a microcosm of real military training for their children and
youth. Nazi concentration camps will be simulated, with guards and prisoners. The “guards” are usually
older children or youth who have done well. The “prisoners” are younger children or those being punished
for not performing well in maneuvers. There is intense pressure to want the guard role and not be a prisoner,
since prisoners are locked up, beaten, kicked, and laughed at.
Hunting and tracking games where the prisoners are given a half hour lead are frequent. These may also
involve the use of specially trained dogs taught to knock the quarry down but not kill them. Older children are
taught to handle the dogs, and use them. Youth are taught to help the adults train the dogs.
Teens may be rewarded by becoming “youth leaders” who are allowed to plan the weeks activities. The
military training will closely follow the principles of Nazi military and S.S. training. The trainers often speak in
German to the children, who must learn the language. All C.O.s and high ranking adults speak in German
during these exercises. They may also speak in French, since linguistic ability is encouraged in the
Exercises for older youth will include games where groups compete against each other, and the older teen
leads, with the help of an adult advisor. Groups that win are rewarded, groups that lose are punished. The
youth are taught to leave behind the weak, or slow members. Unfit members are shot or killed, and the
youth leader learns to do these tasks. They are taught to bring their unit through simulated battles with other
units, and cool, cognitive logic under these conditions is rewarded. The goal is to creative cognitive leaders
inside the military systems, who are dissociated from emotions under the stress of battle conditions.
The youth and their followers are taught and trained in all manner of crowd control. They will see special
films, that address all possible responses to a military takeover, and the crowds’ response. These situations
are then acted out during exercises, and the older Youth leaders and their units are expected to deal with
the different responses. The “crowd” is coached by their trainers to act in different ways.
The ultimate goal of all of this is to create an organized army of children, youth, and adults, who will know
exactly what to do during the coming takeover of the world. The training that I described is going on not only
in the U.S., but in every country in the world. Top training centers are located in Germany, Belgium, France,
and Russia. Military trainers are often sent to these countries, to learn new techniques, then sent back to
their home countries.
What to do:
It is important to realize that military alters inside are extremely hierarchical. They will often be ranked inside,
with lower “foot soldiers” accountable to inside alters with increasing rank. Usually, the higher the military
rank, the higher the alter will be inside the system. A soldier with no rank may not have much knowledge
about, or pull, inside the system. Its only job is to blindly obey others, after years of conditioning to do this.
Ranking officers inside will often be modeled after outside perpetrators, officers, or trainers. An internal
General will often have much more knowledge than lower ranks, and should be befriended, as they can help
It will take time, effort, and patience for both the survivor and the therapist to get to know these military
officers. They are often abrupt, arrogant, and extremely hostile to therapy. They are often strongly loyal to
the cult and proud of their badges, awards, and achievements that were earned through years of
traumatization and hard work. They will often be reluctant to give this up, for the perceived “loss”
engendered by leaving the cult.
They will also have strong programming surrounding them, including “honor/dishonor” suicidal programming
(the brave, honorable soldier will die rather than betray his group, etc.). It is important to deal with the
suicidal programming and intense limbic conditioning that many of these alters have been subjected to,
while at the same time reasoning with the higher ranking members.
They will have photographic memory and recall of all aspects of military history. Giving them safe,
appropriate, physical outlets in the daytime can let them vent off steam. These are very physically
conditioned alters, who enjoy running, walking, target practice with guns and knives. Letting them go hiking
(with a safe support person), practice outdoor skills, can be helpful.
Acknowledging their importance to the survivor, and the trauma they underwent, respecting their loyalty,
bravery, and appealing to their sense of honor to help the system stay safe (these alters often have a highly
developed, although misguided, sense of honor) can help. Internal commendation for bravery, even an
internal awards ceremony (they are used to this) for the parts that have decided to leave the cult, and
protect the body, can be performed. They are used to praise and recognition for work well done, and need
this motivation. They were used to getting this from the cult, but the survivor can turn the locus of control
internally, instead of externally, to break bonds with the cult.
Military protectors can change their job to keeping the body safe, away from perpetrators. They can be a
system’s greatest asset, as they are great at “kicking butt”, and are not easily frightened. They may be able
to tell outside perpetrators to leave the survivor alone, and protect the survivor from outside accessing.
Allowing them to vent their feelings in therapy, in journaling, in pictures, and in collages can also help.
Although higher ranking officers internally are often very dissociated from their feelings, they can begin to
empathize with the others below them, who took their pain, and the brunt of the brutal, punitive experiences.
They have to be willing to acknowledge that they were abused at some point, that they were deceived and
used. Finding the youngest alters they were split from will help with this process. With time and good
internal communication, as well as patience from both the therapist and survivor, military alters can become
one of the strongest assets and allies in staying cult free.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Eight: CIA , Governmental, and Scholarship programming.
Some systems will have internal CIA programming. Some of the methods mentioned in earlier chapters,
such as brain wave programming and color coding were developed in part through funding by the CIA in the
1950’s and 1960’s. Military intelligence officers working in Langley, Virginia, used these government funds to
conduct research on human subjects. They reported what they were learning to trainers throughout the U.S.
CIA programming can include having alters in a system trained in different techniques of both finding a
target, and studying the target without being detected. The end result of tagging the victim can include
having a sexual assignation with the target, or may involve having people inside trained to assassinate a
These are complex programming sequences, and are put in over years of training, with periodic
reinforcement. Alters may be trained to become hyper aware of their environment, and able to overhear
conversations that are whispered. Internal recorders are taught to download these conversations, as well as
other info. Photographic recall is emphasized, as the person will be hypnotized or put into a delta state for
“downloading” information to the trainer or CIA operative.
The survivor with CIA programming will have been taught extensively how to “drop a tag” (detect anyone
following them, and ditch them). This training will be begun in early childhood and built upon as the child
grows older. They will often be taken into a neutral colored training room. They may be drugged, or
hypnotized, usually a combination of both.
They will be shown training films of how a CIA operative works. They will be told that they are “special”,
“chosen”, “one in a thousand” who is the only one who can do this special work. They are told that they get
to be a secret agent for the CIA. The young child, having no idea who the CIA is, focuses on the fact that
they have been chosen because they are special, needed, and will be eager to please. The child will be
taken to a dinner party, or a drama set up by the trainer. There will be a group, anywhere from ten to sixteen
people at the “party”. Afterwards, the child will be questioned by the trainer extensively. Who was sitting
where? What were they wearing? What color were their eyes? Their hair? Who gave the speech? What did
they say? The child will be praised for correct answers, but punished, shocked if unable to recall details.
This is to reinforce natural photographic memory, and assist the child with recording details. The next few
times, the child’s abilities will improve, as it wants to avoid punishment.
In the next level of training the child will be asked to observe, and figure out: who is the most important
person in the room? Why? They will be taught body movements, and mannerisms, that give nonverbal clues
away. The child may be taught to approach important adults, or an assigned target, first in role play, later in
real life, and engage them in innocuous conversation while looking for information they have been clued to
get. They may be taught to be innocently seductive, and will be dressed for the part. They will frequently be
taught to lure the target into having intercourse with them.
An older youth, or adult, will also be taught not only how to lure a target into bed, but later how to kill them, if
they are an assassination target, while they are asleep or relaxing after sexual relations. They will be taught
to go through the target’s belongings for any information needed by the trainer or cult leader. Often, before
an assignment for an assassination, the cult member will be indoctrinated with reasons why killing the victim
is a service to humanity. They will be lied to and told that they are the head of a porno ring, a pedophile, or a
brutal villain. This will engage the assassin’s natural anger towards the person, and will motivate them, while
helping to overcome their natural moral reluctance and guilt at killing a human being.
They will be taught how to disguise themselves, with change of clothing, sex (masquerading as the opposite
sex), makeup, contact lenses, and get out of the situation safely. They will be taught how to overcome
interrogation techniques with extensive training and hypnosis, in case they are ever caught. They will be
taught to self suicide with a pill or dagger, if they are ever apprehended, in most cases.
CIA programming will involve the use of sophisticated technology to reinforce its effectiveness, and can be
difficult to break. It may involve the person being traumatized in isolation tanks (this will also be done with
brain wave programming). It may involve sensory deprivation, sensory overload, isolation, sleep deprivation.
It may involve hours of listening to repetitive tapes on headphones. The subject is shocked, or severely
punished, if they try to remove the headphones. They will be hypnotized, tortured; subjected to different drug
combinations; they will be exposed to harmonic tones, often in one ear or the other. They will be exposed to
flashing strobe lights,
which may induce a seizure, and alters will be programmed to cause seizures if the subject tries to break
programming. They will be shown high speed films with different tracks, one for the left eye and one for the
right eye, to increase brain splitting or dichotomous thinking.
The survivor and therapist need to work slowly to undo the effects of this trauma. The person will need to
come to terms, slowly, and carefully, with how the programming was done. They may need to learn their
own access codes (this will also be true of brain wave, and other sophisticated programming techniques).
They will need to communicate with the traumatized alters and fragments inside, let them know they were
used. They will need to help the young alters, who were split to create the system, and often underwent the
worst traumas. Grieving for the abuse, the trauma, the methodical calculation used and scientific methods
used to put in this programming, will take time. Venting feelings, including rage, safely will be important. The
survivor may be afraid of strong feelings and will fear especially anger and rage, since they will associate
those feelings with having to kill, hurt, or assassinate others. Allowing the feelings to be expressed slowly
and carefully, being aware that homicidal and suicidal feelings will probably come up, is important.
If there is a concern about the ability to control acting out, the client may need to go inpatient in a safe facility
that understands mind control and cult programming. They will fear being labeled “psychotic” since the
programmers told them that they would be called this, and locked up forever. The WORST thing a therapist
or hospital can do in a situation like this, is play into those fears, or label the person psychotic. Constant
grounding in reality, using grounding exercises; slow, careful venting of rage and betrayal feelings;
reinforcing over and over that the survivor can remember, and NOT go psychotic, or die, BELIEVING and
VALIDATING the survivor, are all important. The survivor may have unstable behavior at points, but this is
not psychosis, but rather, the natural reaction to extreme trauma. The survivor needs to realize this, and that
they can overcome its effects, with time and good therapy. They will need hope, and a good support system.
