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Kids Inc. Where is the Movie, the Money and Honeybee?

Honeybee aka the Truth Fairy, aka Mellisa Zaccaria promised a movie about child abuse and child trafficking. Kids Inc was the name of the documentary and she had a team that raised money for it under that name.

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HoneyBee styled herself as the truth fairy.

According to IMDB (owned by Amazon btw) Kids Inc. was a crowdfunded documentary.

  • Production Manager was Heather Middendorf
  • Director was Anthony Cadorniga (he also called himself co producer)
  • Executive Producer was Mellisa Zaccaria

Heather and Mellisa look similar, are they related?

Heather and Mellisa

Anthony Cadorniga – Liberty Columnist

We have been waiting years now for Honeybee and her team to release the movie, supposed to be released in 2018, then 2019, then complete and utter silence and disappearance of all three documentary makers.

  • What happened to the movie?
  • What happened to the money?
  • What happened to Mellisa Zaccaria?
  • What happened to Heather Middendorf?
  • What happened to Anthony Cadorniga?

The bottom line is they never came up with what people paid them for and they kept on saying they were going to produce.

In 2022 its beyond time to consider a few possibilities.

On March 22 2018 Anthony said on Hagmann that the documentary was almost ready [59a]

2018 Mar 22 Bitchute The Liberty Columnist The Liberty Columnist on The Hagmann Report | KIDS Inc : Battling CPS & Censorship [59a]

On Sept 2018 they discussed the documentary. I cannot find a copy of the video, it does not seem to work on bitchute or youtube. If you can find it please copy it and put the link in the comments.

2018 Sept 20 Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website! [52g]

In Jan 2019 Kids Inc tweeted [2b] that “Bee” was not MIA “missing in action” but that she and the team were diligently working on finishing #KidsInc… It is not known who controlled that twitter account.

Hi folks, Mellisa #TheHoneyBee is not MIA. Bee and her team are still diligently working on finishing #KIDSINC! The movie is still in editing and a team of legal consultants have joined the ranks. Please share. Kids Inc Tweet [2b]

In May 2019 Liberty Columnist, (usually Anthony Cadorniga) tweeted that they were all safe and sound and that the documentary was getting a restructuring into a series! [38] archive [3a]

People have emailed us worried that the Kids Inc team is okay. I want to reassure everyone that Mellisa, Heather and I are safe and sound. Documentary is undergoing an entire restructuring into a series. Thank you for your steadfast support and patience with us. #KidsInc

  • 2018 Mar 22 Documentary nearly finished [59a]
  • 2018 Sept 21 Video discussing latest on movie [52g] (not available)
  • 2019 Jan 8 Tweet Kids Inc Doc Not MIA [2] [2b]
  • 2019 May 1 Tweet Liberty Column that all was OK [3] (Penultimate post 2018 Oct 27)

Two documentary trailers were produced – an extended trailer of 6min 19s on about Feb 13 2018 and a “theatrical” trailer around Sept 2018.

2018 Feb 13 Liberty Columnist Kids Inc Extended Trailer: Director’s Cut 6.19mins Odysee [71] This was marked Truth Soup Productions.

2018 Sept Odysee Foxes Channel KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer [29][1a] I suspect this is the trailer unveiled in this programme 2018 Sept 20 Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website [52g] although the episode no longer seems to be found on Bitchute or Youtube.

Honeybee also had a video or channel trailer on her video channel, unrelated to the Kids Inc. movie.

Honeybee also had a video or channel trailer on her video channel [45] now also uploaded to Odysee Mellisa Honeybee Zaccaria Channel Trailer [69]

By 2019 the trio, Heather, Mellisa and Anthony had mostly left social media, and people including film donors were wondering what had happened. Many people were worried about Honeybee [38] and wanted proof of life as they had heard nothing from her for over 8 months. Her last posting was on her Manifest 143 video channel on 2018 Oct 19 [57h]

Last appearance/ proof of life appears to have been on Sept 20 2018 Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website! [52]

The only posts in 2019 were the two tweet updates about the film on twitter from Kids Inc. and from Liberty Column. Whilst the presumption is that Anthony tweeted the Liberty Column account, I have no idea who controlled the Kids. Inc tweet account.

Since then nada, zip, crickets about the film/movie/documentary/docuseries…

Nowhere on their social media can I find why a movie has not been produced.

Timeline of the last posts on their fundraisers and social media – Chronological Order

  • 2018 Mar 23 [20] [39] Bitchute Liberty Columnist
  • 2018 [37] Steemit Anthony Cadorniga
  • 2018 Jul 16 [17] Plumfund Crowdfunding Kids Inc Documentary
  • 2018 Sept 11 [50a] Honeybee Twitter last archived post but no archives
  • 2018 Sept 20 [52] Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website! Last appearance/ proof of life.
  • 2018 Oct 5 [55b] Patreon honeybee
  • 2018 Oct 19 [57h] You Tube 2 Manifest143/Honeybee archive pic
  • 2019 Jan 8 2019 [2] [2b] Twitter Kids Inc Doc Not mia
  • 2019 May 1 [3] Tweet Liberty Column (Penultimate post 2018 Oct 27)
  • 2019 Aug 4 [33] Bitchute Heather Personal Videos
  • 2019 Aug 4 [22] You tube Heather Personal Videos

Heather did have personal youtube and bitchute video channels which posted sporadically until Aug 4 2019. On the last she was called out in the comments about the movie and where Melissa might be…

The burning cross referred to a video that the comment was written under. This was the last video posted.

Bitchute Heather Middendorf Camping 2019 Heather – Cross video [34a] youtube [22a]

Honeybee called out by Fiona Barnett

Perhaps significant was that Fiona Barnett called out Honeybee on Oct 6 2018 on her blog Pedophiles Down Under, now only on archive [67]. This was 2 weeks before Honeybee’s last ever post. Fiona said…

For starters, “HoneyBee” is an MK-ULTRA term that victims like me reeeeeally find suspicious. Melissa Zaccario chose an apt nickname because her role is to use sickly sweetness to lure us into believing the CIA lie that Craig Sawyer’s a hero. Hence the saying, “catch more flies with honey than vinegar.”

When Shurter [David Shurter MK survivor] outed Craig Sawyer as a fraud mid 2017, HoneyBee tried to friend him and convince him that Craig was a nice guy. She did the same thing to me a few months ago when I started outing Sawyer. I immediately detected her manipulative ways which did nothing but anger me and make me suspect her as a shill:

Honey Bee direct message archive [26]

Fiona said in the blog post that HoneyBee’s Cousin was Andrea Costello Dagger and that she was Gambino mafia and referenced this tweet… [27]

Melissa Zaccaria is a member of the notorious GAMBINI Mafia Family who specialize in heroin trafficking and producing child rape material. Let’s look at what HoneyBee’s relative-by-marriage, Michelle, says about this fraudster:

“The Bee is the same chick that works with Sawdust. [presumably a derogatory name for Craig “Sawman” Sawyer] The dirt I have on Bee is that she is cousin to Andrea Costello Dagger (the woman who stole Michelle’s kids). Andrea is married to my first cousin Richard Heimburger. Her uncle by marriage is Dr. Peter Favaro of Port Washington, NY. Dr. Favaro is an internet legend. He created the first online game called “alter ego”. He is Gambino mafia originally from Howard Beach, NY. Peter Favaros cousin John FavarA lived on the same block as head boss John Gotti. One day while driving down the block FavarA struck and killed John Gottis youngest son. Not long after Gotti had FavarA killed. Peter Favaros family left for California and changed their names to FavarO. 25 years later Peter Favaro returns to NY. He hooks up with his cousin Dominic Gasparro who is a ny city administrative judge. They hatch a plan to start a fathers rights movement in family courts. Which is how they target many of the children they traffick. Bee knows this. Because that is what Gambino are known for child porn and heroin. The new generation of Gambinos are all highly educated especially with computers. Involved in the arts. Politics.”

Fiona also pointed out that the honeybee was an mkultra term.

My research shows the bee that Mellisa has used on videos on the left and the Merovingian King Symbol on the right. Interesting that both use dualistic, masonic black and white, both in a circle and both with similar open wings. Bees have wings closed along their back when at rest, not sticking out, so it is unusual.

Steve Outrimm, an excellent analyst, also mentioned Honeybee in a post exposing Craig Sawyer’s film finances.

I take back what I said then about the Honeybee,[when he had been complimentary] because she seems to have done the same thing as Sawyer – raised money from concerned citizens to make “Kids, Inc” a documentary exposing the horrors of the child sex trafficking industry, then years later there is still no sign of any documentary. from 2019 Sept 9 2018 Financial Analysis: Vets4ChildRescue [30]

What happened?

So its still a mystery.

  • Was Honeybee silenced for exposing child trafficking and child sexual abuse?
  • Is Honeybee alive? If so why was no proof of life provided?
  • If she was silenced were Heather and Anthony silenced as well or were they in on the silencing?
  • Are Heather and Anthony still alive?
  • Did they all do a runner with the donations?
  • Who was controlling the twitter accounts in 2019?
  • Why did they all leave social media?
  • What is the connection with Craig Sawyer? Did Sawyer befriend them and then silence them?
  • Has Craig Sawyer, Hagmann Report or anyone else investigated the filmakers disappearance?

Whilst the sums of money were not insignificant, ie $11,000 on Kids Inc Plumfund, and $500+ a month on Honeybee patreon, they hardly seem like the financial sums to totally disappear for, even if fraudulently obtained. Honeybee could perhaps legitimately say that her patreon was separate from the movie funding.

I have included many of their social media accounts below, some earnings and when they last posted, with links and archives where possible, as well as a timeline of some of their activities.

As the last virtual sighting was 20/21 Sept 2018 and this video was also about the documentary then if someone could find a copy of this video, it is of importance. ie 2018 Sept 20 Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website! [52] Last appearance/ proof of life.

It appears that Mellisa, Heather and Anthony have defrauded people of their money. The public and the funders need answers. Did they defraud people as they were killed, silenced or just for kicks or dollars?

Craig Sawyer

One nagging doubt I have is Craig Sawyer… Many things about Craig do not add up. Many think Craig Sawyer is part of the cabal.

Melissa was totally against Sawyer in April 2017, she even said Sawman is a Strawman. But by June she appeared on Hagmann with him, and by April 2018 she was filming an interview with Sawyer at his house. However the points Honeybee made, still remain valid and AFAIK unanswered.

Honeybee seems to have been convinced by seeing Sawyer take victims of sex trafficking into his home to reunite with their families, that he busted an IRS agent and helped bust dozens of traffickers in the past year, then c.2017/8.

I am not sure which interview on Tucson that Honeybee was referring to. However as well as following it at the time, I did a deep dive on the Tucson situation some 18 months later precisely because the situation was unclear, partly due to Sawyer muddying the waters by doing an abrupt U-turn, and then a concerted media campaign against Tucson being a child trafficking site.

Sawyer did not come out well. In fact he came out as duplicitous and keen to use his high profile to silence and ridicule others that he himself had investigated and supported. He even took down his own videos to hide what he had said previously. 2020 Oct 9 cathyfoxblog Child Trafficking Part 1 – Tucson, Child  Trafficking Camp? [4]

  • Was Honeybee duped by Sawyer and then somehow silenced by him?
  • Was Honeybee a plant to start with?

Fiona Barnett also mentions Sawyer, as does Steve Outrimm who looked at the accounts of Sawyer and his film. We will look again at Sawyer’s film in a future post.

This research has taken much time, much more time than I had intended, as much information had to be found in the archives. If others could take it further now…to find if Honeybee and the others are alive and what happened.

Finally 3 items which may or may not be important.

This photo from c. 2016 with Craig Sawyer at the Twisted Metal event “Shoot My Truck” looks similar to Anthony Cadorniga.

Hosting Twisted Metal’s “Shoot My Truck” event, live, from Las Vegas! [72a]

IMDB Media Index [72] Twisted Metal Fandom [73]

Similarity is no way a certainty, and it may well be a fellow presenter of the event or guest. More research is needed.

Who is Carl Alfred?

The Hagmann report writes that Carl Alfred is an integral member of Team Honeybee and Resolutionary Patriot.

Can anyone find a copy of this show and confirm who it is?

Just as I was about to blog this, I searched for first time using, new to me search engine Freespoke, which unlike all other search engines gave a possible result as Carl was involved in exposing child trafficking 4 years ago – Carl Alfred Youtube videos [74], but I haven’t found contact details for him.

Thirdly this affidavit, marked received US District Court, Minneapolis, Minnesota, 2022 Feb 15 but this copy unsigned and undated and unwitnessed, has come into my hands. I know nothing about it. It was in the public domain and therefore I have not redacted it.

For clarity – when I say this came into my hands – not literally – it had been published publicly days before my article. Come to my notice would have been a more accurate expression.

It involves Tracy-Jo Remington approaching Mellisa Zaccaria with many conversations of allegations of child abuse material produced by ex husband Gregory Verne Remington. Evidence was given to Pedophile Pentagon Task Force PPTF David Straight.

[David Straight I think has now been outed by other PPTF member Tim Holmseth as a cabal human trafficker, but I do not follow all the survivor and investigator disputes, I tend to get on with my own blog, so that could be wrong or out of date]

Mellisa apparently stated there was only one conversation between her and Tracy-Jo but the affiant [person making the affidavit] Tracy-Jo says there were many conversations, perhaps indicating Zaccaria not being truthful.

They planned to meet to exchange more evidence but did not actually meet. Why?

Now social media details of the trio.

Social media and Fundraising

Honeybee used to be everywhere on social media, a regular on the podcast/video show circuit and Hagmann in particular. Honeybee now appears to have totally withdrawn from social media, as have her colleagues.

Here are some links for her and her fellow documentary makers, some snapshots of her fundraising and social media and when she last posted.

  • Patreon archive [55b]
  • 2017 Nov 17 105 patrons
  • 2018 Feb 22 113 patrons $535 per month
  • 2019 Aug 26 46 patrons $196
  • 2021 Dec 24 10 patrons $32 per month
  • 2022 Aug 28 8 patrons $11 per month
  • Paypal [54] Amount raised unknown, last posted unknown. Strafford NH address.
  • [15] [50a] [55] Twitter Major presence. 23,200 followers. [50b] Twitter archives Last archived tweet was Sept 11 2018 from a Sept 14 2018 archive but then no archive for over a year when account appears to change hands.[50e]
  • [57] You Tube 2 Manifest143/Honeybee [57a] You Tube 2 Manifest archive
  • [57d] 2020 Jun 29 22,400 subs 900,443 views [photo]

Other honeybee accounts

  • [14] [56] You Tube 1 Honeybee 22,300 subs, [56a] You Tube 1 archive primary index Last posted unclear c.2018
  • [48] Gab Private Account
  • [13] Voat Minor presence but moderator on Voat Pizzagate. Voat Platform terminated
  • [16] Facebook Not aware. I dont facebook
  • [47] Minds Minor Presence
  • [18] Steemit Minor presence

Patreon Honeybee [55b]

Manifest143/Honey Bee Youtube

Manifest143/Honey Bee Youtube [57a]

Anthony Cadorniga’s Links

  • [38] Twitter Liberty Column 858 followers
  • [3a] 2019 May Last tweet re all ok.
  • [20] [39] Bitchute Liberty Columnist Last post Mar 23 2018, Mar 22 appeared on Hagmann and said documentary was almost complete
  • [37] Steemit Anthony Cadorniga major presence last post 2018
  • [62] PayPal Liberty Columnist, information not available

You Caring for Kids Inc. [61] Amount raised unknown

Paypal PayPal Liberty Columnist [62]

Heather Middendorf

  • [17] Plumfund Crowdfunding Kids Inc Documentary 239 supporters Last entry 2018 Jul 16
  • [21] Steemit! Independent Researcher and Child Advocate Heather Middendorf #Introducemyself
  • [31]
  • [22] You tubePersonal Videos Last 2019 Aug 4
  • [32] Twitter no archives
  • [33] Bitchute 20 subscribers Last video 2019 Aug 4

Plumfund crowdfunding started by Heather Middendorf raised $11,204 of $8,000 goal [17] 

Kids Inc Doc

2020 Oct 30 archive [76]

[2a] Kids Inc Twitter 12.7 followers last post 2019 Jan 8

[2] 2019 Jan 8 Twitter Kids Inc Doc. Not MIA arch [2b]

Here is a timeline of some of the trio’s activities. I was exhausted so some have pictures that have not been linked up with the links, which are found afterwards.

Timeline Kids Inc, Mellisa Zaccaria, Heather Middendorf and Anthony Cadorniga

2017 Voat April Honeybee criticised Sawyer see May 1 Voat

2017 Apr 5 MnR Productions TV

2017 May 1 Voat Honeybee at first strongly criticised Sawyer. This screenshot confirms the date.

HoneyBee explains why she thought Sawyer was a fraud

Second screenshot

However Honeybee soon changed her mind and within 12 months she would be interviewing him at his house.

2017 May 20

2017 You Tube Manifest 143 HoneyBee Channel Archive [5]

2017 Jun 7 Odysee Hagmann Report Making it Sting – The Honeybee on The Hagmann Report 7/6/17 [8a] [28]

2017 Jun 9 Hagmann Report WE MUST ACTIVELY ATTACK PEDOGATE: DARK JOURNALIST, “THE HONEY BEE” AND JOSH PECK [41] Honeybee’s debut?? on Hagmann


2017 Jun 14 Hagmann Report Exposing Child Trafficking – Roundtable Discussion Liz Crokin, Craig Sawyer, Honey [10a] odysee, you tube [12]  defunct. archive [10]

2017 Jun You Tube HoneyBee first archive June []

2017 Jun 22 Mellisa Honey Zaccaria had a conversation with Tracey-Jo about her husbands producing child and baby rape material. [See affidavit]

2017 Sept


2017 Oct 15 Shine the Light Conference

2018 Steemit Honeybee Bloody Bourdain: Elite Suicide, Child Sex Trafficking & the Business of Young Blood [18]

2018 Voat Moderator Vindicator liked Craig Sawyer. He mentions Honeybees reassessment of Sawyer. Vindicator was a moderator who many thought coralled Voat Pizzagate group into the mundane. He would not allow anything that was “unproven” to his own satisafaction to be posted. That menat he had total control of censorship. He deleted articles of mine for instance that had one mention of remote viewing in a 3 page article. As I chose not to “prove” in that article that remote viewing existed, then Vindicator deleted. Ignorance /censorship won. Voat took off in a huge way after Reddit Pizzagate was banned and there were several Voat moderators who loved exerting power. See how long they lasted!

2018 Steemit Hello Steemit! Independent Researcher and Child Advocate Heather Middendorf #Introducemyself [31]

2018 Jan 17 archive Honeybee video channel []

2018 Feb 13 Liberty Columnist Kids Inc Extended Trailer: Director’s Cut 6.19mins Odysee [71] bitchute [70] This was marked Truth Soup Productions.

2018 Mar 22 Hagmann report Liberty Columnist on Hagmann Report Kids Inc Battling CPS and Censorship. Said almost complete doco. Link dead.

2018 Mar 23 [20] [39] Bitchute Liberty Columnist last post

2018 Apr 10 Posted on Plumfund [17]  – not sure when actual interview was Merissa Hamilton Interview

2018 Apr 12 Kids Inc HoneyBee Filming with Craig Sawyer

Sawyer and Honeybee…

Kids Inc. tweeted pics with Sawyer interview. Very pally with Sawyer.

2018 Apr 21 Plumfund – Heather posted a Sawyer interview photo [17] 

2018 May 23 Last video posted on Liberty Columnist Channel which includes interview with Anthony and others by Victurus Libertas.

2018 May 31 Kids Inc Tweet []

2018 Jun 6 [17] 

2018 Jun 6 A Childs Voice Premiere in LA with John Paul Rice Producer and Director Edgar Bravo [17] 

2018 jun vids ?

2018 Jul 16 [17] Plumfund Crowdfunding Kids Inc Documentary Last Post

2018 Sept 11 [50a] Honeybee Twitter last archived post but no archives

2018 Sept 20/21 Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website! [52g] No longer on Bitchute or Youtube, cannot find on archive.

2018 Sept 20 [52] Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website! Last appearance/ proof of life.

2018 Sept Odysee Foxes Channel KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer [29][1a]

I suspect this is the trailer unveiled in this programme 2018 Sept 20 Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website [52g] although the episode no longer seems to be found on Bitchute or Youtube.

2018 Sept 21

2018 Oct 5 Last Post on HoneyBee patreon [55c] 2019 Aug 26 Patreon Honey Bee Oct 5, 2018 at 12:26 AM Memorial For A Murdered Child – After School “Pizza” Movie Exposed

2018 Oct 6 Pedophiles Down Under archive [26]

2018 Oct 6 Pedophiles Down Under HoneyBee DM archive [26]

2018 Oct 6 Tweet saying HoneyBee’s Cousin is Andrea Costello Dagger and that she is Gambino mafia. [27] from Pedophiles Down Under [26]

2018 Oct 19 [57h] You Tube 2 Manifest143/Honeybee archive pic Last post

2019 Jan 8 Twitter Kids Inc. Doc HoneyBee not MIA [25] [2] [2b]

Hi folks, Mellisa #TheHoneyBee is not MIA. Bee and her team are still diligently working on finishing #KIDSINC! The movie is still in editing and a team of legal consultants have joined the ranks. Please share.

c. 2019 Jan Trailer KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer [1]

Odysee KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer [1a]

screenshot and link

2019 May 4 Twitter Liberty Column [3] archive [3a]

People have emailed us worried that the Kids Inc team is okay. I want to reassure everyone that Mellisa, Heather and I are safe and sound. Documentary is undergoing an entire restructuring into a series. Thank you for your steadfast support and patience with us. #KidsInc

2019 archive of Kids Inc Documentary site [9] main page

2019 Aug 4 [33] BitchuteHeather Personal Videos

2019 Aug 4 [22] You tube Heather Personal Videos

2019 Aug 29 Patreon Honey Bee archive showing 46 patreons $196 a month [55c]

2019 Sept 9 2018 Financial Analysis: Vets4ChildRescue [30]

I take back what I said then about the Honeybee, because she seems to have done the same thing as Sawyer – raised money from concerned citizens to make “Kids, Inc” a documentary exposing the horrors of the child sex trafficking industry, then years later there is still no sign of any documentary.

2020 Sept 25 You Tube Manifest 143 HoneyBee Channel Archive [6]

2020 Oct 30 archive [76]

Fox Odysee

Odysee Foxes Channel 14 Jun 2017 Hagmann Report Exposing Child Trafficking – Roundtable Discussion Liz Crokin, Craig Sawyer, Honey [10a]

Odysee Foxes Channel 2017 Jun 7 Making it Sting – The Honeybee on The Hagmann Report [28]

Odysee Mellisa Honeybee Zaccaria Channel Trailer [69]

2018 Feb 13 Odysee Kids Inc Extended Trailer: Director’s Cut [71]

2018 Sept Odysee Foxes Channel KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer [29] [1a]


[1] c. 2019 Jan Trailer KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer uploaded odysee

[1a] 2022 Aug Odysee KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer,-Inc.-Theatrical-Trailer-evdyHD-7fiU:d

[1c] 2022 Aug Bitchute KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer

[2] 2019 Jan 8 Twitter Kids Inc Doc. Not MIA Hi folks, Mellisa #TheHoneybee is not MIA. Bee & her team are still diligently working on finishing #KIDSINC! The movie is still in editing & a team of legal consultants have joined the ranks. Please Share! screenshot

[2b] 2019 Jan 8 Twitter Kids Inc Doc. Not MIA archive

[2a] Twitter Kids Inc Doc

[3] 2019 May 4 Twitter Liberty Column People have emailed us worried that the Kids Inc team is okay. I want to reassure everyone that Mellisa, Heather, and I are safe and sound. Documentary is undergoing an entire restructuring into a series. Thank you for your steadfast support and patience with us. #KidsInc screenshot

[3a] 2019 Twitter May 4 archive

[4] 2020 Oct 9 cathyfoxblog Child Trafficking Part 1 – Tucson, Child  Trafficking Camp? /

[5] 2017 You Tube Manifest 143 HoneyBee Channel Archive

[6] 2020 You Tube Manifest 143 HoneyBee Channel Archive

[7] 2017 Jul 6 Hagmann Report Making it Sting – The Honeybee on The Hagmann Report archive [present?] 7/6/17

[8] 2017 Jun 7 YouTube Hagmann Report Making it Sting – The Honeybee on The Hagmann Report 7/6/17 see odysee

[8a] 2017 Jun 7 Odysee Hagmann Report Making it Sting – The Honeybee on The Hagmann Report 7/6/17—The-Honeybee-on-The-Hagmann-Report-7_6_17-DvD44yjRndw:b

[9] 2019 archive Kids Inc Documentary*/

[10] 2020 archive 14 Jun 2017 Hagmann Report Exposing Child Trafficking – Roundtable Discussion Liz Crokin, Craig Sawyer, Hone

[10a] 2022 Aug 25 Odysee Foxes Channel 14 Jun 2017 Hagmann Report Exposing Child Trafficking – Roundtable Discussion Liz Crokin, Craig Sawyer, Honeybee—Roundtable-Discussion-on-The-Hagmann-Report-6_14_17-TeFKcU-S22Y:4

[10c] 2017 archive 14 Jun 2017 Hagmann Report Exposing Child Trafficking – Roundtable Discussion Liz Crokin, Craig Sawyer, Honeybee

[12] 2017 Jun 16 Hagmann Report Exposing Child Trafficking – Roundtable Discussion on The Hagmann Report blank?

[13] Voat Honeybee

[14] You Tube Honeybee

[15] Twitter Honeybee Now changed user, need to see archive

[16] Facebook The HoneyBee page

[17] Plumfund Crowdfunding Kids Inc Documentary started by Heather Middendorf plus more links

[18] 2018 Steemit Honeybee Bloody Bourdain: Elite Suicide, Child Sex Trafficking & the Business of Young Blood

[19] 2018 archive Kids Inc. You Tube archive

[20] Bitchute Liberty Columnist

[21] Steemit Heather Middendorf Hello Steemit! Independent Researcher and Child Advocate Heather Middendorf #Introducemyself

[22] You tube Heather

[22a] You tube Heather – Camping / Cross video

[24] Bitchute HoneyBee

[25] 2019 Jan 8 Twitter Kids Inc. Doc HoneyBee not MIA

[26] 2018 Oct 6 Pedophiles Down Under HoneyBee DM archive

[27] 2018 Oct Pedophiles Down Under HoneyBees Cousin Tweet

[28] 2022 Aug 25 Odysee Foxes Channel 2017 Jun 7 Making it Sting – The Honeybee on The Hagmann Report—The-Honeybee-on-The-Hagmann-Report-7_6_17-DvD44yjRndw:b

[29] 2022 Aug 25 Odysee Foxes Channel KIDS, Inc. Theatrical Trailer,-Inc.-Theatrical-Trailer-evdyHD-7fiU:d

[30] 2019 Sept 9 2018 Financial Analysis: Vets4ChildRescue

[31] 2018 Steemit Hello Steemit! Independent Researcher and Child Advocate Heather Middendorf #Introducemyself

[32] twitter Heather Middendorf No archive

[33] Bitchute Heather Middendorf

[34a] Bitchute Heather Middendorf Camping 2019

[34] Mellisa Honeybee Zaccaria

[35] You Tube HoneyBee 2017 -?

[36] Bitchute HoneyBee

[37] Steemit Anthony Cadorniga @libertycolumnist

[38] Twitter Liberty Column

[39] Bitchute Liberty Columnist



[42] IMDB A childs voice

[43] 2018 Jun 4 Hagmann Report FULL SHOW – 6/4/18 – TUSCON GOES HOT: SEX CAMP DISCOVERED? RATLINES OR HOMELESS CAMPS? carl alfred honeybee

[44] 2020 Jan 22 Youtube Manifest143 (Honeybee) archive last

[45] Honeybee Channel Trailer 1min 17s now on odysee


[47] Minds last post 2017 May 20 pic

[48] Gab The HoneyBee Account private

[49] WordPress Honeybee No archives

[50] Twitter Mellisa Honeybee Zaccaria

[50a] Twitter Honeybee Archive Index*/

[50b] Twitter Honeybee primary archive*/

[50e] 2018 Twitter Honeybee archive

[50f] 2018 Sept 14 last post sept 11

[52] [24] [36] Bitchute HoneyBee

[52a] Bitchute primary archive*/

[52b] Bitchute Channel archive

[52c] 2019 Mar Bitchute Honeybee

[52e] 2109 Jul Bitchute Honeybee last vids oct 20 2018

[52f] 2020 Jun 11 Bitchute Honeybee

[52g] 2018 Sept 20 Bitchute Honeybee KIDS, Inc. Update On Film Release, New Trailer and Website!

[53] Steemit Honeybee

[54] PayPal Honeybee

[55] Patreon

[55a] 2022 Aug 28 $11 last post 2018 Oct 5

[55c] 2019 Aug 26 Patreon Honey Bee

[56] You Tube HoneyBee youtube 1 2017 -?

[56a] You tube Honeybee Primary archive*/

[56b] You tube honeybee

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UT 10 Lost Daughter – Mind Controlled by Cults?

RE: Lost Daughter

Our daughter Lynette [pseudonym] was an Aspergers who largely beat the odds. While many in her state never graduated from high school or worked, she went to two universities, graduated with a psychology degree, then converted to computer science. Her skills were amazing, and eventually, she moved out of the house into her first apartment. After two apartments, she then purchased a condominium and even worked for a Fortune 500 company.

Eventually, she moved to Utah, and worked for several companies in IT. Her attitude began to change to one of frustration, and even anger on many occasions, though. Discussions began turning into arguments. Having said that, she kept in touch on a regular basis, so we knew she was okay. However, she began showing a reluctance to give out information, a photo of where she lived, etc. When we discussed visiting, it always seemed as though something came up. One time we even were finalizing trip plans, only to discover she was planning on flying to Dallas at the same time.

With her frustration and company cut-backs, she became a casualty, which started some job bouncing, as many employers cannot understand Aspergers when they aren’t informed of their characteristics. As she delved into other areas such as property management, her job changes grew, as well as some despair.

When we retired, one of our goals was to see our daughter (i.e. long trip). The phone rang one late morning, informing us a security company had us as the emergency number. We immediately called our daughter to inform her of the issue (not critical), but nobody answered. Therefore, we texted her, only to receive a curt non-descript response. I called again—still no answer, and now the calls began to go to immediate voicemail. We wrote her an email, only to get another short non-descript response, which was extremely uncharacteristic. After this continued on and on, we finally decided to drive to Provo. And the trip was long, very interesting, and we finally became excited as we approached the city, thinking everything could be resolved.

Arriving in Provo, we found her condominium, only to discover it with open blinds, looking somewhat stripped apartment with only some clothes and kitchen utensils left. But no daughter was there. Where is she? Neighbors hadn’t seen her in months. We then called numerous times, but every call was immediately forwarded to voice mail, which was full. Texting went unanswered. So, we finally went to the police and put her on a missing person’s report and asked for a welfare check, with the officer telling us he would do everything he could to find her.

Not hearing anything from her phone, text, or the police, we contacted NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness), who offered some moral support. And then we finally left, not knowing what to do. Have you ever been at a point, where a topic takes over 24/7? Yes, we weren’t perfect parents, there were some arguments, but there was certainly no abuse, and we had loved and supported her throughout her life. Gone?

Returning to our home, we decided to hire a Private Investigator, who ran his checks and came up with nothing. And the officer that was dedicated to finding the truth? He sent another officer to her location after texting from the police department and came away stating “she had a mask on” but everything was fine. Now we began searching for her, looking into e-mails, phone calls, LinkedIn, and even tried to triangulate the cell phone address. We then found an anti-human trafficking private investigator who had spent years in this realm and offered hours of advice. And yes, we took notes, focusing upon 3 areas: mind-control from our government, a Mormon cult, or the Scientologist group. Were any of these involved? No idea.

Fast forward and long trip Number 2 occurred, this time with us tracking her down at a store where she worked. Mind you, this took quite a bit of work, time, and effort to get to this point. We wanted to focus on three aspects: is she okay, where is she living, and is someone controlling her? As I finally approached her in Salt Lake City, I wondered would she respond as a long-lost daughter loving to see her father, or would it be fear? Right or wrong, I tried to downplay the key moment by asking her what would she recommend with this potted plant? She immediately realized who I was, and without saying one word—raced away. Bottom line is she looked like a zombie robot, with no life in her face. Having read extensively about mind control, she appeared to have every symptom. Seeing me appeared to be a “trigger” and she was abjectly, afraid of me. I then watched her leave and tracked her until she got on the commuter train. There simply was no way to get on the train in time to catch her. Where is she living?

I then began looking into Mormon and Scientology cults—could they be the culprit? Why? As I went to the police, I was immediately told there was really nothing they could do. The responses seemed very programmed to accept this situation, with the police essentially pointing the finger at the justice department. Perhaps that really is true, but the attitude didn’t pass any smell test for truthfulness in the least. Would I trust the Utah State Police? No. Then I went to the college, who took notes, and seemed very cooperative while we were there. Later, the e-mail came through, essentially stating nothing could be done, she is an adult, and therefore none of this is our business. And the question regarding whether our daughters was on drugs was simply ignored.

A handful of e-mails and texts were answered by Lynette, but the response was similar to a program. Nothing in her responses sounded like her, including the vernacular and even spelling. Was it another individual answering that controlled her? This did not sound like our daughter. She even mentioned being curious about walking in the snow in Provo. Mind you, that was Provo, Utah and she had lived there for close to six years and hadn’t walked in the snow? If you know Provo, that is an absolute impossible answer that made no sense.

So I now did my own research and came up with DID option (Dissociative Identity Disorder). Translated, this means some form of trauma has occurred and an alternative personality has come to life. What happened and why? Basically, this is a coping mechanism (i.e. Multiple Personalities), and essentially creates a “new you.” This might explain living in Provo and never having experienced walking in the snow. Her vernacular was new also, indicating something isn’t right. We also discovered she had a newfound interest in kickboxing. Mind you, this is coming from a girl who used to run from the soccer ball. When we saw her in Salt Lake City, she had gone from a pretty, competent young woman working IT for a fortune 500 company to rather unkempt, watering flowers for a living. I contacted the few friends I knew she had, only to discover she didn’t maintain any substantive correspondence.

And then we began looking into the liens to see—is money involved? This gets complicated, especially since personal loans aren’t seen. We’ve discovered many aspects about her never known, including pictures, friends, family members, and online data. But if I am correct regarding mind control, then this gets into how to deprogram—very difficult. I’ve now read around five mind control books, critiqued numerous websites, and it is simply horrifying. Svali, Cathy O’ Brien, and Cathy Fox were three great revelations, and then I began looking into patents related to mind control. The rabbit hole got deeper and deeper with drugs/hypnosis going to satellite and human addresses.

Lynette had worked for a contractor with the Marine Corp. When one delves into mind-control, it gets downright scary. One quick example was a test done a long time ago to see how easily people could be modified. A straight-forward lady with good moral values was drugged/hypnotized and then carried out a simulated attack when requested. Translated, an every-day individual under the right circumstances could have their behavior modified, even if temporarily. Remember, that our daughter worked in IT related to security. Did something occur? The timing seems to coincide…

As I delved into the people search services, I began unraveling other aspects such as other phone numbers, e-mails, social media, and addresses. One address that came up was First Step in SLC (Drug Treatment Center). Our daughter was never involved with illegal substances, yet First Step was showing up? That group correctly guards their information, so we haven’t approached them. But what led to this? Did she attend for collegiate purposes, or did she enter as an individual with a drug addiction?

I keep going back to the face of abject terror. My God, why? And some “helpful groups” weren’t helpful. My “expert friend” believes it is most likely one of the cults—but we don’t really know. Where is she? Now I honestly have a better understanding of how many grasp losing loved ones that simply vanish, never to be found. And many of the agencies meant to assist—don’t. Have you ever seen a post office box used for the home address of where you lived on her student registration? Really?

Have you ever gone to bed night after night, going to sleep, yet always worried as to where is your child and what in the world happened to her? We’ve had many, many discussions, tears, and “why” discussions. We re-trace the past communication, but as most know, the mind can become an absolute nightmare with every horrific possibility being discussed. This emotional nightmare never really ends. Now we at least have an idea regarding “lost” people who vanish and the dramatic impact it truly has. We do use prayer, though, and ironically are finding peace and a relationship to God we never knew.

Yes, we do have plans and ideas, but they will take time and money, with no guarantees. We’re on our own, and she is gone—somewhere.


Previous posts in the series are

  • UT0 – Utah Mormon Satanic Ritual Abuse Links and Timeline [UT56]
  • UT1Utah Ritual Abuse [UT45]
  • UT2- Rapist Suspect linked to Mormon Ritual Abuse Scandal Still Delaying Extradition from Glasgow to US [UT42]
  • UT3 – Satanic Ritual Abuse in the Mormon Church [UT47]
  • UT4 – Two accuse Leavitt of being Ritual Abuser [UT59]
  • UT5 – Kristy Allen Mormon Ritual Abuse and MKUltra [UT62]
  • UT6 – Church of Mormon in Books About Abuse [UT95]
  • UT7 – David Hamblin Utah County Mormon Ritual Abuse [UT96]
  • UT8 – Satanism in Utah Valley 1988 [UT98]
  • UT9A Report of Child Sexual Abuse in LDS [UT106]

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Anneke Lucas 2 – A Child Pimped to the Globalist Psychopaths

Anneke is an amazing survivor and deserves the utmost respect for enduring and overcoming what she went through at the hands of the Belgian part of the globalist paedophile criminal cabal. The Dutroux network was part of this cabal.

I have previously posted on Anneke, a couple of years ago Anneke Lucas Pimped by her Mother to the Belgian Network [7]. However on that post several youtube videos are now unavailable as they are censoring so many videos and channels that it is pointless posting with youtube videos. Luckily I had included the autotranscripts, which are on the link above, I have not replicated them here.

However I have now searched for likely more longlasting video replacements on Odysee. I have found 3 of the 4 parts on Odysee but I have had to upload the fourth myself from the only copy I could find which is low quality.

Hidden History Mind Control Anneke Lucas Testimony Part 1 of 4 [8] Transcript see [7].

Hidden History Mind Control Anneke Lucas Testimony Part 2 of 4 [9] Transcript see [7].

Foxes Amazing Channel Anneke Lucas Testimony Part 3 of 4 [10] low quality video Transcript see [7].

Nel nome della verità Anneke Lucas Testimony Part 4 of 4 [11] Transcript see [7].

I have also included a Rumble copy of Anneke’s Ted talk as well and transcript.

Rumble 2017 Ted Talk Anneke Lucas From Child Sex Slavery to Victory [1]

Ted Talk Transcript

These videos are a summary of what happened after her first disclosure, and her perpetrators were famous names. She tells how she coped mentally during the abuse and why she will not name them.

DanteLaaw Anneke Lucas I Was a Sex Slave to Europe’s Elite at Age 6 (SEQUEL-PART 1) (Human Trafficking) [13]

DanteLaaw Odysee Anneke Lucas Why I Won’t Publicly Name Names (SEQUEL-PART 2) [14]

In fact Anneke does name some names in her book Quest for Love which I will cover in my third blog on her, soon. Her book is available here Anneka Lucas website [2]

Camelot has just released an interview with Anneke see Project Camelot Anneke Lucas Quest for Love [20]


[1] Rumble 2017 Ted Talk Anneke Lucas From Child Sex Slavery to Victory

[1a] You tube 2017 Ted Talk Anneke Lucas From Child Sex Slavery to Victory

[2] Anneka Lucas website




[6] Towards Unconditional Love with Anneke Lucas

[7] 2020 Aug 14 wordpress cathy fox blog Anneke Lucas Pimped by her Mother to the Belgian Network

[8] Hidden History Mind Control Anneke Lucas Testimony Part 1 of 4

[9] Hidden History Mind Control Anneke Lucas Testimony Part 2 of 4

[10] Foxes Amazing Channel Anneke Lucas Testimony Part 3 of 4 low quality video

[11] Nel nome della verità Anneke Lucas Testimony Part 4 of 4 Overcoming Elite Child Sex Slavery & Pedophilia – Part 4 Anneke Lucas

[12] All 4 parts low quality

[13] DanteLaaw Anneke Lucas I Was a Sex Slave to Europe’s Elite at Age 6 (SEQUEL-PART 1) (Human Trafficking)’s-Elite-at-Age-6-(SEQUEL-PART-1)-(Human-Trafficking):b

[14] DanteLaaw Odysee Anneke Lucas Why I Won’t Publicly Name Names (SEQUEL-PART 2)’t-Publicly-Name-Names-(SEQUEL-PART-2):b

[15] Anneke Lucas website

[16] Skeptico Anneke Lucas, Recovering From Unimaginable Evil

[17] Anneke Lucas Writing

[18] Anneke Lucas Writing Pedophilia

[19] Karl Lagerfeld: A survivor’s account of sexual abuse in the fashion industry

for more links see Anneke Lucas Pimped by her Mother to the Belgian Network [7]

[20] 2020 Aug 24 Project Camelot Anneke Lucas Quest for Love

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0:19I’m from Belgium but in my late teens I

0:24escaped from there and I ran off to

0:29France then I went west went to England

0:34first then I went to New York then I

0:39escaped further to the west coast of the

0:41United States landed in Los Angeles and

0:45after a few years there I was getting

0:47antsy and I wanted to escape again and I

0:50realized if I was going to go any

0:52farther west I was going to end up in

0:54the Far East so the journey outward the

1:02escape was over and I realized I have to

1:09go in I have to face myself so I began a

1:17journey that lasted thirty years that

1:21was an absolutely epic journey facing

1:27dark death around every corner

1:31confronted with large crevasses that I

1:36had to jump into and know that something

1:41greater then my little ego was there to

1:45catch me at times I felt the pain of all

1:53the world but after 30 years I came out

2:00victorious I was able to just be me I

2:13lucky to have a sense of what that might

2:17mean me as a baby I was raised by a

2:25psychopathic mother and you know we’re

2:30all born the same we’re completely cute

2:32innocent sweet and we need that

2:38reflection of ourselves as little human

2:41beings to live and I was not receiving

2:47that from my mother but there was a

2:51caretaker who did give me that and I

2:54remember very strongly she wrapped me

2:57against her body with makeshift wraps it

3:00was before we all held our babies in

3:03front of us taking care of the other

3:06babies but holding me and feeling what

3:09it felt like that just be me now she was

3:15there in the first three years my mother

3:19then sold me when I was six to a group

3:25of psychopaths they were very well

3:31organized Psychopaths they were not just

3:35in Belgium there were men from all over

3:37the world and I found out much later

3:43that many of these men had very visible

3:46places on the world stage they were

3:50world leaders politicians leaders of

3:55countries and then there were those who

3:59controlled the world leaders together in

4:03this club and they performed there the

4:09darkest things imaginable and I

4:14experienced and witnessed this from the

4:17age of six to eleven when I was rescued

4:22from someone from the inside

4:26today I work in jails and prisons in New

4:30York where I now live and I have an

4:33organization called liberation prison

4:35yoga I can relate to everyone because

4:44incarcerated people tend to be

4:47traumatized just where they are and they

4:50often also have a lot of trauma in their

4:53past often of the same degree of

4:56violence that I survived without the

5:00privilege that I had to spend 30 years

5:03focusing just on healing and then I also

5:09relate to people who come to train with

5:13me to go into the prisons with me and

5:16when I started to share my story in 2013

5:19when I came to the end of that 30-year

5:21period I was interviewed and then I

5:25started to speak however the day is the

5:30first time I’m back in Europe speaking

5:34about this what we create with

5:39liberation Prison Yoga is an example of

5:45what the world could be like like

5:49perhaps here today where all of us

5:53really want to change the world for the

5:57better now we are in the Atomic Age

6:02we’ve already moved on into spiritual

6:05practices and most of us know that we

6:08are not just this finite body that we

6:13have these inner journeys and those are

6:16very real but somehow the world seems to

6:22be more chaotic and darker than ever so

6:28who’s going to win the light or the dark

6:35is consciousness so we need awareness

6:42awareness of the reality of the darkness

6:46that this world is ruled by Psychopaths

6:50and I think generally we don’t really

6:54know what psychopaths are and we can’t

6:59really recognize them you know one way

7:03to tell someone who seems too good to be

7:07true whether it’s in your love

7:11relationships or whether it’s in

7:13politics it’s someone who plays at being

7:19human and makes it seem so simple and

7:23usually appears like a better version of

7:26ourselves where we with all these messy

7:29feelings feel we want to emulate them

7:32and be more like that whether it’s

7:36celebrities or whomever we put at the

7:42top of this top-down model this top-down

7:50model is a trauma based model and the

7:57top are the Psychopaths the sickest

7:59people and at the bottom are the

8:02vulnerable populations the prisoners the

8:06poor and then in the middle are most of

8:10us who are absolutely traumatized by

8:13this system and at the same time maybe

8:22seek to do good in the world so the best

8:30way to find the monster is to go within

8:35about Psychopaths is I was talking about

8:39the little baby before well the

8:41psychopath is a person who didn’t get to

8:43experience that in a

8:46because their caregivers were already

8:51projecting so there was no reflection of

8:56themselves as that innocent cute little

8:59baby which as it were banned them from

9:02themselves because it is feeling that

9:06makes us human it is feeling that leads

9:11to consciousness and it is my journey

9:15through feeling that has made me

9:18increasingly aware of myself and as a

9:22result and reflection aware of what’s

9:24outside as well and I don’t think any of

9:29us truly escape because the model in

9:34which we live itself makes it really

9:37impossible for parents to be

9:38unconditionally present for their

9:40children and the younger the child the

9:44more everything is life and death so if

9:49you’re told by the doctor you need to

9:52let your baby cry it out and not to

9:56listen when it sounds torturous

9:58well it sounds torturous because the

10:02baby feels torture and it is being

10:07traumatized in that moment so on our

10:11journey in yes yoga and meditation are

10:15great practices to become mindful to get

10:20a different perspective of ourselves

10:21very important but we can’t do that and

10:26then bypass the feeling part we’re all a

10:32little bit brainwashed into this

10:33thinking that the rational thinking is

10:36more important than feeling I say it’s

10:39probably equally important we want to

10:41balance them out but there’s not really

10:44a lot known about someone’s trauma

10:47journey we don’t really generally

10:51recognize behaviors and can guess that

10:56this started with a particular trauma

10:58that can be read

11:00and someone’s behavior we can read

11:02people’s minds more easily because we

11:05ourselves have gone through trauma after

11:08trauma so trauma is fear of death fear

11:12of losing the physical body or the body

11:16of a loved one so in that moment of fear

11:20of death all brain activity recedes to

11:24the survival brain which is right around

11:26the brainstem all other brain activity

11:30stops what’s around the brainstem well I

11:36spent a lot of time in that state we’re

11:40not human in that state and Psychopaths

11:44without feeling are in that state all

11:48the time and then they have a cortex

11:50over it to hide it and so I’ve never

11:57seen an abuser that I didn’t know was

12:02himself abused as a child because I in

12:06my real job which was a tuning with the

12:11abuser and giving them what they needed

12:14what they truly needed

12:16I got this image of the little boy who

12:20was vulnerable made themselves

12:23vulnerable to me the child sex slave so

12:28that that vulnerability was completely

12:30controlled and if I hadn’t given them

12:33what they truly needed if I’d followed

12:35my impulse and perhaps laughed or at

12:38them or whatever they were afraid of

12:40then I would have been killed and there

12:43would be no witness to that

12:44vulnerability that sense of humiliation

12:47a repeat of the abuse the feelings

12:51around the abuse that are all repressed

12:54so for someone who has zero healing at

12:57all the best way to get it out of the

13:01system because it is there and it needs

13:03to get out is to go in that same mode

13:07fight flight freeze collapse and in that


13:13primordial state to go into the fight

13:16mode and get that temporary release it’s

13:21where in trauma and we can fight we can

13:24kill the predator or we can run then all

13:27we have to do is take a few breaths and

13:29the trauma would be out of our body-mind

13:30system but as a child we go into freeze

13:34and everything is frozen now these men

13:41some the most evil in the world I’m

13:45pretty sure we’re like parents to me and

13:50there were some who gave me some

13:52reflections that I need it for my own

13:54emotional development and so I loved

13:57them so I try to understand because I

14:03know that no one is truly a monster but

14:07of course Psychopaths behave like

14:10monsters I like to think of them as

14:12dinosaurs in business suits they are

14:17antiquated because we are already in an

14:22age where we move away from matter as

14:25the final reality and if you have no

14:29access to feeling you are relegated to

14:33the world of matter to yourself the body

14:35as a final person who you are and so

14:40they’re very heavily into rejuvenation

14:42and the ways that they do that I will

14:46spare you but it’s very barbaric so in

14:54my work today I get a chance to do the

14:59same as I was made to do as a child

15:04having moved through this vast regions

15:09regions and regions of the emotional

15:13world to come back to myself free from


15:21and free to just whatever the universe

15:25sends my way now if we look at society

15:30for a moment and we think that if we

15:34want to climb the ladder of societal

15:37ladder it tells you not to feel trauma

15:41and the higher you go the more you will

15:44be asked to give up your principles and

15:50usually there’s some sex scandal along

15:53the way up whether it’s in the corporate

15:55world or it’s in the yoga world that

15:57needs to be kept under wraps and if you

15:59don’t want to be quiet about it you get

16:01kicked out and you don’t get to be part

16:04of the club and at the very top of

16:10course are the people who are the most

16:13sick with trauma so when a psychopath

16:16kills a baby

16:18they are reliving a trauma story of when

16:21they were a little baby and they felt

16:24deadened so they don’t know it but

16:28they’re repeating their trauma story the

16:33great thing about the journey inward now

16:38it was completely invisible I had a few

16:41safe people but the great thing about it

16:45is that we don’t have to travel to do it

16:48you can do it right here and now it’s

16:52difficult to hear about the reality of

16:55the darkness of the world because it

16:57requires for us to go through some

16:59feelings perhaps that are traumatic the

17:06shock and disbelief the anger the

17:10landing of the reality and the pain that

17:13comes with that and perhaps the grief

17:15the disgust it’s not easy but I’ve been

17:23amazed and how receptive audiences are

17:27and I can tell you that it’s been a

17:29challenge to stand here back in Europe


17:34and feel heard and allowing myself to

17:42feel the healing so have a pleasant

17:49journey and may we all be victorious





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Caylen Hartwell

Caylen Hartwell was interviewed by Emma on her podcast/radio/video. I am only aware of one other interview of Caylen’s, it must have been a decade ago with Bill Ryan when Caylen was known as Kathy Collins. [1] Caylen had been very positive and talked alot about healing, so I was looking forward to this interview, one of the few videos I watch. So many people need healing in these days as more people are waking up to their mind control and abuse.

I was intrigued by Caylen talking then, iirc about people getting serotonin fixes by reliving their past behaviour, and it dovetailed into experiences that I had had with people who afaik were not child abuse survivors, but definitely had had a physically abusive childhood. Time and again, they would jeopardise a more stable life and go back to a chaotic, out of their own control one, and I concluded this was what they were used to being brought up.

Overcoming her own experiences, Caylen tells the story of some of her healing in a funny and positive way.

I had realised that survivors have to be mega attentive to the behaviour of their abusers, I had not realised the extent to which this “codependency” behaviour was so debilitating, so I am researching more into the book she mentioned. Codependent No More – and she has told me it is Melody Beatty Codependent No More [10] and I look forward to reading that

I have included Emma’s shownotes and the autotranscript for those like myself who prefer transcripts, and I have included a few relevant links, below Emma’s shownotes. There is also a link to a 7 minute edit/excerpt, see after the shownotes.

The Imagination Podcast bitchute S2E44 | “Caylen Hartwell (aka Kathy Collins) – MK Ultra Survivor on Rising from the Ashes of Trauma” [4]

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This week I’m honored to have SRA & MK Ultra survivor and overcomer, whistleblower, mother, spiritual coach, child abuse and trauma advocate and educator, entrepreneur and owner of Positive Shifting, and self directed learner, Caylen Hartwell – formerly known as Kathy Collins – on the show today! There have been a few prolific survivors who have been speaking out for many years who have persisted in speaking out despite what opposes them and Caylen is one to add to list alongside other courageous women that have been on the show like Svali, Cheryl Beck, and Penny LA Shepard who have been paving the way for many years for survivors and victims to have a voice.

I was recently introduced to Caylen’s story and felt so deeply in my heart that I needed to reach out and see if she’d come on the podcast and was SO honored when she said ‘yes’! I find her and her life so inspiring because although she’s been through horrific things that were meant to break her and that the majority of people can’t fathom, she chooses to focus on the redemption part of her story and now devotes her time to helping other people turn their own pain and trauma into power and purpose.

With the subject of ‘trauma’ being something every single person on the planet experiences in different degrees and kinds, it’s shocking how little we truly know about this subject matter and how even Doctors of Psychiatry are not taught things like Dissociative Identity Disorder or satanic ritual abuse. Caylen truly bridges the gap in helping everyone from survivors of MK Ultra, to therapists, to helping those of us who are dealing with the everyday traumas and stresses associated with being a human being understand the complexities of how trauma is layered throughout the body and how we go about healing from these new understandings.

One of the things I fell in love with about Caylen is how centered she is on providing messages of hope to survivors. After all she’s overcome, it is nothing short of a miracle from God that she is here with us today and that she can serve as a living testament of what is possible with the right knowledge, understanding, and action in regards to surviving and thriving after trauma. When she speaks, she is standing up for every victim and survivor and helping society as a whole understand the unthinkable in a palatable way. I know if you are here listening today that you are going to leave with so many take-aways and this may be an episode you might want to stream more than once.


Dream Dictionary referenced in the interview:
ITNJ Judicial Commission on Human Trafficking:
Interview with Kristy Allen on SRA:
(Not all of the testimonies are available regrettably)

All links:
SXS Merch:
Survivor Store:

There is also a 7 min edit/excerpt that I have not watched. The link will take you to Telegram.

I think it is a good idea in general for edits/excerpts to be made, even as short as twitter length of a minute ish to promote the longer interviews and pick out salient important points.

Telegram Caylen Hartwell [9]

I have added some more links of Caylen’s

A few links to topics Caylen mentioned – her previous interview, Ho’oponopono, Codependency book and Kristy Allen interview with ITNJ

  • Transformation – Healing from Child Abuse, Kathy Collins [1]
  • I am Sorry, Please Forgive me, I love you, Thankyou. Ho’oponopono [2]
  • Kristy Allen Mormon Ritual Abuse and MKUltra [UT62]
  • Melody Beatty Codependent No More [10]

Just a note on ITNJ, whilst I trust all the survivors who I have seen given evidence, I do not trust ITNJ See ITNJ thread archive on pingthread which survived my twitter ban. [8]

I look forward to Emma’s next interview with Caylen. Thankyou to both.