Governmental programming will involve the person being trained to take leadership positions or
administrative positions in the government. They may be trained to network with others in governments, both
local , national, and international. The Illuminati’s stated goal is to infiltrate, and eventually cause the
downfall of, all major governments in the world. Government operatives are taught to do this by: infiltrating
local political parties running for leadership both locally and nationally working for top leaders, as
administrators, financial advisors funding governmental races and backing the person sympathetic to the
Illuminati, or putting their person in to win, creating political chaos and unrest with operatives trained in
dissension. The people selected for governmental programming are usually highly intelligent with native
charm, or charisma. They are also skilled people manipulators. These abilities may be enhanced through
programming, encouraging the person to project a “persona” that will draw people to them.
They are also taught finances extensively. This programming is done by: hypnotizing the person, whether
child, youth, or adult (it is usually initiated in late childhood in suitable candidates), and inducing deep trance
with drugs. The person is shocked, then told the trainer’s and cult agenda for the person. They are told that
they are very special to the Illuminati, and will be one of the people who helps change world history. They
are told they will be rewarded with wealth, popularity and power for achieving the cult’s agenda. They are
told, and shown, what the punishment for disobedience is. They are shown training films about government,
how it works, national and international affairs. They will meet with special teachers, who coach them on the
inner political workings of the group they want to infiltrate, including the power structure and strengths and
weaknesses of key players.
They will learn any languages necessary for the position. They will go to University, or get any training and
education needed for credibility. They will receive special scholarships to finance this, if needed. They are
given opportunities to practice their skills at infiltration, information gathering, people manipulation, and
politics in set ups, and later in real situations. If they need to learn to control the media, they will learn
methods to do this. They will have extensive back up and coaching during their entire career.
Governmental programming is quite complex, since it ties in with the person’s natural abilities. They may not
be able to separate themselves easily from the role that they perform and often will only feel that they are
acceptable when they do their job. They may find it difficult to believe that their career, friendships, marriage
and contacts have been secretly guided by the cult for most of their life. These parts may feel offended,
betrayed, or furious when this realization hits. They will also find it difficult not to use the manipulation skills
that come so naturally, both on their therapist, and themselves, to dull the pain that the truth may bring. The
person and the alters that have undergone this type of programming have a lot to lose if they give up their
roles and persona, and need to count the cost of getting out and acknowledge the difficulty of doing so. They
will need to grieve over being used, and for the false interpretation of reality they have believed all their lives.
Listening to other parts inside and acknowledging the reality of the cult abuse will be important steps in
breaking free. Success in a new career in the person’s daily life will also help restore a broken self image.
The Illuminati revere scholarship, especially oral tradition. Children with good memories and native
intelligence may undergo specific training in the area of scholarship. This will include learning under trauma,
with praise for accomplishment. It will also mean punishment or being shocked for poor performance. Some
of the major areas of scholarship include, but are not limited to:
Oral tradition: history of the Illuminati, especially the child’s particular branch, memorizing genealogies.
Learning and becoming fluent in multiple languages, both modern and ancient, including but not limited to:
English, French, German, Russian, Spanish, Arabic, Latin, Greek, Hebrew, Egyptian hieroglyphics; ancient
Babylonian, ancient Chaldean and cuneiform writings. Some revered ancient texts are written in very ancient
languages, and certain ceremonies may include rituals which utilize them. Learning ancient and modern
history and becoming adept at planning role plays and dramatizations. Learning to teach others the above
skills. The child who becomes adept at scholarship will also be expected to become a skilled teacher, and in
turn, pass their knowledge down to others. They will practice teaching in both classroom and individual
Scholarship programming will involve alters who are intensely loyal to the cult, since they believe they are
related to a long, unbroken line of people since earliest history. They will often be immersed in cult
philosophy, having read and memorized numerous esoteric volumes related to it. Appealing to logic,
intellect, having an open mind and discussing the pros and cons of leaving the cult with them will often be
received the best. They despise open conflict, and prefer addressing issues intellectually. They will be
skilled debaters, and quite verbal. Asking them to read books that address becoming free from the cult, and
asking them to sit in and listen to accounts from traumatized alters both in their system and others inside,
help them make the decision to switch loyalties. Although they will have been immersed in false ideologies
and doctrines, they are frequently willing to attempt to be intellectually honest. They will read and debate
both sides of an issue, and may become some of the first to make the decision to leave the cult once
convinced that it is abusive.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Nine: Programming Linked to Stories, Movies, Cartoons, or role Play Dramatization
In this chapter, I want to address a special type of programming that is universal with the Illuminati. It is
programming that is linked to a story, movie, cartoon, or role play dramatization.
For countless centuries, Illuminati trainers and leaders have used role playing to reinforce as well as
program children, and it is a favorite mode of teaching up to this day. A typical drama set up, or role play, will
involve a “visit through time.” The child is told, while drugged or hypnotized, that it and the other children
with it (usually, a small group will go through this programming together) are going to ” time travel”. The
trainer or teacher is seen as immensely powerful by the children, as he or she magically transports them
through time. They enter another room, where people are dressed up in period costumes from whichever
time period in history the teacher wants the children to see. Everything is historically accurate and well
researched. An example: if the children are to visit ancient Rome, they will be taken to a room in the Senate,
where the characters are dressed in togas. They will be speaking to each other in ancient Latin and debating
issues. Caesar, or another king will enter the senate. Roman customs for a scenario such as this one will be
adhered to throughout the role play.
One purpose of this role playing, is that the children are told they are getting a “behind the scenes ” peek at
history. Illuminati agenda will be put forward, and the children will “see” that famous figures in history were
actually Illuminists. This will reinforce their “special ness” and the historicity of the group. It will also reinforce
language training, since the scenes may occur in medieval England, or the French court of Louis XIV, etc.
The scenes will also contain a moral that builds on programming the children have been undergoing. Maybe
they will watch a “traitor” being “guillotined” in the French court. Or an unworthy senator, who tries to betray
his king, will be stabbed. The child may be given a role in the play, such as taking a secret message to the
king or queen, to reinforce courier programming. The child really believes that they have stepped back into
history, and are part of the process of helping create history.
With modern times, programming has become more sophisticated with the advent of technology. Before
television or movies, programming was often “scripted” around famous fairy tales, or stories, read aloud by
one trainer while the second trainer worked with the child. A good see-song voice is necessary in a “reader”.
The child would be read the story, and under hypnosis and trauma, told that they are one of the characters
in the story. They are told the “real” meaning of the story, its “hidden meaning” and told that whenever they
hear the story, to remember what it really means.
Nowadays, movies and videos are frequently used in programming. Favorite scripts include: Walt Disney
movies (Disney was an Illuminist), especially Fantasia, Sleeping Beauty, The Little Mermaid, Cinderella,
Beauty and the Beast. The Wizard of Oz, both books and movie, has been used. Any movie that
incorporates Illuministic themes can be used. E.T. and Star Wars have been used in more recent years.
How Script programming is done
The trainer will play the movie for the child. The child is told that they will be “asked about ” the movie, this
cues the child to use photographic recall about what they are viewing. The trainer may show the child an
edited shorter version of the movie, with only parts of the whole, or may show the child a short scene from
After watching the movie, or scene, the child is drugged to relax it, then asked what it remembers. The child
will be shocked if it cannot recall items the trainer deems important, and will be forced to watch the scenes
When the child has total recall of the segments, the trainer will tell the child that it is one of the characters.
The child may be heavily traumatized first, and a blank slate personality created inside to be the desired
character. The first thing the blank slate sees is a recording of the movie, or scene. This is its “first memory”.
The trainer will then link the scene with Illuminati ideology. They will teach the child the “hidden meaning” in
the movie, and praise the child for being one of the few “enlightened ones” who can understand what it truly
means. The script programming will often be linked to other programming the child is undergoing. Military
programming may be linked to Star Wars. Total recall programming may be linked to Data in Star Trek.
Computer programming may be linked to Hal in 2001 A Space Odyssey; internal labyrinth programming may
be linked to the movie “Labyrinth”. The possibilities are quite varied and will depend on both the child and
the trainer as to which direction script programming will go. Music from the show, or scene, will be used as a
trigger to access the programming inside or bring forward these personalities.
Scripted programming will often involve a great deal of traumatization, to create the “blank slate” alters
desired. The programming will be ground in with repetition, electroshock, torture, drugging and hypnosis.
The alters inside who have gone through this programming will often be highly disconnected from external
reality and may believe that they are part of a “script”. They may be Dorothy seeking the Emerald City (or
the achievement of Illuminati rule on earth). They may be a computer or the character Data. Reality
orientation will be very important. Allow these parts to experience safe outside reality, and test for
themselves if they are really part of a man or woman. Looking in a mirror may help, when they express
readiness. Having cognitive helpers who can share daily life memories with them, may help to ground them.
At first they will be very surprised, even indignant or hostile, at suggestions that they are not the character.
They will think the therapist is a trainer, or part of the script, since this is the only reality that they have
known. Re-grounding, patiently, over and over to present reality, increased communication with others
inside, and eventually grieving over the intense amount of trickery and deception that they experienced, will
be necessary. With time and patience these parts will be willing to give up their old “scripted” roles and
become part of the person’s present reality.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Ten: The Sixth step of Discipline
Betrayal; Twinning, Internal walls, Structures, Geometry
This chapter will address the sixth step of discipline in the Illuminati: Betrayal programming.