[1] 2019 Oct 21 cathyfoxblog Transformation – Healing from Child Abuse, Kathy Collins

[2] 2013 Sept 9 cfoxblog I am Sorry, Please Forgive me, I love you, Thankyou. Ho’oponopono

[3] youtube The Imagination Podcast S2E44 | “Caylen Hartwell (aka Kathy Collins) – MK Ultra Survivor on Rising from the Ashes of Trauma”

[4] 2022 Aug 14 Bitchute The Imagination Podcast S2E44 | “Caylen Hartwell (aka Kathy Collins) – MK Ultra Survivor on Rising from the Ashes of Trauma”

[5] apple The Imagination Podcast S2E44 | “Caylen Hartwell (aka Kathy Collins) – MK Ultra Survivor on Rising from the Ashes of Trauma”

[6] spotify The Imagination Podcast S2E44 | “Caylen Hartwell (aka Kathy Collins) – MK Ultra Survivor on Rising from the Ashes of Trauma”

[UT62] UT5- Kristy Allen Mormon Ritual Abuse and MKUltra

[8] Pingthread ITNJ thread archive

[9] Telegram Caylen Hartwell 6 minuter

[10] Melody Beatty Codependent No More

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heavenly father today we put on the full armor  to protect us against attack we put on the belt  

0:09of truth to protect against lies and deception we  put on the breastplate of righteousness to protect  

0:16our hearts from the temptations we put the  gospel of peace on our feet to walk in your light  

0:21peace and freedom with the holy spirit we rebuke  anxious thoughts we take up your shield of faith  

0:28for protection to block and destroy all the  darts and threats thrown at us by the enemy  

0:33we put on the helmet of salvation to cover our  minds and thoughts reminding us that we are  

0:38children of a mighty king we are forgiven set free  saved by the blood of jesus we take up the sword  

0:46of the spirit your living word that has the power  to demolish strongholds and is sharper than any  

0:51double-edged sword we come to you lord in prayer  daily in jesus mighty name we pray amen what’s up  

1:00you guys welcome to the imagination i’m your host  emma and this week i’m honored to have sra and mk  

1:07ultra survivor and overcomer whistleblower mother  spiritual coach and warrior child abuse and trauma  

1:14advocate and educator entrepreneur and owner  of positive shifting and self-directed learner  

1:21kailyn hartwell formerly known as kathy collins  on the show today there have been a few prolific  

1:27survivors who have been speaking out for many  years and who have persisted in speaking out   despite what opposes them and kailyn is one to  add to the list alongside other courageous women  

1:38that have been on the show like spally cheryl beck  and penny l.a shepherd who have been paving the  

1:44way for many years for survivors and victims to  have a voice i was recently introduced to kailyn’s  

1:50story and felt so deeply in my heart that i needed  to reach out and see if she’d come on the podcast  

1:55and was so honored when she said yes i find her  and her life so inspiring because although she’s  

2:00been through horrific things that were meant to  break her and that the majority of people can’t   fathom she chooses to focus on the redemption side  of her story and now devotes her time to helping  

2:11other people turn their own pain and trauma into  power and purpose with the subject of trauma being  

2:18something every single person on the planet  experiences and different degrees and kinds  

2:23it’s really shocking how little we truly know  about this subject matter and how even doctors of  

2:28psychiatry are not taught things like dissociative  identity disorder or satanic ritual abuse  

2:35kalyn truly bridges the gap in helping everyone  from survivors of mk ultra to therapists  

2:41to helping those of us who are dealing with the  everyday traumas and stresses associated with   being a human being understand the complexities of  how trauma is layered throughout the body and how  

2:51we go about healing from these new understandings  one of the things i fell in love with about kailyn  

2:57is how centered she is on providing messages of  hope to survivors after all she’s overcome it’s  

3:03nothing short of a miracle from god that she  is here with us today and that she can serve   as a living testament as of what is possible with  the right knowledge understanding and action in  

3:13regards to surviving and thriving after trauma  when she speaks she is standing up for every  

3:19victim and survivor and helping society as a whole  understand the unthinkable in a palatable way  

3:26i know if you are here listening today that you’re  going to leave with so many takeaways and this may   be an episode you may want to listen to you more  than once i’m incredibly honored to bring to you  

3:35today woman of god verse voice for the voiceless  healer educator child advocate trauma educator  

3:43and absolute inspiration kailyn hartwell caitlin  thank you so much for being here with me today  

3:50well thank you oh my gosh i need a  drum for that drum roll that was just

3:59thank you so much you’re so gracious and i’m so  uh blessed to be on this uh this podcast with you  

4:06and i want to thank you very  much for doing what you do   um you’re such a such a an open and pure  heart and that is what is important so um  

4:20anyway so where do i start yes yeah i mean i  i’m just excited to be here talking to you so  

4:27it’s it’s wonderful to be able to share this it’s  an honor to have you here like i said you know i  

4:34when i read these stories and see what people like  you have overcome like most people in society they  

4:40look at celebrities like oh my gosh and i look  at you guys like that i’m like gosh we have so   much to learn about what we’re truly capable of as  humans what what can happen on the other side of  

4:51healing our inner child if we’re an adult and the  importance of you know children and how to raise  

4:57them and just bringing awareness in general to  these things that happen whether or not we like   to hear about them they do happen you know and all  of us know people we might be that person that has  

5:07experienced extreme trauma and we need to really  start as a society understanding this and how to  

5:13approach it how to recognize it how to heal from  it you know and how to be there for people who  

5:19have gone through it so i’m really grateful  that you’ve been you know talking about this   side of it and trying to educate people because  like i said you know even in psychiatry a lot of  

5:29doctors who are you know they go to school for  four to eight ten years they don’t learn about  

5:34some of these things and so you know we’re  misdiagnosing people there’s people walking   around that just feel so helpless and it’s really  nice to you know listen to somebody like you  

5:45that some people can listen to and say she  understands you know and oh my gosh look at   what she’s done with her life she has kids she has  a you know she has a thriving business like i can  

5:55do that too if she can so i just can’t thank you  enough for everything that you’re doing and for  

6:00people who haven’t heard of you i’d love for you  to maybe just give us a little bit of background  

6:06on your story and maybe at the kathy collins  side that people might know you as and and just  

6:12go into maybe a little bit of your past and kind  of what got you here today to where you’re at now  

6:18yeah well it’s it is like having uh as we were  talking earlier off camera i feel like i just  

6:26started a new life and um my uh life for me as  kathy collins i was born kathleen aaron collins  

6:36that was my dad was very proud of our irish  heritage and um i had a different notion like  

6:46you know other people on your show have have told  that you know because of the suppressed memories  

6:54um i thought i had one life and i was aware  of some of the abuses but it was mixed  

7:04up because i i was i knew that there were  terrible things that happened in my family  

7:10um but i still painted this picture of oh my  family is perfect and um the memories didn’t start  

7:20coming out well a memory started to emerge at age  27 when my oldest daughter was one year old and  

7:33i dreamt that my husband had raped her i got up  and i told this to my husband my then husband  

7:45about this dream and he was so upset and he  screamed at me he’s don’t you ever ever ever  

7:54say anything like that to me again and i was so  ashamed and i thought i don’t watch anything like  

8:01this on tv where did this come from so what i  did is i shut it down like full force and almost  

8:10the very next day i came down with severe tmj  temporal mandibular joint syndrome extreme pain  

8:22so i’m going to professionals to take care of the  tmj they think it’s because of a you know injured  

8:28hip you know they’re looking at structural things  there was nothing structural wrong with my jaw  

8:35i had this tmj for 17 full years  that meant that during the entire  

8:42childhood of all my three children they  didn’t have a mom who was present because  

8:48i was in so much pain and three years later  i contemplated suicide which might have been  

8:55the programming because it was very strong for  three months every day i was obsessed with this  

9:04wanting to take my life but i go oh what am i my  kids i need to find i need to find a mom for them  

9:09but i couldn’t go anywhere i was a vegetable  here aged 30 i was a total vegetable because  

9:14my i had shut down and i was married  to a personality type that was  

9:22perfect because you’ve got a real codependent  is going to go with a narcissist so i had  

9:30to have that compliment it’s like a mathematical  formula people say oh it’s not fair but it’s  

9:36it’s like is two plus two equaling four fair you  know that’s just it’s just a mathematical formula  

9:44in our reality uh it’s energetic and also  that experience being married to this person  

9:54was to teach me a really solid lesson that  i could pass on to other people and it was  

10:01to teach me the value of my self-sovereignty as  a codependent i gave myself away i gave myself  

10:09away to the point where years later  my kids thought i was dying of cancer  

10:15and i wasn’t but i was near i could feel  the um what do you call it i could feel  

10:23the connection to life was very tenuous it was  just like on strings that’s what it felt like  

10:31so how did i end up with this type of  personality is i was uh born into this trauma  

10:42it didn’t uh i was born in 1957 in santa  rosa california which is was one of the  

10:50major mk ultra centers for project monarch  according to kathy o’brien lovely woman by the way  

10:58i i can’t say enough about how much she has done  to educate people and so aside but when i finally  

11:06realized what all the constellation of things that  happened to me i did email her and mark and i was  

11:15scared because i thought well maybe they’re trying  to uh maybe it’s it’s a setup and they’re trying  

11:21to find me so there was this like no but i need to  reach out i need to reach out so i did reach out  

11:27and within 24 hours i got this lovely email  back and it was just wow to get this email  

11:36back that was so compassionate and uh it it  just still resonates with me today so this is  

11:44something that people can take away with  them is you don’t know how such a simple act  

11:52can really help somebody and make them feel safe  or safer right and not feel like you know what  

12:01because i thought i was going crazy there was  nobody i could talk to right now it’s really   cool that their people like you are talking  we’re talking about it in public space um so

12:16the reality of my uh my past came out when  i was coming out of the tmj 17 years later  

12:26i came down with severe chemical sensitivity  um i was allergic to everything i was eating  

12:36i could only wear cotton i couldn’t get near  anybody who had washed their clothes with thai  

12:42detergent i mean i was extra i couldn’t go  into the grocery store just smelled like   chemicals i couldn’t take my kids clothes shopping  because of the formaldehyde in the in the clothes  

12:54so i was where i was near death and i got  there’s no place on this planet i can i can live  

13:00and so i asked a neighbor who seemed to be well  connected i said do you know where i can go and  

13:08she said well contact baster university i  wasn’t up in washington state at the time  

13:13and it’s the university that trains naturopaths  and so i called them i said can you give me  

13:20a recommendation because this is my situation i  said well we can’t it’s a policy and i understand  

13:27that but i said i am near death i have to know  um and so the person said well don’t tell anybody  

13:36that they gave me dr crean’s  name and i called him up   and i went to him immediately he started doing the  detoxing but he had some very curious questions  

13:46on his questionnaire the reason i’m bringing this  up is because people who are not aware of things  

13:53their clues start coming in to their awareness  when they’re ready so i’m filling out the  

13:59questionnaire and said has you have you ever  been sexually abused and i thought what kind   of ridiculous question we’re talking about  chemical sensitivity what does that have to do  

14:11with sexual abuse well apparently it had  everything to do with it so i didn’t know  

14:21and he could see it right there he could see it  when he saw all my symptoms he knew my story he  

14:28didn’t know that about the sra right but he knew  about the sexual abuse and sexual abuse alone is  

14:34enough to really debilitate a person and he said  you know you were exposed now he couldn’t tell me  

14:43directly because that would be too shocking the  shock i wasn’t ready for that shock of discovery  

14:50because that would have taken me out of totally  it would have bumped me totally out of healing  

14:57so please therapists if you see somebody across  from you and you have you know by their symptoms  

15:05this is what has happened to them don’t tell them  because that’s exactly what happened to my brother  

15:11and he went crazy he he had to go to 18 therapists  after that because he was told too soon what  

15:20happened to him yes but this is because therapists  were not educated were not educated but i was so  

15:28blessed to be with people who are very very gentle  and tender around this subject and so he asked  

15:35me to uh he said you know there’s this book you  might want to read it’s codependent no more you  

15:41want it it’s up on the shelf over there and so  i reached up to get it and so i could look at it  

15:50and i couldn’t hear anything else he said after  that because i was so uh worried about how i was  

15:57going to get the book back up on the shelf without  interrupting the conversation so i couldn’t hear  

16:04anything he had to say that’s how codependent  i was i was so trained to be so in tune with  

16:11the other person’s needs i was in tune to you know  my trainers my dad whenever i was there to just  

16:19serve them and i didn’t know how to undo i didn’t  know that this was the mechanism i had going on so  

16:30i finally found a break and i put it up there  and i wish i knew what he said because he was   so full of wonderful knowledge but i did  get the i did get the book and i read it  

16:40and as i’m reading it i’m going oh my gosh  there’s stuff in here that i think my brother  

16:47would relate to and now i was pretty estranged  from my siblings this is very typical i mean  

16:54we didn’t outright fight but we weren’t i i was  just on the periphery i didn’t interact with them  

17:01a lot and of course i was far away so i  called him and he said all he said was  

17:09well you know what happened with  our father and then this sensation  

17:18came over my body and dr ukrainian had taught  me he said now listen when your mind thinks  

17:26something and your body tells you something  different your body is telling you the truth

17:34so i had this body reaction my mind is saying okay  and that’s all he said you know what our father  

17:40did so obviously my mind jumped there but i wasn’t  going to look but i had this full body reaction  

17:49and i can’t remember the rest of the conversation  but after getting off the phone for a whole week  

17:55i did this ping pong no can’t be true my dad no he  no no no no but then my body would say oh this is  

18:04awful and i had this terrible pain all over like  every cell in my body was screaming so by the end  

18:11of the week of that process then i realized that  that was true so that led me to the piece where i  

18:21could start healing just the peace with my father  and the sexual abuse the other thing dr cranian  

18:28taught me was your digestive system doesn’t work  you have your overflow with toxins because you  

18:34experienced trauma while your systems were being  for formed and your digestive system never got to  

18:43fully form so that’s why i was so overloaded  with toxins even though i wasn’t drinking  

18:49or smoking or you know i was eating a pretty clean  i was having a pretty clean lifestyle according to  

18:56my knowledge back then i didn’t know about organic  back then but you know as clean as it could be so

19:07what happened was that i kept you know i kept  investigating doing you know journaling and uh  

19:14then i became part of i had this over i lost  my i had to quit my job because i couldn’t  

19:21function i had severe fibromyalgia nobody  could touch me i mean we’re talking extreme  

19:27pain in every cell of my body on top of the  the tmj so i go to this pain study in um

19:38back up i went to take my youngest  daughter to get her braces   and the prosthetic i thought  okay i need a mouthpiece  

19:46uh because i wear a night guard at night so  why not have him check me out so i went to  

19:53have him check me out and he said oh um you don’t  have anything structurally wrong with your jaw

20:03and he said i know somebody who can help you  though so he sent me to dr love don’t you love  

20:09that name at um the pain study uh institute clinic  at university of washington in seattle that meant  

20:17i had to drive and i was really dissociative  so it was really difficult for me to do this   but i got a stipend uh for going there and  they would um do all these tests but then  

20:28i went in this one time for him to for dr  love to check my mouth and um he had a couple  

20:40of students there and he says is it okay if the  students know watch and learn and um i said okay  

20:49so he did this experiment where he opened  my mouth he says now you just relax and let  

20:56me open your mouth and so he did and then they  measured how wide my mouth would open he says now  

21:04open your mouth on your own let’s  see how wide you can open it   and they would measure it and they did this  three times consistently when i opened my mouth  

21:15myself it was 10 millimeters  wider than when he opened it  

21:22so then he turned to the students he said yes and  this is indicative of sexual abuse oh my whole  

21:31body is just like oh i was flooded i felt my my  face turning red and because you know we’re in a  

21:41learning institution it’s all about learning  i’m not the client you know so it’s just like  

21:46i’m feeling it now again just reliving that  experience so i’m sharing this because when  

21:53we we suppress the the information for so  long and so hard it can produce these effects  

22:02i was able to get over the tmj in three weeks  after learning that piece of information

22:11so it was completely psychosomatic and  all these dentists over all these years  

22:17were drilling on my teeth and doing all kinds of  fancy stuff because they have no clue they have  

22:24no clue except for this guy and the  prosthodontist that i went to so  

22:31as you pointed out we have gaps we have big gaps  in our medical establishment the people who are  

22:36front in the front lines who ought to be able  to let poetic she has nothing wrong with her jaw  

22:43why is she having all this pain they were even  talking about giving me surgery but it would have  

22:49cut off the nerves to my mouth and i wouldn’t have  been able to i wouldn’t have been able to smile oh  

22:55my gosh so i’m very lucky that uh we didn’t do  that uh so that’s that was the very beginning of  

23:02that so then i went on this journey of healing all  around my memories come like right away after that  

23:09or was it what happened is i would have memories  of being underneath the house and these creatures  

23:20chasing me under the house and i would tell dr  crane and i go this is what’s happening i feel  

23:26like it’s icky icky feelings and it was because  my mind he said your mind is protecting you  

23:34you can’t you can’t see what actually happened  you can just just get hints you’re under the house  

23:41the house represents you that means you’re in  the subconscious you just can’t break out of  

23:46the subconscious because it was so horrifying  to you so um he performed naet on me i can’t  

23:54remember what that acronym stands for but this is  the first energy healing that i i received and of  

24:00course we had to go off to some clandestine place  because oh you know a naturopath is not supposed  

24:06to be doing energy work and then he released you  know certain points that he said well your biggest  

24:13issue is fear of abandonment which is basically  almost everybody’s you know but it was huge for me  

24:21um so this set me on this journey of  healing around my father i just did lots of  

24:28work on that i could never get solid memories  of it but it was just like notions notions  

24:38and um so we’ll fast for a few more years i  moved to paris because my husband gets he gets  

24:47transferred to paris for a couple of years and um  and my two younger kids got to go to the american  

24:54school of paris and it was cool that i already  spoke french so like wow thank you that’s a safe  

25:00but let’s see how the universe how it all gets set  up like this we’ve gone to germany i couldn’t have  

25:06spoken and i was dissociative so it was really  you know it was really um it was really hard  

25:12to just do anything but i go okay i can  function i know french and um so my brother  

25:19comes over to visit they said the saying goes  when you move to paris everybody visits you  

25:25so that’s what happens i came all the way  to see me there wasn’t going to come up to  

25:30washington but oh de paris paris yeah so he  came now this is the one where uh we were  

25:39talking earlier about half truths right discerning  whether something is a full truth or half truth  

25:48so he comes to visit and i’m telling i said  i’m feeling better i think i got over stuff  

25:53i’m feeling more energy and i that summer i  was able to function and it was really cool  

25:59and he said well there’s more are you ready i go  hey i want to heal just just tell me just tell me  

26:09okay well we were prostituted  and used in satanic rituals  

26:17again the whole body reaction again  but he said two things in that sentence

26:26so i could believe being prostituted because  i remembered being put in suitcases and potato  

26:33bags we’re talking from two years old i was  taken out and used by both men and women  

26:41so i remember being put in the trunk of the car  um and then it turned out it it took me several  

26:49years later to figure out the definitive moment  when i quit my job my last job because i lost my  

26:57teaching credential status we just moved over  the border and so i was working as a teacher’s   assistant from the business school and i was in  the candy store and i was stalking candy and um  

27:11and then i had this notion i had to go answer the  phone i’ll remember i’ll get back to my brother   in a minute i went over to the phone and i saw it  was off the hook and i lifted it up oh a vendor uh  

27:24with an order oh yes yes yes so i went over to  the business teacher i said did you know there  

27:30the there was somebody on the phone she says yes i  came in and i had this whole conversation with you  

27:36to tell you about it and i said if we  were in a court of law i would swear that   i don’t remember you coming and talking to me  so i had total missing time total missing time  

27:48from an entire experience so i thought oh my  gosh what else am i not remembering you know i  

27:56hear i had somebody to verify what happened and  the evidence was there the phone was off the hook  

28:04years later it took years later  to figure out what happened  

28:09stocking the shelves with candy triggered the  memory of my dad luring me to the car with candy

28:18so you see how the most benign thing   with this kind of background  the most benign thing like m m’s

28:29um could make you just go and i went  totally i would go possum they say  

28:36fight flight i did the freeze that was my go-to  mechanism was freeze so get back to my brother  

28:48and he had these two things in the sentence so i  thought okay i can but oh they say tank rituals  

28:54he’s you know my brother i think he’s a little bit  you know i don’t think he’s really got it yeah but  

29:01i’m not going to say that i love him i’m not going  to say we’ve been through this stuff and so i   didn’t say anything to him but privately i thought  this is you know but then i started to have some  

29:14interesting experiences my husband’s iranian  we went to iran and i came back and i  

29:19came back with a curse from somebody who  was jealous in the family so i went to   a bodytalk practitioner who removed the curse  and i’m going okay this is really weird i mean  

29:30uh because i was getting all these symptoms  i’m very sensitive so i thought okay i didn’t  

29:36see how that was related to anything uh all  that’s related to is that i’m very sensitive  

29:42and so we moved to connecticut after  that my husband’s on a business trip  

29:51and as i’m starting to fall asleep there’s  this entity that comes from 20 feet away  

29:58now the room is only 10 by 10. but this entity  how do you know it came from 20 feet away  

30:06and its face was within six inches of  my nose and i knew it wanted my soul  

30:13and i thought oh my gosh i jumped out of  bed i go okay that wasn’t my imagination   that when i’m turning on all the lights  and i am i’m freaked out totally freaked  

30:24out and i go oh my god oh my god oh my god  my brother he’s right he’s right he’s right  

30:29and that was the experience that i had to have  so i’m going oh he’s on the west coast i can’t  

30:35talk to him yet so i’m waiting i couldn’t sleep  all night um so i waited until the morning to  

30:42to call him and he said oh yeah yeah that happened  to me for seven years i had to deal with it i go  

30:48what because yeah portals were opened while  we were going through these things so this  

30:54was like i’m going okay i need a healing team  i need to be with people who understand this so  

31:02that’s when i made the intention that okay  i need a healing team i i’m humpty dumpty  

31:08i need all the king’s horses and all the kings  because this is just i have no idea you know  

31:15what to do but in the meantime i’m learning to  do bodytalk which is an energy healing system  

31:21and i’m trying to help my kids overcome  you know the issues of our family because  

31:27you know i married somebody who was like  my father no not as bad right or nothing  

31:35physical or sexual happened to my kids but you  know the emotional trauma happened and um so  

31:43we get back to washington and uh then i find out  i need to divorce because i realized that um that

31:56my husband was with other people

32:02and i could hear him on the phone and in the  meantime he was you know he was telling me well  

32:07if you can’t if you can’t keep up with paying the  bills then we’re gonna have to just sell the house   you know and here i’m on disability and i’m really  scared and and so any kind of threat it was really  

32:21easy to threaten me because i was so trained  fast forward today man is absolutely scared of me

32:32i love you too you are so  powerful and just so resilient  

32:37just because i i stood up to it you  know i got narcissists worst nightmare  

32:43well what it was is the angels i believe that  angels came and brought me evidence and i said no   no no no this can’t oh i’m sorry we didn’t finish  the thing about the half truths when my brother  

32:54presented two things in one sentence i thought  that was a half truth that one happened to be a  

33:00whole truth so see this is where half truth can  get sticky so i wanted to button that topic up  

33:08so so anyway angels were showing me you know this  is what’s going on and you know you’re in a bad  

33:16situation and you gotta do something about this  and my daughter’s about to get married i’m going  

33:23why does this all have to come out before one  year so i went through the whole marriage like  

33:29thinking i was gonna either throw up or cry at any  minute so i kept you know hiding because i’m going  

33:34i got a divorce i got a divorce and i i gotta do  it on the slide because he’s gonna deny everything  

33:41whatever so so that set me on this course of of  doing this wonderful divorce uh which in itself  

33:49was a huge um event uh and it went on for three  years because you don’t threaten a narcissist  

33:57with divorce i found out i didn’t know what a  narcissist was until you know i started going  

34:03then i started okay hey i’m going into debt paying  all these lawyers i’m gonna get all the healers  

34:09and so it turned out that all the people i needed  showed up i went to this woman she was a family

34:18family therapist or something like that that i  had been referred to earlier because um i went  

34:24to this cranial sacral therapist thought you know  things aren’t going too right in your situation   maybe you want it but i i didn’t want to face that  i didn’t want to face that so i go to her finally  

34:36and then i go you know what i don’t care what she  thinks i’m gonna blurt everything out i told her  

34:42about the sra i told her about you know getting  um you know being prostituted i told her about  

34:49the sexual abuse and here i was ready for her to  just throw me out the door and she goes oh i know  

34:58just what you need you need a soul retrieval  and i just met the person that can help you  

35:06so i was like what i was you know prepared for  this you know really awful reaction so then  

35:13she sent me to this guy this medium uh  and so then i started uh healing with him  

35:20and uh because he can see your guides it’s  like you lay there and he’s talking to these  

35:26invisible beings whatever so i go to set up  my first appointment and this is something  

35:32for your audience to know if you’re dealing with  somebody with uh who’s had satanic virtual abuse  

35:40he said now there might be some voices in your  head they’re going to tell you that i’m evil or  

35:48that you couldn’t you shouldn’t come to see me or  your car might not start or whatever there might  

35:57be something that might try to prevent you from  coming you need to resist that and push through it  

36:07well i’ve got a real stubborn streak in me so that  it served me well i go okay i’m gonna anchor in  

36:15and sure enough you know the fears no i shouldn’t  go oh yes yes i’m going i’m going i’m going  

36:21so i went and uh my first appointment  lasted eight hours which was unusual and um  

36:29he said oh my gosh i’ve never seen anybody  release so much excuse my french the ssh

36:37in one session and um and so people  healers like that work with um

36:46in the world of spirit language is through images and animals and things  like that so it’s not always with words and  

37:00symbols lots of symbols right right and so he’s  trying to tell me about all these fantastic things  

37:06but what he does is he puts the protective you  know the the the christed light brings it in  

37:14makes everything protected whatever he goes  to open up the energy it was booby-trapped it  

37:22sent him onto his knees and he said if he didn’t  think quickly enough he would have died um but  

37:30he was able to he goes oh my gosh i should have  but he’d never dealt with somebody like me before  

37:36he’d never dealt with satanic ritual abuse  and then later i don’t know how far down the  

37:43rabbit hole we could go but there were  a lot of fantastic things that happened  

37:48there so in my journey uh discovering all i went  through the shock of discovery for two and a  

37:55half years of just discovering all these really  gnarly things and um but i couldn’t make it out  

38:02i can’t remember how far into that those two and  a half years i think it was like maybe six months  

38:08i was calling uh to make the  appointment with him i can’t understand   why would somebody go have all these things  happen to them would think that one of these  

38:17things would be enough and she said well haven’t  you heard of mk ultra like everybody knew about it  

38:24and i go no and she said and so she’s the one who  directed me to listen to kathy o’brien so then i  

38:31started listening to that and then that’s  when i started now i’m going through this  

38:38divorce at the same time i’m going through all  of these discoveries so i’m feeling like how am  

38:45i going to be able to hold this all together  so i’m generating a lot of fear i mean i was  

38:52experiencing re-experiencing terror terror can be  like your cells just exploding it can also come  

39:01as your blood just turning cold like ice so  i go oh wow i get i know all about fear and  

39:09terror isn’t how wonderful is it oh my gosh and  so you know you have to have some comic relief  

39:18along the way or else you’re gonna you know you’re  gonna give up so i’ve having all all this creepy  

39:25stuff is happening in the house and um we get a  cat i’m there just with my youngest daughter now  

39:33because the other two were off in college during  this divorce the divorce era so we get a cat  

39:39because we think okay if the cat’s bumping around  will go oh there’s another oh it must be the cat

39:46so we’re sitting at the kitchen counter  and we’re both feeling like this cold  

39:54like coming up our back and we could both feel  and how did we know the other one is feeling  

40:00the same thing this is this is the ministry of how  we’re all connected right so we look at each other  

40:06didn’t have to say anything so we go to  look back at the cat because we’re thinking   we’re both thinking that okay if the cat’s chill  it’s fine we look back at the cat and her first

40:20and we go no no no no

40:29not supposed to happen that way

40:34so there’s this one night i’m laying in bed  and i hear this knocking in the wall really  

40:41loud knocking and i’m scared half out of my  wood so i call the next morning i call the  

40:47medium so what’s going on and he goes that was  you you created elementals with your thinking  

40:57you see you’ve got to stop those fear thoughts  i’m going yeah i remember reading years earlier  

41:04in the hindu tradition they’re talking about how  thoughts were things oh my gosh i was living that  

41:10reality he goes you need to go into non-fear so my  whole education with this guy was as we’re going  

41:21and discovering things and that and then i went  to another therapist was bringing up the memories  

41:28and what their their back and  forth they were working in   tandem with each other i would go to  her i would journal i got this wonderful  

41:41dream interpretation book um by tony crisp oh  amazing i got it for a dollar at a book sale  

41:51and so i was interpreting my dreams and i’d go to  the therapist and she says where are you getting   this information i said this book i only spent  a dollar for it she goes that is i’ve been doing  

42:00this for 20 years this is the these are the best  interpretations so i i was getting really into  

42:07digging deeper i finally got out of the basement  of the house and i was getting into the house  

42:13and the house represents your your body and  going into the different rooms and so forth  

42:19and having experiences in that but then sometimes  they were actual like memories and then i would  

42:26um remember people doing things like i felt so  guilty because i knew they were doing stuff to  

42:34my brother who’s five years younger but the way it  came up in the dream is there were these big bears  

42:41and they were eating and i’m not and then i was  going oh i can’t save them from the bears because  

42:48i couldn’t go there to the literal but then when i  woke up i go oh i know what that was representing  

42:55so when people have these if if the trauma  is too great and they’re highly sensitive so  

43:02me being very sensitive that means  that all the torture i went through  

43:08was magnified oh yeah or than the average you know  an average person so i go to the the therapist  

43:18and oh i was going to cranial sacral therapy  the same not cranos visceral manipulation  

43:24then they work with the viscera i don’t know  if you’ve heard but it’s very very gentle very   and so he’s working on me one day and he asked me  oh were you involved in any rituals by any chance  

43:37i said well yeah uh i was and this i knew right i  was in the knowing and i said yeah i was uh used  

43:46in satanic ritual abuse he goes oh because i see  you laying on a slab with your hands and feet tied  

43:56so that’s all i needed i go okay so i took that  i go i’m not gonna i’m not gonna process this on  

44:03my own so i went to the therapist she did emdr  and she did it with the selenite stone which  

44:10doesn’t if you know about selenite it doesn’t  absorb any negative energies oh yeah i have one  

44:18um they’re just cool looking by the way um  so i go in there and i told her about this  

44:26and she goes okay let’s let’s do this let’s  go into there so we go into the memory now  

44:32how this felt like it was when i was five years i  felt like did you ever watch the movie the matrix  

44:39yeah you know when neo gets sucked  down that tube that’s what it felt  

44:45like i felt like this memory was physically  sucking me in down this tube to this place  

44:55and there i saw myself as a five-year-old i was  naked tied down to this stone altar which was  

45:07exactly the same altar by the way that they put  in the opening scene of sherlock holmes the movie  

45:13what the exact i go when i saw that movie i  go where how do they know what that’s supposed  

45:19to look like how do they know anyway so  but then i’m standing outside of myself  

45:29and i’m wearing clothes and my five-year-old stuff  and there’s this beautiful woman standing next to  

45:35me in this gossamer gown oh it just makes me  want to cry she’s so beautiful so gracious  

45:43and but i’m looking down at the child there  on there and then i see the three hooded  

45:48figures i can’t see their faces and they’re  saying well we can’t break her we can’t break her  

45:55but when i saw myself i  saw two of me i saw my head  

46:01one head going this direction and the other had  going that so there was there were two of me one   superimposed on top of the other and one was going  one direction the other one was going the other  

46:13that’s really weird so she helped me through  the experience it was really i was so grateful  

46:19there was somebody there i was thinking man this  woman isn’t running out of the room yet you know  

46:25and um so we got through that i calmed down  it was really nice to release that and so   then we knew i was right to go see the medium and  have the energy removed so this is how it works  

46:38they can’t release the the healer can’t take that  energy from you until you’ve learned the lesson

46:50until you got it okay so i learned well this  was i learned what happened and i got it  

47:00and there’s a lot of stuff that’s not at the  cognitive level so but anyway i go into him  

47:07and i said i saw two of me and he said  oh you saw two of you because one of you  

47:15you were separating whenever a a child or anybody  goes through trauma a piece of their soul leaves  

47:21and you are watching a piece  of your soul leave your body   i said why is that they said that’s to preserve  innocence so by me going through that reliving  

47:35it and understanding and by the way the woman  who was standing next to me was my higher self  

47:41so um so it was just it was it was a  very beautiful very beautiful scene so  

47:48he was able to do the soul retrieval where not  only was i able to retrieve my soul you don’t  

47:58do your entire soul right a piece of your soul  so we were able to bring back that piece of my  

48:04soul from that incident and then he said and  then he brought in all the pieces from my  

48:10soul from all the past life because i’ve been  tortured every single lifetime up to this one

48:18that’s the kind of soul i’ve got i guess i don’t  know but anyway he said was like a light he said i   wish you could see it all the lights are coming  in and he’s saying yeah and he’s he’s having a  

48:26wondrous time and i’m feeling really good i go oh  wow this is so cool i get to be whole again well  

48:35that was just the beginning because there  was so much i had to do to become whole um  

48:42but that’s it’s just an amazing amazing  thing to happen to be able oh he said that um  

48:53yes this can only happen because the  energies of course this was in 2007 or eight  

49:01so the energies finally opened up for us to be  able to do this this was not possible until now  

49:08so this is a message of hope  to everybody and since then   the healing energies have been opening up and  opening up and oh and the consciousness of  

49:20everybody going through their traumas i know  that was is was not fun like it wasn’t fun for  

49:27me to go through the divorce and everything but  you know i learned i go wow i cannot be a victim  

49:34i have to stand up for myself nobody’s going  to stand up for now i’ll go back to the matrix  

49:40again i love this scene it’s one of my favorite  movies the scene where neo is uh going to rescue  

49:49morpheus morpheus is tied to the chair and he  can barely just he can just barely function  

49:57that’s a really good analogy for us because  neo the one could save him only when morpheus  

50:08tried to save himself he had to get up  out of the chair and meet him halfway  

50:17beautiful metaphor beautiful metaphor  and so this is where we have to you  

50:22know as individual no matter what we’ve gone  through and everybody’s gone through stuff   recently everybody and if you haven’t  personally know somebody and that affects you  

50:34and to just know that this is part of our actually  you know we’re growing up we’re growing out  

50:41of it you know it’s uh you know a child when  they’re growing how they’ll have growing pains   you know so we’re having growing pains i’ve  gone off on tangents so please uh help me  

50:54oh my gosh all that was so valuable no  thank you okay because i want to make   sure i’m not just rambling on and not giving  me i want to be giving uh useful information  

51:05uh that will empower people because there was  so much i learned along the way so much because  

51:12i was there wasn’t a day that didn’t pass that  i wasn’t focused on healing because i so badly  

51:19my entire adult life i was in utter  pain and um you know i’ve come recently  

51:28i was able to let go of the ptsd and  the last piece of that was nutritional  

51:37because so what with the fires here in california  uh three was it three and a half years ago i  

51:44was i came down with dementia because of the  toxins in the air you know the when you have  

51:51med heavy metals in the brain is what causes  dementia and i knew that i’m like oh my gosh  

51:58i need a detox system i’m not around healers here  um who can help me i’ve got to do this on my own  

52:04and so that’s when i came upon medical medium and  i started using his protocols for detoxification  

52:11i was able to reverse the dementia in three months  oh my gosh in three months and the bonus was  

52:21my ptsd fully lifted because and then i read it  in his books i go oh the neurotoxins in the brain  

52:28don’t let you completely heal from the ptsd  i did all the spiritual and emotional work  

52:35but i wasn’t able to you know i things would  still like you know startle me and i go whoa  

52:42and oh i don’t have photophobia anymore i  thought i was just born with photophobia  

52:48and photophobia is when lights hurt your eyes you  know any overhead light would just i was always  

52:55the house was always dark because the lights would  hurt my eyes the sun wouldn’t hurt my eyes and go   oh the sun is oh and i don’t have acid reflux  anymore so it was you know when you do the  

53:07holistic thing so here’s another message is  that we’ve got to address we’ve got to address  

53:14our well-being at every level of our beingness  our nutrition our thinking our beliefs and  

53:24we don’t have enough time to go into that  into the belief thing but the beliefs are  

53:29this time uh the beliefs are the drivers of our  you know if you’ve listened to bruce lipton and  

53:36all of those people they  definitely are the drivers   uh so i’ll give an example of this one so yeah  i tell people who become like a sherlock holmes  

53:48uh when you have curious things going on  in your life and they’re unexplainable  

53:53uh try to find out well what is the what is going  on in my subconscious that’s driving this and um  

54:02this is before the divorce area era  and this is when i was sick on the   couch a lot and my oldest daughter was in high  school she invited me to go to this really cool  

54:13you know um bookstore in seattle and so we were  going to go there and look at the tarot cards and  

54:20fun stuff and and um and then go out for  a hamburger so we went out together i had  

54:28a lovely time i was going wow i’m having such a  great time this is wonderful oh and we get home  

54:34not only like 10 minutes after getting home i  get this immense pain all over my body and i  

54:40have to go to the couch and i’m laying down on  the couch and i’m going wait a minute i wasn’t  

54:45exposed to any toxins i was going through  my checklist i had a wonderful time oh my  

54:50gosh i got to be with my you know with my teenage  daughter who wouldn’t want that you know we went  

54:57there was there were no negatives  like how is it that i am just so sick  

55:04and then i laid there and i call it tuning in  that’s some people call it praying opening up  

55:11meditating then the information came in oh i  had the belief that it was forbidden to have fun  

55:21so i automatically punish myself with  physical pain the brain will just it’s like  

55:28oh okay i’m on to you so i use the eckhart  tolling method where you’d be the watcher  

55:34and i invite anybody who hasn’t read his  stuff go read his stuff amazing so i read  

55:40him for he was he was my guru for three full  years every day just listening to him and um  

55:49so i thought okay the next time this happens  i’m going to catch it and so it only happened  

55:58just a few more times and each time i didn’t get  as sick and it didn’t last long so i was able to  

56:05undo but i had to shed the light of knowledge onto  that belief we have these beliefs that we really  

56:14were totally unaware of and i didn’t think when  i went to the pain study they had me go through  

56:21cognitive therapy i don’t know if you’ve heard  of that right so it’s very left brain you write  

56:26down what your thoughts are whatever and they had  me have this little timer that would go off and  

56:33i had to write down whatever was  in my mind when the timer went off   i was so shocked because i thought i was a  positive thinker because i was i was listening  

56:43to zig zigler and all these positive thinking  people brian tracy tony robbins you name it right  

56:52and i couldn’t believe the thoughts i was i was  embarrassed in front of myself so that’s another  

57:00exercise that i’d invite everybody to go through  to go out and clean out that library because guess  

57:07what it is uh it can create disease or it can  create problems in relationships problems with  

57:16money you name it it’s gonna it’s gonna pop up  as a problem somewhere because why because then  

57:24the problem is just the messenger hey you see this  you see this this is not the way we’re meant to be

57:33we’re meant to be in balance we’re meant to be  in harmony but um coming out of this era that we  

57:42learned through opposites we learned  love by experiencing hatred we learn  

57:49loyalty by experiencing betrayal etc etc we’re  letting go of that the new way is coming and the  

57:59new way of teaching we don’t teach so much at the  way like instructing we teach by example being an  

58:09example and then people will say oh and that’s  what happened to eckhart tolle you know he just  

58:18he was this example of total bliss people said  well how did you do that he goes i don’t know i  

58:23guess i gotta go get this out so then he started  studying so he could have words for it and um and  

58:31so he’s in another another amazing uh guide for  there’s so many beautiful souls out there giving  

58:38us the information for when we’re ready for it  the teacher arrives when the student is ready

58:49and um so that’s where we’re at you know we  will come because i mean i wasn’t ready people  

58:55there were clues about my past there were clues  about my marriage all the you know when i started  

59:02reading the books i’m going oh my god oh my god  it was right there it was right there oh my god   it was right in front of my nose but it’s so  unconscious you know and one of the things that  

59:12i love that that you talk about is you know two  things the how you talk about serotonin and how  

59:21people are chasing that unconsciously and looking  for chaos in their life chaotic relationships  

59:28and don’t realize that it’s serving a human need  that they can replace that habit and that belief  

59:33with something else but they’re so tied up and  unconsciously you know seeking in relationships  

59:39are these patterns you know and not understanding  the physiology of why they keep making those  

59:45same choices over and over again you know  so many of us get caught in that even people   you know i’ve done that in my life where i’ve  repeated you know the same patterns and dated  

59:54the same people even though in the beginning i’m  like oh this person’s so different and then you   know a year down the road it’s like wait a minute  how did i end up in this exact same spot you know  

1:00:05do you have anything to contribute to that i  love how you talk about the serotonin aspect  

1:00:10and how oh yes yeah well the patterns it’s the we  have these vibrational patterns so for me because  

1:00:18i had all this trauma and the type of trauma  i had i attracted all kinds of bizarre weird  

1:00:26things and people but at the same time okay i i  have to give the message this is a little sidebar  

1:00:34that you know talk about all these awful things  but along the way there were these i was being  

1:00:39protected when i was two years old or going  through this kind of thing the child will try to  

1:00:47annihilate itself instinctively so i kept trying  to kill myself and my poor mother was trying to  

1:00:54she was if you could just stay alive till you’re  five could get you to kindergarten um so but i  

1:01:01we were the family went to uh visit uh my aunt  in petaluma who lived on this really steep hill  

1:01:09uh back then the breaks were this like a little  stick that you would just pop and then it would oh  

1:01:18it would release the break my older sister got in  to to play in there you know she wouldn’t let me  

1:01:25have a turn because i was the younger sister right  so i got down my turn when she was out of the car  

1:01:31i’m in there two and a half years old the car  starts rolling down the steepest hill in petaluma  

1:01:39going across the busiest road and i remember going  because i was steering like this i was going up  

1:01:46one side walked out so i slowed  down a little bit i went across   the intersection without hitting a car jumped the  curb uh went head-on into a tree totaled my dad’s  

1:02:01it wasn’t his car it was his company car um of  course there are no seat belts back then if i was  

1:02:08if there were i wouldn’t put them on anyway right  two two and a half years old they run they find  

1:02:14out what hap what’s happening they see the cars  missing out oh my gosh and my mom had just lost my   my god my sister linda to she was a blue baby  she was going oh my gosh i’ve lost another child  

1:02:26they ran down there and they found me all  curled up on the seat my mom thought i was dead  

1:02:33when they reached in i didn’t have a bruise or  a scratch and i swear there was a cat on the  

1:02:42seat with me my memory is that there’s a cat and i  ran this my doctor couldn’t he said oh yeah we all  

1:02:49have these little spirit guides so anyway that  was a a side remark i wanted to bring up that  

1:02:54we have these these beautiful experiences  along the way if we’re meant to stay alive  

1:03:04the universe is going to find a way to keep us  alive right and if it’s time for us to go it’s  

1:03:10time for us to go so that’s where we can let go  of the fear of death it’s going to happen when it  

1:03:17is supposed to it’s never going to be  an accident you might have an excuse  

1:03:24oh you fell off the cliff or whatever that might  be the excuse but the timing is is something that  

1:03:31has been like programmed if you will so you  can just let go of that fear of death now i  

1:03:39forgot where we were uh i forgot the trail  so get me back on that troll oh the series  

1:03:45yes so um the serotonin yeah i kept attracting uh  all these people and then when i was told that i  

1:03:54was gonna continue to have uh by this time it was  you know it was one stop shopping with my husband  

1:04:03because i got out of him what what i got from  my dad from my mom my older sister she was set  

1:04:09up as a as uh my enemy you know she wanted  to be my friend uh and look at the outside  

1:04:16world there see what happens to us yeah but she  wanted to be my friend but it was the control  

1:04:21issue so anyway he was able to trigger me in  all you know from all of these these memories  

1:04:30and so i’m being taught okay i’m going through  the divorce so i go okay i decide to let go of  

1:04:35that but now i was still having all of  the pain and the anguish and the fear  

1:04:41and um i’m still working on non-fear and this  is when i was told that yeah my serotonin i was  

1:04:48getting my serotonin because how can i get rid  of i finally make the decision i’m doing what i’m   supposed to how come all this stuff keep happening  and um it was because i had to keep producing  

1:05:01aces so you need to find ways to pull back from  that need and that’s when i decided that i would  

1:05:10get excited whenever i saw a butterfly or a sunset   now people want proof what about this serotonin  thing there’s a really interesting experience  

1:05:21i had i was working with somebody who had one  of these really advanced biofeedback machines  

1:05:30and the biofeedback uh said that i was addicted  to the victim on i went into i was so upset i  

1:05:41go oh my gosh when can i just be addicted  to alcohol or something normal like that

1:05:49don’t they know what to do with that don’t  they but when you’re addicted to victim   how do you so that’s how i kept bringing  in experiences to make me a victim and  

1:06:00uh and so she said hey but there’s this  button here where you can reverse that  

1:06:06i go okay well let’s try this now it wasn’t  in her training um so we were experimenting  

1:06:16and i almost lost my life because it  turned out to be my core personality  

1:06:22was victim and so i stopped producing  serotonin and i could hardly lift my arm

1:06:34so i check in with the healer and he says well  you were lucky you didn’t die because but you’re   an old soul so you got through it but so that’s  my proof when when my core identity was reversed  

1:06:49and of course it didn’t stick because i  wasn’t ready for it i didn’t have the lesson  

1:06:55and so here i’m going to hound it in when you get  the lesson things have the permission to disappear  

1:07:03from your life so i had to get the lesson  to stand up for myself i knew i needed to  

1:07:10do that but i had to pray and it is so hard it was  excruciating to stand up for myself when i wasn’t  

1:07:21when i was trained to do otherwise and people  who are brought up in more uh sane families uh  

1:07:31more healthy families where they teach the child  to have a sense of self they can’t relate to  

1:07:37that and they can’t relate to why would a woman go  back to an abusive relationship and it’s like this  

1:07:44magnetic thing you you don’t you know you see it  you and you but then your mind has to excuse it oh  

1:07:53well he’ll get better and so your mind will  come in and make the excuses but it’s not your  

1:07:58mind that’s doing it it’s this it’s just like  this magnetic attractor that you need that to  

1:08:06stay alive and be safe in an insane way and in  the case of a woman who’s with an abuser well  

1:08:16she sometimes she ends up getting killed but she  was safe in the sense that this is where she felt  

1:08:25familiar yes so we feel safe around that which  is familiar that’s why we have xenophobia  

1:08:34you know when you’re in a room  full of people who are not like you   you know you you don’t feel if they’re all  dressed different or whatever is because they’re  

1:08:44not familiar maybe there’s nothing wrong with them  but that’s part of our programming that we need to  

1:08:53mindfully deconstruct so that we  understand when something truly is  

1:09:01a threat and it truly isn’t a threat but you can  apply this to like refugees people you know i  

1:09:09have a daughter living in sweden and they were bri  they’ve been bringing refugees up there for quite  

1:09:14some time and the people there would complain they  go wait a minute these these refugees they don’t  

1:09:21they’re bringing refugees from the middle  east where they’re going through tons of   trauma bombs you name it you know um and they  bring them up to sweden where i don’t know if  

1:09:32you’ve ever been to sweden but there ain’t much  going on there you know it’s just like oh you know  

1:09:39everything’s nice you know they’re  very even-tempered you know  

1:09:46they would never invite tony robbins there  believe me he’s too out there for them so  

1:09:55but they don’t understand when they bring these  refugees and they go well wait a minute they’re   in this safe place and they’re going bananas  this is because when you you took away too much  

1:10:07of their trauma too fast without training their  nervous system to adapt to this new form of safety  

1:10:22and so i was just pulling right when i was seen  and people hearing people on the new you know   talking about you know complaining  about them how they were ungrateful  

1:10:31or they’re just you know impossible or whatever  but some of them you know did adapt but it was  

1:10:38a big it’s a big problem and it’s a big problem  around the world because we have lots of refugees  

1:10:43and so and then they end up being a lot of them  will end up being um mugged they’re the ones who  

1:10:51are getting mugged and so forth it’s not because  they’re bad or they deserve it it’s because they   still have this energy pattern of trauma so as a  species we need to recognize cycles of trauma and  

1:11:07stop the cycle of trauma and heal the people and  we don’t discount anybody’s story no matter how  

1:11:16wild because when you invalidate somebody  that’s what happened to me i went to the  

1:11:22psychiatrist i just did that because i was in  the divorce you can only go to the people who are  

1:11:30um certified by the court right you know as bona  fide uh what they call experts and of course  

1:11:40i went to him and and because i needed  i needed something for my nerves   and um he said well point blank he says i was  taught that that’s a fantasy there’s no such  

1:11:49thing as satanic virtual abuse and that it’s  all your imagination he told me point blank   and he was a very good soul a very good-hearted  person but he believed his training  

1:12:02so this is where we’ve got to do the education  and also you know like when i meet a schizophrenic  

1:12:11now i don’t believe the story that they’re  telling me that all these people are after   them and all these wild things are happening but i  i take it in as if okay that’s really real to them  

1:12:26and they need to feel safe by somebody just  listening the act of compassionate listening  

1:12:34can be so healing and so this gets to  what i do in in my practice um it’s this  

1:12:44it was explained to me by the the term placticus  which is an aztec term for heart heart and so  

1:12:55the aztec shaman understood that if somebody’s  been through a trauma and they’ve completely  

1:13:02healed from it then when somebody comes to them  to simply talk to them and relate their experience  

1:13:11just by the act of communicating heart  to heart the wisdom of that healing  

1:13:18transfers to that person because that’s the  way we’re designed how beautiful is that  

1:13:28so that’s why i got so excited that i go oh  i got clear though i don’t have any demons   no no no that stuff i got i was vetted by  more than one healer i said are you sure  

1:13:40are you sure i’m not going to do anything  crazy i don’t have any programming left or   you know and and also that i forgive  them and see what does it mean to forgive  

1:13:52is that my goal just like eckhart tolle explains  the goal wasn’t to forgive the goal was to heal  

1:13:59the forgiving comes as a natural byproduct because  you’re no longer placing blame on that person i  

1:14:09could see i could heal first like when i realized  that my father had to go through horrendous things  

1:14:18to do the horrendous things  to me because we don’t do this  

1:14:24you just don’t find a human being who will do  that naturally why do they have to train soldiers  

1:14:31to kills because it’s not our instinct to kill  okay so i had to go into that and go and then now  

1:14:40this might be a little bit much for some people  but i i do believe that we make soul contracts  

1:14:48and um and i did have a soul contract with my  father to do this um and he actually did a service  

1:14:58because this was the excuse that got  me to the healer so that i could go   and retrieve all my soul pieces from past lives  and that i had worked with him in lives prior  

1:15:10where we were what do you call it uh we  were supports for each other this time  

1:15:19he had to play this role unfortunately when  we come into these roles sometimes we forget

1:15:28well most of the time we forget and we can  get distracted by the role and we can go a  

1:15:34little too far whatever and um but he did wake  up when i was around 11 12 and he realized  

1:15:47what he was doing and so he got both me and my  brother out of the program and he knew it would  

1:15:55mean his death so he died of cancer a very slow  long slow death which people will say that was a  

1:16:08good way for him to release karma from what he did  now this is an interpretation not everybody has to  

1:16:14buy into it but it helps me feel more at peace and  i’ve communicated with him many times uh since my  

1:16:26deepest healing and i’m grateful to him because he  in my view he made the greater sacrifice because  

1:16:35his soul had to go through so much healing at the  soul after doing when a soul performs these types  

1:16:45of acts here you don’t just go back to your review  board and they say oh bad jobs you do it you know  

1:16:54oh we think you know this might be you  know no you have some things that really  

1:17:00deeply need to be healed and of course  you’re supported by angelic beings uh  

1:17:07but it was it’s taken him a while and i’m so  grateful because now i understand that this was  

1:17:19our agreement now of course to die you told if you  told me this when i first started that i go what

1:17:28but it took this evolution where i could  see this and i start i read the book uh   sacred contracts by carolyn miss also if  you read louise hay you can heal your life  

1:17:40she talks about this and so when we we  realized that we are more in command than we  

1:17:50think we are and then we can understand that we’re  truly not victims and that we can okay i’m not a  

1:18:01victim anymore okay this doesn’t just reverse just  by thinking that you have to retrain you know and  

1:18:07there’s certain circumstances where i go like okay  i’m an older person right the computer sometimes

1:18:18i have issues with the computer my relationship  with the computer and that will set me off and  

1:18:26i have to be careful because i’ll affect  it so i go okay i’m sorry i’m sorry sorry

1:18:34yeah i can yeah i don’t want to blow up  my computer it’s my friend but sometimes   you know getting on websites and trying to  negotiate them uh but we’re here for experiences  

1:18:46uh but how can we support the people who are  going through these experiences right now  

1:18:51we can surround them if you’re not in the  front lines okay we’re not in the front lines  

1:18:58if you’re not in the front lines  send everyone compassion all those  

1:19:05involved for me to he see to be healed i had to  look down at my abuse and i had to look at myself  

1:19:14as an equal with all the other players and i had  to send compassion and forgiveness because then i  

1:19:22forget i i would uh feel blame you know why did i  allow this to happen you know these human selves  

1:19:31these ideas that we get we get these really  crazy crazy notions and we beat ourselves up  

1:19:39and i became an expert at beating myself up so i  know and it doesn’t take severe trauma to do that

1:19:50a hundred percent that’s so beautiful and i love  that you you know it’s always controversial when  

1:19:57i talk about not just forgiveness but  in looking at multiple different lenses  

1:20:06whenever we think about abusers right because  when you say i’m going to forgive somebody  

1:20:12or i’m trying to understand how that person got  to where they are people misinterpret that as  

1:20:18we have empathy and excuse what they did right  but that’s the piece that’s really missing for  

1:20:24a lot of society that does know that this goes on  is and it’s very justified the the emotions that  

1:20:31stir up when people learn are you know anger  and you know just being so mad and enraged  

1:20:36and infuriated and i think that’s justified but  when we don’t sit here and say we need to have a  

1:20:43better understanding of this we need to understand  how a perfect innocent child that’s born without  

1:20:50hate without any notion of abuse what happens  between then and when they do become abusive  

1:20:58right and so we’re kind of at the point where  we we can understand what an innocent child   looks like we know what abuse looks like  but bridging that gap between what happens  

1:21:08that’s where i think the compassion  comes in is to realize oh my gosh   what makes a person be so evil that it’s beyond  the comprehension of people who hear about it  

1:21:19you know these are people that were inflicted with  so much trauma had no idea what love was you know  

1:21:25that’s not like you said a natural thing for you  know somebody to grow up and say i’m just gonna  

1:21:31perform horrific you know rituals on my  children and prostitute them out you know and   again it doesn’t excuse what people do but i love  that you’re shedding light on that just because  

1:21:41i do think that in healing as a society  and in being there for survivors   survivors are always the ones i’ve never had  a survivor on my show who was like i freaking  

1:21:51hope that that all my abusers die and that they  die these horrific deaths you know they’re like   i hope justice comes i want to get justice but you  know that was my dad or that was my somebody in my  

1:22:01life that i loved not somebody that i wish would  heal i wish they would come to the side that i’m  

1:22:06on you know and i wish i could understand or pull  them out of that and so i really appreciate you  

1:22:13talking about that just because i think that’s  really hard for people who haven’t gone through   that and who have never traversed such a deep  level of healing to understand the layers of  

1:22:24how to come out on the other side and to be able  to look at the world in a l with a lens that is  

1:22:31with compassion and love and empathy and to have  that be the frequency that you want to remain on  

1:22:37instead of continuing to dip into these anger and  fear patterns you know because like how you said  

1:22:43that stores in our body you know manifest even if  it’s not trauma that we took on if it’s a reaction  

1:22:49of something we’re continuously reacting to that’s  i mean they want that you know abusers want us in  

1:22:55a low vibration and even if that means that we’re  angry at them that’s narcissists get off on you  

1:23:00know us having a negative reaction to what they  do so it’s like our fear and anger reactions feed  

1:23:08what they want it makes them more powerful like  we’re connecting those emotions to them you know  

1:23:13and and i really appreciate that you kind of talk  about hey we need to we need to cut that cord you   know we need to focus on how do i become the best  version of me how do i raise my frequency and  

1:23:24not have these attachments to people other than  trying to understand while remaining in a place  

1:23:30of healing and you know higher frequency myself  well that this is what jesus came to teach yes  

1:23:38when he was okay if you’re you have a problem  with forgiveness then what about when he’s on the  

1:23:44cross in the middle of being tortured and he says  father forgive them for they know not what they do

1:23:56he knew how to hold compassion even while  abuse was being perpetrated upon him  

1:24:08in the moment so i thought okay i learned how  to forgive something in the past now my goal  

1:24:15is to be able to forgive in the moment the  way it’s portrayed in this beautiful story  

1:24:21and that and we focus on all the trauma and  you know the nails and we get all we get all um  

1:24:29distracted by the story and you go wait you forgot  the whole point the whole point look at what he’s  

1:24:36doing his most beautiful thing he’s saying at this  time and we’re not talking about that part of the  

1:24:45story that that is the big part of the story and  it’s compassion you know what compassion is and i  

1:24:54love i got this definition from anthony williams  compassion is love that understands suffering

1:25:06yes so the world needs compassion so if a person  sees a terrible thing and they’re feeling like  

1:25:17oh i’m so angry or they want revenge whatever if  they couldn’t leave but they’re sending actually  

1:25:23it’s eating themselves right so when we anybody  that we destroy it’s actually affecting anybody  

1:25:30else so when you’re imploding on yourself you’re  doing a disservice to humankind so you’re not  

1:25:37you’re not separate from everybody so be good  to yourself be kind to yourself and go okay  

1:25:43i went through this anger i’ve  got this i get to process it   how can i transmute it to at least a place of  neutrality so that i’m not feeding the flame  

1:25:56okay and um we can still talk about these  things there are to be able to talk about  

1:26:05things without getting overly emotional  we get overly emotional when we still  

1:26:12have unhealed pieces when i listened so one of the  things i wanted to do to vet myself to see okay  

1:26:18can i really help people is i watched uh several  of the trials of the itnj have you heard of them  

1:26:28no i don’t think so the international tribunal of  natural justice and they interviewed um the gal  

1:26:36from australia wow i forgot her name but i saw her  name listed on your website um so they interviewed  

1:26:47is it it’s an international tribunal now  the people these sra survivors mk ultra um  

1:26:55this survivor and the people from the other  side who came to this side came in with their  

1:27:01documentation and said this is what i have the  documentation the police records this this this  

1:27:07this so i could and they would go explicitly  into the tortures and what happened to them  

1:27:17and i found that i was able to hold compassion  around that and i didn’t go into reaction so  

1:27:24that was my test for myself i’m going okay i did  heal that i did heal that and even if i don’t do  

1:27:33anything further with that healing because i’m  connected to everybody that’s helping everybody  

1:27:43in some way so we all can be of service just by as  michael jackson says no look the man in the mirror  

1:27:53take care of the man the woman in the mirror  take care of that person in the mirror give that  

1:27:59person compassion give the fur in order to get to  forgiveness now this was the hard part of the path  

1:28:05for giving the self that’s why i like  the ho’oponopono prayer because it’s very  

1:28:10general and um it’s like you’re talking from both  sides when you’re saying the ho’oponopono prayer  

1:28:19i am sorry please forgive me thank you i  love you this is from the hawaiian tradition  

1:28:27and it’s just i sing it it says it and oh my  gosh i’m going to tears you know and i had to  

1:28:34do a lot of healing around my father and with  all the over this is the other thing i want  

1:28:39to pass on that was very fascinating to me in my  healing with all the over-the-top stuff my dad did  

1:28:46whereas my mom was just kind of like a she  was there she had her hands tied if she said  

1:28:52anything she’d get thrown in the loony bin  she couldn’t you know yeah he’s threatened  

1:28:58to to put her away your mom wasn’t involved she  was being abused also yes and she was 15 years  

1:29:05younger so she was like one of the kids i mean  she was so she was in that category but my mother

1:29:16rejected me because um she got married to  my father because she got pregnant with me  

1:29:28so she blamed me for all of her problems so from  the very get-go she rejected me in my healing  

1:29:41the deepest hurt was being rejected by my mother  it wasn’t the satanic rituals it wasn’t the  

1:29:50prostitution it wasn’t being abused physically  and sexually by my father it was being rejected  

1:29:56by my mother hurt me more deeply so folks take  that one and understand the power of the mother  

1:30:07and if you don’t love your child please  allow somebody else to love that child

1:30:18so um that was i i just i was flabbergasted   now this took years of of healing but that was  really hard that was really hard and it’s so  

1:30:30understandable you know that’s something if people  just had a great relationship with their mother  

1:30:35you know you don’t realize like you know one of my  guests that i had on john paul rice he talks about  

1:30:42children babies the the mother and the father  those are like god to the child you know the child  

1:30:47doesn’t that’s their hold they eat breathe live  their parents they’re dependent on them that’s   the only things that the child knows and depends  on every day are the parents and the mother you  

1:30:57know that connection and when you don’t have  that the different side effects that end up  

1:31:03unconsciously you know holding performing and  being created in that in that child’s young  

1:31:09impressionable mind you know it’s that’s another  thing i don’t think as a society we we’ve gotten  

1:31:16away from that you know there obviously is an  agenda to break up the family unit which has been   very successful in a lot of ways but then there’s  also you know women empowerment which is so great  

1:31:27but at the same token it it’s putting pressure on  women to say you’re worthless if you are at home  

1:31:32being a mom you need to be out working and be you  know a badass woman and you know a boss babe and  

1:31:39you know again not that i have anything  against women who work but that  

1:31:45that young baby and that young child just needing  that i don’t think people realize you know  

1:31:51the extent of damage it does when that mother’s  not there for the child so i appreciate you  

1:31:57talking about that a little bit yes and there’s  something energetic called the mother chord that  

1:32:04doesn’t exist there’s no father chord the child  it’s it’s like an uh an energetic embolical

1:32:15psychological level we say that the child needs  attachment you know that’s the good form of  

1:32:22attachment we’re talking you know in the religious  spiritual sense we don’t want to be attached right  

1:32:27but we’re talking in the psychological um  form with uh children is that the small  

1:32:34child attaches and so this is an abuse that just  is absolutely awful is corporate daycare i had i  

1:32:45i ended up working corporate daycare a few years  ago and i’m going why spirit why did you send me  

1:32:50here and i go oh my gosh i felt like i was at the  other end of the abuse here i’m with the clipboard  

1:32:58and what they did is they had it i was in the  infant room and i can’t remember if we had  

1:33:0510 or 12 babies uh for two adults every two  hours we had to change the diaper every two  

1:33:13for each child every two hours we had to feed  each child and we had to record all of this  

1:33:21on two on a piece of paper and also on a tablet  and send the information to the parents so the  