Betrayal programming will begin in infancy, but will be formalized at around ages six to seven, and continue
on into adulthood. The sixth step can be summarized as : “betrayal is the greatest good.” The Illuminists
teach this to their children as a very important spiritual principle. They idealize betrayal as being the true
state of man. The quick witted, the adept, learns this quickly and learns to manipulate it.
The child will learn this principle through set up after set up. The child will be placed in situations where an
adult who is kindly, and in set up after set up “rescues” the child, gains its trust. The child looks up to the
adult as a “savior” after the adult intervenes and protects the child several times. After months or even a
year of bonding, one day in a set up the child will turn to the adult for help. The adult will back away,
mocking the child, and begin abusing it. This sets in place the programming: adults will always betray a child
and other adults.
Another set up will involve twinning, which deserves special mention here. The Illuminati will often create
twin bonds in their children. The ideal is to have a set of real twins, but of course this is not always possible.
So, the child is allowed to play with, and become close to, another child in the cult from earliest childhood. At
some point early on, the child will be told that the other child is actually their “twin”, and that they were
separated at birth. They are told that this is a great secret and not to tell anyone, on pain of punishment. The
child, who is often lonely and isolated, is overjoyed. It has a twin, someone who has a special bond to them
The children do everything together. They are taught together, do military training together. They tell each
other secrets. They are also frequently friends in the daytime as well. They are taught to cross access each
other just as real siblings would be.
But at some point, they will be forced to hurt each other. If one “twin” is considered expendable, the ultimate
set up will be one in which one twin is forced to die while the other watches. One twin may gather secrets
from the other twin, be forced to disclose them to a trainer or cult leader, then may be forced to kill the other.
One twin may be forced to hit, or hurt the other. If they refuse, the other twin will be brutalized by the trainer,
and the refusing twin told that the child was hurt because of their refusal to comply. Many setups will involve
one twin being forced to betray the other, turning on the other child after intense programming. This betrayal
set up will devastate both children, and they will learn the true lesson: trust no one. Betray, or be betrayed.
The children will also have adult role models on every hand, since the cult is a very political, hierarchical,
back stabbing society. Adults are constantly betraying each other, stepping over each other to move up. The
children will watch one adult being praised, advanced, because they betrayed others below them, or set
them up to fail. The children will learn quickly to mimic the adults around them, and both adults and children
can become quite cynical as to human nature. They will have seen it at its worst, whether in training
sessions, the brutality of a C.O. in military, or the gossip and back stabbing that occurs before and after
rituals. They also incorporate the message internally: play the game, or be run over. Even the youngest
children learn to manipulate others adeptly, at a very young age, while the adults laugh at how quickly they
are learning adult ways. People manipulation is considered a fine art in the cult, and those who do it best, as
in any group, often win out.
Betrayal programming may have totally shattered the survivor’s trust in outside people. It will take a therapist
a long, long time to gain the survivor’s trust. These are people who were taught over and over again that
talking, sharing one’s secrets, would be punished harshly. Inside littles will be very cautious at first, not
trusting that the therapist is not just another trainer who will one day shout “aha!” and betray them if they
begin to trust. This trust building takes time and patience, and must be earned through session after session
where the therapist shows trustworthiness and non abusiveness. Survivors will test therapists over and over
again, to see if they really are what they say they are. This is a normal part of the therapy process. Survivors
may even try to back away from therapy, or outside support, as true caring support will “wig them out”, i.e.
conflict incredibly with their world view and experiences prior to leaving the cult.
Both survivor and therapist need to realize that some amount of distrust is healthy, based on what the
survivor has experienced, and may be life saving, helping to protect them from outside accessing. Honor this
need and be patient while the survivor tests over and over. The survivor can try to reason with inside alters
who may have been betrayed to the point of legitimate paranoia. They may ask them to watch, and see what
the therapist, and/or support person is like. To take their time, check them out. To be aware that what they
went through may magnify normal feelings of caution. Helping orient these parts to outside reality, and
especially positive experiences of trusting a little, and not being harmed, will help make great strides in
undoing this. The survivor may feel confusion and internal conflict, as they experience a world where trust is
possible. They may pull away, or the reverse, become highly dependent on the therapist and share too
quickly due to a longing for safe intimacy that has never been met. Setting healthy boundaries while
acknowledging needs will help the survivor through this stage.
Another type of programming involves the deliberate creation of internal structures within the cult member.
Internal structures: temples, eyes, mirrors, carousels etc.
The Illuminati trainers will try to create internal structures within the person’s personality systems. Why?
They believe this creates better stability. It also gives the alters and fragments a place to “hang on to” inside,
and creates a convenient way to call them up. If a fragment is indexed inside to an internal helix, for
example, the trainer knows how to locate them more easily.
Internal structures will vary greatly depending on the trainer, the group, the region of the U.S. or Europe and
the goals for the individual. Common internal structures will include, but are not limited to:
Temples: these are often consecrated to principle Illuminati deities, and spiritual alters will congregate here.
This may represent actual temples, Masonic or private, that the subject may have visited.
Temple of Moloch will be created out of black stone with a fire burning internally.
All seeing eye of Horus: one of the most common structures in an Illuminati system; universal. Horus is a
deity revered by the Illuminati, and the all seeing eye internally represents the fact that the cult can always
see what the individual is doing. It will also represent being given to Horus in a high ceremony. The eye may
be closed, or open, depending on the system’s status at the time. This eye will also be linked to demonic
watching of the person’s activities at all time.
Pyramids: the Illuminati revere ancient Egyptian symbology, especially “mystery religion” and Temple of Set
teachings. Pyramids will be placed internally both for stability (a triangle, and/or pyramid represents strength
and stability), and as a calling place for the demonic. Pyramids and triangles, and the number three,
represent calling up the demonic in Illuminist philosophy.
Sun: represents Ra, the sun god
Geometric figures: configurations of circles, triangles, pentagons, etc. Geometric patterns are considered
sacred, and are based in ancient philosophy. There may be hundreds overlapping in a training grid for
complex systems, which will house fragments in each one.
Training grids: these may be simplistic, such as cubes with patterns on them, rows of boxes, or more
complex such as helixes, double helixes, infinity loops. Each trainer will have favorites classified as simple,
medium and complex, depending on the child and its ability to recall and memorize.
Columns: Greek Doric, ionic columns. Often hold “time travel” programming, with a portal between two
Computers: complex, highly dissociated systems with alters and fragments held within a computer system.
Robots: may be seen in older systems
Crystals: gems, balls, multifaceted. Used in spiritual systems to enhance occult powers. Alters and
fragments may congregate on facets of a large ball.
Mirrors: used internally to reinforce other programming sequences, internal twinning, and distortion of reality
programming. May create shadow systems of functional systems. May also lock in demonic programming.
Carousels: used in some programming sequences to confuse alters inside. Often linked to spin, confusion
programming internally. May be used to punish internal alters; they will be spun on the carousel if they tell.
Deck of cards: this can include cards from a deck, or complex configurations made of hundreds of card
inside. Dominoes programming is similar. All touch each other and if person tries to dismantle programming,
the deck will “fall”.
Black boxes: represent self destruct and shatter programming sealed off into a black box to protect system.
Should not be opened without careful preparation and good therapy.
Mines, booby traps: see above
Spider webs: represent linked programming, with a spider (internal programmer) who continuously reweaves
the web and reinforces internal programming and punishments. The web also communicates with other
systems. Can also represent demonic linkages internally, woven in.
Internal training rooms: used as punishments for internal alters. Will represent external training rooms
person has been in.
Internal walls: these will often represent very large internal amnesia barriers.
The walls may be very thick, impermeable or semi permeable. A typical use for a wall will be to maintain
high levels of amnesia between “front” or daily living, amnesic alters, and “back” or cult active alters that
contain more of the person’s life history. The back may be able to selectively see over and cross past the
wall, but the front will be completely unaware that there is a wall, or what lays behind it.
Seals: usually in a group of six or seven, represent demonic sealing, and may cover end times, shatter
programming, as well as role within cult in new hierarchy.
These are some common programming structures. Again, there are many, many other types of internal
structures used and the number and type are only limited by the trainer’s and survivor’s creative abilities.
The way that these structures are placed within the person are fairly
similar. Under drugs, hypnosis and electroshock, the person is traumatized into a deep trance state. In the
deep trance they will be told to open their eyes and look at: either a projected image of the structure, a 3D
model of it, or a holographic image using a virtual reality headset. The image will be ground in, using shock
and bringing the image closer and closer to the person’s visual field. It may be rotated, if graphics are
available, or a 3D is used. They may be told that they are entering inside it, if it is a temple or pyramid, under
deep hypnosis, that they (the alter being programmed) will now “live inside” the structure/box/card, etc. This
will also be used to reinforce amnesia and isolation programming internally, since the structure will be used
to reinforce walls between the alter/ fragment and other alters and fragments internally.
If the survivor finds structures inside, it will help for them first of all to try and realize WHY they are there.
What purpose do they serve? To reinforce amnesia? Isolation? spiritual programming? punishment? To hold
dangerous programming sequences? This is important, since some structures such as internal walls or
barriers may have been created not only by the cult, but reinforced by the survivor as well, as a means of
internal protection. The survivor may not want to dismantle internal structures too quickly without knowing
their purpose and what they contain. Both the survivor and the therapist will need to go slowly. Learning how
the structures were put in and which alters are linked to the structure, will be a first step. Long, slow and
careful preparation, with lots of system cooperation, will be needed to look at some structures. This may only
come after years of extensive therapy. Each survivor will progress at their own pace. If a wall is present,
taking it down slowly, one brick at a time, or allowing part of it to become semi permeable, may be first steps
in healing. Training rooms can have the equipment turned off and dismantled; it can be turned into a safe
room, redecorated and refitted with toys and safe objects. Computers can slowly begin to realize that they
are human, and gradually allowed to take on human characteristics.