1:33:27parents knew in time real time your child  just pooped and this is how much they so we  

1:33:33had no time to hold the babies they’re crying i  thought the first three days i thought i’m gonna  

1:33:40i’m gonna lose it i’m gonna cry i mean oh my god  i feel like an abuser and everybody think nobody  

1:33:46thinks anything is wrong with this and i’m  going so we have to open our eyes where we go  

1:33:54wait a minute we really have to understand what  it really means to be in a human body i do believe  

1:34:02that we’re spirits that live in human bodies  but when we’re in this body we need to respect  

1:34:09what i call our the is the setup and  the setup is this bonding that happens  

1:34:15with the child and is specifically  with them now the father is important   but the mother is like if the mother rejects  the child it is it runs deeper and uh so  

1:34:33i i thought that is something that people really  really need to know and we need to support  

1:34:38motherhood yes we need to support it and that  women don’t have to go out there and they make  

1:34:45great managers uh this is the time of the divine  feminine energy is rising but we need balance we  

1:34:52need we need the divine masculine as well as the  divine feminine and this is what comes together  

1:34:59and this is where we have the father the  mother and the child the first the first  

1:35:05trinity the father mother child and um if we  don’t solve that triangle the spiritual okay  

1:35:15let me talk about the spirit path directly  that if a person wants to heal from this  

1:35:22abuse they have to be on a spiritual path there’s  no no it doesn’t matter what religion you’re  

1:35:32okay i’m not telling you have to be this  religion or that religion spiritual meaning  

1:35:38you’re connected to the source to god whatever  you want to call it something bigger than yourself  

1:35:47and understand that you are more than you extend  way beyond the limits of your skin and people are  

1:35:57telepathic it just you know it’s i can just keep  talking and talking i am so sorry we’re going on a  

1:36:03bit over time here so we have no i appreciate you  and i would love to have you on again i feel like  

1:36:10we just kind of scratched the surface on some  things and i know like how i told you before we   started recording you’re somebody i could have on  500 times and always have something to talk about  

1:36:20so i appreciate you i think this was a great  you know way for people to get to know you who  

1:36:25maybe haven’t heard your story yet and i i mean  i’ve learned a lot from listening to the other  

1:36:32interview that you sent me and then just how you  word things i think you take really hard concepts  

1:36:37and break them down in ways that people can digest  and understand you know and i love that you’re out  

1:36:43there talking about a lot of this because not  many people are and and hopefully that’ll change  

1:36:48i know more and more people are out there talking  about it you know but it starts with people like   you that are willing to be first and to pave the  way even if for years and years and years just  

1:36:57like with kathy o’brien like i can’t imagine  coming out and talking when when she started  

1:37:02or even you know when you did or some of  these other amazing women who started talking  

1:37:07way before you know these last few years when  people like me have woken up to it you know   so i just i honor you for everything that you’ve  done because i can’t i can’t fathom what you’ve  

1:37:17been through and i’m so sorry for everything  you’ve been through and i’m so inspired by what   you’ve done with it you know you’ve done more with  your life and understand more in your life than  

1:37:26most people who haven’t gone through trauma you  know and i just think as a world we have so much   to learn from all of you on what we’re capable  of and healing and these really complex things  

1:37:37that happen as a result from trauma and abuse  and you know i’m grateful that that you came  

1:37:42on and shared space with me today and i’d love  for you to if you want to just talk for just a   minute about positive shifting where people  can find you and connect with you with that  

1:37:52and we can obviously bring you one again and  talk more in depth about it but i think that’s   really special that that you know you’re doing  this work and i’d love to share it with people  

1:38:01oh thank you oh well um it’s  uh i do spiritual coaching um and basically um  

1:38:11the vast majority of people come to me have no  idea what my background is they just know that i  

1:38:17have a trauma background i don’t go into detail  because it’s it’s still not very relatable and  

1:38:26um and i didn’t want to make that my identity  either it’s something that happened to me  

1:38:34it’s like you know do you say that since you went  to this gym and now you’re a bodybuilder you know  

1:38:40forever you know you went i went to the gym  and i worked out you know i’m not a bodybuilder   so um and and i just it’s for  people who are serious about  

1:38:52becoming what they were meant to be you know  uncovering that diamond i believe that everybody’s  

1:38:58like got this diamond uh inside that’s shining  uh but we can’t see it because it’s just been  

1:39:07you know layered over with experiences and  we’ve layered it over with the with beliefs  

1:39:13and things that hold us back so um it  just is so liberating to watch people  

1:39:21uh get those aha moments to know oh this is  who i really am and to but basically i have to  

1:39:31honor where they are at and i meet people where  they’re at and um and some people are just wanting  

1:39:39to just do better uh at their job and they want  to progress spiritually uh that way uh because 70  

1:39:53of the spiritual path is emotional processing so  people who are in his self-help and learning about  

1:40:01themselves are on the spiritual path and they  really well actually we all are on the spiritual  

1:40:06path you know whether we declare it or not but um  the people who are mindfully on the spiritual path  

1:40:13um is just most of it is because our connection  our interpreting devices are emotions  

1:40:23we we know what’s going on through our emotions  those are what give us cues and if we didn’t have  

1:40:30emotions then we wouldn’t this is the way we’re  set up as human beings right and we have very  

1:40:36intense emotions so we have to learn how um how  to use them as tools for our benefit instead of  

1:40:45becoming victims of our emotions so it’s all  about reframing i like to reframe things so  

1:40:52when somebody comes in i watch their speech  pattern and then i’ll go oh i see the theme  

1:41:01do you see the theme and then we pick up the  theme it’s not about the details we get caught  

1:41:07in the details just like jesus on the cross  we go oh my god the cross the thorns the blood  

1:41:14wait a minute what did he say what did he  say that was so profound you guys that was  

1:41:21it he came there with this beautiful message  so i want to end with that that you know um

1:41:30like to send everybody compassion and i invite  everybody to uh move into their compassion  

1:41:37for all the beings uh that exist here so that’s  just beautiful and are you on social media at all  

1:41:46or is your website the best place for people  to find you the website is the best place um  

1:41:52i’m not really good at social media i started  doing instagram but on instagram i just post  

1:42:00all of mostly uh my healthy food it kind of like  we had we didn’t talk about the um personality uh  

1:42:11disorder thing but it’s just kind of fun for me  that okay now i have this personality on instagram  

1:42:17and it’s all but it’s all about helping people  and i am going to i’m trying to figure out how to  

1:42:24put things out in snippets so that um  it’s digestible for the average person  

1:42:30not just for no i get to speak openly about  sra because of you but i don’t do that  

1:42:40uh i’m still sorting out how to to do  things without getting put in a niche  

1:42:46so i’m i want to reach as many people  as possible to tell them that you know  

1:42:52no matter who you are no matter what your  your background no matter what your journey  

1:42:57is healing is possible and joy is possible and  the rubber band effect is true i’ve talked about  

1:43:07that in the past but i got to experience it and  you’ve heard about the rubber band effect right  

1:43:13and so for listeners you know the the farther  back in darkness you go when you let go of  

1:43:18the rubber band the further you get so in  in november i was dealing with excess joy

1:43:29i was so ungrounded for a few weeks ago well  okay this is like anxiety because i still can’t  

1:43:34get pipe but it’s really cool

1:43:40that’s an imbalance and i went  to my naturopath she said well   i think that’s a good problem to have everybody  else has been coming in with depression so

1:43:51so there it’s like it these experiences  clean you out they scour you out  

1:43:58and if you can appreciate that  and appreciate your new vessel   if you will then you can go and and help other  people and spread the joy and um and the hope  

1:44:14well i’m so grateful for you you’re such a  beautiful soul and your heart just radiates   so brightly and and so does everything about you  and i’m so grateful that you chose to come on here  

1:44:23today and for people listening i will link her  website and then if she’s able to give me her  

1:44:28instagram handle do you have a handle are people  able to follow you on instagram or is that more   of like your personal page kind of no i i made  it public but you know it’s not going to be real  

1:44:38exciting stuff it’s going to be just fun little  things so it’s okay yeah i’ll have to figure  

1:44:47out how to like me and technology oh it’s always a  work in progress there’s so much and then once you  

1:44:53learn it they add new features and do new stuff  it’s just you know never ends so i’ll link all of  

1:44:59her information below in the show notes please  everybody continue to say prayers for kaelyn  

1:45:04as she continues to sort out how to best present  this information to the public and then speak out  

1:45:11on platforms like this i think everybody that  listens knows that spiritual attacks are real  

1:45:17and there’s a lot of opposition that doesn’t want  people like kaelin to have a voice and to be able  

1:45:22to to share this information so people like like  you and me can learn so continue to pray for  

1:45:28her go support her business follow her on social  media reach out to her contact her on her website  

1:45:34hire her and just shower her with love and and  compassion and take everything that she learned  

1:45:40and spread that love and compassion with everybody  that you come in contact with that that i think is   the best way that you can honor kaelyn and the  legacy that that she’s creating and gonna leave  

1:45:50behind so thank you all for listening god  bless you and we will see you all next week

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Luciferian Baby Roast Affidavit

I include an “Introduction” to this post which I have put at the end so as to least distract from this post as possible.

Baby Roast Story

I post this latest addition to the baby roast story, as I was the one that originally blogged this story. 2020 Mar 23 Queen Mother of Darkness’s Special Pot Roast (SBFIS Part 2) [3], and I perhaps understand the significance of what Jessie was saying better than most.

Others that do or should – the ROR “army”, the radio/podcast/video show hosts and listeners on shows that Jessie speaks on apparently never seek to summarise or pass the information on in a way that is understood better by the wider public. Quite why I am not sure. I will.

There is now one notable exception to this and that is a blog that listens to many of Jessie’s radio/podcast/video programmes and actually does the time consuming connecting of the pieces and explaining them. It is unrivalled work of immense quality and takes huge efforts in research. The blog I am referring to is Lifting the Wool [14]. The latest post from that blog, as I start writing is Ritual of Blasphemy [7] which deals with another of these affidavits released, although by the time I finish this post there may be more posted, as the work done is prodigious.

It seems from information that Tim Holmseth has released on his blog [11] that Jessie has made a series of affidavits and that they are now being released with her permission. The former judge who appears to have overseen the affidavit was Randi Lynn Erickson. However these releases by Holmseth seem to be in response to the release of some of the affidavits some time ago possibly by opposition lawyers, Droel Law but I am not certain on that.

Whoever it was that originally released some placed Jessie in greater danger, probably not so much directly from the people she named who would have been informed anyway, but from assassins from the brotherhood /illuminati system, of which there are several groups. The release could be seen as a means to flag or signal that certain action to be taken. Holmseth and lawyer Erickson I assume would be in danger as well.

I also believe that there was a court case to ask for protection due to this lawyer release of affidavits, but that protection was denied. Although I saw mention of a case a few times I did not follow it and I could be wrong. I am assuming that protection was denied and Tim Holmseth is now publicly releasing some affidavits on various issues with permission from Jessie, as presumably again, the public release of outrageous criminal behaviour of the Luciferian Brotherhood now is justified due to the downside of the danger they are in anyway.

An affidavit is a sworn statement of truth for which afaik there is no higher legal statement of truth. An affidavit is typically defined as a written declaration or statement that is sworn or affirmed before a person who has authority to administer an oath. In the USA when a person signs an affidavit, that person is eligible to take the stand at a trial or evidentiary hearing. One party may wish to summon the affiant (person who makes the sworn statement) to verify the contents of the affidavit, while the other party may want to cross-examine the affiant about the affidavit.

It would appear that Holmseth has also put himself in danger, even more than he was before from his work with the Pentagon Pedophile Task Force. Hence also see TCH Operation Alert Donald Trump [10] for Holmseth’s story about the link to Trump and the FBI raid and the fundraiser.

What is the big deal about what is being revealed?

There are several affidavits so far. In this post I am just dealing with the baby roast one but there are other ones about Presidents and high level figures such as HRC in connection with torture and murder.[11]

In this “baby roast” Affidavit, a copy of which is reproduced below, Jessie is exposing the murder of babies by the Head of the Illuminati, the Queen Mother of Darkness, (QMOD), who was Jessie’s Proctor. [A Proctor is a trainer in the illuminati to enable the trainee or successor get the skills to take the position that they were chosen for.] Jessie is also alleging that the US Post Office delivered live babies drugged up and/or with their mouths taped up.

Jessie’s Proctor, the Queen Mother of Darkness, was also Jessie’s grandmother. She is named in this affidavit as Clara Odelia Acker Church. Jessie was chosen iirc about the age of 4, as the Successor to her grandmother who was the Queen Mother of Darkness.

[The way the term Successor is used by Jessie is confusing as it is used differently to the general usage certainly that I had come across before. Jessie being Successor to the QMOD does not mean that she succeeded to the post of QMOD. The title of Successor in the illuminati, for this example to the QMOD, seems to mean that they are chosen to succeed to that post of QMOD in the future, after they have undergone training. Until they actually become QMOD they are known as the Successor, not as we, the public, might use the term, that they are the successor only when they have achieved the position.]

Another added aggravating dynamic in this situation is that some positions, of which these top Mother of Darkness posts are included, are that the trainers [Proctors] know that they are training up a person who when that person succeeds to the position they are being trained for, will chop off the head of the very person who has been training them. A trains B who chops off head of A when B takes the position.

The QMOD was Head of the Illuminati, but was superceded by the antichrist on 24 April 2020, see my post from just before, 2020 Apr 14 Gloria Vanderbilt and the Rising of the antiChrist [6].

The 5th and final ritual of the consummation of the antichrist did not actually take place due to Covid restrictions but the antichrist still assumed his position, see 2020 Jun 4 Obama is now running the Satanic Council [8]. I am extrapolating that the full months preparation and associated events that took place on the previous 4 readings of the books also did not take place for the fifth reading, but I do not know.

For a shorter version about the antichrist from before the event see 2020 Apr 16 AntiChrist Rising – The When and Where and How [9]

I believe the 5 Mothers of Darkness now take orders from the Antichrist and are now second in the satanic hierachy (or at least this part of it, if there are are other more secret parts.)

“Baby Roast” Affidavit

The source is 2022 Aug 17 TCH Breaking Now – US Court US Postal Service Delivered Children for Human Roasts Holmseth [1]

I pick out some items of interest after the screenshots…

Update I have just been provided the text of the affidavit by a very kind soul, and I have sourced a better quality copy of the affadavits than when I blogged this article.

Affidavit sworn October 11, 2021

In a recently publicized affidavit originally sworn and notarized on October 11, 2021, Jessie Czebotar lists a few individuals involved in the chain of command of the Luciferian Brotherhood system. Parts of the Affidavit text were released publicly on on August 17, 2022 in the article linked below. I transcribed the six photos of released testimony from this article, and its text is below. []

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Truthful testimony of Jessie Marie Czebotar

1) I (Jessie Marie Czebotar) sworn under the pains and penalty of perjury claim the following facts to be the truth.  And that I am of age, of sound mind, and competent to put these facts upon the record.

2) I would like to submit upon the record the knowledge that the Luciferian Brotherhood works in conjunction with the US Postal System to provide retired elite Members of the System with children for consumpiton.  In the early 1980’s I was present and witnessed that the majority of Luciferian Brotherhood High Priests and Priestesses I experienced in rituals from 1981 – 1987 retired in nursing homes in the Peoria, Il; Middleton, Wi; Stoughton, WI; Veronia WI areas.  These nursing homes are marked with the French Symbol, the Masonic Compass, or a variation of the male Symbol of hte Compass or the receiving female Chalice or V symbol.  These facilities supply children for consumption to the Elite through:

1.  The United States Postal Service

2.  Hand Delivery from local Human Farmers

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3) I testify that during the years 1981 – 1987 I visited many of these nursing facilities with Clara Odelia Acker Church.  During our visits I witnessed infants and children being delivered by hand and by regular US Postal mail to the facilities for the purpose of consumption by the retired Elite.

a) If they came by hand, it meant that someone who looked like a nanny or babysitter would bring the baby or child and hand them off to the person they were to deliver to.  The story was always the same, “They were the babysitter who was helpign the child to visit their grandparent.”  The first few times I witnessed this, I noticed that I never saw the child leave the facility.

b)  when by mail, the children came with a sedative and were sleeping.  There were times they were shipped with just string tied aroudn them and their mouths gagged.  When we started visiting the cooks in Peoria, IL; or Madison/Middleton, WI are nursing facilities, I saw children arriving in mailboxes or crates in what looked like plastic wrap.  I have

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horrific memories of people being suffocated with plastic bags over the head.  When I saw the children in plastic wrap, I would start to panic.

Several of the larger nursing facilities had large refrigeration units.  I saw children hung in these refrigeration units.  Someo f the ‘meat factory” supply also came from nearby farms with large barns.  Because the areas had high Norwegian and Swedish cultures, they use the old procurement methods for meat.  I saw bodies hung with salt, smoked, or cured into sausages and blood sausages.  At one of the Peoria Nursing facilities, I would see the retired nuns working in the kitchen areas with old meat grinders grinding up the human meat.

c) I also saw children come in with crates of iced fish and would watch them get chopped up, baked and cooked.  The ovens at these facilities at the time were the older large brick ovens or big fireplaces.  Several times during the holidays I did see people roasted on spitfires like a pig roast, they were served like a turkey for holiday meals.

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d) as a child there were several special occasions that Clara Odelia Acker Church made her “Special Pot Rost”.  If you ask her why it is so special, she will say it is becuase her secret ingredient is Cordial Brandy.  The truth is that this pot roast is made usually with human meat, or a few times it was our pets or neighbors’ pets.  I witnessed her prep this roast several times.  In my younger years, I saw her put my cousin Amanda (Freye) Schroader in a large turkey roaster.  She would then have me help her peel carrots, potatoes, celery, etc.  At first, she made it seem like a game.  Amanda would sit still and play with the food being put into the pot with her.  When Clara took out the oven racks and started the oven I was terrified.  I started fighting Clara.  She looked at me and said, “We have to have dinner.”  I begged and pleaded for Amanda.  The catch was that Amanda’s life was spared but then a child was delivered to the door and that child became dinner.  What the family got that night was not a whole child roasted.  The meat had been shredded off bones, all evience tossed and just meat served with juices.

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In [sic] June 24, 2018 I witnessed what we call Command Structure going out among 9th circle and Order of Melchizedek Masonic Members starting from Clara Church. When commands go out, they will be initiated by a Higher Elite member such as a Mother of Darkness or a Satanic Councilman. From there they will go down the chain through the Grand High Priests/Priestesses to those who run the System’s business matters. Those involved in this chain are:

a) Clara Church (Queen Mother of Darkness) with assistance from Julie Cato (Church).
b) Brian Cain (High Pirest of the East/South Quadrants under Laurie Cabot Kent).
c) Christian Day (High Pirest of the East/South Quadrants under Laurie Cabot Kent).
d) Lanzifer Eligos Longinus (Head of Sovereign Military Order of Satanic Templars in TX)
e) Lucien Greaves (Head Protector for the Luciferian Brotherhood System. Lucien has direct contact with Clara Church and answers to no one but the Mothers of Darkness)

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The Lucifer Sigil shown on page 1 of Exhibit B, is the old guard seal or mark of a protector in the System.  They would have it tattooed on their upper arm, back shoulder blade, front peck, or back of neck.  If the Serpent circle is going around the sigil, it is a sign that they are a 9th circle member.


A few items of interest from the affidavit.

Jessie says that majority of people of prominence the Luciferian Brotherhood that she experienced in rituals from 1981-1989 retired to nursing homes in Peoria, Illinois; Middleton, Stoughton and Verona all in Wisconsin.

An american definition of nursing home is a place for people who do not need to be in a hospital but can not be cared for at home. In Britain we might call this a care home or an old aged persons home.

Jessie said that all the nursing homes that the Luciferian Botherhood retired to were marked with the “French Symbol,” the Masonic compass or a variation on this and the receiving female chalice or V symbol. I am unsure what is meant by the French symbol or if it is inclusive of the compass and V or separate.

Most people know the masonic compass and setsquare (v)

It was the nursing homes thus marked that provide children to the “elite”.

I found this nursing home which is in Peoria Illinois. I have no idea if this is one of the nursing homes referred to but Heartis Village could be said to have a variation on the compass and chalice.

Jessie’s affidavit says that when she visited the nursing homes with Clara Church, her proctor and grandmother, she witnessed babies being delivered. If they were from local “human farms” they were always with the cover story that the person delivering was the baby sitter delivering them to their grandparents.

If they arrived by US Post Office the babies were drugged and/ or had their mouths taped. Also she had seen them delivered in plastic wrap.

Larger nursing facilities had refrigeration units with children hung in there. Some areas had Norwegian and Swedish culture and she also saw children preserved by salting, smoking or cured in sausaged or blood sausages. In one of the Peoria facilities she saw nuns grinding up human meat.

Jessie also saw children arrive in crates of iced fish and saw them chopped up, baked and cooked and even spitroasted and served for holiday meals.

Jessie also witnessed her grandmother cooking special pots roasts of children. According to the affidavit, Clara Church put Jessie’s cousin, Amanda Freye Schroader in a large turkey roast pot with water and vegetables. When Jessie argued and started to fight her grandmother to save her cousin, she was told that they have to eat. Amanda was saved but a baby delivered who was then cooked. When served the baby was boned and just flesh and juices served so that it did not look like a baby. Jessie’s mother and father afaik were unaware of the extent of evil around them.

This is a mock up put out when cannibals making the real deal. They use images and symbolism to legally communicate what they are about.

In the Affidavit, Jessie described the Command Structure for the 9th Circle and Order of Melchizedek that she witnessed on a specific date June 24th 2018 and refers to an Exhibit B. It is not clear what this is. For information on the Order of Melchizedek see this post Lifting the Wool What is the Galactic Federation? [21]

from What is the Galactic Federation? [21]

The chain of command starts with Clara Church or Queen Mothers of Darkness or Satanic Councilman and goes down to Grand High Priests/Priestess then High Priests and Priestesses. Some people involved are named Clara Church, Julie Cato Church, Brian Cain, Christian Day, Lanzifer Eligos Longinus and Lucien Greaves.

Clara Church’s main demon principality is Ashtoroth also called Lilith or The Queen of Heaven.

For more on Lanzifer Longinus see Lifting the Wool Lanzifer Longinus [15]

I have written on Brian Cain and Christian Day who organise the events at the Halloween Ball in Salem, see Satanic Halloween [16] and Halloween 2021 [17]

Christian Day, Austin Shippey and Brian Cain when younger

Lucien Greaves has other names or pseudonyms eg Douglas John Kilrush Mysecko, Douglas Mesner and Douglas Misicko, and is a controversial figure. He was Jessie’s Protector and is the Chief Protector in the Luciferian Brotherhood system, which he managed to achieve as a child, through official fights against adults.

Doug took the role of any killing the pair were forced to do so that Jessie remained clean of all direct killing.

Doug is head of the Satanic Temple which certainly brings mainstream attention to itself over various satanic issues. Why? Other satanic organisations tend to be secretive.

Lucien Greaves

The affidavit again mentions Exhibit B, part of which is Lucifer sigil, an old guard seal or Mark of Protector in the system, usually tattooed on a protectors upper body.

This is normally the Lucifer Sigil

If there is a serpent circle around the tattoo the affidavit says it depicts the wearer is 9th circle member. Child Sacrifice Cult network

I have found this, perhaps the tattoos are similar.

Lifting the Wool has already blogged on the latest affidavit which details how James F Volpe Police Chief raped Doug/Lucien’s sister and killed all his family in front of him when he was a small boy, whilst he and Jessie had to maintain posture.[18]

This blog referred to Jessie first telling publicly of that rape and killing… 2020 Mar 29 cathyfoxblog Forged Through Brokenness (SBFIS Part 4) [19]

Lucien was Jessie’s training partner and protector. They were made to undergo rituals together. If you read or reread the Silence Breaks Forth into Song Series then Lucien was always the little boy, with the little girl Jessie.

One such ritual is in this post also with details of the Queen Mother of Darkness’s Special Pot Roast. Queen Mother of Darkness’s Special Pot Roast (SBFIS Part 2) [3]

To find a list all of my posts on Jessie see [4] 2021 Jan 15 cathyfoxblog Jessie Czebotar – My Whistleblower and Woman of the Year 2020.

Despite my differences with Jessie, many of which were apparent by the time I blogged the post above , I objectively felt that she deserved the accolade.

Introduction and Explanation about Jessie and other matters

I fell out with Jessie for the final time in April 2021 over the issue of misinformation/ disinformation being given to listeners of Right on Radio (ROR) by Jeff when Jessie went on the run. In the aftermath of that there was slander of me by David Zublick on his Dark Outpost show, which Jessie said she would correct and did not do so. I have not been in contact with her since.

I had told Jessie months before this that I felt she had betrayed me over her lack of proper explanation to me about the photograph that she provided, which I used in good faith. Although I believe that she genuinely thought it was her, it turned out that it was most probably not.

Before that I had made clear that I was very unhappy with the way she was raising money back to when the patreon first started. I believe she was getting bad advice.

Jessie is often her own worst enemy and the way that she dealt with this photo situation was terrible, counter productive and it did not need to be. I had used the photo in this blog You are a child… [2] as well as in Antichrist Rising – The When and Where and How [9] and months later had been the one who had first told Jessie of people posting about the existence of a very similar photo in an old library book. I had a responsibility to my readers to explain that, and Jessie refused to give me an explanation with which I could do that, after I had been waiting a considerable time for her to get the information from the library. I felt gaslighted and betrayed.

I realise, as some people have pointed out to me, that I was the first person to publicly support her in a strong manner and brought her to the attention of many, and thus I am responsible for many people following her. Some of those blame me for doing so as they have turned sour on Jessie. My responsibility to those people and all my readers for an explanation about the photograph is one that I still have not met and I realise that, and I am sorry. I apologise for that, but this is still not the time for a full explanation. What I will do is to add to the photo in that post a note to come to this post, pending any possible further explanation. Not perfect but better than leaving it as no explanation.

Suffice to say at the time of the fallout with Jessie, I was dealing with

  • a message from Glamis [12] [13]
  • attack from Jessie that I was somehow responsible for Glamis/ Belenoff’s message to her and that she blamed me for her having to go on the run. That I was responsible was totally and utterly false, as Jessie later admitted, after I had had 2 horrific days and nights of worry that her or her children might be harmed and that somehow I was responsible or would even blamed by police etc if something did happen to them;
  • Right on Radio spreading misinformation/ disinformation to his listeners about Belenoff and about Jessie not being on the run
  • message from Jeff Right on Radio, that I was not to blog until he said that I could!!
  • attacks from some Jessie’s supporters on twitter
  • slander from David Zublicks show
  • dealing with attacks on me from those who thought I was in league with a liar, all of whose information was false. This last issue also spilt over into moderators of my own Telegram discussion group
  • defending Jessie in private to several dissatisfied people, some with justified complaints and some unjustified attacks on her
  • and more…

Any statement that I made in that delicate and complicated situation needed to be backed up with the facts checked thoroughly by me. To write wholly accurately I needed to check hundreds if not thousands of messages. I was ill with my chronic illness for 5 months after the falling out and did not even blog. I have since not felt like wading into the relevant messages at all. I realise my failure to address the situation and apologise for it.

Many attacks on Jessie were unjustified by the facts but understandable as Jessie did not address properly the issues raised.

Several supporters of Jessie, who had even given money to her, but with genuine questions were banned and silenced from ROR platforms. Some of Jessie’s cult like supporters have a lazy, inaccurate and disgusting tendency to publicly categorise anyone who asks questions as being a satanist. Most of the accusers, contrary to their behaviour, claim to be Christians. I saw many many examples on twitter. Inaccurate and counterproductive.

I also saw part of one of the most disgraceful radio/podcast/video shows that I have ever seen/heard with several radio/podcast/video hosts on Right on Radio. The radio/podcast/video shows played the victim card and all claimed to have been attacked due to association with Jessie. No valid questioners were deemed to exist. If there were any good people they were accused of being cognitively dissonant, others selfish or high level agents! They also were threatened with magik against them! Yet all participants again afaik purporting to be Christians.

Supporters of Jessie but with valid questions were met with this onslaught of ad hominem attacks, demonisation and abuse and so I guess many so treated did not remain supporters and distrust and counter allegations increased. It was an object lesson in how not to address valid questions. However it was probably good for the radio/podcast/video shows – hits and subs, ratings and bringing in the dollar.

I spent hundreds of hours particularly on posts The Five Child Trafficking Networks and Structure of the Illuminati [5] written but not posted before I had even contacted Jessie and 2020 Apr 14 cathyfox blog Gloria Vanderbilt and the Rising of the antiChrist [6]. I did this to put Jessie’s allegations which could be seen as “woo woo” into a context so that people would understand that what Jessie was talking about was real. I am proud of what I did.

In contrast many radio/podcast/video programmes thrive and get subscriptions and hits and money based on controversy and drama and that is not a good thing when matters of such import are at stake. Radio/podcast/video programmes also are not a format for accurate checks of what was said, as few people ever search through hours of badly catalogued, badly shownoted programming to find exactly what was said. Why are they not catalogued or shownoted and timestamped? This is a recipe for rumours and argument and so it has proved.

Just for understanding, although I promoted in my blog all the radio/podcast/video programmes that Jessie chose to go on some months after we were first in contact, in a bid to help her, I have only ever listened to half a dozen or so of her radio/podcast/video programmes. I did read the transcripts of all those I blogged and bits of maybe a few more.

Many people who have followed Jessie’s radio/podcast/video programmes will know more than me about what she has said – ironic when for months I was the only one actually summarising and spreading her information. Some people should think hard about that. Absorbing and understanding information is only the start not the end in itself.