Survivors can use their creativity to reclaim themselves, with the support of their therapists, and undo what
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Eleven: Suicidal Programming
I have decided to write an entire chapter about suicidal programming, since it is often the most dangerous
programming that the survivor will face during their healing process. ALL ILLUMINATI SURVIVORS WILL
HAVE SUICIDAL PROGRAMMING PROTECTING THEIR SYSTEMS. I emphasized this to also reiterate
the need for good therapy and a strong support system for the survivor.
The Illuminati know and realize that with time, individuals in their group may start to question what they are
doing. Or they may become disenchanted with their role. They may even desire to leave the group or try to
dismantle their own programming.
The trainers are well aware of this possibility and to prevent this, will always program in suicidality. The
suicidality, or suicidal programming, may surround one or more systems internally. It may be layered into
more than one system.
From earliest childhood, survivors have been conditioned to believe that they would rather die than leave
their “family” (the Illuminati group). This is the core, or basis of suicidal programming. It will be closely linked
to loyalty to one’s family as well as the group (remember, this is a generational group and leaving it may
mean giving up contact with one’s parents, spouse, siblings, aunts, uncles, cousins and children, as well as
close friends). These people will all try to contact the survivor, and try to draw them back into the cult, asking
“don’t you love us anymore?”, or even becoming accusatory and hostile if the survivor does not respond the
way they wish. The survivor will be told that they are “crazy”. Or delusional. That their family loves them and
would never be part of a cult. The family members will all still be amnesic, unless something happens to
trigger their own memories.
One of the most frequent suicidal programming sequences placed internally will be “come back or die ”
programming. A family member may activate it by telling the survivor that they are missed and their family
wants to see them. If the survivor fails to return, the programming will start running. It can only be
deactivated by a code word from the person’s trainer or cult contact person. This ensures that they will
recontact. If the survivor tries to break this programming, they will need assistance, both internal and
external, for safety.
Hospitalization may be needed in a safe facility that understands DID and programming, as well as
suicidality, as the alters inside will begin fighting if the person tries to break the programming. They have
been programmed to commit suicide, or be shattered internally, or at the very least, severely punished, and
are afraid of the repercussions of not obeying. The survivor will need to get to know these internal alters,
and reassure them that they no longer need to do their jobs.
Chronometric suicidal programming is another type placed within. This does not need contact with family
members to activate. In fact, it is activated automatically after a certain amount of time WITHOUT cult
contact. Controller alters and/or punishing alters will have been programmed that if a certain period of time
goes without contact with the trainer, they are to commit suicide. They will be told that the only way to
prevent this is recontact with the trainer, who knows a command code to halt the program. The time interval
may be anywhere from three months to nine months, each system is different. Call back programming may
have this type of programming as a back up, to ensure that it is followed through on.
Systems layered programming is a particularly complex form of suicide programming where several systems
(up to six at a time), are programmed to fire off suicide programming simultaneously. This always needs
hospitalization for the survivor’s safety.
Honor/dishonor programming is common in military systems. In this, the military parts are told that an
“honorable and courageous” soldier will take his life, rather than reveal secrets or leave his unit.
“No tell” programming will often be reinforced by suicidal programming.
Access denied programming, which prevents unauthorized access both externally and internally, will often
be reinforced by either or both suicidal/homicidal programming.
Almost all suicidal programming is put in place to either ensure continued obedience to the cult’s agenda; to
ensure regular recontact; or prevent the individual or an outside person from accessing the person’s system
without authorization (i.e. the correct access codes, which the trainers are careful to use at the beginning of
each session). It will frequently block therapy, as the survivor will be terrified, and rightly so, of dying if they
reveal their internal world, or disclose their history.
First, both the survivor and the therapist need to find out what suicide programming is present (it’s a safe bet
it’s there, no need to ask IF it is present). Internal communication, and finding out which alters or fragments
hold suicide programming will be important. Physical safety, whether with a safe outside person, or inpatient
hospitalization, while working on suicide programming is extremely important, as this programming may
either drive the survivor to self destructive behavior, or back to the cult. Dealing with suicide programming
assumes that the survivor and therapist have initiated good system communication internally. This is
extremely important, since the survivor will need cooperation inside with dismantling suicidality.
Letting alters inside know that they no longer have to do their job, that they can change, may help. Reality
orientation, letting them know that if they kill the body, that they will die, may also help (many times, these
parts have been deceived into believing that they themselves will not die, if they do their jobs. This means
they need to hear the truth). Having controller alters, high alters with pull inside the system, agree to help the
therapist dismantle the programming will help. But be aware that SOME INTERNAL SUICIDE SEQUENCES
WILL BE PUT IN THAT EVEN CONTROLLERS CANNOT DISMANTLE. Creating a safety committee inside
whose main job is to keep the body safe and ask for help if suicidal programming begins to kick in, BEFORE
ACTING OUT OCCURS, will also help tremendously.
As the survivor develops trust with their therapist and realizes the value of life, and that life can be much
better than it has ever been before, they will become more willing to reach out and ask for help if they
become suicidal. The survivor may also find that they encounter core despair. This despair may have been
used by the cult to run suicidal programming, but it is not programming itself. A very young core split may
have taken many of the feelings of despair, hopelessness, failure to thrive and desire to die, that the child
felt growing up in a horribly abusive atmosphere. This is not programming but true feelings, and it will be
important to differentiate this from programming. If core despair comes up, the alter containing this may also
report having been trained to NOT SUICIDE, or give up. The trainers will do this, if despair begins
overwhelming the subject at an early age, to prevent the child’s suicide.
The survivor’s cognitives, helpers, nurturers, will all need to be gathered together to help this part of the core
heal. There will be intense, and rightful, grieving and anguish for the immense pain that
the young child suffered. Hopelessness will come out. It can help if alters with happier memories can try and
share their memories with this very young part. External support and caring can also make a big difference.
Healing the immense pain held by this core split will take a long period of time and should not be hurried.
Antidepressants can help, as the depression may be shared through all systems. Messages of hope, new
and positive experiences can all help the survivor work through this type of programming, as well as
journaling, poetry, artwork and collaging the feelings. Time, patience, support, the ability to vent feelings in a
safe manner and physical safety when needed, will all help immensely as the survivor works through these
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Twelve: Preventing Reaccessing of the Survivor
This is by far one of the most important chapters I have written in this book. Why?
Deprogramming cannot be consistently successful if the person is still in contact with the abusers. Survivors
will take one step forward, then will find themselves knocked down internally. All the hard work in therapy will
be undone or set back. They and their therapist will find that they have trouble finding internal alters. Whole
systems may shut down. A child presenting system may come out. Confusers and scramblers will take over
therapy sessions and blockers will block therapy.
No one chapter can ever be totally comprehensive in how to prevent reaccessing. What I will share are
some of the more common ways that the cult and trainers will try to reaccess individuals, and give some
techniques on avoiding this.
The cult has a vested interest in keeping its members. After all, it has spent generations telling its members
that if they leave they will die, be killed, or go psychotic. It makes them quite unhappy to see someone who
is quite alive and very clearly not psychotic leave. It also makes their more restive members question the
truth of what they have been told if they see someone get out. Having a member leave may break the hold
of some programming in other members. Trainers especially hate to see anyone leave, and grind their teeth
over this problem at night. People leaving the cult is considered a training failure and the trainers may be
So, the cult has come up with certain ways to keep their members with them, willingly or unwillingly. These
include, but are not limited to:
E.T. phone home (phone programming) : the individual will have personalities whose sole job is to call and
report to the trainer or cult leader. These are often young child alters who are eager to please, starved for
attention and nurture, and who are heavily rewarded for calling back in. Any survivor who attempts to leave
the cult must deal with the urge to phone home. To phone their abusers. To phone their friends who are in
the group. To phone their parents, siblings, cousins, or aunts. This urge may become overwhelming at times
and worst of all, the survivor may be totally amnesic to the fact that the people they are calling are cult
members who are urging them, in code, to come back. Common phrases used include: your ‘family’ loves
you, misses you, needs you. So and so is ill and needs to see you. You are so special to us. You are so
valuable. You need to come see us. Why are you so distant? Why haven’t we heard from you lately?
The list goes on and on. Sweet, kind phrases with double meanings, placed in the person during training
sessions. Trainers are not stupid and know that if cult members said “come to the ritual meeting at midnight
next week”, the survivor would run the other way, and be validated as well that they are not making things
up. So, they ingrain code messages behind innocuous phrases such as described above. These, and other
messages, are meant to trigger recontact programming.
In recontact programming, (ALL ILLUMINATI MEMBERS HAVE RECONTACT PROGRAMMING, IT IS
NEVER LEFT TO CHANCE) the person has parts whose only job is to have contact with their trainer or cult
leader, or accountability person (person one step above them in the cult). These parts are heavily
programmed under drugs, hypnosis, shock, torture, to have recontact. The individual will feel restless,
shaky, weepy, afraid if they try to break this programming. It will often be linked or joined in to suicidal
programming (see previous chapter for more on suicidal programming). They may experience PTSD
symptomology, or even flood programming, and internal self punishment sequences, as they fight this
Siblings are often cross trained to access each other with special codes. Remember when…. may initiate
this. I love you, or, your family loves you, can also be used. Phrases will be individual, depending on the
person’s family members and background.
Certain clothing or jewelry worn can be used to draw a cult loyal system, such as a color coded system, or
jewel system , to the front. The person must physically resemble the person the individual was “keyed into”
during the programming sequence, to prevent inadvertent popping out of alters by anyone wearing a ruby
pin, for example. This kind of cueing will be based on sight recognition of a person, plus the clothing color or
jewelry being worn a certain way.
Phone calls from concerned family members, friends, and cult members will flood the survivor’s phone lines
and answering machine, especially during the initial getting out phase.
Hang up calls, three or six in a row, or calls where a series of tones are heard, may be used as cues to
recall the individual and fire off internal programming.
Birthday, holiday or we miss you cards, or letters, may be sent with trigger codes imbedded in them.
Flowers with a certain number of flowers, or color may be sent. Daisies may fire off daisy programming
The possibilities are almost endless, depending on the trainers, the group the person was with, and the
people they are most bonded to in the cult. Special training sessions will be given, with code words and cues
built into the system’s programming.
If all else fails, hostility will start. “You don’t love us” will be heard, even when the survivor has stated
repeatedly that they care. Boundaries drawn with cult members will be misinterpreted as lack of concern, or
withdrawal. Accusations, guilt, and anger as well as manipulation will be used as hooks to make the survivor
feel guilty for withdrawing from the cult.
Isolation programming may activate, as the cult support system is withdrawn in the survivor’s life, and they
try the difficult task of
developing healthy, appropriate relationships outside of the cult. Often, the therapist will be the survivor’s
lifeline and sole support at first. The individual may fall into codependent relationships quickly, or
relationships with other survivors to fill the void in their life. At worst, desperate for caring and feeling
isolated, they will make friends with the first kind person they meet. This person could be a cult set up, sent
to initiate a friendship quickly. Survivors should be wary of “instant friendships” or instant bonding with
others. Most good relationships take time and effort.
One of the most difficult tasks, but most important safety wise, will be for a totally amnesic presenting
system to realize who their abusers really are. It will seem unbelievable, when back parts come up in
therapy, and disclose that beloved, or even barely tolerated family members are in the cult. Believing these
parts and listening to them will be crucial to safety. Protectors will be important to the survivor’s safety,
especially if they are willing to give up cult allegiance and help keep the person safe. Outside accountability
with safe persons is extremely important. The problem is that generational Illuminati survivors have often
been surrounded all their lives by a network of other cult members. Unknown to them, their closest friends
and family members are part of the group. Amnesia poses the greatest danger to the survivor in the
beginning stages, as they will trust people before they remember that they are unsafe.
A survivor may remember the father taking them to rituals, and believe that their mother or grandparent is
safe. Only later in therapy will they remember that mother or granny was actually their trainer, since the most
painful memories tend to come later. The survivor may only remember ritual abuse in early childhood, and
think they were let go at a certain age. This is extremely rare, since the group has put in years of effort into
training them. Almost never will they just “let someone go” in generational families. But they may be given
false or screen memories, especially if they are in therapy, to confuse the survivor and the therapist.
The client will need to listen to and believe internal parts who have more information than they do, and take
appropriate steps to be safe. This will probably mean cutting off contact with perpetrators at this point.
Again, outside accountability is paramount. Safe houses, a women’s shelter or a safe church family may be
alternatives. One of the worst things the survivor can do is isolate, or go out walking late at night alone, or go
camping in the woods by themselves. Abduction will often occur in these scenarios, when the survivor is
alone and vulnerable. Safe roommates can help keep the survivor safe.
Locking up the phone in the trunk of the car may help if phone programming is intense. This gives the
survivor the chance to wake up or stop phone calls, if an alter has to get up, find the car keys, turn on the
light, go outside, and open a car trunk, bring the phone inside and hook it up again before making a phone
Building a support system through safe support groups, a good therapist, church, or work can also help.
Whenever possible and practical, moving away from the town or state where the survivor was active in the
cult can help. Why? Remember the survivor’s whole support network was the cult in their old town. The
trainers and/or family members have invested time and effort into the survivor and have a big stake in their
coming back. If the survivor moves far enough away, a cult group in the new city or state will not know them
as well, and will not have a lengthy history with them. This can help decrease the chance of reaccessing by
the cult, in conjunction with good therapy and a safe support network.
The survivor will have to rebuild their support system anyway, so why not do it as far as possible away from
people they have known who might hurt them? It can be intensely triggering to the survivor to see their old
trainer walking down the street towards them, and inside alters may destabilize or feel unsafe. This is one
case where distance is good.
One caution though: even if the survivor moves, they will need to work intensely on blocking internal
recontact programming at the same time, or they may be quickly reaccessed. Trainers will often send the
person’s system codes and grids over the internet to cult groups in the new city, and will try to send
someone who physically resembles the trainer or a family member to initiate contact with the survivor.
Internal communication and letting inside alters know that they can change their jobs will help. Reward
internal reporters for changing allegiance and committing to keep the survivor safe. The cult used to reward
them for doing their job; now the survivor can reward them for changing jobs. Develop new interests, work or
hobbies that can help the survivor meet new, safe people. The survivor may want to practice friendship skills
in support groups, as long as they are run by reputable, safe therapists.
Be aware that holiday dates are often important dates for reaccessing. Calendars are available that show
important holidays for SRA groups. Birthdays are also dates when the individual is expected to return and
there may be programming surrounding this.
Callback programming (where the person is given a specific date or holiday when they are to return to the
cult, or be punished) may need to be broken as well. Allowing the alters who went through the programming
to share their memories, acknowledging their needs, and trying to meet those needs in healthy ways will
The survivor will need to go through a period of grieving for loss of
contact with family members and friends in the cult. No matter how abusive, how disliked, it can be very
difficult to cut off with perpetrators, especially if they were the only people close to the survivor. The survivor
needs to acknowledge the difficulty of creating a new, healthy, cultless support group. The survivor needs to
recognize that learning new skills and developing healthy friendships will take time.
One issue often brought up by survivors is: how much do I tell others about my past? This is an individual
decision that the survivor and therapist need to look at together. In general though, caution in sharing is
best, since sharing too much about the survivor’s past may draw the wrong people to them. These people
may be dysfunctional, or possible cult members. It is usually best to base new, non cult friendships on
healthy aspects of the person at first and very gradually share small bits of information as the friendship
progresses, and sharing seems appropriate. With time and opportunities, the survivor will learn the
importance of appropriate boundaries and will want healthier relationships in their life.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Thirteen: Shell programming, Internal Councils, Human Experimentation, Function Codes
Parts of this chapter could be extremely triggering, please read with caution and only with a therapist if a
Shell programming is a form of programming used to create a “shell” on the outside, that other alters inside
speak through. This is a designed to hide the person’s multiplicity from the outside world, and works
extremely well with highly fragmented systems. It also takes a person with the ability to dissociate to a great
How it is done: with shell programming, the trainer will often take a clear plastic or glass mask, and put it in
front of the subject. They will be extremely traumatized, shocked, drugged, and told that they (the alter or
alters in front) are the “mask” that they see. Their job will be to be a shell, or voice, to cover for the others
behind. These parts will be so traumatized that they literally see themselves as only a shell, with no real
substance or body.
Others inside will then be directed to come next to the “shell” alters, and use their voice to cover their own.
This allows greater fragmentation of the person, while being able to hide it from outside view, since the
internal alters will learn to present through the shell. Shell alters always see themselves as “clear”, and will
have no color if color coding is present in other systems.
It is important to realize that what the system is actually doing is co-presenting, although not co-consciously.
For a shell program to work, the shell alters have been taught to allow co-presentation with the other alters
in the systems. Other alters in the back may not always be aware that this is what is happening, and the
front shell especially will not know that they are being “gone through” for co-presentation.
Recognizing the trauma that occurred, and finding out where the shell fragments came from, will help.
Allowing both the shell alters and the other alters to recognize that this is how they have been presenting,
and why, will be an important step. Back alters may then begin presenting without going through the shell,
and the person may look “more multiple” than they ever have for a period, with accents or young voices
coming through. What is actually happening is that the back is presenting without masking who they are
through the shell. Meanwhile, the shell alters may decide to coalesce, for greater strength, and may decide
to change jobs. Each system will decide what is best for them.
Survivors of Illuminati programming will always have some type of hierarchy inside. This is because the cult
itself is very hierarchical, and puts this hierarchy inside the person. What better way to inspire loyalty to
leadership than to put the leadership inside the person’s head? Trainers are also very hierarchy conscious
themselves. They know that a system without hierarchy and head honchos inside to direct things will be a
system in chaos. They will not leave the person’s system leaderless inside.
Many trainers will put themselves in the person, over the internal programmers or trainers. This is because
they are egotistical, but also because it uses a well known phenomenon of human nature: PEOPLE TEND
TO INTERNALIZE THEIR ABUSERS. The survivor may be horrified to find a representative of one of their
worst perpetrators inside, but this was a survival mechanism. A tenet of human behavior is that often people
will punish someone less who mimics them. A brutal nazi will be less likely to punish another brutal nazi, but
will look down upon and punish a weak, crying person. So, the survivor will internalize the rough nazi inside,
to avoid being hurt. The survivor may mimic accents, mannerisms, even claim the perpetrator’s life history
as their own.
The ultimate form of internalization comes with internalizing hierarchical councils. The person, under pain,
hypnosis, and drugs, will be taught to incorporate a highly dissociated group inside to lead the others. These
will often be created from core splits, because the trainers want them to be extremely strong, stable alters in
Triads of three elders may be seen
Platinum’s may have a head council of three
Jewels will have a triad, made up of ruby, emerald, diamond in many systems, to rule over the others
And, of course, an internal “leadership council”, “System Above”, “Ascended Masters”, “supreme council”,
regional council, world council, etc. may be found. The councils found will vary with each survivor.
These internal groups will correlate roughly to the outside group. Often the child or youth at age twelve will
be presented to these groups in a formal coming of age ceremony. This ceremony is considered quite an
honor, and will involve the child being traumatized and accepting the leadership of the council for the rest of
their life. Undying loyalty is promised. There may be other occasions the person will be forced to come
before the councils throughout their lifespan, either for judgment, to pass tests, for punishment, or elevation.
These councils will be seen as holding power of life or death, and the child or youth will do anything to gain
their favor. The child will internalize them. The trainer will help with the internalization, using photographs or
holographic images of the people to “burn them in”. Each member of the group will be given different
It is not uncommon for the survivor to incorporate a parent, both parents, or grandparents, into their internal
leadership hierarchy in a generational survivor.
High priests and priestesses may sit on ruling councils inside.