Despite my disagreements with Jessie, they should not be used to try and discredit the vast majority of what Jessie says. Having gone through the experiences that she has then some leeway is certainly justified also. It made me smile when I read on a knockers blog, something similar to that I do not critically assess what Jessie says. Nothing is further from the truth.

I decided not to work further with her, despite recognising her courage and truth.

The above explanation is a brief one to enable me to post this “roast” story. I had not intended to ever post again on the issues she talked about, however I feel it is needed just now.

Tim Holmseth is good at releasing the information but not an in intelligible form for most people to understand the significance or often even the data.

Jessie’s information unfortunately is in bits and pieces of information all over radio/podcast/video shows, public and paywall that have benefited, many financially, from the audiences that she brought to them. Piecing the relevant snippets and puzzles together is almost impossible and the radio/podcast/video shows themselves despite the gain they get from Jessie do nothing to summarise the information or provide it in a more succinct format. Sad. Shameful.

There is one blog which has done the almost impossible, as I mentioned before. The blog took on themselves the Herculean task of listening to all the programmes and connecting the pieces and explaining them. It is unrivalled work of immense quality and takes huge effort in research. Lifting the Wool [14]

As I am praising the blog profusely, then just for clarity I am not part of the Lifting the Wools “locals” group and I do not have special password/paywall access to those posts, and do not agree with it. I despise money as a dividing factor or as access to knowledge especially of this importance, and because it is the means of control used by Luciferian oppressors, whilst we fight for the scraps. I think the blog started this policy due to blogposts being abused by anti-Jessie sectors. Anyhow read as much of the blog as you can as well as the free ebook. Lifting the Wool [14]

Finally I will not tolerate ANY abuse or answer any questions on my split with Jessie, from either side or any direction so please do not waste your time or mine.


[1] 2022 Aug 17 TCH Breaking Now – US Court US Postal Service Delivered Children for Human Roasts Holmseth

[2] 2020 Mar 15 cathy fox blog You are a child…

[3] 2020 Mar 23 cathyfoxblog Queen Mother of Darkness’s Special Pot Roast (SBFIS Part 2)

[4] 2021 Jan 15 cathyfoxblog Jessie Czebotar – My Whistleblower and Woman of the Year 2020

[4s] 2021 Jan 15 cathyfoxblog Jessie Czebotar – My Whistleblower and Woman of the Year 2020

[5] 2020 Jan 18 cathy fox blog The Five Child Trafficking Networks and Structure of the Illuminati

[6] 2020 Apr 14 cathyfox blog Gloria Vanderbilt and the Rising of the antiChrist

[7] 2022 Aug 19 Lifting the Wool Ritual of Blasphemy

[8] 2020 Jun 4 cathyfoxblog Obama is now running the Satanic Council

[9] 2020 Apr 16 cathyfoxblog Antichrist Rising – The When and Where and How…

[10] TCH Operation Alert Donald Trump

[11] Timothy Holmseth website

[12] 2021 Apr 1 cathyfoxblog Somerset Belenoff 2

[12s] 2021 Apr 1 foxyfoxblog Somerset Belenoff 2

[13] 2021 Apr 2 cathyfoxblog Somerset Belenoff 3

[13s] 2021 Apr 2 cathyfoxblog Somerset Belenoff 3

[14] Lifting the Wool

[15] 2022 Aug 20 Lifting the Wool Lanzifer Longinus

[16] 2020 Oct 21 cathyfoxblog Satanic Halloween

[17] 2021 Oct 2021 cathyfoxblog Halloween 2021

[18] 2022 Aug 21 Lifting the Wool James F Volpe

[19] 2020 Mar 29 cathyfoxblog Forged Through Brokenness (SBFIS Part 4) 

[20] 2010 Mar 7 cathy fox blog Silence Breaks Forth Into Song (SBFIS Part 1)

[21] 2022 Jul 19 Lifting the Wool What is the Galactic Federation?

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How I Fought To Ban Child Sacrifice In Uganda

As this was on youtube and hence publically insecure as it is subject to googles evil whim as to whether it remains viewable I have transferred it to Odysee and added the transcript.

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there was a witch doctor who had laid

0:02this child down

0:03and put herbs all around her body and

0:06was about to cut her

0:09before the security guard

0:13found her and rescued her and brought

0:15her to this baby’s home where i was



0:28i knew quite early on that i wanted to

0:31work in television

0:32i wanted to be a video editor i realized

0:35that in my teens

0:36and i put everything i possibly could

0:38into making

0:39that happen i’ve worked on love island

0:42i’m a celebrity

0:43get me out of here strictly come dancing

0:46x factor

0:46the voice made in chelsea uh

0:50what else too hot to handle um

0:53and four in a bed which is possibly one

0:56of my favorite shows

0:58what was it that inspired you to go from

1:00being a video editor to leaving that

1:01kind of pie

1:02as much as i enjoyed my job i felt just

1:04a little disillusioned by it and felt

1:06that i needed

1:07a bit of a shake-up and a friend of mine

1:10suggested that i contact

1:12a british lady who set up an ngo

1:16in uganda that looked after abandoned


1:20periodically she needed media volunteers

1:22to go over and make

1:23films for change and i just thought yeah

1:26why not

1:26so i got in touch with her and the next

1:29thing i knew

1:30like two months later i found myself on

1:32a plane

1:33to kampala uganda

1:37it kampala can seem really kind of

1:39glitzy and cosmic

1:41cosmopolitan and fun but you scratch the


1:45and there is there is a lot of sadness

1:49there and a lot of that comes from


1:51one of the ngo representatives was

1:54telling me about

1:55some of the children in the baby’s home

1:57where i’d be working

1:58and she told me about this little girl

2:02who had survived child sacrifice

2:05and i was like

2:08what you know i i’m part nigerian

2:12um you know so i’ve heard about

2:14witchcraft and juju and witch doctors


2:18you know my grandfather was a

2:19traditional healer so i’ve grown up

2:21hearing about the occult

2:23but never had i heard of child sacrifice

2:27the very first day i sought her out and

2:30she was a shadow she would cower in the

2:34corner of the room

2:35not look at anybody visibly scarred and

2:40and just truly traumatized she was

2:44found she was found on a construction


2:48by a security guard there was a witch

2:51doctor who had laid this child down

2:54and put herbs all around her body and

2:56was about to cut her

2:59before the security guard

3:04found her and rescued her and brought

3:05her to this baby’s home where i was


3:09and she’d been there about six months

3:10before before i arrived

3:15sorry it’s okay

3:22she’s really special to me yeah

3:25so i’d heard about this practice then

3:28met this girl

3:29fallen head over heels in love with her


3:33researched i wanted to know what there

3:35was to know

3:37about it so i read articles i spoke to


3:41i spoke to locals and very quickly

3:45recognized that this was a this was a

3:47real problem this was prevalent

3:49in uganda and there was always somebody

3:53who knew someone who had

3:55had their child sacrificed or you know

3:58it was very much

4:00a taboo subject but people

4:03were aware of it happening

4:06why do people do child sacrifices what

4:09is the reason for that

4:10there is a widespread belief in not just


4:14that when you sacrifice a child it will

4:16lead to

4:17riches to prosperity power

4:21so people will

4:24visit a witch doctor with an issue


4:33depending on what the issue is the witch

4:35doctor will say okay

4:36you go and bring me the head of a child

4:38you go and bring me the genitals of a


4:40you go and bring me the tongue of a girl

4:42and you’ll have what you need

4:44you spoke to other survivors can you

4:46give us another survivor story

4:49so there was one boy who

4:54who had been lured out

4:57by his uncle to go in

5:01uh to go and buy some soap

5:04on the way they had picked up this

5:05little boy’s twin brother

5:07so the two of them uh went off to buy

5:09soap with their uncle

5:11and the uncle led them into a bush

5:15and and

5:20cut off the head of one of the twin boys

5:23while the other one watched and then

5:25removed his genitals

5:27and left him in a pool of his own blood

5:33and the other boy ran away and was able


5:38explain what happened to his family

5:41um yeah

5:45and uh the uncle

5:48was burnt alive by the mob justice

5:53there was not an opportunity for it to

5:55go to trial because of that

5:57often the children are they’re

6:00sacrificed when they’re conscious when

6:02they’re alive they’re not given

6:04chloroform they’re not knocked over

6:05their head they are conscious and they

6:07feel everything

6:08it’s not quick um it’s incredibly


6:13and this boy watched his brother go

6:16through that

6:17and that is one of many many many

6:20stories that i’ve heard

6:21like that i thought i had a duty to

6:26do everything in my power i just felt

6:28like i had no other choice and this was

6:30something that in a heartbeat i wanted

6:32to dedicate the rest of my life to

6:34to stopping and

6:38you know i feel that passions they

6:41choose you

6:42i think to a certain extent i think it

6:44was a

6:46physical emotional um

6:50kind of kinship that i had with this

6:52subject and

6:54i think anybody in my shoes would have

6:56done exactly the same

6:58you know i was absolutely dogged about

7:00this and

7:02i was stunned to the core that this was

7:04happening and

7:07i was willing to do anything and

7:09everything in my power to help these

7:11children and to ensure that they had

7:16a bright future to grow up in

7:19and i met the deputy speaker who

7:22you know said look if you’re interested

7:24you know we do have gaps in legislation

7:27and we could probably benefit from you

7:30know specific legislation you know but

7:32it’s going to cost money it’s going to

7:34you know take a lot of time and barbara

7:36and i was just like yep yep yep yep yep

7:38sign me up

7:38i’m i’m your i’m your woman so i had no


7:43understanding of what i was doing but i

7:44knew what the milestones were

7:47you know it’s to find a legislator


7:50you know have a draft of a bill present

7:52it to the speaker and then they find an

7:54mp to present the bill and

7:56you know the journey probably begins

7:57there why did you have to introduce the

8:00bill was child sacrifice not illegal at

8:02this point

8:03so obviously it’s it’s illegal to

8:06sacrifice a child but

8:07defendants were tried under the penal

8:09code um

8:11or other such laws which didn’t carry um

8:14particularly strong sentences there was

8:16no definition

8:17of child sacrifice you know so

8:21you know cases where a child was

8:24abducted and for example kept in a


8:28and gradually sacrificed that’s a that’s

8:30a case i have heard of

8:32they would be they would be charged with

8:34kidnap and torture which would not carry


8:37the an adequate sentence i

8:40spent the next or seven years actually

8:44going back and forth so i would go back

8:46to london earn enough money

8:48then fly back out to uganda mobilize mps

8:52let them know that there is a private

8:54bill that is going to be introduced

8:55are you interested in supporting this

8:59and very very slowly i built up a team

9:02and a network

9:03of people who would then you know

9:07later uh come to support me on

9:09parliament floor

9:10when this bill was introduced but there

9:12were a point where you felt like

9:15giving up

9:19yes um

9:22yeah um often you know i there there are

9:26challenges when it comes to

9:27something like this introducing

9:29something like this i was

9:31very much alone for the first part of

9:34this journey

9:35and child sacrifice is a nasty business

9:38more than once i’ve been threatened

9:42i’ve been told that if i continue

9:44terrible things will happen

9:46there will be consequences i’ve had

9:48people turn up to my house asking where


9:50was you know so i was scared

9:54a lot of the time but i think

10:01i i made a pact with myself that

10:08their lives are worth more than mine

10:13and that this was something that i’d

10:14pledged to stop no matter what

10:17stop as much as i could

10:20to giving up i thought about it but

10:23realized that i

10:24i physically i couldn’t

10:29i didn’t want to think about whether or

10:31not this bill would pass

10:33but it was the timing of it

10:36you know like we were just approaching

10:38the the end of the 10th parliament in


10:41and this was the tuesday and

10:44if the bill hadn’t passed by the friday

10:47we’d have had to start all over again

10:50and that would have meant another not

10:52seven years but at least another two

10:54three years i would have had it in me

10:55but it would have felt like a real


10:58um so we passed it in record time and

11:01i just remember

11:04we were told that it was unlikely to

11:06pass that day

11:08and we knew if it was going to pass it

11:09was going to be that week

11:11but i remember getting a call on the

11:12tuesday on the fourth

11:14of may 2021 um from my

11:18you know uh colleague in parliament and

11:22this is at 10 o’clock and i was sitting

11:23on my sofa in my pyjamas thinking i’ve

11:25got a day off

11:26and he was like annie we were presenting

11:30the bill

11:30at half past 10 and i looked my watch

11:32and it was 10 o’clock and i was like

11:34can i swear what the [ __ ] got on a boda

11:37boda which is like a motorcycle taxi

11:39was calling people on the way calling

11:41the mp couldn’t get hold of anybody

11:43and i said to the driver i was just like

11:44you need to leg

11:46we need to be there in record time it’s

11:48like a half an hour journey we got there

11:50in 10 minutes

11:51i got there with about two minutes to


11:54um you know it was meant to be i was

11:57meant to be there

11:58and i’m just so thrilled that i was and

12:01uh i sat there shaking

12:03uh for i don’t know two hours and

12:07yeah and um tonight i don’t know how to

12:11put into words what i felt when it

12:13passed really

12:14i couldn’t believe it i looked at my

12:16colleague the same one who who called me

12:18at 10 o’clock saying that the bill was

12:20going to be read

12:21and he just looked at me and he was like


12:24it just passed

12:29and i just i lost it i completely

12:33lost it

12:37you know something that i had been along

12:39with it

12:40my team fighting for for

12:44seven years it happened

12:49i will never forget that feeling

12:56in a weird way i miss it i miss having a


13:01like it’s like 80 percent pride and

13:04relief and

13:05joy and all of that but you know

13:08i grew up with this bill you know i

13:11became a woman

13:12working on this and it was a huge huge

13:16part of me

13:18and it was gone like that so in a weird

13:20i know that sounds messed up but

13:23um there was sadness weirdly attached to


13:27because my baby it you know

13:31it had grown it had grown up and

13:35was doing what it was meant to do

13:38and i just think


13:43i never growing up felt that i was

13:46capable really of doing

13:48that much or having that much of an

13:50impact on the world and

13:52in that moment i just

13:56felt like i was enough

14:00and that’s something that i along with

14:01the people that i work with had done

14:04had really made a difference in the

14:05world and had

14:08saved the lives of so many vulnerable


14:11and i’m just so proud of it




14:44and i remember unlocking my phone and

14:46what’s up was on and i kind of

14:47closed what’s up and clicked on the

14:49camera and the second i clicked the film

14:53i saw what i guess the whole world saw

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Covid Resources 3 – Healing from Vaccine Effects

Far from being “safe and effective” the experimental mRNA gene therapy has proven unsafe and ineffective, or some would say dangerous and useless for those taking it, a tool of genocide for those who promoted it.

More and more people are regretting having the mRNA injection. This post gives links to healing protocols or detox guides that may help them mitigate adverse effects of that injection.

Also listed are treatment protocols for a possible covid virus. There may well be overlap in treatments of course.


There may be a couple of duplicates and of course crossover between the Protocols for treating vaccine effects and protocols for treating any virus.

Possible Healing Protocols for treating Vaccine Effects

Possible Healing Protocols to prevent and treat Covid Effects

Sites to Report and check Reported Adverse Effects of Covid Injection

This section shows various sites of where to report vaccine effects and where to get information on them.



[54] European Eudra Vigilance – Europe Online access to suspected side-effect reports


This article maybe useful to explain VAERS

[56a] 2022 Aug 9 Jessica Rose A question and answer document on the subject of VAERS as a pharmacovigilance tool


[59] Canadian Adverse Event Reporting System  adverse event reporting system separate from Government and Public Health agencies across Canada.


[57] World Health Organisation (WHO) Global Database of Reported Potential Side Effects – VigiAccess

This is a good website on which you can check the adverse effects from the batch you have had…

[58] How Bad is My BatchCheck your vaccine batch for number of adverse reactions and deaths

Others in this series

[100] 2022 Jul 31 wordpress cathyfoxblog Covid Resources 1 – Mask Madness

[100a] 2022 Jul 31 substack cathyfoxblog Covid Resources 1 – Mask Madness (omitting photo and meme galleries)

[101] 2022 Aug 2 wordpress cathyfoxblog Covid Resources 2 – Doctors and Other Specialists

[101a] 2022 Aug 2 substack cathyfoxblog Covid Resources 2 – Doctors and Other Specialists

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Justin Trudeau Pedophile

Justins $2 Million payout to Statutory Rape Victim

When Trudeau was a teacher at West Point Grey Academy, Vancouver, British Columbia he sexually abused one of his underaged pupils. Trudeau was at the school between 1999 and Jun 2001.

Justin Pierre James Trudeau’s lawyers sought out the woman at the end of September 2019, eighteen years after Trudeau’s sudden departure from the school. They lawyers demanded that she sign a non-disclosure agreement regarding their past relationship. This was just before the Canadian Federal Elections of Oct 2019, when Trudeau was Prime Minister, and seeking another term as Prime Minister. [4]

The girl signed the $2.25 million (c.£1.8 million) mutual non-disclosure, non-disparagement agreement, in exchange for her continued silence, on the Wednesday evening of October 9th 2019.[2] The terms of that agreement prevent both the accuser and Trudeau from acknowledging any aspect of that relationship, without triggering a six-to-seven-figure liquidated damages clause. That penalty starts at $500,000 and scales up, depending on the magnitude of the breach. [2]

The girl’s father, a prominent Canadian businessman, was not a party to the $2.25 million mutual non-disclosure non-disparagement agreement. He was incorrectly copied into an email between the negotiating parties ie his daughter and Trudeau’s lawyers.[2] The businessman therefore has a good case that neither he nor his daughter are in violation of the agreement, and he presumably ensured that the bank transfer was completed before he disclosed the existence of the agreement to the media!

According to the father of the girl, his daughter was “much, much younger” than the 17 years old that had been previously mentioned in the press.[2] Trudeau was discovered with the daughter by her father in his family home in Jun 2001 [2]. If the daughter was 17 in Jun 2001, and the relationship appears to have gone on for many months both on and off campus, then when it started she may have been something like 15 years old…

At the time, around 2000, Canada’s age of consent was 14 years old which was raised to aged 16 in 2008. However Canada outlaws sex between adults and people younger than 18 when the adult is in a position of responsibility for the wellbeing of that child.

Justin Trudeau was in a position of responsibility for the wellbeing of that child and his behaviour would have been illegal at the time in Canada [2].

I presume the situation is similar to that of statutory rape in the UK, in that in statute law the child cannot legally give consent. The actions of Trudeau are those of a sexual predator. He took advantage of an underaged girl, when he was in a position of responsibility over that child. As well as being in a position of responsibility over her, she could not give legal consent and was almost half his age. Trudeau betrayed the trust of the school and the parents. In short Trudeau is a paedophile.

When Trudeau was discovered by the girls father at their family home, it prompted private demands to school administrators that he be removed from his position immediately. “There was a small settlement at the time”. [2]

Trudeau’s friends said that the typically outgoing and exuberant young man was suffering through a bout of depression following his father’s death in 2000, and his brother’s death in 1997. They postulate that anything improper was likely a result of his fragile emotional state at the time, not because of any nefarious character trait. [2]

The agreement presumably is a civil law agreement. Perhaps Trudeau and the school could still be sued by the businessman if he so wished but it likely would be counterproductive for his daughter and himself.

Justin’s Paedophile Friend Christopher Ingvaldson

Whilst he was at West Point Grey Academy, Justin Trudeau’s fellow teacher and friend was Christopher Charles Ingvaldson [10]. Ingvaldson also turned out to be a paedophile. Ingvaldsen was discovered downloading child abuse images in 2010 when he was teaching at nearby Vancouver all boys private school – St. George’s School. He was Head of Social Sciences.

St. Georges School

Reports at the time said that his “offences did not involve the school in any way or endanger the students” [10] However the court transcript states…    

“Investigation by the Vancouver Police found that the offender was using primarily two Internet Protocol addresses to access the Internet – one at his place of employment at St. George’s School where he was a teacher, and one at his home where he lived with his wife.  At St. George’s the offender was using a laptop computer provided to him by his employer. “

Forty one images of pre-pubescent boys and girls being sexually assaulted and penetrated by adult male penises. There were also images of very young children in sexual poses. These images have been filed and sealed as exhibits in this case and counsel agree they are examples of child pornography at the “high end of the scale”, lacking only the element of violence.

[“child pornography” – the sooner Americans/ Canadians change terms to “child abuse material” or similar, the better.]

Australian police, in a project code named “Project Ocean”, were investigating use of the Internet, particularly Facebook, in circulating child abuse material. The police uncovered a 14 member group on Facebook entitled “Little Girls Love To Play Too“. Ingvaldsen was a member of that group [45].

Ingvaldson pleaded guilty to two counts and was sentenced to three months in prison and two years probation in 2013. Ingvaldson had to provide a DNA sample and listed as a registered sex offender for 10 years [10]

When pedophiles Justin Trudeau (JT) and Christian Ingvaldsen (CI) were teachers at West Point Grey Academy they lived in the same apartment at the corner of 12th Avenue and Granville Street with Ingvaldsen’s wife Pansy. [82a]

Ingvaldson and Trudeau were very close. Ingvaldson even contributed a chapter to a book, Pierre, edited by Nancy Southam, detailing his memories of meeting the former prime minister when he was staying with Justin at their home in Montreal.[82a]

After becoming Prime Minister, Justin Trudeau encouraged Ingvaldson to run for political office as a member of the Liberal Party. Ingvaldson obliged and announced his desire to be the Liberal MP candidate in the district of Vancouver-Kingsway, and developed a social media pages announcing his plans to run. [1]

The criminal charges shocked everyone. Trudeau cut off contact. Trudeau says that a person wants to think they will always be there for their good friends, but that is not the case. There is a line that can’t be crossed he said, visibly disturbed.[82a]

Trudeau could have been visibly disturbed as he was worried that any paedophile talk about Ingvaldsen could also rub off on him as he had also crossed a similar line.

Paedophiles are Blackmailed

Trudeau, had committed a criminal sexual offence and the civil agreement would not stop him being prosecuted under criminal law. He should be prosecuted and pressure should be brought to bear.

However the globalist criminal cabal control countries, and we know why he has not been prosecuted. He is a Schwab boy. A “graduate” of the WEF Young Global Leaders.

Whilst Justin does not appear to be on this particular list of Young Global Leaders [75], his brother Alexandre is, who is also mentioned as a Board member of the Trudeau Foundation. Both brothers coincidentally were born on Christmas Day, just 2 years apart.

Justin is however mentioned in this second list as having undergone the WEF programme in 2005 [76].

In 2017 Klaus Schwab boasted that Trudeau and more than half of Trudeau’s cabinet had been infiltrated by Schwab’s World Economic Forum.

Schwab is Founder and Chairman of the WEF and has been awarded French Legion of Honour (knight distinction), the Grand Cross with Star of the National Order of Germany, and the Japanese Grand Cordon of the Order of the Rising Sun and was knighted by Queen Elizabeth as Knight Commander of the Order of St Michael and St George. [19]

Click on photo and video will open in odysee and/or the transcript is after the photo…

2017 Odysee Schwab boasting that over half of Trudeau’s cabinet is penetrated by WEF Young Global Leaders [74]

Schwab “I have to zay, when I mention our names like Mrs Merkel, even Vladimir Putin and so on, zey all have been young global leaders of ze World Economic Forum. But what we are very proud of now is the young generation like Prime Minister Trudeau, the President of Argentina and zo on, that we penetrate the cabinets. So yesterday I was at the reception for Prime Minister Trudeau and I know zat half of thiz cabinet or even more zan half zis cabinet are actually young global leaders of ze World Economic Forum.”

Interviewer “and thats true in Argentina too, sorry thats true in Argentina as well.”

SchwabIt’z true in Argentina and it’z true in France now, I mean with the president who is a young global leader [Macron] “

So whatever the course, events or programme it is that the Young Global Leaders attend, whether “educational” or mind controlling, these leaders are under the influence and control of WEF.

So Justin broke the law and was caught doing so in a very public-sensitive subject matter, and he was susceptible to blackmail.

The way the world works at present, the modus operandi of the globalist criminal cabal, is that blackmail material ie video, photographs or knowledge of crimes such as paedophilia is not used to bring the individuals to justice but is stored to use as blackmail. The more the better. That way the people selected for positions of power are totally controllable by the powers behind the veneer of democracy.

In fact, so as not to leave it to chance, they are all deliberately put in compromising positions and evidence by blackmail operations known as Brownstone Operations similar to blackmail network that Epstein was a manager for. [84] [83] and Liz Crokin Jeffrey Epstein the Pedophile Superspy! [104]

Imagine a time in the future when there is something the cabal wants a country leader to do… What better than remind him of an “embarassing” incident in the past which might leak out to the public, especially when amplified by the controlled mockingbird media… but if the individual does what they say, everything will all be alright…

…until the cabal want something worse, and they drag you deeper and deeper… double binds and blackmail… and more and more controllable…

Justin’s Meteoric Rise to Power

Pierre Trudeau, Justin’s nominal father was Prime Minister of Canada and aged 51 when he married Margaret Sinclair aged 22 on Mar 4 1971, a 29 year aged difference. Justin was born ten months later on Christmas Day 1971.

Justin, although well known having been brought up as the eldest child of a Prime Minister in power, was a relatively private teacher, helped by Canada’s media who do not usually dig into public figures families. However he became a public figure at Pierre Trudeau’s funeral on Oct 3 2000.

Justin’s extraordinary acting or overacting display on October 3rd 2000 in giving a eulogy to Pierre Trudeau made him instantly a rising star, around whom much of Canada would swoon. Make up your own minds as to how sincere Justin actually was.

Click on the photo and it will open the Justin Trudeau eulogy to Pierre, which he cheesily but memorably starts with Friends, Romans, Countrymen…

Odysee Justin Trudeau’s Eulogy to Pierre Trudeau [3a]

It is worth checking out the folded handkerchief dab, one on each eye at the end of the eulogy. This is a screenshot of one of the dramatic dabs…

At the time he gave this eulogy Justin Trudeau was a teacher at West Point Gray Academy. After Pierre Trudeau’s death, students ringed the flagpole with red roses.

It appears that when Justin Trudeau went back to the school after the speech, he continued to betray the trust of the school and parents with his predatory and highly inappropriate statutory rape of at least one pupil there.

It was only a few months after this speech in June 2001 that Justin Trudeau’s illegal sexual abuse with the pupil was discovered by her father, which caused Justin’s sudden departure from the school before the end of the school term and year.

Nevertheless, even having been discovered by the father, Justin has managed to get away without much consequence on what could have been a severe stumbling block, and would for a member of the public ended with a jail sentence.

Justin’s speech was the launchpad to the position of Prime Minister in only 15 years. Justin shot up to the top with remarkable speed, almost as though guided by hidden hands.

  • 2001 Jun Eulogy to Pierre Trudeau
  • 2007 Apr Justin Trudeau won the Liberal Party’s nomination as prospective MP for Papineau
  • 2008 Oct Trudeau became an MP in Federal Elections
  • 2013 Trudeau became Liberal Leader
  • 2015 Trudeau became Canadian Prime Minister with huge increase in seats and big majority
  • 2019 Liberal Party lost majority but was largest party in minority government, Trudeau still PM
  • 2021 Liberal Party re-elected with minority government, Trudeau PM still Jasmeet Singh as poodle
  • 2022 Jan Canadian Truckers Freedom Convoy against Covid Restrictions
  • 2022 Feb Emergencies Act to deal with the Freedom Convoy

Trudeau had been criticised for cash for access fundraising, as well as being lobbied at these. He replied that he was lobbied at these but not influenced!! He was also criticised for speaking events at which he accepted cash from charities whilst an MP.

Trudeau was also sanctioned twice by Canada’s ethics commissioner for violating conflict of interest rules regarding the Aga Khan affair, and later again with the SNC-Lavalin affair . Later investigated for a third time by the ethics commissioner for his part in the WE Charity scandal, but cleared of wrongdoing. [19]

In 2022, Trudeau invoked the Emergencies Act in response to the Freedom Convoy protests, the only time the act was brought into force since it was enacted in 1988. Many felt this was vastly inappropriate and a huge overreaction, as the protest was legitimate and peaceful, that there was no emergency, and that Trudeau had made no effort to resolves any issues, and refused to meet the truckers who had wide support. In fact Trudeau ran away like a coward.

Trudeau attempted to characterise, propagandise and gaslight the truckers as a small minority of racists and misogynists. Trudeau used the Emergencies Act for dubious activities such as stealing trucks, donations to truckers, freezing truckers money in bank accounts, and to cover up an unscientific Covid 19 policy causing huge financial, social and mental health problems.

In a turnround from the liberal and woke brand that he had previously built, Trudeau had been shown to be an authoritarian tyrant against peaceful protest and against the real scientific evidence on covid, whilst of course pretending, propagandising that he was doing it with the science. Trudeau appears content to just carry out the WEF/NWO Agenda. In his minority government he is assisted in this especially his poodle Jagmeet Singh, elected leader of the New Democratic Party in 2017.

I guess grooming a young girl is good practice for grooming the country…

The 2019 election was when statutory rape story / sexual abuse story resurfaced, contributing to the change from majority government for Trudeau and the Liberals to a minority one.

2019 Election Campaign

In 2019 Trudeau triggered the election on Sept 11.

A week later on Sept 18 the US Time magazine published this photo, which showed Justin wearing what they called brownface. It was taken at an Arabian Nights party at West Point Grey Academy and appears in the 2000-2001 West Point Grey Academy yearbook. [51]

Trudeau with other teachers at the Arabian Nights Party

This brownface was shocking to many, particularly on the left as it did not fit with Justin’s caring woke brand that he had cultivated. It was also deeply hypocritical.