Internal leadership councils will often be some of the most resistant to, and hostile towards therapy,
especially in the early stages. They will verbally banter with, or refuse to speak to, the therapist, as being
“beneath their notice.” They are mimicking the haughty, hierarchical attitudes they have been exposed to all
They also have the most to lose, if the survivor leaves the cult, and may fight this decision tooth and nail.
They will often be the alters with an “attitude”.
Both the survivor and therapist need to recognize that these parts had powerful needs that were met in the
cult setting. To ignore this and argue with them will only entrench their belief that therapists are stupid and
unknowing people. Acknowledge their internal role while gently pointing out reality. Try to enlist their aid in
helping the survivor strengthen. Discuss honestly the pros and cons of leaving the cult. These are highly
intellectual alters, and they need to express their concerns and doubts. Setting good boundaries and not
allowing verbal abuse of the therapist is important. These alters are used to “pushing people around”
verbally, and have been rewarded for it prior to therapy. Now, they need to learn new coping skills and
behaviors, and the process may take time. Allow them to vent their anger, displeasure, and fears about the
decision to leave the cult. Offer them new jobs inside the person of leadership over safety committees, or
even decision making committees.
Sometimes, a system that has broken free from the cult, and has no external hierarchy that they are
accountable to will go through a short period of chaos as word gets out: we’re free, and don’t have to do
what the cult tells us to do any more! Hundreds of internal arguments may break out as to: what do we do
for a living? where do we live? what do we eat? what hobbies will we have? Everybody wants to come out,
see the daytime, and live this new, free life. But the freedom may cause imbalance with all of the switching
going on inside. Enlisting the aid of the internal hierarchy, and creating a limited democracy, with ground
rules, may help during this time. Don’t dismantle the internal hierarchy overnight, or the systems will be
rudderless. Enlist their aid in helping direct which direction the survivor goes. Things will settle down after a
period, as the systems learn to listen to each other, vote on ideas, and begin going together in the same
This is one of the most grievous things that still occurs in the Illuminati today. The Illuminati were famed for
deciding years ago to “go scientific” and incorporate scientific experimentation into their training principles.
This is one area where they broke with other, more traditional groups, who still followed “spiritual principles”.
The Illuminati decided to use scientific data, especially in the psychiatric and behavioral sciences, to drive
their training practices. This became known openly during W.W.II, when the world heard about the
experimentation on Jews and other groups in the concentration camps, but human experimentation had
been quietly going on for years before underground.
It also did not stop at the end of the war. German trainers and scientists were scattered around the world,
and hidden, where they continued teaching others the principles they had learned, and continued with
Some of this experimentation occurred with government funding through groups such as the CIA and NSA.
The Illuminati had people infiltrated throughout these groups, who used the principles discovered and
shared them with their own trainers.
Experimentation is going on, even to this day. It is done secretly. Its purpose is to help improve and create
more sophisticated training techniques. To prevent “programming failures”, or “pfs” as they are called in the
Many, many survivors, if not all, will have been told that they are only an experiment. This may or may not
be true. Trainers like to tell their subjects that they are experiments, even if they aren’t, for several reasons:
1. It creates immense fear and helplessness in the subject (the thought is, if this is an experiment, I
will have to work really hard to survive this)
2. It devalues the person immensely. They will feel that they have no real value as a human being,
that all they are is an experiment. Someone who feels devalued doesn’t care, and will be willing to
do things they wouldn’t if they felt some value, some humanization.
3. It gives the trainer added power, as they are the one who can begin or stop the “experiment”.
Almost always, when the person is TOLD they are an experiment, it isn’t really true. When trainers
and cult members really do experiments, the subjects are never told, because it could bias results.
The fear could interfere with drug effects, and skew the results. Most recent cult experimentation
has been in the area of: drug effects: using different drugs, both alone and in new combinations
and dosages, to induce trance states and open the person to training. Drugs are looked for which
will shorten the time interval needed to induce trance state, which are quickly metabolized, and
leave no detectable residues the next day.
Behavioral science: watching and recording data on different environmental parameters on human
behavior. Modifying the environment.
Praise and punishment as motivators.
isolation techniques: recording data both physiological and psychological from different isolation methods.
Removing, adding, combining different methods of sensory isolation, and the effect of each.
Effectiveness of virtual reality in implanting programming.
Effectiveness of new disks created to put programming in. Cult graphics and computer experts will work to
create better and more effective VR disks, which are tested on cult subjects for their effectiveness. The cult
wants more and more standardization, and less room for human error and weakness, in its training
techniques, which is why it is going more and more to high tech equipment and videos. Attempts to break
programming, cause program failure; recording what is effective, what isn’t and develop new sequences to
prevent pf. Subjects under hypnosis are ordered to try and break certain internal programming sequences.
The ways they go about this, and what seems effective, are shared with the trainers, who then create new
programs to prevent degradation of programming from occurring.
Harmonic/light, sensory deprivation and over stimulation and the effects neurologically and physically. New
combinations of sensory input are always being tested to see which achieve the most lasting results, and
can be done rapidly.
The cult is always trying to find new, better, faster methods to break down subjects, put programming in, and
prevent the programming from failing.
This has been the emphasis in most research it has done. The results of this research is shared worldwide,
both by internet, phone calls, and international trainer conferences, where trainers worldwide share the
results of what they are finding. New techniques are incorporated by other groups which are eager to find
out what is being discovered.
If you have experimental programming, realize that the alters who were used in it are heavily traumatized.
They also will feel devalued, less than human, and this was reinforced heavily by the trainers who worked
with them. They probably weren’t used in initial experiments, as described above, but may have been used
in second level experimentation.
I will explain what those terms mean.
Top trainers and leaders will initiate an experiment with a new drug. They will learn to triturate dosages, and
record all observable facts on hundreds of subjects. After enough data is gotten, they will then clear it for
use by trainers in local groups. It will then still be considered experimental, but will be second level, instead
of first level experimentation. At this point, all trainers in local groups will be told to record and report any
adverse reactions to the drug, any usual dosages needed, etc. This data is collected in databanks (yes, the
cult is now in the computer age), inside of encrypted files, which will then be sent to a central base in
Alters used in experiments, or told that they were experiments, need to realize they are valuable. They will
need to realize they went through intense programming, and be allowed to vent and discuss their
experiences. The fear related to believing they were an experiment needs to be vented appropriately. They
will be angry at the dehumanization, intentionality, and coldness of what they went through, and quite rightly
so. They may rail against the effects in their life now of the experiments and procedures they went through,
and need to grieve over loss of body image; loss of trust in people; the sense of betrayal and helplessness
that they felt during the procedures. They may want to journal, or draw pictures of their experiences.
A warm, empathetic therapist, who listens, and believes, and does not
discount what they went through, is invaluable at this point. Allowing internal cognitives and helpers ground
parts who went through bizarre sensory experiences, and creating “grounding committees” inside will also
help. Extra support may be needed while dealing with experiences and feelings of this intensity.
Trainers will place within the subject’s systems a special way to organize the fragments that are related to
the job they were trained to do. These are called Function Codes, and there are three main types:
Command Codes: these are irreversible commands, put in at the limbic level of conditioning. The first code
always put in is the “halt “ command, which stops the person in their tracks, and is the first code any new
trainer learns. This will stop the subject from assassinating their trainer, if they have MK ULTRA or other
assassin training in place.
Other command codes will include: system destruct codes (suicide); shatter codes; erasure codes; and
Access Codes: these are specialized codes, often coded into short messages, or numerical codes, that
allow access into the person’s system. A trainer will always begin a session by repeating the person’s
personal complete access code, which will allow authorized entry into the system without setting off booby
traps and internal protectors. These codes may also depend and be set up on sight recognition and voice
recognition of the person giving the codes. In other words, the system will respond to the codes only if a
person who appears to be an authorized person, such as the person’s trainer, gives them. This is to prevent
unauthorized access or using of the person by others outside of the person’s local cult group.
Function codes: these are the “job codes” or work codes within the system.
Often, several will be coded to link together to perform a task. These are usually a letter, such as a Greek
alphabet letter, combined with a numeric sequence that corresponds to their place on the internal grid or
If the survivor has function codes, or the other codes internally, it will help if the different system controllers
can share these with the person. The person can then get to know the fragments, hear their history, and
help them begin coalescing with other parts internally. It may help to find the template these codes were
fragmented from, and help the template realize how they were traumatized to create these fragments.
Often people who call themselves deprogrammers will attempt to find these codes and help the person. This
is an individual decision of each survivor and therapist. There may be excellent deprogrammers, but I have
always felt extreme caution, and never used one myself for two reasons:
1. I would never ever give away the locus of control away to an outside person again. It would remind
me to much of my own abuse, and I believe the survivor should be self empowered in therapy as
much as possible.
2. There are no quick cures, or miracles, or short cuts in the process of undoing the extensive amount
of abuse that has occurred with Illuminati programming. Even the best deprogrammers will admit
that after they are done, the person will usually have an idea of what was put in them, but must
finish with years of therapy dealing with how they FEEL about the programming that was done.
Illuminati programming takes YEARS to put in, with extensive, methodical abuse, and a realistic
therapist will realize that it will take years of patience, support, and hard work by both therapist and
survivor to undo a lifetime of conditioning and pain.
This is not to say that deprogrammers don’t help people; good, reputable, safe ones have been reported to
be of great help. But the person can also undertake the process themselves of undoing their own
programming, and often the survivor is the best “internal deprogrammer” of all. They know their inside
people and what motivates them, better than anyone else.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Fourteen – Spiritual Programming
**Note: this chapter includes discussion of both cult and Christian spirituality; do not read if these themes are
Any discussion of Illuminati programming would be lacking if it did not address spiritual programming. Most
of the previous chapters have dealt with scientifically based, organized, structured programming.
But the Illuminati are first and foremost not scientists, but spiritual. The very foundation of the group is based
on the occult. And they go to great lengths to grind in these occult beliefs in their people’s systems.
The amount of spiritual programming in the person’s systems will vary from person to person, and depends
on the individual group, their religious heritage, the leader’s beliefs, and the trainers in the group.
All children go to rituals, where they are dedicated from before birth as well as at intervals throughout their
life. In these rituals, demonic entities are invoked, to coerce the person into servant hood, loyalty, and
secrecy; as well as reinforce the programming being done.
Trainers will invoke demonic layering during programming sessions. This is done after acute trauma. The
person is asked if they want more pain, and they will always say “no”. The trainer then offers them a way
out: if they will accept a “protector” or “protectors” they won’t be hurt any more. The trainers will want this,
knowing that with these “protectors’” they can shorten the training sessions. The protectors, or guardians,
will reinforce the programming internally, without outside help. This concept will seem controversial to
people who do not believe in spiritual realities, but I am only describing what the Illuminists believe, and their
Spiritual programming will also include: being forced to memorize rituals, THE BOOK OF ILLUMINATION,
and other books which contain cult beliefs. The person will be saturated from infancy on, in classes and
training sessions, with cult beliefs. They will go to rituals where the adults participate in spiritual worship,
wearing robes, and giving obeisance to the group’s particular guardian deity. Moloch, Ashtaroth, Baal,
Enokkim are demons who are commonly worshipped. The child may see a sacrifice, either real or a set-up,
to these deities; animal sacrifices are common. The child will be forced to participate in the sacrifices, and
will have to go through blood baptism.
They will be forced to take the heart, or other internal organs, out of an animal that has been sacrificed, and
eat them. The adults, and leaders of the group, will place their hands on the child’s head, while it is drugged,
and invoke demonic entities.
One ritual which is actually programming is the “resuscitation ritual”. In this ritual, the child may be heavily
drugged, and shocked or tortured, to the point that his heart may stop. The head priest will then “resuscitate
“ the child, using drugs, CPR, and incantations. When the child comes back, and is awake, he or she will be
told that they were “brought back to life” by the demonic entity that the particular group worships, and that
now the child owes it their life. They are told that if they ever tell, or try to get the demon to leave, they will
return to the lifeless state they were in prior to resuscitation.
Spiritual “healings” due to the demonic are also common. Injuries caused by torture, or programming
sessions, or even military exercises, will be healed almost instantaneously during invocations.
Jewel programming will often have demons loyal to the generational family spirits layered in. These are
called the “family jewels”. The demons “guard them” and help protect the programming surrounding them.
In a sense, every ritual that a young child is part of, is an intense programming experience, as the child
observes the adults around them, and imitates their behavior. The child will be severely punished if it falls
asleep, and will be told that demons will kill it if it goes to sleep again during a ritual.
They are taught to be completely silent, no matter what they witness during the rituals. The child will witness
things that seem utterly unbelievable, including faces appearing transformed by the demonic, channeling,
other voices coming out of a leader’s mouth, reading of members, telling the future. Group guidance will
often be given through channeling of a strong spirit or principality; members who can channel powerful
spirits and survive are respected, and their guidance will be looked for.
Some groups will use scriptures negatively or program the child to hate Christian symbols and theology.
Other groups will encourage the amnesic front to embrace a Christian lifestyle, while forcing the back alters
to renounce and blaspheme the choices the front has made, to separate the two alter groups even further.
The cult alters will be told that since they renounced Christianity, they have committed the “unpardonable
sin” and can never be forgiven. They will be shown scriptures that supposedly back this up.
In moments of despair, during intense torture or isolation, a person will often cry out to God for help. The
trainers or other cult members will often mock the person, telling the person that God has forgotten them, or
ask “where is God now? He must hate you…..”
Any negative experience the person undergoes, will be used to reinforce the concept that they have been
abandoned by God. The cult will gleefully point out the contradictions between what the person experiences,
and what Christianity teaches should happen to them.
They may distort scriptures, or use false scriptures. They may distort Christian hymns, or use them in
programming. A favorite hymn is “may the circle be unbroken”, since it can have two meanings.
Spiritual programming can be some of the most damaging programming within a person’s systems, since it
attempts to cut them off from the source of real healing. It is an intentional distortion of truth, with events
calculated to teach and reinforce wrong concepts of God. Many survivors are unable to hear Christian terms,
or are intensely triggered by any religious discussion.
The survivor and therapist need to realize that these negative reactions are the result of years of false
teaching, pain, punishment, distortion and set-ups. It is important not to judge the parts of the person that
are negative towards spirituality, or come out, proclaiming the power and benefits of cult spirituality. The
survivor’s front may be horrified to hear or learn about parts that have these feelings, especially if they are a
strong Christian. These parts inside are sharing the only reality they have ever known, and need time and
patience to ground, and experience reality outside of the cult setting.
Demonic oppression may need to be dealt with, and even deliverance, to bring relief to a system that is
being terrorized by the demonic.
Each therapist and survivor will need to come to terms with their own spiritual beliefs. I personally believe
that a therapist needs to consider the possibility of the demonic, since this is what the survivor has been
exposed to all their life. The cult certainly does believe it is real, and anyone who has been involved in a cult
setting will have had experiences that are in-explainable by normal rational scientific principles.
The survivor needs hope, and healing. A positive spirituality based on love, gentleness, forgiveness, that is
the opposite of the coercing, punitive, negative spirituality the survivor has known, will help immensely in the
healing process. A spiritual belief system that offers hope, healing, grace, mercy, and affirmation will often
give the survivor the support they need to go on during the often difficult process of healing.
Breaking the Chain: Breaking free of cult programming
Chapter Fifteen – Core splits, Denial programming, the last Five Steps of Discipline Virtual Reality
Virtual reality programming (VR) is a form of programming that has become more and more widely used in
the past few decades. It involves the person being placed in VR headsets and suit while a cult created VR
disk is used to run the program. It can be used to create 3D and holographic images, and especially is
useful in scripted programming, and target practice sequences for assassin training. Under hypnosis , the
person will really believe they are in the scene.
Virtually any scenario can be recreated. Images to be “burned in” will be shown on the VR disk, and
reinforced repetitively during the programming sequence. Some trainers feel it removes the element of
“human error” in training, and use it quite extensively. VR programming, like any other programming, means
going inside and finding out the distortions that were placed in the parts that went through the programming,
allowing them to see how they were deceived, and dealing with the trauma associated with the
Denial programming begins with the first experiences the infant goes through in life. The child has been
horrendously wounded and traumatized, yet the next morning, the adults around him are acting normally, as
if nothing had happened. They are modeling a lifestyle of denial for the infant and young child. This is
reinforced later by the child being told:
“It was just a bad dream” (oh, how the child wants to believe this lie. It makes the pain less to think it didn’t
“It’s just your imagination; it isn’t really happening” (which is again embraced as an escape from the horror).
Denial will also be fed by the adults around the child telling them that they will never be believed if they
disclose. There will be set ups to teach the child what they see and hear, and to teach the child to trust
outside adults to tell them their reality.
A typical set up will go like this:
The adult will hold an object such as an orange in their hand, and ask the young child, about age two or
three, “what is this?”. The child will quickly respond, “oh, an orange!” The child will be shocked, and told, “no,
it’s an apple.” The child will be confused, because what they are looking at is obviously an orange. It is the
color orange, smells like an orange, looks like an orange. The question will be repeated. The child may
answer again,” an orange,” and will be shocked again. Finally, the child, unsure and not wanting to be
punished, will say, “an apple,” and be praised.
The purpose of this exercise is to teach the child to not trust their own reality, and look to outside adults or
leaders to tell them what reality really is.
That is the basis of denial: the person learns to not trust their own reality, because of punishment and fear
when they have spoken the truth.
Alters will be created as the child grows, whose purpose is to deny the cult abuse. If any leakage or
breakthrough occurs, the denial alter’s job is to create a plausible explanation: it was a nightmare, a book
the person read, a movie they saw, etc. These alters will read and quote literature that refutes SRA. THESE
ALTERS OFTEN BELIEVE THAT THEY ARE SAVING THE LIFE OF THE SURVIVOR. They have been told
that if the survivor remembers, and believes the abuse, the survivor will be killed, or the denial alter will be
severely punished or shattered for not doing their job. These parts have a vested interest in their job: they
believe their very existence and they body’s survival, depend upon them.
Arguing with a denial alter will not work, since they are not motivated by logic, but fear. A better approach is
to ask them what they fear if the person remembers. This will open up the deception and lies that were
ground in. They may be protecting the survivor from suicidal alters behind them, who are programmed to
kick in if denial is broken through. Allowing them to vent their concerns, and enlisting the aid of helpers or
cognitives who do not have suicidal or denial programming will help. Showing them reality in a gentle way,
allowing them to “listen in” on others who share will go a long way.
Some denial is the natural consequence of self protection from the horrors of abuse; not all denial is
programming. But if denial is constantly blocking therapy, and causing it to come to a complete standstill; if
the person becomes highly suicidal every time denial is set aside briefly, then the possibility needs to be
considered. Safety, inner cooperation, and patience will go a long way in decreasing denial. As denial backs
down, you can expect an immense amount of grieving as the truth is realized. Denial protected the survivor
from the horrendous pain of the truth, and should be let go of extremely slowly and cautiously, with plenty of
support during the grieving stage.
Core splits are intentional traumatic splits created from the core personality.
The core may be literally “splintered” by overwhelming psychological and physical/spiritual trauma. The
trauma needed to create a core split must be very early and psychologically devastating. Fetal splits may
occur, but they are rarely a core split; instead, the core creates an alter, but remains.
Core splits are done between the ages of 18 months and three years. Usually at least one parent or main
caretaker is involved in the trauma, because this creates the psychological devastation necessary to split the
core. Physical trauma alone rarely causes core splits. The torture is intense and prolonged, until the child
collapses. It may be shocking, stretching, being hung in a high place, or a combination of several
techniques. Being placed in “shock boxes”, or near drowning are also used.