His fetish for dressing up and cosplay whilst Prime Minister, which was apparently meant to be taken as respect for others had always appeared as awkward and inappropriate, as well as being susceptible to the woke charge of cultural appropriation.

Trudeau apologised and said that it was racist behaviour. “I shouldn’t have done that. I should have known better and I didn’t. I’m really sorry. It was something that I didn’t think was racist at the time, but now I recognize it was something racist to do”. Trudeau also admitted to wearing blackface makeup in high school while singing “Day-O” at a talent show.

However Trudeau was seen to have lied when at least 3 instances were found – Video shows Trudeau in blackface in 3rd instance of racist makeup [88]. He finally admitted that he did know how many times he had dressed up in blackface.

The day after the Time “brownface” photo, a newsletter was found with another photo from the Arabian Nights evening. He was pictured with two sikhs… on the woke scale this is even more inappropriate.

2001 April Waybackmachine Newsletter of West Point Grey Academy [79]

Then a colour photo was found, seeming to bring the issue into the present more than the monochrome photos which tended to give the impression the issue was in the past.

So it was actually the digging into the brownface that caused the interest in the West Point Grey Academy Yearbooks. Only one of a dozen photos in the yearbook showed Trudeau teaching, the rest mainly as a clown, larking about, far from the woke and statesman brand that he was now cultivating as Prime Minister.

Photos from the West Point Grey Academy Yearbook

Inevitably it was noticed that Trudeau had left West Point Grey Academy school at a very unusual time, June 2001 rather than the end of the school year just weeks later. Also highly unusually, Trudeau had put the matter in the hands of lawyers. Why would anyone employ lawyers for leaving a school?

They were not just any lawyers, they were probably the most famous lawyers in the country that his father had also worked at – Heenan Blaikie. The intervention they made appears bizarre.

The Ottawa Citizen had claimed that Trudeau “gave up his teaching job … to give speeches”. CBC wrote that although he was leaving West Point Grey Academy, reports that he was planning to take up public speaking were wrong. [86] Lawyers Heenan Blaikie released a statement “not to make things up” regarding his departure from the school [4]. Trudeau was quoted “And though perhaps I am overly hopeful in still considering myself to be a private citizen, I would expect that the media would at least refrain from inventing front-page stories concerning me” [86]

This naturally should lead to questions as to why the lawyers would make a statement denying an incorrect but innocent sounding explanation from the Chronicle when the very bad sounding alternative, that was being speculated about went unmentioned. The lawyers action could have acted as a signal to everyone to shut up or be prepared to take on expensive lawyers…

Unnamed friends at the time were said to have blamed Justin’s rumoured rapey behaviour due to the typically outgoing and exuberant young man suffering from a bout of depression following his father’s death in 2000, and his brother’s death in 1997. They postulated that anything improper was likely a result of his fragile emotional state at the time, not because of any nefarious character trait [2]!!

Trudeau got away with statutory rape at the time. He also got away with little or no media questions afaik when Ingvaldsen his friend, colleague, fellow liberal and ex house mate was arrested, tried and sentenced for child abuse material. This was a long drawn out process that went on for three years 2010-1013.

Despite lack of scrutiny from the supine mockingbird media, there was slightly more pressure on Trudeau in the 2019 election.

By Oct 4 2019, with the election just over 2 weeks away on 21 Oct the West Point Grey Academy Headmaster felt obliged or was asked to release this statement. Clive Austin, West Point Grey Academy founder, had remained as Headmaster at the school since Trudeau’s departure.

The headmaster did not answer questions, he merely released a statement that put up and then knocked down the straw man argument of whether Trudeau had been dismissed rather than addressing the salient point of whether Trudeau had had an illegal sexual relationship with a pupil.

Why would a Headmaster not categorically deny that there had been no sexual relationship with a pupil, if there had not been? Why had Trudeau not been dismissed for illegal relationship with pupils when he was in a position of trust? Perhaps Clive Austin should be asked.

In the statement the headmaster Clive Austin gave as a reason or excuse for Trudeau leaving the school that he was “considering a return to Montreal in a year or so to continue his University studies”, just one of several reasons / excuses that were being bandied about.

By Oct 7 things were hotting up for Trudeau. The Conservative Party of Canada issued a statement questioning why Trudeau left his teaching job at the West Point Grey Academy.

Canadian Conservative Party Statement listed more excuses that had been given for Trudeau’s leaving the school

  • Ottawa Citizen at the time had said Trudeau had left to give speeches
  • Trudeau lawyers denied this but offered no reason
  • Montreal Gazette reported Trudeau was accepting a job at a public school
  • Vancouver Sun said he had left in part over a dispute over dress code
  • John Ivison book said Trudeau left due to disagreement over an article written by a student for which Trudeau was responsible
  • Trudeau has said he was moving on with his life

2019 Oct 7 Conservative Party Statement on Trudeau leaving West Point Grey Academy

Also on Oct 7 the mainly American publication Buffalo Chronicle stated that Trudeau was rumoured to be in talks to suppress an explosive sex scandal. The talks were said to be to stave off a career ending article about the scandal in the Globe and Mail. Trudeau is rumored to be in talks with an accusor to suppress an explosive sex scandal [8]

Trudeau had limited the times when he could be asked questions to the absolute minimum. He only submitted to one leaders debate in English and in a display of authoritarian censorship it appears that the Canadian Government banned Rebel News and True North from even being present in the arena.

Whilst this ultimately failed at the last minute thanks to costly and time consuming legal action taken by Rebel News. Trudeau’s legal fees of course were paid by the Canadian people. It showed the lengths Trudeau was willing to go to suppress legitimate questions and reporting. It was an indicator of the tyrannical control freak tendency that would return.

In the first 4 minutes of the video below with footage from around the Debate on October 8th, Ezra Levant, owner of Rebel News explains the extraordinary censorship situation Trudeau had caused to be thrown around the Leaders Debate. Following that in the video is a collation of questions to leaders asked by Rebel News after the debate, including on blackface and Trudeau’s departure from West Point Grey Academy.

Click on photo to open Odysee video in new tab, the most relevant transcript is below

2019 Oct 8 Rebel News Trudeau dodges student/teacher misconduct question: Rebel News at the French leaders’ debate Odysee Rebel News Federal Debate Highlights [14c]


  • 0-4 mins Ezra Levant, owner Rebel News explains extraordinary situation around Leaders Debate
  • 4 mins Bexte asks a blackface question
  • 4.43 – 5.09 Bexte asks questions on West Point Grey Academy
  • 5.12 Menzies asks questions on West Point Grey Academy, the law firm, the real reason why left and if it involved sexual misconduct.
  • 6 mins Trudeau answers/deflects a few questions
  • 7.15 Singh refuses to answer any questions from Rebel Media
  • 9.48 re injunction…
  • 11.55 Re injunction

Trudeau maintains his poise (which is what the illuminati call posture, and they are well trained in it), albeit appearing arrogant and perhaps sneeringly superior, with a supercilious and smug expression. However there are only a few small giveaway signs of the impact of the questions.


Keean Bexte Rebel News – “Have you or your campaign or any other agents secured non-disclosure agreements from anyone about inappropriate sexual personal conduct?

Trudeau – “No

4:51 Keean BexteFollow up – The 2001 yearbook from West Point Grey Academy says that you and convicted sex offender Christopher Ingleson made a young students quote life quote “a lot more interesting and amusing” end quote how did you to keep her amused?

Trudeau “We were teachers”

5:09 David Menzies Rebel News “Mr. Prime Minister You left the West Point Gray Academy in the middle of a term which is highly unusual, it was a law firm that made this announcement which is also highly unusual, sir can you tell us the real reason why you left so abruptly and did it involve any kind of sexual misconduct at the school?”

Trudeau “I wrote three pages on that in my autobiography and it involved absolutely nothing of the sort of the rumours that you’re trying to spread.”

David Menzies “Even so Mr Prime Minister, follow up question, Why did so many teenage girls write so passionately about you in the year book? Was there any connection to having a relationship with these girls or their mothers?”

Trudeau “I was a good teacher”

Note that Trudeau is practised in dissembling. Trudeau was able to answer the question on non-disclosure agreements directly and easily, as the agreement had not yet been signed. [see Trudeau timeline towards the end of this article]

For the question about why he left the school, Trudeau had to answer indirectly by referring to 3 pages in his autobiography “I wrote three pages on that in my autobiography and it involved absolutely nothing of the sort of the rumours that you’re trying to spread.”

The word “it” people may mistake to mean his leaving the school, in fact it refers to his autobiography, which of course he had written especially to avoid the real reason for his leaving – the sexual abuse. So he is saying, I wrote about that in my book which doesn’t mention sexual abuse; and his implication is that therefore his leaving West Point was not due to his sexual abusing.

Trudeau apparently is referring to a book called Common Ground. If anyone has a copy of the 3 pages of Trudeau’s on the school leaving, please publish them and send a link, or send copies, thanks.

The video also features Jagmeet Singh. He acts as Trudeau’s poodle, propping up the Trudeau government and helping them introduce WEF/ NWO policies on covid, climate, Emergencies Act and the woke agenda. He used the technique of simply refusing to answer questions from Rebel Media. This was the technique Trudeau himself later co-opted to negate proper questioning from the real media and to save having to dissemble.

On 10th October True North published a couple of extracts from a girl’s entry in the West Point Academy School yearbook. They used the pseudonym “Jane” for a girl who had written an entry that appeared to show a relationship outside school with both JT Justin Trudeau and CI Christopher Ingvaldsen. Trudeau refuses to answer questions about mysterious yearbook message [10]

“To ‘The Empire’, JT & CI, thanks for making my life at WPGA a lot more interesting/amusing!”

The yearbook also included a “Grad Poll” – where Grade 12 students voted on various categories including “Most Likely to be Famous,” “Most School Spirit,” “Teacher’s Pet,” etc. The poll included “Biggest Crush on Mr. Trudeau” and “Biggest Crush on Mr. Ingvaldson.” These were the only two teachers named in the Grad Poll. Jane was the student voted by her peers to have had the “Biggest Crush on Mr. Ingvaldson.” She was also voted “Biggest Flirt.” [10]

There were also photos, and polls which True North redacted for the privacy.

Jane’s entries from West Point Academy Yearbook via True North Trudeau refuses to answer questions about mysterious yearbook message [10] Photos and winners redacted by True North for privacy of Jane and other pupils.

On a previous page of the yearbook, Trudeau can be seen with his arm around Jane, in a photo of the Ultimate Frisbee team. Jane was a member of that team, and Trudeau was the coach and mascot. [10]

Trudeau is featured very prominently on the school’s Ultimate Frisbee team page. Three different photos of Trudeau in wild outfits show him hugging and roughhousing with the students. His various costumes include black and white face paint, a big black afro wig, a kilt and a large Mickey Mouse hat. The team was called the “MadHatters” and the yearbook includes a poem about the team that describes Trudeau as a loud-mouthed maniac.” [10]

Trudeau refused to answer True North’s questions about the yearbook.

The mainstream mockingird media chose not to ask Trudeau any questions on this matter. This would appear to be strange if the media were in place to hold power to account as some of them try to purport. It is beyond doubt, that they are there to disseminate and mantain the cabals decided narrative whilst trying to keep enough of a a veneer of democracy to fool most people.

The only media that I have seen trying to hold Trudeau to account are True North – Candice Malcolm and Rebel Media various journalists including Keeane Bexte, Alexandra Lavoie and David Menzies. They show up the rest of the media for being the puppets that they are.

It was to be another week before there was more information on the Trudeau sexual abuse, in the last couple of days before the election. By then a non disclosure agreement had been signed by Jane in return for over $2million.

It had been 18 years since Trudeau left West Point Academy and Trudeau’s lawyers were last publically known to be involved again in this matter. The previous lawyers Heenan Blaikie had ignominiously and bizarrely disbanded in 2014 [99] so another law firm must have been used in 2019.

Even with the mockingbird media on board, Trudeau, his lawyers or his puppeteers must have been worried about any public fallout from the unsavoury sexual abuse by Trudeau to seek a gag agreement. Without a mistake by his lawyers who included a copy of the agreement to the abused girls businessman father, who was not covered by the gag agreement, then we would not have known anything.

How much reach and impact did the article have in the last days of the election in Canada and how many people even heard about the scandal?

The article was dynamite – exposing the Prime Minister as having broken the law and sexual abused a pupil, it should have been career ending. 2019 Oct 19 Buffalo Chronicle Trudeau’s West Grey accuser was much younger than first thought [2]. However these globalist cabal psychopaths are experts on manipulating public opinion and mitigating any detrimental effects. That is assuming it is a bona fide election and not a globalist cabal selection.

The Liberals lost 20 seats, losing their majority but as the largest party they govern, with Trudeau as Prime Minister in a minority government with the help of the New Democrat Party led by Jasmeet Singh. Canada election 2019: full results [18].

AFAIK the sexual abuse matter then faded. There was little opportunity for it to be aired as mockingbird coporate media ignored it, Poodle Singh and later Trudeau refused to answer any questions from the only people asking them the difficult questions.

There are a few loose ends to address around this story…

Brownface Dirty Tricks?

Why did two US publications – Time Magazine and Buffalo Chronicle appear to have major information to influence the Canadian elections and Canadian publications did not? How did Time magazine obtain the initial brownface photograph?

Valid questions, and ones I will only begin to answer but which should be mentioned for completeness and truth, and there are a few sources for those interested to follow.

Anna Purna Kambhampaty was a new reporter to Time and she managed to obtain a scoop such as this. The article only mentioned that the photo was obtained through a Vancouver businessman Michael Adamson, who was part of the West Point Grey Academy community.

Anna was interviewed the next day but again was less than fully transparent about matters and the interview raised more questions. 2019 Sept 19 NPR Canadian Prime Minister Trudeau Apologizes For Brownface Costume Interview with Anna [56]

Michael Adamson was not interviewed in the article. Anna was vague as to who he was. He was not at the Arabian Nights party and his connection with West Point Grey Academy was not known and he had apparently only seen the photograph in July.

This is perhaps the article that should be read to best outline the Dirty tricks issues 2019 Sept 23 Free The Press Canada Dirty Tricks Behind Trudeau Brownface/Blackface Scandal [55] [59]

The vagueness about Michael Adamson led many Michael Adamson’s being suspected and being contacted. Inside the search for Michael Adamson, the Vancouver man who supplied Trudeau’s 2001 blackface photo [54]

The Michael Adamson and his wife turned out to be directors of the Vancouver-based export company Kapt-Al Services /KSL Global Ventures, and made much money selling Canadian dehydrated alfalfa pellets.

Adamson graduated in 1980 from the prestigious private school St. George’s in Vancouver, a rival to West Point Grey Academy. His son Bennet Tadashi Adamson, an only child who called his father a “retired grain trader” [57], also attended St George’s. Bennet Tadashi Adamson and the lead reporter Anna Purna Kambhampaty went to Cornell University together and appear to be friends. Public records show Bennet Adamson bought a US $4.2-million condo in April 2018, just west of Honolulu’s Waikiki resort area.

Michael Adamson said he was “motivated solely by the belief that the Canadian public had a right to see it”, that he was a “past member” of the community around West Point Grey Academy, and was “aware of gossip surrounding the existence of this photograph.” “I am not and have never been a member of a political party. I received no payment for releasing this photograph,” 2019 Sept 27 The Star Vancouver businessman who released Trudeau brownface photo says Canadians had a right to see it [58] He is recognized as generous benefactor to many charities in the Lower Mainland”

In one of those weird twists, the St George’s School that Adamson and his son attended is the very same St George’s that Christopher Ingvaldsen attended. Ingvaldsen was teaching as Head of Social Sciences when he was arrested for child sexual abuse images in 2010. The Adamsons presumably knew Ingvaldsen.

Murders at West Point Grey Academy

Another loose end to tidy up is that I had read that whilst Trudeau was teacher at West Point Grey Academy there were two murders associated with the school. In fact however, the murders happened a few years later than the Trudeau era, in 2007 and 2009. They do though perhaps give an idea of the clientele of the private school St George’s.

The murders were certainly written up in no uncertain terms as gangster murders, complete with nicknames. I am not convinced that it is not parody, but could well be true. 2009 May 21 Macleans The right crowd Gangster murders have parents at elite B.C. school [29]

“Betty “the Loan Shark” Yan had been found, shortly after 4:20 a.m., slumped over the steering wheel of her grey, late-model Mercedes outside the Canadian Chinese Chess Society, a suspected illegal gambling den in Richmond.” Her 3 children had attended the school. It was a hug, kiss on the cheek, high-five or a pat on the back for the kids” from the founding headmaster Clive Austin. “That’s how he treats the major families.” (Yes the same headmaster Clive Austin covering for Trudeau years later!) The school hired a crisis consultant Nancy Spooner, to deal with the scandal.

“Two years before, Hong Chao “Raymond” Huang was shot to death in front of his yellow mansion in Vancouver’s exclusive Shaughnessy neighbourhood; his 10-year-old daughter, a West Point Grey student—who, according to Chen, also quietly exited the school—phoned in the hit to police. A leader with the Big Circle Boys, whose network of small cells span the globe, Huang was believed to be a major player in the trade of heroin and synthetic drugs and had criminal links to Toronto, the U.S., Australia, Hong Kong and China.”

The school said it will review issues relating to the “admission to and composition of the school community.”

On that theme of the calibre of private school parents and students, several Grade 10 (aged 15/16) students from St George’s were expelled for racism after racist video and comments in a private social media messaging group. 2019 Oct 17 Vancouver Sun Students expelled from St. George’s private school in Vancouver after sharing hateful memes [97]

In another weird twist then notice the timing. This happened just before the 2019 Federal Election. So whilst a philanthropic supporter and old boy of St George’s School had released a photo of Trudeau in brownface at a rival school to Time magazine, within a month St George’s School itself was having to expel pupils for racism. Was this blowback?

Earlier in the year the school were having to conduct an internal investigation following a criminal indictment being issued against 50 people, including Vancouver businessman David Sidoo, in an alleged conspiracy to get their kids into U.S. colleges and universities 2019 Mar 3 Georgia Straight B.C. government needs to investigate St. George’s school following indictment against businessman David Sidoo [98]

St. George’s was founded in 1930 and enrolment is about 1,150, in Grades 1-12. Basic tuition ranges from $23,740 for a junior school student from B.C. to $71,490 for an international boarding student.

Its remarkable how often St George’s School is in the news in a negative way and how much criminality surrounds private schools.

Criminologist John Martin made a valid point “It defies the popular image, but many of the most successful criminals in the country don’t have a record. They play golf at $400 a pop, and sail expensive boats”. [29]

He could have added that successful criminals can and do cosplay and become politicians… In fact most politicians have blackmailable secrets so that they are controllable.

Finally… last loose end

Trudeau Foundation

It has been reported that the Trudeau Foundation [94] has a history of using pedophile symbols. 2018 April 16 Your Newswire Justin Trudeau’s Best Friend Jailed After International Pedophile Ring Bust [40]

I have not found any proof of this in a brief look in the archives, but I would be grateful if anyone else has a dig and finds anything to pass it on.

Update 2022 Oct 9 Many thanks to Quer gedacht who provided proof that the pedophile symbol was used in The Pierre Elliott Trudeau Foundation Annual Report 2015-2016 [105]

The Cabal’s Foundations are often a means for the elite / scum to launder money, avoid tax, engage in nefarious activities and generally subvert the rules that the rest of us mugs live by. One example being the Beau Biden Foundation which I have written about here LFH4 Beau Biden Foundation for the Protection of Children? [96]

The Trudeau Foundation, set up by Pierre Trudeau was shown to vastly increase its revenue in the years after Justin was made leader of the Liberal Party.

The worry is that foundations can have conflicts of interest as well as peddle favours, especially with close friends or family on the board.

2016 Dec 12 National Post Money began to rain on Trudeau Foundation once Justin took over Liberals, analysis shows [95]

All the more grounds for suspicion when public money is being used to fund academic research into ideas championed by individuals.

Justin Trudeau Timeline

1971 Mar 4 Margaret Sinclair and Pierre Trudeau married in a surprise wedding in North Vancouver, British Columbia

1971 Dec 25 Justin Trudeau born at 9:27 pm EST at the Ottawa Civic Hospital [19] His mother was Margaret Sinclair.

1973 Dec 25 Alexandre Sasha born

1999 Trudeau started work as a substitute teacher at the private school West Point Grey Academy until an abrupt and poorly explained departure in June of 2001.drama and French [2]

2000 Sept 28 Pierre Trudeau died

2000 Oct 3 Justin Trudeau emerged as prominent public figure when he delivered a eulogy to the ex- husband of his mother, the man whose surname he bore ex Prime Minister of Canada, Pierre Trudeau. Justin gave his first major acting performance which received acclaim in the mockingbird press but was so overacted that if it was an audition he would not have got a role in even the crumbiest soap opera. His real father Fidel Castro sat behind his mother during the service.

2001 Jun – Justin Trudeau left West Point Grey Academy abruptly in the middle of term in poorly explained departure when he was 29 [8] At the time of his departure he hired his father’s lawfirm, Heenan Blaikie, to represent him in the matter.  The firm issued a bizarre statement that denied that Trudeau was leaving his part-time position in order to pursue public speaking opportunities. He was 29 years old [8]

2001 Jun 26/7 Issued by Heenan Blaikie Statement from Justin Trudeau “And though perhaps I am overly hopeful in still considering myself to be a private citizen, I would expect that the media would at least refrain from inventing front-page stories concerning me.”

2001 Jun 27 CBC Justin Trudeau denies reports about his future [86]

2005 Justin Trudeau, Prime Minister of Canada (2015 – present), used the Emergencies Act against peaceful protesters []

2010 Jun Christopher Ingvaldson arrested 42 []

2015 Ingvaldsen sentenced []

2015 Oct 3 Huffington Post Justin Trudeau Teacher: Former Students Reveal What He Was Like In The Classroom [62]

c.2016 Quora When Justin Trudeau was a teacher in Vancouver, what and where did he teach? [63]

2018 April 16 Newspunch Justin Trudeau’s Long-Term Friend Jailed After International Pedophile Ring Bust [1]

2018 Jun 30 Brutal Proof Canada’s PM Justin Trudeau’s Best Friend Jailed After International Pedophile Ring Bust [66]

2019 Sept 11 Trudeau visited Governor General Julie Payette, to request the dissolution of Parliament, and formally triggering an election.[215]

2019 Sept 18 Time magazine published a photograph of Trudeau wearing brownface makeup in the spring of 2001, at an Arabian Nights-themed gala, while Trudeau was a teacher at West Point Grey Academy.[220] Trudeau publicly apologized, agreeing the photo was racist and saying: “I shouldn’t have done that. I should have known better and I didn’t. I’m really sorry.”[221] He further went on to say “It was something that I didn’t think was racist at the time, but now I recognize it was something racist to do”.[222] Trudeau also admitted to wearing blackface makeup in high school while singing “Day-O” at a talent show that was subsequently published by Global News.[223] A third instance, a video, of Trudeau in racist dress was also published.[224] After this video was published, Trudeau admitted he could not remember how often he had worn blackface makeup.[225] In the days following the scandal, pollsters pointed out that many Canadians either were not bothered by the scandal or had accepted Trudeau’s apology.[226][227][228][229] Additionally, some minority community groups, racialized commentators and some of Trudeau’s opponents came to his defence.[230][231][232][233] Others were more critical, including members of his own party.[234]

2019 Sept 18 [] with the photograph of Trudeau in brownface from Vancouver businessman Michael Adamson, who was part of the West Point Grey Academy community. Adamson was not at the party, which was attended by school faculty, administrators and parents of students. He said that he first saw the photograph in July an

2019 Sept 19 Some facts on West Point Grey Academy, where Justin Trudeau once was a teacher [16]

2019 Sept 19 NPR Canadian Prime Minister Trudeau Apologizes For Brownface Costume [56]

2019 Sept 19 Well and Tribune Trudeau’s blackface backlash brings back memories for Strange [81]

2019 Sept 19 Canada Land Robert Jago There Is A Second Photo Of Justin Trudeau In Brownface [80]

2019 Sept 20 CBC What we know about Justin Trudeau’s blackface photos — and what happens next [53]

2019 Oct 20 Buffalo Chronicle Trudeau operatives have been hounding Mark Zuckerberg to censor a US-based newspaper [100]

2019 Sept 21 Telegraph Inside the charity gala where Justin Trudeau shocked 500 guests with blackface [60]

2019 Sept 23 Free The Press Canada Dirty Tricks Behind Trudeau Brownface/Blackface Scandal? [59] [55]

2019 Sept 26 Globe and Mail Inside the search for Michael Adamson, the Vancouver man who supplied Trudeau’s 2001 blackface photo [54]

2019 Sept 27 The Star Vancouver businessman who released Trudeau brownface photo says Canadians had a right to see it [58]

2019 Sept 30 Toronto Sun Trudeau’s yearbook tells a bigger story [11]

2019 Oct 4 School headmaster issued statement re Trudeau []

2019 Oct 7 Conservative Party Statement Why did Justin Trudeau leave his teaching job at West Point Grey Academy? [71]

2019 Oct 7 Buffalo Chronicle Trudeau is rumored to be in talks with an accusor to suppress an explosive sex scandal [8]

2019 Oct 7 Post Millenial Conservatives drop press release questioning Trudeau’s different reasons for leaving private school [72]

2019 Oct 8 Rebel News Trudeau dodges student/teacher misconduct question: Rebel News at the French leaders’ debate [14] Odysee Rebel News Federal Debate Highlights [14c]

2019 Oct 8 Odysee Rebel News Federal debate highlights 2019: Rebel asks why Trudeau left West Point Grey Academy | Ezra Levant Odysee [14c]

2019 Oct 8 The Blaze Reporter confronts Justin Trudeau over blackface scandal. The PM completely deflects and avoids the topic.[13]

2019 Oct 9 Wed evening the girl signed, in exchange for her continued silence of the $2.25 million mutual non-disclosure non-disparagement agreement that [2]

2019 Oct 9 SnopesFakeNews Did Justin Trudeau Stop Teaching at a Vancouver Private School Under the Cloud of a Sex Scandal? [46]

2019 Oct 10 Thurs True North Trudeau refuses to answer questions about mysterious yearbook message [10] The poll included “Biggest Crush on Mr. Trudeau” and “Biggest Crush on Mr. Ingvaldson.” These were the only two teachers named in the Grad Poll. Jane was the student voted by her peers to have had the “Biggest Crush on Mr. Ingvaldson.” She was also voted “Biggest Flirt.” Sept – 2001 WGPA yearbook made international headlines last month when a report in Time Magazine drew attention to a racist photo of the future Prime Minister with his face and hands painted black [10] [] ultimate frisbe team trudeau was masoct and coach The team was called the “MadHatters,” and the yearbook includes a poem about the team that describes Trudeau as “a loud-mouthed maniac.”

2019 Oct 11 Church Militant Canadian Prime Minister’s “New” Sex Scandal [4]

2019 Oct 11 Fri Vigile Quebec Trudeau accusor lands a seven-figure NDA to keep quiet about West Grey departure [12]

2019 Oct 12 Sat “By Saturday evening, Trudeau’s negotiator became impatient, giving the young woman a deadline of 10pm on Wednesday evening to either agree to or reject the terms of the NDA” [2]

2019 Oct 19 Wed Buffalo Chronicle Trudeau’s West Grey accuser was much younger than first thought [2]

2019 Oct 21 Canadian Federal Election [18] Trudeau relected with minority government?

2019 Oct 22 Guardian Canada election 2019: full results [18]

Ingvaldson Timeline

2010 Jun Arrested – Christopher Ingvaldson, 42, ran the social studies department at St. George’s School and was immediately let go after being arrested in June 2010 on four charges related to child pornography. [39] ? CTV News Former St. George’s School teacher Chris Ingvaldson is in court on Oct. 16 for sentencing after pleading guilty to child porn charges.