The techniques that create core splits are also dangerous, since they can also cause autism if the child
cannot endure the programming. When I was in the cult, I fought to stop core splitting because occasionally
children were lost or the foundational personality was too weakened.
The core may split into two, three, or up to eight splits internally. Each split will be a piece of the “core child”.
The original core will not resurface after splitting. These splits are used by cult trainers to be used as
templates to create systems within the child. A core split, or a split from one, will be a strong alter, and can
be re-split many times in the programming process, to create a multifaceted and diverse system within.
Core splits represent intense foundational trauma. They will be the basis for later systems, which may be
completely dissociated from the split as time goes on. Work on core splits should go very slowly, and only
late in the therapy process when there is immense intrasystem cooperation. The survivor will need every
internal resource to deal with these traumas, and plenty of outside therapeutic support.
It may mean hospitalization unless the survivor can keep the trauma from emerging too quickly, and the
therapist and survivor can go extremely slow.
Other, less dissociated systems and fragments should be integrated.
Acknowledging the abuse cognitively will be the first step in dealing with core trauma. Letting more
dissociated parts grieve about “hearing about” what happened may come next. Allowing feelings near the
core to come close, a little at a time, with helpers and internal nurturers offering support will help.
These feelings should be titrated, and looked at a little at a time. Splits may be different ages, and may need
to express themselves in different ways.
There may be “dream programming”, a “fantasy world”, or other flight from reality surrounding the core splits,
that protects them from contact with the outside world, which is perceived as brutal and cold. Parts may be
completely disconnected from outside reality in an effort to buffer pain.
Slow, patient nurturing and reality orientation will help these tremendously traumatized parts begin to join
outer reality. Some parts will always have been aware of what happened, but won’t care to join the outside
Patience, allowing them to vent, will help most.
Steps of Discipline
Step seven: Not caring
This step will take the child further into a perpetrator role. The child will be forced to hurt others and prove
their ability to not care during the process.
Step eight: Time travel
The child will be taught spiritual principles of “traveling” both internally and externally, with set ups, role
playing, and guided exercises reinforced with trauma. The goal will be to reach “enlightenment”, an ecstatic
state of dissociation reached after severe trauma.
Steps nine, ten, eleven
These will involve programming that will vary according to the child’s future role in the cult. Sexual trauma,
learning to dissociate and increase cognition, decrease feeling will be emphasized in these steps.
Step twelve: ceremony of becoming at age twelve to thirteen, the child will be formally inducted into the cult
and their adult role in a ceremony of “coming of age”. They will prove this ability by performing the role/job
they have been training for, to the satisfaction of the trainer and leaders; by undergoing a special induction
ceremony. The ritual and ceremony will be held with other children of the same age, who are dressed in
white and given a prize as acknowledgement that they have completed the basics of their training
They will continue to be abused, even as adults, but the major traumatization and creation of system
templates will have occurred by this age. Future training will refine what was already placed in the child by
this age, or build upon the foundation.
Grieving the abuse, acknowledging the feelings associated with undergoing the trauma will be important. It
will be necessary to deal with perpetrator guilt, since by this time the child will be a perpetrator, and will have
identified with the adult role models around them. This can be difficult to do, since perpetration will horrify
the survivor when they remember this. Supporting the survivor, remaining non judgmental, and encouraging
acceptance of these parts is important. Pointing out that at the time, they saw no other options available will
help. Realizing that perpetrator alters saved the child’s life, and that they had no other way to act, especially
originally, the first time, will need to be pointed out. The survivor may feel hostile towards, or reviled by
perpetrator alters, but they are the expression of the abuse and limited choices they were allowed. Grieving
being a perpetrator will take time and caring support by others.
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These sites may be useful for people wishing to deprogram…
Appendix 1 UK Press Cuttings and Research Database and Blogs on Child Sexual Abuse
- The Source thesourceresearch.wordpress.com
- included in Operation Greenlight Database spotlightonabuse.wordpress.com
- UK Database https://theukdatabase.net/ Strips articles of date and source unfortunately, rendering content relatively useless for research
- Operation Greenlight Database https://theneedleblog.wordpress.com/operation-greenlight/
- Aangirfan http://aanirfan.blogspot.co.uk/
- Dr Sally Baker http://www.drsallybaker.com/
- Sceptic Peg https://scepticpeg.wordpress.com/
- Wildcat https://spidercatweb.blog/
- Twitter @ciabaudo
- Fighting Monarch https://fightingmonarch.com/ Targetted Individuals TI
I will not commit suicide and if it appears I have, then people may judge for themselves why this is so, after blogging these exposes of the top level of illuminati. I do not wish to live in the kind of world that the psychopathic illuminati want to bring in, which is a world wholly and absolutely controlled by them, which is why I wish to expose them. This carries some risk but if I am killed or go silent, my wish is for more people to tell the truth, they cannot kill us all…
 Betrayal Programming https://svalispeaks.wordpress.com/tag/betrayal-programming/
 Bibliotecapleyades Illuminati Svali https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/sociopolitica/illuminati/svali.htm
 Svali Suite101 Member https://web.archive.org/web/20090708160214/http://www.suite101.com:80/profile.cfm/svali I am a survivor of both ritual abuse and governmental mind control. My greatest hope in sharing on these pages is that the information will be helpful to others in breaking free of coercive cult control and help them realize that it is really possible to become free. My other goal is to help educate therapists and supporters of survivors so that they can better understand what survivors have gone through, and things that have helped others in their healing journey.
 Ritual Abuse Svali https://web.archive.org/web/20091126050816/http://www.suite101.com:80/articles.cfm/ritual_abuse/more All Articles
 2013 PronStarKiIIuminati Greg Symanski Ex-Illuminati Member ‘Svali’ Reveals All https://hooktube.com/watch?v=Sy_pvffqchk Svali is (or was) an American woman born into an Illuminati bloodline. At the age of 12 she was taken to the Vatican for a ‘ceremony’ that she was told would be very important. What she witnessed – an actual child sacrifice (the child was 3 or 4 years old, and appeared to be compliant) on an obsidian slab over a large pentagram in a basement catacomb – is told in her extraordinary interview with Greg Szymanski
Svali (a pseudonym) worked as a mind control trainer/programmer. Both she and her entire family were involved in the cult group until several years ago, when they finally broke free. She has been a consultant to an online survivors group that helps people dealing with issues related to cult programming and Satanic ritual abuse. Svali, a writer and a registered nurse, has self-published a book on breaking free of cult programming, which several experts in the field have said has “invaluable information” for the survivor of ritual abuse. She is now married to her second husband and has two children.
All Illuminati children are heavily conditioned to be obedient, patient, self-controlled, and totally loyal to the “family”. Some are groomed for the military or politics; others are prepared for business – or even ‘businesses’ such as prostitution. Marriages are arranged, one reason being to strengthen ties between different bloodlines. All the members of the families have respectable fronts as “normal” people to the degree that no-one who is not in the group would ever suspect the duality of their character and of their life. Meetings often occur at night. In these meetings children are “trained” using drugs, hypnosis, and shock-reward conditioning. They can, in Svali’s words, all handle and fire a weapon with deadly accuracy by the age of 8.
0:03:35 Vatican Ceremony / 0:12:15 After the Ceremony & Reflection / 0:13:34 Svali Speaks / 0:15:40 Leaving the Illuminati, Training, Money, Mafia, Godhood/Illumination, 12 Fathers / 0:18:38 Structure, Rome, 12 Fathers, ‘Houses’ / 0:19:46 1600’s Pittsburgh East Coast, 7 Regions in total, corporate structure. / 0:22:00 The 1% of the population (USA), Goals, to ‘rule the world’, methods, infiltration / 0:23:41 Branches of Learning, mind control. disciplines (Training) / 0:26:44 Dual-life, Day-to-day activities, meetings, security methods & why the occult doesn’t get caught / 0:30:15 Infiltration / 0:31:00 Since 9-11, Goals, Disclosure, Money, influence & power / 0:32:40 Moneymaking methods, financial infiltration, patience, disclosure / 0:34:55 Svali’s Role / 0:36:18 Journalism, News/Media / 0:38:44 Programming / 0:42:51 Svali Rebelling Against the Illuminati / 0:43:55 A day in the life of a trainer, meetings, children in the illuminati, supervision / 0:47:26 San Diego active members in the military / 0:47:36 Passive Programming, Behavioural psychology, subliminal messages / 0:49:00 Programming Techniques in-depth / 0:51:34 Christmas in the Illuminati, Father Yule / 0:53:28 Spiritual, emotional/psychological warfare / 0:54:18 Arranged marriages / 0:56:00 Lifestyle, leaving the order / 0:56:56 Phone call: Marilyn in California / 0:58:36 Vatican, Catholicism and other religions / 1:02:39 Svali’s rebellion
 Metatech Svali, Illuminati Defector, Disappeared 6 Months after this Interview Transcript http://www.metatech.org/wp/spiritual-warfare/svali-illuminati-defector-disappeared-6-months-after-this-interview-transcript/
 Project Camelot http://projectcamelot.org/mediafiles/audio/svali.mp3
 2015 Jan 13 Truthstream Media CIA Flashback: “We’ll Know Our Disinformation Program Is Complete When Everything the American Public Believes Is False.” http://truthstreammedia.com/2015/01/13/cia-flashback-well-know-our-disinformation-program-is-complete-when-everything-the-american-public-believes-is-false/ William Casey CIA Director 1981
 Deprogramwiki Chainless Slaves https://deprogramwiki.com/programming/chainless-slaves/
[A] Sanctuary for the Abused http://abusesanctuary.blogspot.co.uk/2006/07/for-survivors-coping-with-triggers-if.html
Let justice be done though the heavens fall – Fiat justitia ruat cælum
Put the enemy at unease by making information they do not want known to be known…
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