2010 Aug 27 CBC 2 in B.C. linked to Facebook child porn bust [42]

2012 Mar 28 Ingvaldsen pled guilty to two of the four counts.[33]

2012 Jun 12 Vancouver Sun Child porn sentencing for St. George’s teacher delayed by dispute over report A dispute over details in a pre-sentencing report has delayed the sentencing of a former private school teacher who earlier pleaded guilty to child pornography charg, adjourned until Oct. 16 [38]

2012 Dec 4 R. v. Ingvaldson, 2012 BCPC 437 (CanLII) Reasons For Sentencing [45] Spring of 2010 when Australian police, in a project code named “Project Ocean”, were investigating use of the Internet, particularly Facebook, in circulating child pornography. The police uncovered a 14 member group on Facebook entitled “Little Girls Love To Play Too”

2013 Jan 8 Vancouver Sun Former Vancouver private school teacher sentenced for child porn [43]

2013 Sept 1 Ottawa Citizen Former Vancouver private school teacher sentenced for child porn [38g] ormer teacher at an elite Vancouver private school has been sentenced to three months in prison and two years’ probation after he pleaded guilty to accessing and possessing 41 images of child pornography

2015 Oct 31 Full Report Trudeau’s roommate pleads guilty 2 child-porn charges [28]

>2015 After becoming Prime Minister, Justin Trudeau encouraged Ingvaldson to run for political office as a member of the Liberal Party. Ingvaldson announced his desire to be the Liberal MP candidate in the district of Vancouver-Kingsway, and developed a social media pages announcing his plans to run. [1]

This post [111] 2022 Aug 12 cathyfoxblog Justin Trudeau Pedophile


[1] 2018 April 16 Newspunch Justin Trudeau’s Long-Term Friend Jailed After International Pedophile Ring Bust Christopher Ingvaldsen

[2] 2019 Oct 19 Buffalo Chronicle Trudeau’s West Grey accuser was much younger than first thought

[3] You Tube Justin Trudeau’s eulogy to Pierre Trudeau [odysise]

[3a] Odysee Justin Trudeau’s Eulogy to Pierre Trudeau’s-eulogy:e

[4] 2019 Oct 11 Church Militant Canadian Prime Minister’s “New” Sex Scandal

[5] Viva Frei speaks out about the forced quarantine on his 12-year-old daughter, as well as problems related to the new electronic pass imposed on Canadians and tourists. FULL REPORT by Alexandra Lavoie:

[6] 2022 Jul 20 Rumble ‘Unscientific, unconstitutional, and discriminatory’: Viva Frei on Canada’s travel restrictions


[8] 2019 Oct 7 Buffalo Chronicle Trudeau is rumored to be in talks with an accusor to suppress an explosive sex scandal

[9] CBC

[10] 2019 Oct 10 Thurs True North Trudeau refuses to answer questions about mysterious yearbook message

[10a] 2019 Oct 10 Thurs True North Trudeau refuses to answer questions about mysterious yearbook message archive

[11] 2019 Sept 30 Toronto Sun Trudeau’s yearbook tells a bigger story archive [11a]

the woman with whom he was allegedly involved tells the Chronicle that Trudeau’s lawyers sought her out about two weeks ago demanding she sign a non-disclosure agreement regarding their past relationship. In 2001, when he was 29 years old, Trudeau abruptly left his teaching position in the middle of the school term after having had an alleged month-long sexual relationship with a female student. Over the years, Trudeau’s reason for suddenly leaving the school has changed, with Trudeau himself offering conflicting reasons. In 2001 the Ottawa Citizen claimed he would “give up his teaching job … to give speeches,” but a follow-up statement from his father’s law firm, Heenan Blaikie, asked people “not to make things up” regarding his departure from the school.Afterward, the Montreal Gazette said he had accepted a teaching job at a public school — which never materialized. In his autobiography, Trudeau claims he left over a dispute with administrators about content in the school’s newspaper, a claim parroted by the Vancouver Sun in 2015, which said it was “in part over a dispute over dress code and values.” Just last week Trudeau claimed he left “because [he] was moving on with [his] life,” while the former headmaster claimed Trudeau left to pursue a degree in engineering.

2019 Oct 19 Buffalo Chronicle Trudeau’s West Grey accuser was much younger than first thought [2]

The relationship was discovered several months after Pierre Trudeau‘s death.  He died on September 28th, and was eulogized by his son on October 3rd — an event that made him a rising political star, around whom much of Canada would swoon.

[12] 2019 Oct 11 Vigile Quebec Trudeau accusor lands a seven-figure NDA to keep quiet about West Grey departure

[13] 2019 Oct 8 The Blaze Reporter confronts Justin Trudeau over blackface scandal. The PM completely deflects and avoids the topic.

[14] 2019 Oct 11 Rebel News Trudeau dodges student/teacher misconduct question: Rebel News at the French leaders’ debate

[14a] 2020 Jan 2 You tube Rebel News Federal debate highlights 2019: Rebel asks why Trudeau left West Point Grey Academy | Ezra Levant

[14b] 2020 Jan You tube Federal debate highlights 2019: Rebel asks why Trudeau left West Point Grey Academy | Ezra Levant start at NDA question.

[14c] Rebel News Federal Debate Highlights

[15] West Point Grey Academy website

[16] 2019 Sept 19 Some facts on West Point Grey Academy, where Justin Trudeau once was a teacher


[18] 2019 Oct 22 Guardian Canada election 2019: full results

[19] Wikipedia Justin Trudeau

[20] Deprogramwiki – There are many surnames which are part of this bloodline (Including the Smith family), however I can give one very prominent one, the Sinclair family. Sinclair family has been part of the Prieure de Sion, Freemasonry and the Illuminati.The 13th Illuminati Bloodline is where the Anti-Christ will come from. This bloodline believes that it has both the Holy Blood of Jesus and the blood (or seed) of Satan in its bloodline.

[21] 2022 May 4 Winterwatch Was Fidel Castro Justin Trudeau’s Daddy?

[22] 2016 Nov 27 CNN O Canada: Trudeau’s Castro tribute raises eyebrows

[23] 2017 Nov 8 Vanity Fair Margaret Trudeau’s Long, Strange, Canadian Trip archive 1 [23a] archive 2

[25] 2019 Oct 4 Reddit Statement by Clive Austin, former Headmaster of West Point Grey Academy addressing the latest rumors surrounding Trudeau’s departure from the school

[26] 2022 Feb 3 Reuters Fact Check-Trudeau’s joke about paying media is taken out of context

[27] 2021 Sept 9 Bitchute Viva Frei Trudeau BRAGS About Buying Off Canadian Media? FACT CHECK Viva Frei Vlawg [27b] youtube

[28] 2015 Oct 31 Full Report Trudeau’s roommate pleads guilty 2 child-porn charges [28a] roommates with trudeau

[29] 2009 May 21 Macleans The right crowd Gangster murders have parents at elite B.C. school panicking

[30] 2016 Jan 28 CBC Child pornography: 13 charged after alleged pedophile ring busted by police in Quebec, Toronto ‘Operation Malaise,’ 3-year probe of online activities, targets men in 6 Quebec cities as well as Toronto

[31] 2013 Nov 14 Independent Hundreds arrested as Canadian police smash worldwide paedophile ring archive octopus-like child-porn network centred on a now-shuttered sex-film business in Toronto. Its tentacles extended across Canada, where 108 people have been taken into custody, and to six continents. In the US, 76 people were arrested while others have been rounded up in several European countries.While the investigation, Project Spade, was led by the Royal Canadian Mounted Police (RCMP), it was pursued with the collaboration of the US Postal Inspection Service and law enforcement agencies in Sweden, Spain, Mexico, Australia, South Africa and Hong Kong, officials said. Azov films The films were made with video clips allegedly sent to Mr Way by collaborators around the world. Films viewed by police included sequences of naked boys shot in Romania, Ukraine and Germany. 1991 Ukraine independent Crimea was ukraine 1991-2014 azov battalion 2014?

[32] 2011 Mar 16 CTV Canadians arrested in international pedophile ring named Operation Rescue, which has so far identified 670 suspects in more than 30 countries, including police officers, teachers and scout leaders.

[33] Wikipedia Christopher Charles Ingvaldson (born November 1, 1969) is a Canadian teacher and former international field hockey player. He was the head of the Social Studies department at St. George’s School (Vancouver) until he was fired June 4, 2010 after being arrested and charged with four counts relating to the possession and distribution of child pornography. On March 28, 2012 he pled guilty to two of the four counts. He was caught in 2010 during an international police sting using Facebook. At the time, RCMP said 11 members of the ring had been arrested in Canada, Australia and the U.K.

[34m] 2013 Sept 1 Vancouver Sun Former Vancouver private school teacher sentenced for child porn sentenced to three months in prison and two years’ probation after he pleaded guilty to accessing and possessing 41 images of child pornography. The Provincial Court judge stated in their ruling that although the illegal images Christopher Charles Ingvaldson, 43, accessed at home and while working at St. George’s School were “‘very bad’, there are more extreme cases.He was caught in 2010 during an international police sting using Facebook. At the time, RCMP said 11 members of the ring had been arrested in Canada, Australia and the U.K.

[24] 2013 Nov 14 Columbus Dispatch Canada says 386 kids rescued in child-porn bust the Project Spade operation e allege Brian Way, 42, instructed people around the world to create the videos of children ranging from 5 to 12 years of age, then distributed the videos via his company, Azov Films, Police said they began their investigation in 2010 and worked with Interpol in more than 50 countries including Australia, Spain, Mexico, Norway and Greece. A sweeping child pornography investigation has led to the rescue of 386 children around the world and the arrest of 348 people, Canadian police said today.

[34] 2012 Oct 17 National Post RCMP rescue boy after years of abuse as 21 arrested in ‘Operation Snapshot’ child porn bust

[35] 2013 Nov NBC Nearly 400 children rescued and 348 adults arrested in Canadian child pornography bust 3 year project spade

[36] Wikipedia Newfoundland Child Pornography Ring

[37] 2014 Jun CBC 32 child porn charges laid in B.C. in nationwide bust snapshot

[38] 2012 Jun 12 Vancouver Sun Child porn sentencing for St. George’s teacher delayed by dispute over report A dispute over details in a pre-sentencing report has delayed the sentencing of a former private school teacher who earlier pleaded guilty to child pornography charg, adjourned until Oct. 16

[38g] 2013 Sept 1 Ottawa Citizen Former Vancouver private school teacher sentenced for child porn former teacher at an elite Vancouver private school has been sentenced to three months in prison and two years’ probation after he pleaded guilty to accessing and possessing 41 images of child pornography

[39] ? CTV News Former St. George’s School teacher Chris Ingvaldson is in court on Oct. 16 for sentencing after pleading guilty to child porn charges. Police said the investigation began when they received a report alleging someone was accessing child pornography at school.

[40] 2018 April 16 Your Newswire Justin Trudeau’s Best Friend Jailed After International Pedophile Ring Bust archive

[41] 2019? Steemit Justin Trudeau exposed part 2

[42] 2010 Aug 27 CBC 2 in B.C. linked to Facebook child porn bust ing

[43] 2013 Jan 8 Vancouver Sun Former Vancouver private school teacher sentenced for child porn accessed at school

[44] Provincial Court Judgements website

[45] 2012 Dec 4 R. v. Ingvaldson, 2012 BCPC 437 (CanLII) Reasons For Sentencing Spring of 2010 when Australian police, in a project code named “Project Ocean”, were investigating use of the Internet, particularly Facebook, in circulating child pornography. [45a] archive

[46] 2019 Oct 9 Snopes Did Justin Trudeau Stop Teaching at a Vancouver Private School Under the Cloud of a Sex Scandal?

[47] 2020 May 14 Buffalo Chronicle Sophie Gregoire has separated from Justin Trudeau Gregoire intends to remain married and to remain at Harrington Lake for the remainder of Trudeau’s tenure, though at least one major Liberal Party financier — rumored to be Frank Giustra — has offered Gregoire use of a large private home in the Notting Hill section of London. frank giustra The Boy’s Club Network is a mentorship network for ‘the most at risk boys’ and was founded by two Vancouver secondary school educators nearly two decades ago. Frank Giustra was an inaugural supporter and continues to be a mentor to many at the Boy’s Club Network. Giustra is a principle funder of the Clinton Global Initative’s work in Haiti. For several months earlier this year, Prince Harry and Meghan Markel had been living at one of his homes in British Columbia.

[48] Boys Club Networks

[49] Wikipedia Frank Giustra

[50] 2016 Sept 23 Giustra Foundation PM Justin Trudeau’s Remarks at the United Nations – recognizes Frank Giustra and the work of the Radcliffe Foundation

[50m] 2016 Archived Profile: Alison Lawton, human rights activist and documentary filmmaker Alison Lawton

[51] 2019 Sept 18 Time Magazine Justin Trudeau Wore Brownface at 2001 ‘Arabian Nights’ Party While He Taught at a Private School, Canada’s Liberal Party Admits archive 1 [51b] archive 2 with the photograph of Trudeau in brownface from Vancouver businessman Michael Adamson, who was part of the West Point Grey Academy community. Adamson was not at the party, which was attended by school faculty, administrators and parents of students. He said that he first saw the photograph in July an


[53] 2019 Sept 20 CBC What we know about Justin Trudeau’s blackface photos — and what happens next

[54] 2019 Sept 26 Globe and Mail Inside the search for Michael Adamson, the Vancouver man who supplied Trudeau’s 2001 blackface photo

[55] 2019 Sept 28 Free The Press Canada Dirty Tricks Behind Trudeau Brownface/Blackface Scandal?

[56] 2019 Sept 19 NPR Canadian Prime Minister Trudeau Apologizes For Brownface Costume

[57] Quizlet Bennet Tadashi Adamson. Architect. Vancouver, Canada. Dad: Michael – retired grain trader Mom: Kumi – stay at home. Only child.

[58] 2019 Sept 27 The Star Vancouver businessman who released Trudeau brownface photo says Canadians had a right to see it

[59] 2019 Sept 23 Free The Press Canada Dirty Tricks Behind Trudeau Brownface/Blackface Scandal?

[60] 2019 Sept 21 Telegraph Inside the charity gala where Justin Trudeau shocked 500 guests with blackface Mr Trudeau left only a few months after the blackface incident, moving to teach at the nearby state-funded Sir Winston Churchill Secondary School.

[61] Canadian Encyclopedia Justin Trudeau his maternal grandfather, Jimmy Sinclair, was a federal Cabinet minister in the 1950s

When Justin was 12, his father retired from politics and moved with his sons to Montréal, where Justin completed his secondary schooling at Collège Jean-de-Brébeuf, his father’s alma mater.

Trudeau attended McGill University, where he was a member of the debating team and a volunteer in the student society’s Sexual Assault Centre. After graduating with a Bachelor of Arts in English literature in 1994, he spent a year travelling overseas. He returned to McGill, where he studied to become a teacher. Before completing his degree, Trudeau moved to Whistler, British Columbia, where he became a snowboarding instructor and worked as a bouncer at a nightclub. After several months, he returned to teacher’s college, this time to the University of British Columbia, where he earned a Bachelor of Education degree in 1998.

After working as a substitute teacher in Coquitlam, BC, he found a permanent position at West Point Grey Academy, a private school in Vancouver, where he primarily taught French and math. Eventually he moved to the public school system, teaching at Sir Winston Churchill Secondary School in Vancouver. Between 2002 and 2007 Trudeau returned to Montreal to study first engineering at the University of Montreal’s École Polytechnique, and then environmental geography at McGill. He did not complete either program, turning instead to advocacy work.

[62] 2015 Oct 3 Huffington Post Justin Trudeau Teacher: Former Students Reveal What He Was Like In The Classroom

[63] c.2016 Quora When Justin Trudeau was a teacher in Vancouver, what and where did he teach?

[64] Churchill School

[65] Churchill School

[66] 2018 Jun 30 Brutal Proof Canada’s PM Justin Trudeau’s Best Friend Jailed After International Pedophile Ring Bust paedo symbol Pierre Elliot Trudeau Foundation.

[67] WEF Schwab likes to infiltrate cabinets with young global leaders


[69] wikipedia Margaret Trudeau In 1971, the Trudeaus took a second honeymoon in the Caribbean to Barbados and an unidentified nearby island[19]  then Tobago, then to Saint Vincent and the Grenadines (including both Bequia and St. Vincent) with Pierre taking a side-trip to Trinidad while Margaret stayed in Tobago.[20] Surprise wedding in North Vancouver, British Columbia, on March 4, 1971.-

[70] 2022 Feb 22 WEF Geopolitics Young Global Leaders Revealed

[71] 2019 Oct 7 Conservative Party Statement Why did Justin Trudeau leave his teaching job at West Point Grey Academy?

[72] 2019 Oct 7 Post Millenial Conservatives drop press release questioning Trudeau’s different reasons for leaving private school

[73] Rebel News Federal Debate Highlights

[74] 2017 Odysee Schwab boasting that over half of Trudeau’s cabinet is penetrated by WEF Young Global Leaders Klaus Schwab’s remarks were made during the 2017 Malcolm H. Wiener Lecture on International Political Economy titled “Strengthening Collaboration in a Fractured World” at the Harvard Kennedy School (Hashtag #SchwabForum)

[75] 2022 Feb 21 substack Plebeian Resistance All the Young Global Leaders from 1993 until 2021 (Update: unlocked the pdf and spreadsheet)

[76] 2022 Feb 5 Pharos Stiftelsen 2005: Justin Trudeau, Prime Minister of Canada (2015- present), used the Emergencies Act against peaceful protesters

[77] 2019 Sept 27 Newswire Statement by Michael Adamson Regarding 2001 Trudeau Brownface Photograph

[78] 2020 Nov 15 Logical Faction Trudeau, Castro and Uranium 1

[79] 2001 April waybackmachine Newsletter of West Point Grey Academy

[80] 2019 Sept 19 Canada Land Robert Jago There Is A Second Photo Of Justin Trudeau In Brownface

[81] 2019 Sept 19 Well and Tribune Trudeau’s blackface backlash brings back memories for Strange

[82] 2013 Mar 5 Huffington Post Contender: The Justin Trudeau Story (eBook PART 1)

[82a] c. 2015 Huffington Post Althia Raj The Contender

[83] c.2016 Reddit Operation Brownstone and Operation Brownstar — CIA’s Network Abuse of Minors in Blackmail Leverage Arbitrage (‘nambla’ backronym) archive

[84] c.2017 Steemit What is Operation Brownstone/a Brownstone Operation? Is it real? More than likely.

[85] 2019 Sept 21 According to the telegraph the woman in the photo being held by Trudeau is Mariam Matossian, a fellow teacher. Miss Matossian, who is of Armenian descent, later left teaching and embarked on a successful career as a writer and performer of Armenian folk songs. She now lives in the United States. Her website is here [] . Trudeau left only a few months after the blackface incident, moving to teach at the nearby state-funded Sir Winston Churchill Secondary School.

[86] 2001 Jun 27 CBC Justin Trudeau denies reports about his future

[87] 2022 Aug 10 Newspunch Bombshell Evidence PROVES Justin Trudeau Is Fidel Castro’s Son

[88] 2022 Sept 19 Global News EXCLUSIVE: Video shows Trudeau in blackface in 3rd instance of racist makeup

[89] wikipedia Queens Privy Council for Canada

[90] wikipedia List of Current Members of Queens Privy Council for Canada

[91] wikipedia Canadian election 2015

[92] wikipedia Canadian election 2019

[93] wikipedia Canadian election 2021

2019 Liberals lost 20 seats, losing their majority and having to govern as a minority government with the help of ND poodles.

2015 election Lib 184 up 148, C 99 down 60, ND 95 down 21, BQ 10 up 8 [91]
2019 election Lib 157 down 20, C 121 up 26 ND 24 down 15, BQ 32 up 22, G 3 [92]
2021 election Lib 160 up 5, C 119 same, ND , ND 25 up 1, BQ 32 same G 2 [93]

Jagmeet Singh Jimmy Dhaliwal was elected leader of the New Democratic Party (NDP) on October 1, 2017 Largely seen as a poodle propping up the Trudeau government and helping them introduce NWO Plicies on covid , Emergencies Act and the woke agenda

[94] Trudeau Foundation

[95] 2016 Dec 12 National Post Money began to rain on Trudeau Foundation once Justin took over Liberals, analysis shows

[96] 2020 Nov 9 cathyfoxblog LFH4 Beau Biden Foundation for the Protection of Children?

[97] 2019 Oct 17 Vancouver Sun Students expelled from St. George’s private school in Vancouver after sharing hateful memes St. George’s was founded in 1930 and enrolment is about 1,150, in Grades 1-12. Basic tuition ranges from $23,740 for a junior school student from B.C. to $71,490 for an international boarding student.

[98] 2019 Mar 3 Georgia Straight B.C. government needs to investigate St. George’s school following indictment against businessman David Sidoo

[99] 2014 Feb 7 Globe and Mail Death of a law firm: Behind the collapse of Heenan Blaikie

[100] 2019 Oct 20 Buffalo Chronicle Trudeau operatives have been hounding Mark Zuckerberg to censor a US-based newspaper

[101] canadaland

[102] bbc


[104] 2022 Aug 12 substack Liz Crokin Jeffrey Epstein the Pedophile Superspy!

[105] The Pierre Elliott Trudeau Foundation Annual Report 2015-2016

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Covid Resources 2 – Doctors and Other Specialists

I have compiled a list of medical Doctors, other specialists and organisations that appear to search for the truth and try and tell the truth as they see it.

This has often come at a cost of their career, as anything outside the official narrative driven from the top and coordinated globally is stamped upon by licensing bodies, authoritarian government and agencies, legacy corporate media and corporate social media.

The list of doctors, specialists and organisations has various links to their website and blog and sometimes social media only if I happened to come across it. It would help if everyone had a list compiled of all their social media contacts. Not everyone gets a line bio due to time. I have often included Totality of Evidence links so that further videos or articles can be explored.

The list should enable you to cut out the mockingbird media [9] propaganda, and go direct to the sources.


Other Specialities

I will have missed some, please feel free to add any to comments. Others are also here [28] Credentialed Experts


Disinformation Dozen

Twelve people were targeted and labelled as the “disinformation dozen” by the [HATE] Centre for Countering Digital Hate (CCDH)

The CCDHate of course has few if any qualifications to judge that these people spread disinformation, which is one reason no doubt that they feel they have to strip the Doctors of their titles in the list. The CCDHate is inversely named as it appears to promote hate not counter it. The face of CCDHate, Imran Ahmed appears to target those who can think outside the cabal brainwashing and are able to question the very questionable official narrative.

Imran Ahmed CCDHate

If you can’t question it, its not science… its propaganda…

Why do they try and stop you questioning? My guess is that CCDHate is an “intelligence” propaganda and pressure group front. The CCDH, as well as attacking individuals, pushes for social media to censor more and to coordinate their censorship on individuals. CCDHate wants to silence dissenting voices from the dictated centralised narrative. “Intelligence” agencies often use blackmail to get informants to carry out tasks like this.

I have included the individuals named main websites so that you can judge for yourselves. There are some crossover with Doctors listed above but some are not listed above or have large social media followings, who have got up the nose of the narrative nannies and dictators…

Another List of Doctors who apparently think for themselves (list not mine but forgotten where from, there will be overlap)…

There are two Nobel Peace Prize winners and one nominee on this list.
Dr. Michael Yeadon (Former Pfizer VP)
Dr. Robert Malone (mRNA inventor)
Dr. Peter McCullough (most published on CV)
Dr. Vladimir Zelenko (Nobel PP Nominee)
Dr. Kary Mullis (PCR inventor/Nobel PP winner)
Dr. Rima Laibow
Dr. Naomi Wolf
Dr. David Martin
Dr. Luc Montaigner
Dr. Roger Hodkinson
Dr. Geert Vanden Bossche
Dr. Sherri Tenpenny
Dr. Judy Mitkovitz
Dr. Carrie Madej
Dr. Vernon Coleman
Dr. Ben Tapper
Dr. Michael Lake
Dr. Christiane Northrop
Dr. Simone Gold
Dr. Sean Brooks
Dr. Shiva Ayyadurai
Dr. Jane Ruby
Dr. Ryan Cole
Dr. Kevin Stillwagon
Dr. Afzal Niaz
Dr. Rashid A.Buttar
Dr. Paul Thomas
Dr. Vanessa Passov
Dr. Jessica Rose
Dr. Christopher Rake
Dr. Charles Hoffe
Dr. Mark Mcdonald
Dr. Jeff Barke
Dr. Andrew Kaufman
Dr. Manuel Alonso
Dr. Amir Shahar
Dr. Patrick Phillips
Dr. Bryan Ardis
Dr. Franc Zalewski
Dr. Daniel Griffin
Dr. Zandra Botha
Dr. Rochagné Kilian
Dr. Joseph Mercola
Dr. James Lyons-Weiler
Dr. Henry Ealy
Dr. Jay Bhattacharya
Dr. Michael Palmer
Dr. Eddy Bettermann MD
Dr. Harvey Risch
Dr. Steven Hotze
Dr. Dan Stock
Dr. Sam Duby
Dr. Francis Christian
Dr. Chris Milburn
Dr. John Carpay
Dr. Richard Fleming
Dr. Gina Gold
Dr. Kevin Corbett
Dr. Michael Mcdowell
Dr. John Witcher
Dr. Jim Meehan
Dr. Chris Shaw
Dr. Anne McCloskey
Dr. Reiner Fuellmich
Dr. Christiana Parks
Dr. Robert Young
Dr. Amandha Vollmer
Dr. Judy Wilyman
Dr. Michael McConville
Dr. Stella Immanuel
Dr. James Nellenschwander
Dr. Julie Ponesse
Dr. Sucharit Bhakdi
Dr. Paul Cottrell
Dr. Lee Merritt
Dr. Rochagne Killian
Dr. Larry Palevsky
Dr. Natalia Prego Cancelo
Dr. Hilde de Smet
Dr. Elizabeth Evans
Dr. Brian Hooker
Dr. Joel Hirschhorn
Dr. R. Zac Cox
Dr. Mohammed Adil
Dr. Ralph ER Sundberg
Dr. Johan Denis
Dr. Daniel Cullum
Dr. Anne Fierlafijin
Dr. Kevin Corbett
Dr. Pior Rubis
Dr. Pascal Sacre
Dr. Nicole Delepine
Dr. Lorraine Day
Dr. Yoav Yehezkelli
Dr. Nour De San
Dr. Kelly Brogan
Dr. Hervé Seligmann
Dr. Annie Bukacek
Dr. Mark Brody
Dr. Steven LaTulippe
Dr. Mark Trozzi
Dr. Scott Jensen
Dr. Byram W. Bridle
Dr. Andrew Wakefield
Dr. Larry Palevsky
Dr. Tom Cowan
Dr. Dan Erickson
Dr. James Todaro
Dr. Joe Lapado
Dr. Richard Bartlett
Dr. Ben Edwards
Dr. Pierre Kory
Dr. Heather Gessling
Dr. Bryan Tyson
Dr. Richard Urso
Dr. John Littell
Dr. Scott Jensen
Dr. Ben Carson
Dr. Peter Schirmacher
Dr. Zandra Botha
Dr. Pamela Popper
Dr. Tom Barnett
Dr. Theresa Long
Dr. Nancy Burks
Dr. Russel Blaylock
Dr. Shiv Chopra
Dr. Suzanne Humphries
Dr. Tori Bark
Dr. Meryl Nass
Dr. Raymond Obamsawin
Dr. Ghislaine Lanctot
Dr. Robert Rowen
Dr. David Ayoub
Dr. Boyd Hailey
Dr. Roby Mitchell
Dr. Ken Stoller
Dr. Mayer Eiesenstien
Dr. Frank Engley
Dr. David Davis
Dr. Tetyana Obukhanych
Dr. Harold Butram
Dr. Kelly Brogan
Dr. RC Tent
Dr. Rebecca Carley
Dr. Andrew Moulden
Dr. Jack Wolfson
Dr. Michael Elice
Dr. Terry Wahls
Dr. Paul Thomas
Dr. Stephanie Seneff
Dr. Richard Moskowitz
Dr. Jane Orient
Dr. Richard Deth
Dr. Lucija Tomljenovic
Dr. Chris Shaw
Dr. Susan McCreadie
Dr. May Ann Block
Dr. David Brownstein
Dr. Jayne Donegan
Dr. Troy Ross
Dr. Phillip Incao
Dr. Robert Mendelson
Dr. Theressa Deisher
Dr. Sam Eggertsen
Dr. Peter Doshi
Dr. Shankara Chetty
Dr. Elizabeth Eads
Dr. Kurt Malhom
Dr. Carolyn Bosack
Dr. Heiko Shoning
Dr. Aseem Malhotra
Dr. Patricia Lee
Dr. Daniel Nagase
Dr. Mobeen Syed
Dr. Bruce Patterson
Dr. Randi Juanta
Dr. Phillip McMillan
Dr. Peter Gotzche
Dr. Kurt Malholm
Dr. Sam Sigoloff
Dr. Suzanne Humphries
Dr. Ariyana Love
Dr. Pierre Gilbert
Dr. Nathan Thompson
Dr. Scott Youngblood
Dr. Peterson Pierre
Dr. Darell Wolfe


[1] 2022 Jul 31 wordpress cathyfoxblog Covid Resources 1 – Mask Madness

[1a] 2022 Jul 31 substack cathyfoxblog Covid Resources 1 – Mask Madness (omitting photo and meme galleries)

[2] 2022 Aug 2 Covid Resources 2 – Doctors and Other Specialists

[2a] 2022 Aug 2 substack Covid Resources 2 – Doctors and Other Specialists

[31b] 2022 Feb 15 cathyfoxblog Dr David Martin “Canada Gets Kickback” Factcheck

[30d] 2021 Dec 5 The Monster that Devours its own Children

[34a] 2021 Sept 18 cathyfoxblog Funeral Director John O’Looney Blows the Whistle on Covid

[34b] 2022 Jan 5 cathyfoxblog Funeral Director Covid Whistleblower Rescued from Hospital

[34c] 2022 Jan 25 cathyfoxblog John O’Looney, Whistleblower Funeral Director Update

[8] 2022 Mar 9 cathyfoxblog Ivermectin Lies, Big Pharma Pawns, Traitors to Mankind

[9] Whale Mockingbird

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Covid Resources 1 – Mask Madness

Mask Articles, Memes, Photos and some vids clips

There is no doubt the authoritarian, psychopathic and tyrannical control freaks have not given up on trying to control us. Masks are one of the weapons that they get us to use on ourselves to perpetuate fear with a highly visible symbol as well as to show peoples submission to their propaganda.

We must be prepared and we must act globally to help whichever country or people the criminal cabal is attacking next time. Although there is a lull at this time in England it is a good time to prepare information and resources so that we can fight back. Here are some articles on masks as well as many mask memes and photos for when they try… Looking back at some of the photos it’s a reminder of the absolute lunacy that we allowed them to dictate to us. We must kick back harder this next time.

I have roughly sorted the links so the first few are those that list or will lead to many more articles. The next set are children – its imperative that they do not normalise their lunacy on children. Then some more mask articles. Then follow a couple of hundred mask memes and photos, many absurd!

Feel free to put other useful links in the comments


Masks for Children

Other Articles

Videos/ Clips – Click on photo, video will open in new tab

Flip Flop Fauci lies again…

Children in Masks

More children in masks